#1546 Smart Bites: Fuel, Function, and Food Lies

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Scott Benner 0:00
Hello friends and welcome back to another episode of The Juicebox Podcast.

Welcome to my nutrition series with Jenny Smith. Jenny and I are going to in very clear and easy to understand ways walk you from basic through intermediate and into advanced. Nutritional ideas, we're going to tie it all together with type one diabetes. Talk about processed foods and how you can share these simple concepts with the people in your life, whether it's your children, other adults or even seniors, besides being the person you've heard on the bold beginnings and Pro Tip series and so much more, Jennifer Smith is a person living with type one diabetes for over 35 years. She actually holds a bachelor's degree in Human Nutrition and biology from the University of Wisconsin. She's a registered and licensed dietitian, a certified diabetes educator. She's a trainer on all kinds of pumps and CGM. She's my friend, and I think you're going to enjoy her thoughts on better eating. If this is your first time listening to the Juicebox Podcast and you'd like to hear more, download Apple podcasts or Spotify, really, any audio app at all, look for the Juicebox Podcast and follow or subscribe. We put out new content every day that you'll enjoy. Want to learn more about your diabetes management. Go to Juicebox podcast.com up in the menu and look for bold Beginnings The Diabetes Pro Tip series and much more. This podcast is full of collections and series of information that will help you to live better with insulin. Nothing you hear on the Juicebox Podcast should be considered advice medical or otherwise, always consult a physician before making any changes to your healthcare plan. Today's episode of The Juicebox Podcast is sponsored by the ever since 365 you can experience the ever since 365 CGM system for as low as $199 for a full year visit ever since cgm.com/juicebox for more details and eligibility. This episode of The Juicebox Podcast is sponsored by Medtronic diabetes and their mini med 780 G system designed to help ease the burden of diabetes management, imagine fewer worries about Miss boluses or miscalculated carbs thanks to meal detection technology and automatic correction doses. Learn more and get started today at Medtronic diabetes.com/juicebox Jenny, we are back talking about everyone's favorite topic, nutrition,

Jennifer Smith, CDE 2:42
it's my favorite. Well, it's one of my favorites. I have any favorite topics, but nutrition, we're

Scott Benner 2:47
onto our second part here. We broke the first module up into two episodes. But the second module we're gonna call intermediate nutrition. This is for ages eight and up, teenagers, adults seeking to expand their knowledge. And again, I'm just going to let you talk, so you jump in Absolutely.

Jennifer Smith, CDE 3:03
So I like how we've kind of broken these up, mainly because it gives a base to start with. That's my goal. Is a base to start and then build on the base, right? So now that we understand those big macronutrients and kind of a general idea of why to eat all the different foods, from vitamins, minerals, water, fiber, kind of standpoint, a big question that always comes up when I get to talk to people, is okay, but I'm eating all of these things, right? I'm eating all of the different food groups, and I need to understand, or I believe that they need to understand, how much of it do you need to take in, right? So just because you have, let's say, a balance you don't, maybe need three of the burgers and four salads. Does that make sense? It's like, Great, I'm eating really good food. Or, baby, you're not eating great food. But it's, it's quantity, I guess, is the base. The baseline here is, how much is going in, and how much is your body using, and where is that use going? Because there are two different reasons that we take in food. Do you know the two reasons?

Scott Benner 4:13
Point I'm going to say energy and like carbohydrates, energy, and then like building blocks, like nutritional building blocks, the I'm definitely, I'm not right about this close. I think you're kind of skirting, okay. I don't have the words, maybe, right, your

Jennifer Smith, CDE 4:32
your explanation is kind of what I'm getting at. It's the what we take in has kind of two purposes, energy to kind of fuel everything that we need to do in a day, inclusive of adding exercise and all that. But then the other piece, you said building blocks, and I think of it more as what's the baseline of what our body needs in order to just function if we seriously were just sitting on a couch all day long? Yeah, and this is the big term. It's called BMR, or basal metabolic rate. Essentially, it's kind of how much our body just needs at rest in order to fuel, you know, the lungs to do what they do, and the heart to pump. And, you know, just structural changes, basic functions, right? All of the cells to turn over the right way, etc. So I think you had a gist of halfway there. You're kind of there, by the

Scott Benner 5:28
way, the thing you were talking about a second ago, about, like, you know, you need something that's good for you, but you can eat too much of it. You can also, I think, have too little, right? Like, so you could say, like, oh, I have protein in my diet every day. But you might not as an example, like you're you might have some, but not enough and correct? Yeah, okay.

Jennifer Smith, CDE 5:45
In fact, I think you know, eons ago what we got away from understanding the overall concept of balance, and we focused a lot on carbohydrates, right? What was that like the 80s and 90s? If I'm remembering correctly, carbohydrates were get away from fat. Fat is horrible. It's the evil thing. So let's eat carbohydrates. And so then we had all these foods that were very maximally processed, but they were carbohydrates, so they must be grateful. You

Scott Benner 6:16
must see this argument online, right? Like somebody says, I think I'm going to try a lower carb diet, and it will only take eight seconds for someone to say, your kids can't grow without carbs. And then I'm like, I think that everybody has a point, and nobody understands it well enough to articulate it to each other. Did you feel like that when you watch that conversation? I

Jennifer Smith, CDE 6:36
do absolutely. And I think is you were bringing up. You said, you know, we might be eating, but we might not be eating enough of something. And you said, protein. And if there is something that I think is, I guess it's under explained, or the emphasis isn't quite in the right place, is that overall protein is something that I think a lot of people are coming to understand, to focus on, especially those in the much lower carb world. But then they get, you know, sort of slapped in the face, like, no, no, no, you have to have carbohydrates too. And like you said, the conversation sort of just continues to go back and forth and back and forth without real explanation.

Scott Benner 7:14
Exactly it's surface. Each of them has a point. I don't think they have all the information, which I guess is why we're here. So you two reasons that we're eating caloric intake and versus expenditure. Wait, so yeah, calories

Jennifer Smith, CDE 7:28
can be kind of broken into those two places, right? Like you said, it's what we need to expend because our body is moving and functioning what we call activities of daily life, right? We have to get up and do the groceries or the laundry, or we have to get to work, or we want to exercise at the gym, or whatever that is extra on top of just that baseline, that BMR, basal metabolic rate, what our body needs to breathe, think, digest, et cetera. So when we take the food into our body, I think that's another place that is absolutely not taught, and I wish that it was, is when we put food in our mouth, like, what ends up happening to it once it goes in, it turns

Scott Benner 8:11
into poop, probably something else in between. You're

Speaker 1 8:14
saying totally something that my second Creator would have said, Well, Mom, we have

Scott Benner 8:18
to tell you. I think a lot of people just thought that, like, oh, I eat it and it comes out as poop, and then body does things. I think we need to understand what's happening between mouth and poop, right,

Jennifer Smith, CDE 8:29
right, yeah. And, I mean, I'm certainly chemistry, biochemistry, all of those types of things. You could have a very deep in depth, 24 hour conversation about all of the different systems and how they work. But really we put food in our mouth. We have a quick eating habit in today's world, and our mouth is the first place that digestion starts. And I don't think most people think about that or realize it, but because we've gotten so busy school lunches, even when I talk about kids, they have maybe 10 to 12 minutes to actually eat their food, and then they're off to the next thing that they do. But what is that teaching from an early age? It's shove the food in, maybe chew twice, swallow, and then digestion kind of gets all disrupted. We should actually be chewing the food in our mouth for a minimum of about 15 to 20 chews per bite.

Scott Benner 9:23
This is why my grandmother would say that all the time, chew your food, chew your food, chew

Jennifer Smith, CDE 9:27
your food. She's probably worried that you're going to choke up. She's

Scott Benner 9:31
like, this kid looks like an idiot. I think he's going to choke.

Jennifer Smith, CDE 9:36
There are a whole bunch of different things that happen in the mouth. I mean, within the saliva, there are enzymes that actually start to break down certain nutrients in the food that we're eating, so that by the time it gets down your esophagus into your stomach, your stomach doesn't have to do as much work. The process has already begun, and then the stomach churns things up, and other things get added into the mix. And then. Moves into the small intestine is the next place that food kind of moves, and that's where a lot of really good absorption takes place. Of what we're supposed to be getting out of the food, which are those nutrients that we initially talked about, right? Not only are we hoping to get the big nutrients, but we're also looking for those small ones, your vitamins, your minerals, fiber is huge in your intestines. It helps to move things through, or move things through clump with them, and then, as you said, so lovely, it turns into poop, and then we eliminate it.

Scott Benner 10:32
Listen, if you're lucky, some people get constipated, and then they don't feel good. And I wonder about this stuff all the time. I know about as much as I know, which is to say, not a lot. I know how my body functions, like, right? Like, I know that if I eat fewer processed things, you feel better, and the end result comes out nicer. I just want to say it like that. So that must mean that something in between is working more properly, correct, right? Yeah. Like, there's a difference between dropping the kids off at the pool and throwing them out of the car and crying while it's happening. I think that happens. I don't just everyone know the term drop the kids off at the pool for going poop.

Unknown Speaker 11:13
I mean, I made the association only because that's what we were talking about. No

Scott Benner 11:16
one's ever said to you, I gotta go drop the kids off the pool and then disappear for 10 minutes. Nope. No. No, okay.

Speaker 1 11:21
Have never, ever heard that. Now, I've learned something. I don't know if you've learned

Scott Benner 11:25
anything valuable. What I'm saying is that, like, no kidding, there's a reason that there's 1000 charts online that explain to you what your poop supposed to look like, correct. I think that there's a disconnect between what goes in our mouth and what comes out the other side, and, more importantly, what happens in between. And that's really, yeah, where the value is for you. So

Jennifer Smith, CDE 11:45
I mean, the number of people that I get to talk to, and you probably have heard from or conversed with, you know, within your online community, it really is, my question to a lot of people is always like, how are you going to the bathroom, especially the women in pregnancy that I work with, right? How are you going to the bathroom is, it's an odd kind of conversation to have when you think that you're here to talk about diabetes, but when we know that with type one diabetes, especially gut health, is something that pushes us into sort of our immune health, right? Yeah, then we also have to be very aware of, well, maybe what I'm putting in my mouth either isn't the right combination of things, it's not the right quantity of things to fuel my body or do what needs to be done, or maybe it's not the right stuff for me, or maybe I just need to clean up my intake, because you know that about 70% of your immune function lies in your gut? Yes, that is a lot of your immune system function.

Scott Benner 12:45
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Jennifer Smith, CDE 15:12
Very much. And I think along with it, which I hate the term, but I think in terms of explanation, it does explain a lot. Is leaky gut, right? Right? It's a horrible way to explain any type of gut dysfunction, because it really doesn't explain anything outside of like a leaky faucet. Kind of effect is what I always think of it like. But right? Our digestive system is supposed to be a really nice tight allow this in, allow that to go out really contain things and then poop out what's not supposed to be there, essentially. But we know that with diabetes, there is a lot of gut function testing research that has been done, and we know that there is some disrupted absorption and gut function in those who have especially type one diabetes, what it boils down to is finding the right foods the better quality, nutrient dense types of things to put in, one to make sure that you're not irritating your gut more than it might be, and to allow it to try to do what it's supposed to do for us, which is Keep the good stuff being put into our body that's supposed to be there, and getting rid of the stuff that's not supposed to be there. And

Scott Benner 16:26
if this is boring you as you're listening, just eat real good food there. It's tough because you're trying to explain why. So I think that people don't understand, generally speaking, why that's important. I think there are some people also don't understand, like, well, I'm buying food at the food store, like, it's food. Yes, I'm eating food. Like, what do you want from me? And then, of course, the problem is that when you start talking about eating, well, you start saying things to people like, eat fiber, rich foods include some fermented foods like yogurt or sauerkraut or, you know, for your probiotics. And then people are like, Oh, that doesn't taste like sour cream and onion potato chips. No,

Speaker 1 16:59
it's not going to that doesn't sound like fun at all. And it goes back to what we talked about last time, which is that

Jennifer Smith, CDE 17:05
the manufacturing companies have gotten so good at tricking your taste buds, which then essentially tricks your brain into becoming it's like an addiction, yeah? No, no, it really is. I

Scott Benner 17:19
would draw a direct line between how your phone has you captured and how food has you captured? Yes, it's somebody who went into a laboratory and was like, I'm gonna turn a dial here. I'm gonna stick a needle in this. I'm gonna move this over here a little bit, and I'm gonna make it so this person's meat bag cannot resist the thing. I'm gonna give it to them 100% Yeah, right. They've tricked you into scrolling, and they've now, I sound like the hippie Jenny, but like they've tricked you into scrolling and they've tricked you into how you eat. And it's sucks, because the back end of it, literally and figuratively, is you're not pooping the way you should be, and everything that's going through you is not great. Also, I'll draw a line between sitting and scrolling and not pooping well, but that's another time, because if you're not moving. Like, what did you say to me before we started Rick, we talked about, before we started recording, that I had a knee surgery, and Jenny was like, just keep exercising. Build the muscles around the knee. The muscles will support the knee. Those similar muscles, smooth muscles, are how that food gets through you and comes out the other side, right? So if you're painting your toilet, it might be because, yes, no, that's 100%

Jennifer Smith, CDE 18:24
correct. It really is, I mean, and if you as another consideration here, in terms of gut health and overall caloric intake, what your body truly needs in general, and then where there is overage that's not really needed, at least not on an ongoing basis. It's Apples are good for you. Broccoli is awesome for you. Spinach is fabulous for you, right? Like, but I guarantee you're not going to sit down to whatever those big buckets of salad greens are, and you're not going to eat the whole thing, right? Whereas you could probably sit down to that favorite bag of nacho cheese flavor, non name, branded chip that I won't say, they

Scott Benner 19:09
just came out with another color, by the way. Is it blue or purple? This, I think it's green. Now they have purple and blue and red, and there's orange, and I think there's a green one. Now, anyway, go ahead anyway.

Jennifer Smith, CDE 19:20
You could sit down to that whole bag and you could finish it. And do you know what's propelling you to finish it? It's the trick that your brain has now received from your taste buds, grab another. Grab another, get another. And then by the time you're done, you know you shouldn't have eaten that whole bag. You can tell you can feel it, but you wouldn't feel that way. If you even ate three plates worth of salad. You'd be like, Oh, nope, can't eat more salad. I just cannot eat more salad because somebody

Scott Benner 19:53
didn't sprinkle something on the salad. That just makes you the eating version of scrolling, which is like, Oh, I can't stop doing this. This is all. Awesome,

Jennifer Smith, CDE 20:00
and eventually it cleans things when you start moving to cleaning things up, and you may not do it all at one time, or maybe that's your personality, and that's the way that you have to do it, right. But it's like the sugar addiction, the whole concept of getting rid of sugar in your diet, meaning not from a kiwi, but from Sweet Tarts, let's say right is, once you break what is a true sugar addiction, you will no longer crave it. Yeah, and the craving is what draws people and it out steps what your body is telling you need in caloric value. Sure,

Scott Benner 20:41
like, it's no different than like a drug dealer might say, like, hey, Here, try this. And then your body goes, woo. And then you get into a position where you're like, I'll do anything, by the way, if you want to be insulted and give yourself a reason to stop eating this stuff that's not health related. Somehow, over the last two years, they've decided that eight ounces of those chips are worth $10 Oh, I know. I mean, a bag of chips is like, eight, nine bucks. Now in some time, you know what I mean, and like, so the game that gets played right is throughout the winter, when you're sitting around, the chips are super expensive, and then in the summertime, they'll put them on sale, you'll consume the crap out of them, and then you'll stop moving during the summertime, and then you'll be willing to pay $9 a bag for them again, be insulted by that, is what I'm saying. And like, stop eating them, just to say to them, Hey, you. I'm not doing this right. Listen, when I caught my little brother smoking right when we were kids, I said, stop for your health. But if you can't stop for your health, I'd stop, because somewhere in a boardroom, 10 millionaires are laughing at you for smoking these cigarettes. 100% you know, just get angry about that and find a way to help yourself right? Because I know you're you're caught now by it, you know what I mean you are. And

Jennifer Smith, CDE 21:54
I think this also begs a little bit of a cleanup consideration too, in Well, I'm not buying that name brand one anymore, because I understand, gosh, the ingredients. I can't even read them. So now I'm going to go to the bag of chips that I can read the ingredients. They're organic, and, you know, they don't have yucky oils in them or whatever. But it's still a bag of chips, right? So you may have cleaned up the ingredients, meaning, nutrient wise, you're probably getting more than you were from the name branded. I don't care what I put in here, as long as the flavor is, right, you're getting more, but you still don't need to sit down to that whole bag. Yeah. So just as a whole concept, right? The process nature of things that don't look any longer like the banana or the Apple or the broccoli are processed.

Scott Benner 22:44
So eliminate as much processed food from your diet as possible. Correct? And oils that aren't like, I mean, I would only use a cold pressed olive oil in the house like I don't have any other oil at this point. I That's not fair. I have coconut oil to make popcorn with,

Jennifer Smith, CDE 23:00
but coconut oil, avocado oil, the olive oil are quality that are not going to be disruptive in the body, because they're the body knows what to do with them, right? If we break it down into the seed oils, and especially the nasty one, canola oil, right? We're looking at, I heard this comment the other day on another thing I was reading through. But it's really like, how far from the actual, let's call it food, has the oil come and when we start looking at some of the ones that we should definitely not be including in our intake, it's definitely the ones you know canola oil is. It's so processed that

Scott Benner 23:42
it's rapeseed oil, right? Is that? Right? So it's rapeseed.

Jennifer Smith, CDE 23:45
And then what they do is they process it into this form that gets really, like, sticky and like, goopy, like you wouldn't even be able to pour it's gross. And then essentially, what they do is they process that to make it more liquid. But what ends up happening at the end of that is it causes this, now, oil to become rancid. Well, we know what rancid. Rancid is not something you eat, right? It's not something you could smell or be able to even put in your body. And then after that, what you end up having to do is process it further with a whole bunch of extra chemicals in order to get it palatable. You know, it's the reason that, like when you go and you buy your coconut oil, like I buy a nice brand, that you can definitely tell the differences in it, even jar to jar. Even olive oils, you can tell the difference. This is where the region is. Is it Spanish olives? Is it, you know, Italian, where did it come and they all have that slight difference and nuance to it, whereas when you look at the aisle of oil, which is quite big the grocery store, no matter where it came from, they all look the same.

Scott Benner 24:56
In the late 19th and 20th centuries, rapeseed oil was. Prized for its high temperature stability and lubricating properties. It was used to grease steam engines and as an Industrial Lubricant. Traditional rapeseed oil contained high levels of uric acid, which in large amounts, was found to be harmful to health. In the 1970s Canadian plant breeders developed low uric acid rapeseed varieties named canola. It comes from the idea of the wording, Canadian oil, low acid. That's where you get the word, oh, look at that. Can o, so, C, A, N, Canada O, oil, low acid. La, the new canola oil retained the flavorable cooking and healthy attributes, high in monosat, monosaturated fats, and low in saturated fats, while being safe and palatable for human consumption. Imagine that I describe my food to you as safe and palatable, and you're like, Oh, awesome. So keeping in mind that it's, you know, obviously it's been tested, and they're like, it's not going to hurt people enough for us to say no to this. Keep in mind that there's also a level of rat hairs per million that is allowed to be in peanut butter or cinnamon. The action level of cinnamon is 11 rodent hairs per 50 grams, ground off spice is allowed to have one rodent hair per 10 grams. Crushed oregano, two rodent hairs per 10 grams, and an average of one or more rodent hairs per 100 grams of peanut butter is allowed. So my point is, is that just because it's not going to kill you doesn't mean it's something you really super want. And we are doing this all day. Like, just walk down the grocery store and look around and say, I'm not buying what Jenny's telling me to eat, right? Like, we sprinkle a couple of bananas and an apple in the house and everything. And then what happens? Like, sometimes people eat them, and sometimes you toss them out. Nobody even touches them, right? Or we'll over, steam some broccoli and throw it next to food and go, here you should have some vegetables, but you're saying you should be eating from that. And we should maybe be going back to when I was a kid to like, you know, when I went to school, I got this little bag. I remember clearly it being 1.34 ounces of potato chips, like it was this little, tiny bag that my mom would toss in. It was like a treat, sure I didn't go home and there was another bag of potato chips and another one and another one. So Right? They gave you a little and then they gave you a whole bunch more, and it's killing you, or at least hurting your life, you know, in some way, probably shortening it, or maybe just making it more difficult. Or listen, maybe you just in the bathroom, like talking to Jesus, someone set you up, and now you're part of their money program. They're making. They're taking your money and making you less healthy. Yeah, and

Jennifer Smith, CDE 27:40
you can, I mean, as you said, going down like the grocery aisles, you can easily not buy probably 97% I wouldn't go that far with the produce and that kind of stuff. I don't know the percent that you could get rid of, but in the package dials, specifically, yeah, you could get rid of the majority of what you purchase by just turning it over, looking at the ingredients and saying, You know what? Out of all of the rest of the stuff that I can't even read, if it has canola oil, I'm not going to buy it, right? And if that transforms you into buying the stuff that's still a snack food, like another chip, but it's made with avocado oil or coconut oil, I would smile at you, at least making that transition right now. That's not without, as you brought up before a cost, you think a bag of the regular stuff is expensive. You look at the stuff that now doesn't have all of those things that are now big name made and so lower cost. You go to the other stuff, and it's it's definitely more expensive, right?

Scott Benner 28:37
So even in the case of, like, the tortilla chips that you brought up earlier, like there is a healthier version of tortilla chips you could buy, but they have to charge you more for it, because not that many people are buying it because it doesn't taste like heroin on a potato chip. They have to charge more to make it like it's

Jennifer Smith, CDE 28:53
and it's not as easily processed type of oil as you're gonna get with again, I'm using a broad sense, canola oil or the likes of that, right? So we have lower cost, not anywhere near nutrient quality, food that contains these low cost ingredients. So if, even if that strikes you, well, goodness, you know, like low cost ingredients did that. I mean, it sounds like you're being told to eat, like out of a trough, instead of eating at the table with

Scott Benner 29:23
that right? It's cheaper to make food in oil that also does a great job at lubricating steam engines, apparently, than it is to make it in I said cold pressed olive oil earlier, because, and trust me, I don't have all the details of this, but when you when they press the olives and turn it into oil. It would be easier to press it and while you heat it, but when you heat it, it actually physically changes the oil, and it's not as healthy for you, which is why I changes the chemical structure. I buy a cold pressed olive oil only. And if you've been listening to the podcast long enough, I've been on a journey, obviously, but the first place. Place I made a change in my life was with oil. Like that was the first place I changed. I was like, I'm not gonna eat anything that isn't cold pressed olive oil. And again, there's coconut oil in the house that we literally only use to make popcorn with, sure, right? And so I got rid of canola, vegetable, grapes, any other oil is in the house that I thought. I used to think canola oil was super healthy because it didn't have as much. What was the fat that they told us was bad for us? Oh, it was low in saturated fats, or something like that, saturated, right? Yeah, okay. And so I was like, Oh, well, that must be better. And I grew up in a time like you, and I talked about this earlier. I grew up in a time where my mom was like, butter, bad for you. I'm gonna use whatever this grease is, margarine, margarine, yeah, 100% her whole life, somebody told her that was better. So through the 80s and the 90s, what she thought, right? I became an adult, and we had it in the house, and I said to my wife, I think butter is milk and salt. Maybe we should just go back to butter

Jennifer Smith, CDE 30:58
and use it in the right portion. Yeah, correct. I mean, when it what we kind of like boil it down into is, once you're paying closer attention to food versus what's pretending to be nutrient quality, calories, right? You also start to see that how often you're hungry through the course of the day. So we talk about, how much should we eat? We should also look at, how do we break that down through the course of the day? You know, you might have a breakfast and a lunch and a dinner, and if it's really quality, especially as an adult, you probably shouldn't be hungry in between meal times. Yeah, right. You shouldn't have this snack, snack, snack, snack, snack, snack. Sort of habit. Kids being a little bit different. Oftentimes kids will with just their metabolic turnover. And many kids are so busy these days with sport after sport after activity that they have a meal and then they need a little bit something in between. They have a meal and they need a little bit of something in between. And that may be fine, as long as what you're putting in then is actually fueling their true need. And it's not just because everybody else is getting a snack at the same time. There's a really big difference following the herd versus paying attention to what your body needs.

Scott Benner 32:12
Also, when you're that active and that young, you could eat a rock and your body could take care of it, you know what I mean, like, which you couldn't do. But I'm saying like, you can put some pretty crappy stuff in you, and it can look like it's going, Okay, I'm gonna say something that, God, I hope nobody hears, but which is a weird way to start on the podcast. But my kid played baseball since he was four, right up through college, right? So I know a lot of little boys who are now men, and I met a lot of men who are now older men. And if you want to see a group of people go to pot fast, it's formerly active people, because they were covering for a lot of their eating sins by how freaking active they were. And the minute that the activity went away and they were left with their eating style habits, yeah, and their habits, right? And the crack cocaine, like draw of of those chips and candy and any other thing that they would easily throw in their mouth for energy while we're playing or something like that. Those people degrade quickly. It's interesting how old they look all of a sudden, correct? Yeah, in their mid to late 20s, and

Jennifer Smith, CDE 33:23
it's the No, I mean, it leads to a good you know, even from a childhood perspective of metabolism, we have a very high incidence in this day and age, of kids who are given way too much caloric value, right? And I shouldn't say value, or value in terms of intake, they're taking in too much, even if they're active. If you look at a general population of kids on a sports field, or whatever, you would expect that because they're athletes, that none of them should be over the healthy weight that they should be at, right? That's not the case anymore, right? There are active kids who are out eating their activity, and their body weight shows it.

Scott Benner 34:07
Yeah, that's and that's an insane idea, like for a little kid who sleeps, gets up, goes to school, moves around at school, comes home, goes right to a practice, and they're still a surplus, I guess, of calories, unless you have a real medical issue like that should be able to say to you, like, wow, like, we're eating too much. Like, like, there's calorically, there's just too much happening.

Jennifer Smith, CDE 34:26
And it could also be the way that their body is using the calories. Maybe the calorie value isn't wrong, but maybe it's where the calories are coming from. You know, so many favorite shopping place that most people have in their neighborhood and will go to now has another very favorite coffee shop housed right inside of this store, right the lines that are at this place where you can get coffee and treat types of things. It always astounds me as I come in the line there to get something and then walk around with a. Drink or a snack while you're shopping? Yeah? To me, is, it's just very interesting again, having grown up kind of within the range of where you did, yeah,

Scott Benner 35:11
it's part of the experience now, like, I'm out, it's a Saturday or whatever, and I'm gonna wander around with my drink. I listen. You won't say it, but there's a Dunkin Donuts in my grocery store? Yeah, so Well, I was gonna say Starbucks, Starbucks. Sorry, my grocery store is not as fancy as yours. But I Yeah. I mean, I take your point like it's we're eating while we're shopping for food,

Jennifer Smith, CDE 35:32
or other things. Like, why would you need to eat while you're shopping for underwear or socks or, like, housewares? I don't understand the and it boy. What I was going to with this is the number of kids who are also walking around with drinks that are well over the size that they should be. Yeah, there is no value in the calories that they're taking in there. Liquid calories are not the way to go drink water. Yeah,

Scott Benner 36:00
I was at the store the other day picking up a couple of items, and I was going to my car, and there was an older woman loading heavy stuff into her car, and she was in her mid to late 60s, she was overweight, and she was struggling with what she was doing, So I stopped to help her, and I moved two cases of bottled water into the back of her vehicle, and then an amount of Coca Cola that I think I can't explain to you how much she had, that it was so much and different, like versions. She had cans, she had two liter bottles, she had little 16 ounces. She's got herself set up for in any walk of her life. She can have a coke in her hand, yeah, jumping in the car. I'll get one in a bottle around the house, but don't want it to be flat. I'll work from the can. Want to cut back on cost. You know, we're gonna drink a bunch of it all at once. I'll open up a two liter. She's got, like, I don't know, heroin, that she could smoke some, that she can inject, something that she could blah, blah, blah. And I was like, I was like, oh, gosh, and she's not a I talked to her, she was lovely, right?

Jennifer Smith, CDE 37:07
It has nothing to do with personality or who you are as a person, but these are choices that make an immense difference. Yeah.

Scott Benner 37:14
I mean, honestly, Jenny, if, if she had 48 cans of Diet Coke, probably 816, probably 50 of the like, 12 or 16 ounce bottles and eight two liter bottles. I don't like, I don't know, like, that's not a week's worth of soda or a month's worth of soda. It's,

Jennifer Smith, CDE 37:35
I think she visited my store on Saturday morning. Oh, you saw her there. I saw her too. I went to pick something up. Actually, it was a, was the big thing of salad creams, is what I went to pick up, because we were all out. So anyway, I went after yoga, and the woman in front of me, she must have been literally the same woman, probably about the same age. She had in her basket several bags of the chips that we were describing before, and then lining the outside. And underneath her cart were the, I think it was the eight packs of the bottles, yeah, of coke and Dr Pepper. And the woman checking her out just came around and scanned them all. She didn't even want her taking them off, because there were so many of them. And I was like again,

Scott Benner 38:20
and in 1978 when I was seven, I had a soda once in a while, but it wasn't as available as it was. And this is my point. Like, this is where commerce has gotten in the way of your health, because they got you hooked on it, and now they're giving you an unending supply of it, and it's affordable to you, obviously. I obviously, I mean, she didn't have trouble paying for it, so, like, like, she could afford it. It's hers, like, etc. And listen, if that's what you want to do, I'm not stopping you. I'm also not, like, a holier than male person, and I'll tell you too, that I understand the flavor profile having a hold of you, and I it is only in the last two years, you know. And I'm happy to say, like, from using a GLP medication to lose weight, that also impacts the kick you get from flavor. And I'm not lying like it was really helpful to have something jump into my brain and go, Hey, you're not going to enjoy this as much. Sure, I almost feel like a heroin user who's on Suboxone, like, you know, isn't that like the medication they give you? Like so that like, you don't,

Speaker 1 39:20
I don't know you're up on that. I'm not more information. But

Scott Benner 39:24
I was given something that just turned down the judge that I got from eating food, right? And that was really helpful in breaking connections to some of that food, of course. And so I was sitting there talking to her and helping her unload her car. I wasn't judging her. I just thought, like, oh, this poor lady, like, she probably started, like I did, like, oh, we have a coke on Saturdays with lunch, and then ramped it up and ramped it up and ramped it up till it's got a hold of her. And then they made it cheap for and now she's, she's addicted to it. I don't think there's another way around it, right?

Jennifer Smith, CDE 39:55
No, I think, and you said something, that is, honestly, the way that I. See it. I used to feel like I was judging. And that's not, that's not where this comes

Scott Benner 40:06
from. Yeah, I feel bad. I feel bad. And

Jennifer Smith, CDE 40:10
that was my reasoning for wanting to do something within this like nutrition series, is because the information is out there, only if you're willing to go to a billion sources to pick through it and get it and understand it and putting it together in one place. My hope is that I wish I could have talked to that woman, right? I wish I could have talked to her and just had a good conversation, and not from a judgment, but just an understanding like you. You're wondering what led her to having as much of that as she thought she actually needed. Right to be helpful is that's my angle. If

Scott Benner 40:47
you want to hear from the liberal side of me, I think somebody tricked her into that situation. I think for money, I you know, somebody at a business somewhere decided, if we make this a little more flavorful, a little more zesty, people eat a little more we'll put a little more. We'll put a little more salt in it. We'll put a little more fat in it. We'll get them going, like, you know, and then we'll, we'll give them more. We'll make the bags bigger then. And then, you know what? Then we'll put the price up and make the bag smaller. And then, in my mind, there is no difference between her with that soda and somebody somewhere who's struggling with an addiction to literally, like, the heroin or cocaine or something like that. Like somebody was like, Here, have a little bit. And then right, your brain lights up, and they go, you want more. You want more. Oh, now it's expensive, right? I don't see the difference. Like, I really don't like, so

Jennifer Smith, CDE 41:30
there isn't a difference in putting it together like that. Sometimes that jogs somebody to say, Oh, I see now. I see how I've been tricked into thinking that this was actually nourishment for my body, when really it's just calorie value that I'm putting in. And from a again, going back to like the kid perspective, when you look at how much kids need, from an activity standpoint, their caloric needs could be very high, but what we put in as those calories can also make a difference in what their body does with it. Does it? Storm of it, more of it, right? I mean, things like fructose that comes not from not naturally, like we find it in fruits, but fructose that's actually been processed and broken down, and our body doesn't actually use it the right way. It's more prone to packing it away and storing it. And then we have kids who, again, they get addicted to a flavor. Mom and Dad unknowingly purchase it, because, hey, at least Charlie will, you know, eat this. And so then it keeps coming in, and you don't see the damage until they get to be 30 plus years old. No

Scott Benner 42:32
one is doing it on purpose. Like, look and look at me. I'm 50. Listen, I am 53 and Jenny, you we've known each other a long time now. Like, I'm a different person today than I was two years ago, right? Yeah, right. It's not like I was just like, oh, I figured it out. Like, I figured out very, very slowly over a long that idea of, like, don't eat oils that was, like, eight years ago. I was like, Oh, maybe I should cut oil up because, and we talked about this before we started. So I'll bring it up here, because I think it'll help us, like, button this up. Sure my mom was not trying to hurt me. Okay, no, but I told Jenny before we started that, because she brought up Velveeta cheese.

Speaker 1 43:08
Okay, I was like, is it still even on the market? I don't even, I don't even know how we got on

Scott Benner 43:12
it by Velveeta cheese. Yeah. And so for those of you who don't know what it is, I have, like, a very pleasant memory of a cardboard box that was probably about nine inches or a foot long, and probably four inches square, and inside of it, there was a foil thing, and it sell Velveeta across it, and you unfolded it, and then took a cheese slicer and took hunks of cheese off of it. It was not cheese. It was, what do they call it? Cheese

Speaker 1 43:41
food. Cheese food, which makes it even better. Like, food, you're putting it in there like, well, it must be food. It's

Scott Benner 43:47
cheese food, like at the at the movie theater, look at the theater that it's called buttery, flavored butter. I forget how they put it at a movie theater, but they can't call it butter because it's not butter, not buttery flavored something. But anyway, so in my life, Wonder Bread, so white bread, the bread most devoid of any value for you at all, I was given endless access to wonder bread, oil that wasn't butter and Velveeta. If I was being treated very well, they would butter the bread like put it on a pan and melt the Velveeta inside of it and give me a grilled cheese sandwich. But if no one had time for that highfalutin cooking, then what I would get was the styrofoam bread with the oil schmutz with the Velveeta inside, pressed together. And then I was explaining to Jenny that I can right now feel my teeth going through the soft bread into the oil and then breaking off the cheese food, and then it all swishing around in my mouth and me going, I love this. Yes, yeah, this is the best thing that's ever happened to me, because

Jennifer Smith, CDE 44:51
even at that point, the companies had figured out how to hit your taste buds,

Scott Benner 44:55
right, right? Bread, the bread is soft. You. So, and my mom is completely sure that the grease that she bought instead of butter is better for us because it doesn't have low it's low in saturated fats, and then the cheese, cheese cow, come on, like, right? So I'm eating nothing real, correct? And it took, I'm telling you, it me up. Yeah. I am not a person who pooped great. As a person like, for life, I was holding weight, even though I wasn't taking in a bunch of food, like, right? This is a struggle for me. I might live a shorter time because of Velveeta and the other things like that. That my mom was like, this is food, right? And now, today, as an adult, I still have those textural things, like, right, like I bite into something and I want it to feel a certain way in my mouth, like, right? I want it to like, Baba. And I'm telling you, God bless the good people at Novo Nordisk and Eli Lilly has, I don't know what's in that juice,

Jennifer Smith, CDE 45:55
but it has done something to change your brain to think, well, now broccoli, I can change

Scott Benner 46:00
my whole life seriously, like, I'm gonna live longer because that. I'm sure I'm gonna grow a tail 10 years from now, and it'll, it'll actually say, like, ozempic on it, or something like that, like, but it'll be like, a marketing ploy. But I'll tell you, I mean, what am I gonna do? Jay, right

Jennifer Smith, CDE 46:13
now, you feel better. You can make better choices, and you almost have not that this is about those men. But over and over I hear the ability to choose wiser, because the sound that comes the inviting, I guess, nature. Voice, yeah, food. Voice, right. It's not there for like. You can bypass that Starbucks now and just do your trip at whatever shopping center you're at because you're actually you're not encouraged any longer to grab something without really desiring it.

Scott Benner 46:48
If you gave me a Velveeta sandwich right now, I'd be like, Is this a joke? And I would drop it in the garbage. But, and it's not my point, by the way, if you're eating Velveeta, I understand well, my point is this, now is the time like if you're the parents of young kids, or you're, you know, a younger person listening to this, like, you don't need to be me when you're 50, like, you could end up being Jenny, who somebody gave like, I don't know, Jenny eats flowers or something. I don't know what she does, but she's, I'm looking at her right now. She's 12 years old, and you look like you could run across the country if you decided to, like, if you just grabbed your shoes and a coat, you'd be like, Hey, I think I could just run to California. Now. I'll just be forrescu. Yeah, no, I 1,000,000% believe you could do that. By the way. Everything you need to know is, I asked Jenny one day, when you go on a car trip and you stop for gas, you don't go in and get food, and she goes, No. And I was like, how do you eat? And she's just incredibly goes to me, I bring food with me. And I was like, oh, oh, that makes sense. I was like, you've never had a Mars bar on the highway. And she's like, What are you talking about? You don't need to be Jenny, but you could make some better decisions. And by the way, all of this would help you with diabetes, right? Like, with managing insulin and all like the problems you're having. Like, listen, I am proud. I'm not gonna lie to you. I am proud to teach people how to use insulin because, and I just heard myself say this on the podcast this morning, if you're not eating in a healthy way, right, I hope that you can find a way to that, whatever that way is, but if you can't, you don't deserve to be eating in a less healthy way and have crazy blood sugars, like I am here to teach you how to use your insulin and you go apply it to the life that you choose to live. This here is us trying to say, like you could choose some things that would

Jennifer Smith, CDE 48:34
be easier and better would improve Exactly. Yeah,

Scott Benner 48:38
that's all. What did we not do off of your list today that we need to finish this. I think

Jennifer Smith, CDE 48:41
the only other one that we would need to kind of move back into was the idea of exploring, kind of some of the special diets. And the reason I included it here was mainly because of some of the concepts we've already touched on. So I think next time we can add that into more advanced nutrition discussion, okay,

Scott Benner 49:02
all right, awesome. Thank you. I kept you long. I apologize this way. Yeah, hold on one second.

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Scott Benner 0:00
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Raylyn 0:14
My name is Ray Lynn. I am the mother of a kiddo with type one

Scott Benner 0:19
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Raylyn 2:22
My name is Raelynn. I am the mother of a kiddo with type one. Awesome. It's

Scott Benner 2:27
nice to meet you. Nice to meet you. Raylan, you have a fairly comprehensive list of things that you wanted to talk about here. We might have to start our own podcast, oh my gosh, and talk weekly to get through this. But

Raylyn 2:41
I know, apparently, like, I thought about this for a while, so when, like, you asked for people, I started to be like, No. And I was like, yeah. And so I just, like, followed my impulse. But we could talk about whatever you want about, or we could talk about none of it. Yeah, you

Scott Benner 2:55
wrote a book. I don't think it would be. It's not polite to ignore it. Let's just get a couple of Yeah. Where do you want to start? Well, tell me about your kid first. Okay, so

Raylyn 3:04
my kiddo, she is five now. She was diagnosed about a month after her second birthday. We don't really celebrate the diversity thing in our house. Kudos to people who do. But yesterday was the three year anniversary of when she was diagnosed. So I think she's officially over the tipping point of, you know, having the majority of her life with type one, and it's just part of our day, you know? I mean, like, I don't even think as a parent, I remember a I remember her before type one, but it doesn't feel like there's a delineation, you know what I mean, and caring for it and not, you know, it's just part of our life,

Scott Benner 3:43
and you don't care about the the ticking of time. But when it suddenly turned into She's had it longer than she hasn't had it, it hit you, yeah,

Raylyn 3:51
yeah. I think it's just a realization, you

Scott Benner 3:55
know, yeah, no, I understand it. Did it make you feel any sort of way? Not

Raylyn 3:58
terribly this week, I think, you know, a few weeks ago, it hit me a little bit. It's hard to put into words, because I think I'm kind of mainly looking toward the future for her. So I think it was more of like just a momentary realization, like, Oh, wow. And then even asking her last night, I was like, we talked about the hospital a little bit, because ironically, the book she pulled out for bedtime last night was her Rufus, the bear book you get from the JDRF for free. Rufus, yeah. Rufus, do you know Rufus, yeah. But we hadn't really talked about it being three years or any passage of time. And so as I ran to her, I was like, Do you remember being in the hospital for this? And she was like, No. So you know she has, it's just part of her life, and I think that's maybe a little bit of a blessing for her, you know? I mean, listen,

Scott Benner 4:46
I've thought about this, how they say six ways from Sunday, right? You can find positives in any story, amen. And for this one, your positives are things like, maybe they don't remember stuff like that. Maybe it just feels. Is normal and like, so, you know, it doesn't happen. I could also tell you, my kid was diagnosed when she was two, and, you know, she's 20 now, and she's like, struggling with, like, a needle phobia. And that's insane to me, because we might have stabbed her 10,000 times in the first couple years of her life. And right, you know, in a time where you would think, like, I don't know, like, maybe you'd get used to it, or maybe you just forget about it, or maybe, but no, something for her doesn't work. Actually, last night, I don't know if this will even come to fruition or not, like I looked into hypnosis last night. Oh yeah, you know, maybe we can get her hypnotized and get her to not be as anxious about this, and maybe to be nicer too. Can I throw that in at the end? Can I be like, hey, while you're talking,

Raylyn 5:44
can you be more respectful and tell me how awesome I am as a parent? Yeah.

Scott Benner 5:48
Like, get rid of the needle phobia. And then on Thursdays, around 2pm have her just like, instinctually come up to me and go, I love you, Dad. You're doing a great job. You could also make the point of like, Oh, I was diagnosed when I was 15, at least. I got to grow up and I had a childhood without diabetes. Then someone else is going to say, Oh, my God. But at 15, I just got my period, two years before that, and I was going into high school, and that was horrible. And then, like, everybody can see the pros and cons of every age. I don't think there's a good age to be diagnosed with diabetes. No,

Raylyn 6:18
no, there's never an ideal time. But yeah, I think it's, I don't know. I think that's a pretty cool thing for us too. Like, yeah, just as humans like to just sit and try to figure out what the good is in it. And I think that's helpful for us too, because you could go down a rabbit hole and you could, like, not come up for air for five years, but

Scott Benner 6:34
it's up to you. You're writing your own narrative, whether you know it or not. So, right, right, right. I heard somebody saying the other day about, like, platitudes, that people say, you think of them as platitudes, and someone says it, and then once you've lived through it, you go, this is very true, right? Maybe it's not just the thing people say. Maybe it's so simple because it's so pure and true, you know, right? Anyway,

Raylyn 6:59
right? Yeah, absolutely. I think even, like, when my daughter was diagnosed like, this may have been a little bit of shock, but I just remember being, like, incredibly grateful that she was diagnosed like now, because I knew that, like, 100 years ago, like, we didn't have insulin. Why I knew that? I don't know why, but I just remember, like, you know, it was scary, and, you know, terrifying, and all of the things that happen when you get diagnosed and you don't know what to do, yeah, but at the same time just being like, Thank you, God that there's insulin. Like, thank you for this happening, like, right now, and not, you know, 100 years ago. Like, thank you that she's where she's at, yeah? And it helped, yeah,

Scott Benner 7:43
I completely agree. And then to kind of like, stretch out our thought a little farther, you go 20 years in the future and tell somebody, oh, my kid was diagnosed in 2022 with type one diabetes. Oh, you poor thing, like that, technology so much better now. Blah, blah. And by the way, somebody diagnosed in 1930 somebody said to him, Maya, you're lucky. 10 years ago, you'd have been dead, but we got this insulin now. And like, I think my point here is, no matter how people try to couch it in the moment, the world keeps getting better. Yeah, things progress, you know. And nobody looks up and says, I wish I was alive 150 years ago. Just

Raylyn 8:17
not, not if you know about what life was like 150 years ago,

Scott Benner 8:21
but someone's gonna say that 150 years from now, yeah, and they'll be right, just like you're right now for saying you didn't want to be in the old west and ride a horse while your chlamydia was fired up right to get the San Francisco Oregon

Raylyn 8:34
Trail. I don't want to do that. Like, did you play Oregon Trail? I don't

Scott Benner 8:38
know about it, Raelyn, but, like, how are you coming off older than me? And I don't think you are. I'm 45 Yeah, you're not older than me. You just sounded like you were 60 for a second. You're like, I played a game on the machine.

Raylyn 8:50
I think in my soul I might be 60. I'm also clutching warm tea and wearing a hoodie, so I think, I think it might be my soul.

Scott Benner 8:59
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Raylyn 11:33
think they're going pretty well. I feel like there's always things that I'm trying to do better, like we're pretty good at pre bolusing. We're wearing the Omnipod five and Dexcom g7 I think there's always things I want to do better. I think we get into a lot of hiccups just because she's five, and I try not to harass her too much before she's gonna eat. About how much of that are you gonna eat? A lot of times I'll go in gangbusters and Pre Bolus, or, like, you know, I don't know, fruit snacks, and then she decides she doesn't want to eat them all. And so I think, for me, just trying to walk that line with her, but I feel like we're in a rhythm like her a 1c was a little bit higher three months ago. It was in the sevens. We'd had a lot of Dexcom failure or pump failures that we just weren't addressing immediately. Like, you know, when your pump fails, and you kind of watch it slowly creep up, and you're kind of in that questioning of, like, Well, did I mess up a Bolus? Like, is this just a higher blood sugar, or is the pump failing? Like, I think some of those things we waited too long on in that three month period. This three months. We're just trying to be a little more vigilant, and on top of that, so now she's back down in the sixes. She's 6.7 Yeah, what

Scott Benner 12:48
you said was, when she has enough insulin, her a 1c, is lower,

Raylyn 12:51
amen, right, amen, right, right. And when you're monitoring it like you're supposed to, right? Yeah, I just think it, oh, go ahead. I was

Scott Benner 12:58
gonna tell you that's a tough part of when they get older, because that's the thing that, I mean, it's not just kids, but, like, you know, I've lately been using Erica as an example, who I record a lot of episodes with. And, you know, I was telling her one day about how, like, I wish Arden would just change her pump at, you know, at certain times, and she'll ride it to the last drop. And, yeah, I can see Erica while I'm talking to her, and I could see her face, like, crinkling it up. And I'm like, Oh, God, is that what you do? She goes, yeah. And I was like, oh, like, Okay, so that's a human thing, not a kid, yeah, right,

Raylyn 13:29
it is. And I think, like, just like trying to balance that, and then also just learning from it, and just doing better and just knowing that it's like, a big picture thing, you know? So three months, like, we did something that probably wasn't the best idea, you know, this next three months, like, let's try do better, and we just take it, like, a little bit at a time, you know, because, of course, you always have other things going on too, right? Like, I think sometimes too with type one, like, it kind of can become our whole world. But, like, I have three kids, and I have parents who are, I'm an only child, and one is in assisted living, and one is in long term care. So your parents, there's always, you know, yeah, like so many resources, a balancing of needs, like a balancing of being able to live a life, and just,

Scott Benner 14:13
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Raylyn 15:30
use. Yeah, that wasn't the one to do, but you'll

Scott Benner 15:33
find places to make time for yourself and energy and things like that. Listen, the truth is, you can't ignore diabetes a ton, like, it doesn't go well that way. And you will find yourself making adjustments throughout your life, and you're going to be pissed about some of them, like, you're going to give something away, and you're going to be like, oh, like, God, you know. Like, that is the thing I really enjoy doing on Saturday mornings, but I don't do that anymore. And right? That's because this is our reality now. But right? Amen, yeah, it just, in the end, everybody, to me, just feels like day three of the zombie apocalypse, while they're still running around with, like, their game boy in their bag. You know what? I mean? That's an old reference, too. Sorry. You know, like you're not going to need that anymore. Electricity is gone, and we're running from zombies. So why don't you put that down? Right? I want to point out, by the end of that TV show, those people were living up pretty living a pretty nice life in the zombie apocalypse.

Raylyn 16:24
I haven't dived into the zombie apocalypse too much because I feel like I've got enough to worry about. And I'm pretty sure if zombies come like I'm going to be the one of the first eaten, because I'm not fast.

Scott Benner 16:35
Oh my god, if you watch the zombie show, would you worry that zombies were actually going to come? I totally would,

Raylyn 16:40
and I would start, I would start thinking about what insulin I need to have on hand, and maybe I should start going to CrossFit so I can run faster.

Scott Benner 16:47
Just just die with pride, for God's sake. I feel like

Raylyn 16:51
that's really what I need to just plan for. Because, yeah, okay, I didn't make it very well through gym class. So yeah, the zombies and I'm not armed, so

Scott Benner 17:02
running through the woods being like, I should have tried to climb that rope for real. I really didn't put my effort into

Raylyn 17:10
it. Yeah, there would be no,

Scott Benner 17:12
yeah. I remember fat me walking up that rope, thinking, Is this a joke?

Raylyn 17:18
Oh yeah, gym class, please. I never made it to the top. We had to climb up different levels, and the top was like Superman, and I never made it. So, yeah, the zombies come like, I'm gonna be the person they throw in front so that everyone else can

Scott Benner 17:30
run. Do you think if we found a young person right now and told them that in a gymnasium, like with a high, high ceiling, there used to be a rope that was, maybe, I don't know, maybe four inches around, like, you know, like a putting my hands in front of me. You should see me putting my hands in front of me right now, I'm like, What am I doing? Right? A pretty thick rope that would hang literally from the ceiling. I don't think I'm joking to say maybe 80 feet off the ground. No, no exaggeration, with a three inch wrestling mat underneath of it. They'd tell you to get on that rope and climb it as high as you could. And some kids would go to the roof. Yeah, they weren't tethered to anything. There was no airbag underneath. They just let children climb to the roof on a rope. What a crazy world we lived in. What was the best game in gym class taking a ball and throwing it as hard as you could at other people's

Raylyn 18:21
heads. That was good for you. I was on the receiving end and trying not to cry.

Scott Benner 18:25
No, yeah, I understand, by the way, there's one place where I excelled. I was like, I can throw this ball very fast at your head.

Raylyn 18:32
I was like, just get me out of gym class and please give me a book in a dark corner.

Scott Benner 18:36
I'm just looking for those kids that got to the top of the rope. I'm like, I think I can give one of them a concussion. Also, you go 1978 I didn't know what a concussion was, and either did anybody else see, and you came out just fine. Well, that's arguable. All right, now let's, let's look at your list here. Yeah. All right, the man, you've got this broken down, okay? Number one, the ebb and flow of diabetes management. You said being vigilant about settings, hormones, growth changes, but still living life and not hyper fixating on it. I often think about the long game, taking care of your daughter's names here, but here, and also laying the groundwork for the future. So I feel like you covered that with what you said there. Like but are you hyper fixating on things, or are you just, are you so worried about the future that you're making up problems? Like, what is the difference? Yeah, I

Raylyn 19:26
think if I let myself, like, I could sit and watch numbers all day long on her CGM really, you know, but I don't. I purposely make myself not and just check in every once in a while. I think, too, like, for me, part of hyper fixating that is also like correlating, maybe a feeling where, like, if we have a higher blood sugar because I missed dosed, or maybe we ate something I wasn't aware of. And I think you can sit there, if you hyper fixate it, and think like, Oh, I've blown this whole thing. Like, this isn't gonna like, I'm she's gonna have x, y, and. See happen, instead of just, like, kind of putting it back in perspective and being like, Okay, well, this didn't work this time. And like, deal with it and move on. Like, in the beginning, I don't know if you have, like, a high blood sugar, and like, you correct it. And then sometimes, like, watch it, yeah,

Scott Benner 20:14
to see what it Yeah, we have to learn, yeah. Well, but once I learned how it worked, I stopped looking at it.

Raylyn 20:18
Yeah. So I feel like I'm somewhere in between, okay, trusting and still watching it and not trusting it. So

Scott Benner 20:27
that makes sense in these previous three months where you, like, took your foot off the accelerator a little bit. Was that you looking for a way not to hyper fixate, but then you went too far the other direction.

Raylyn 20:39
I don't really know what it was. I think part of it was just try not to interfere with life a ton. And when I say that, like, if I thought, like our CGM was clearly in that little where it says to give it three hours for signal loss. And you know it's not coming back on, but you keep hoping, because you want to get the most out of your sensor, instead of addressing it just being, like, well, let's just keep going about our day. Like, you keep playing instead of just changing it right away.

Scott Benner 21:07
So that makes sense, yeah? But I'm trying to get to the idea of, like, Were you looking for respite? Were you like, I'm trying to figure out, yeah. Like, because once it goes poorly the first time, like, how did you do it again? Like, how did you go? No, no, the last time we ignored a site that wasn't working anymore. But let's roll the dice on this one. I'm wondering if this is not a admonishment, right? I'm just, I'm really trying to pick through it. I'm wondering if you got like, Frog in the pot, happy, ooh. What does that mean? If you put a frog in a pot of boiling water, it'll jump out. If you put a frog in a pot of cold water and slowly heat it up, it will sit there happily till it dies. Maybe, I wonder if that started happening to you were just like, Okay, well, she didn't die. I don't have to pay as close attention to this anymore. Like, this is more comfortable for me, even though it's not good, it's more comfortable.

Raylyn 21:57
I think sometimes it's more of just a hesitation, like, is this the right thing to do? Right? Is it the right thing to do? Is it really failing? Okay, thinking about, like, the supplies we have, and, like, making sure I'm not, like, running out too soon. And then also, site changes are a lot better as she's gotten older than they were. But also, like, she still doesn't like them. So, you know, like, I try to only poke when I need to poke. So if, like, the pump really is, if it really is just a bad Bolus and it's going to come back on, like, I don't want to give her an unnecessary, like, sight change, I agree

Scott Benner 22:35
completely with that, you know, yeah, also my kid who has, you know, been wearing this stuff since she was four, right? I saw her the other day 20 putting on a pod, and it went in, and she went, Yeah. It's like, gotcha. She's like, well, it got me. And I'm like, it isn't like, Oh, it got me. Haha. It's

Raylyn 22:54
like, that really hurt, god damn it. Yeah,

Scott Benner 22:57
you're right. Like, I would also tell you that I think the Omnipod assertion is fantastic, like, it just caught her in the wrong spot, you know. And Right, right? What are you gonna do? Like, but I so I take your point like you're you don't want to overreact. But by trying to figure out where that line was, you saw that there were times when it would not have been an overreaction,

Raylyn 23:17
right? And I think like doing too many of those, like sitting back for a minute accumulates over time. So just learning that, like, you're just gonna have to, like, do the site change and it's gonna hurt and it but it'll be fine because it's for the greater good. I don't Does that make sense? No,

Scott Benner 23:35
it does. Yeah. Again, I say a lot. I've been saying a lot in my real life lately, which probably means the people around me are probably sick of me by now, but I've been talking a lot to an acquaintance about finances, helping them with their finances, and I started saying this thing that I find myself saying here, which is, like, you have to attack this problem like an astronaut. You know, you get a stare back. And I was like, everything's trying to kill an astronaut, but what's trying to kill him right now? Yeah, that's the thing you do, right? Like, you can't look up and go, Oh my god, there are 17 things around me that all want me to die, that all are going to cause me a problem, right? I have to worry about all 17 of them. That's not it. Like you, the one that's in your face, right? Now, that's the one you take care of, right? Yeah. And then that becomes, like, if you, I don't know, for me, it kind of became normal, like you just, I don't think about the other things that aren't in front of me, right? Yeah, that's the I think that might be the key. Anyway, there you go. Let's go to the second thing here on your exhaustive list. Post do you is this, you are? You just, like, very well thought out when you say

Raylyn 24:38
I am and I well, I used to write more. So, yeah, this is like, where I can make sense of my thoughts. Yes.

Scott Benner 24:45
So post diagnosis phase, what you call the fourth newborn. I guess you're talking about diabetes there. Yeah, time in our house when I brought my daughter home from the hospital after a diagnosis, learning how to manage diabetes felt like having another newborn. My brain. Brain felt mushy, and it was incredibly hard to remember anything. I'm not sure if this is unique to me as a caregiver, but might be helpful to someone else to know about and you said it did get better for you, so I guess correlate that to an actual bringing home a new baby, like, what? What did it? Did it really follow along on a lot of similarities. It felt

Raylyn 25:20
like it to me. And I think everyone's experience is unique. So I don't know if other people experience when they this, when they bring home a new baby, it feels like everything is just, I mean, for lack of a better word, like your brain is kind of mushy. It's hard to keep things in, like you're there, but your brain is kind of somewhere else at the same time. So I mean, lack of sleep was very similar to having a newborn, right? The thing that happens when you have a kiddo, and at least with that, there's some preparation, but there's a definite sudden shift of how things go, like what your responsibilities are, and it's not a gentle entry, and you're just like, I think it takes a hot minute for your brain to catch up to that. So even, like, with diabetes, like, I remember, like, I don't know, we'd give her, like, peas as part of her lunch or something. And I remember, like, walking over to the bag, you know, you get the serving size out, and, you know, you write, like, I would have to write down that, like, a quarter cup is, I don't know, seven carbs or whatever, and I'd have to put it on a sticky note, like in front of me as I built the rest of her lunch,

Scott Benner 26:27
because you couldn't hold the seven in your head while you were doing it. Yeah,

Raylyn 26:30
in two seconds it would be gone. So yeah,

Scott Benner 26:34
I remember diagnosis feeling like, like I was tasked with fixing a computer during a hurricane, and while that was happening. Someone was explaining barometric pressure to me so I would know when the next hurricane would come and how to, like, move away, so that I could, like, you know, do a better job fixing my electronics where it wasn't raining, right? Why are all these words happening and, you know, like, how am I supposed to keep this thing dry while the storm is around me? Kind of I don't want to understand this storm. I just want it to stop, like that kind of stuff. Yeah, it sucks. It does get better. But, yeah, sure. Well, because your understanding builds Right, yeah, and things start working out better, you start feeling less stress sometimes. And then, you know, if you're lucky, it just gets better and better as time goes. I think that does work out that way for a great many people. I mean, I'm sure there are other people too who are knocked over by it and never get up again. I'm not saying otherwise, but you have an opportunity if you can get up every morning and just keep going and trying your hardest to learn from situations like you don't write down on a sticky note, what carbs are in anything anymore? No,

Raylyn 27:42
no, yeah, I can hold information in my brain again. So I

Scott Benner 27:46
see the correlation completely between like, you spent nine months making that baby, then you pushed it out. You're freaking exhausted. Your body's trying to recover from a major, you know, up from a thing that, by the way, used to kill women all the time, not that long,

Raylyn 27:58
right? Let's acknowledge that for a minute. Thank you. Yeah, no,

Scott Benner 28:01
of course. I mean, you guys were like, you know, a coin flip. Oh, I know you could even see, like, when you watch those old TV shows, and like, you know, in the old west, somebody gets pregnant, they're like, Oh, we're gonna have a baby. And then everyone's face does the same thing the next moment. Like, I mean, if, like, hopefully she'll live through this, right, right? But if not, there's a lady down the street I can get to watch these kids.

Raylyn 28:22
There's a new wife, a new wife down the street, in case this one doesn't make it. Guy

Scott Benner 28:26
down the street got gored by a bull. If mine goes, I'm going to scoop his up and it'll all be set. And if that's not how you think things used to work, they did right? Yeah, yeah, it sucks. I mean, you're asked to do a lot in the face of a lot. Yeah,

Raylyn 28:39
I think it does get better. You just have to, I don't know, give yourself Grace speaking of cliches, but and just kind of being patient with yourself and not panicking in the middle of it, you know, yeah, listen,

Scott Benner 28:50
I want to tell you that because of this podcast. I said that to somebody the other day, but I had to preface it with, I know I'm not religious, but listen to me, but listen to me on this one, like I said, religious people got a lot of right? Here's one of them. And I was like, this thing about offering grace to people, which is not really a religious thought, but you generally hear people who, you know, I assume, go to church that so, like, right? I don't know. I'm not there. I don't see that. I'm sleeping on Sunday, the way I think God intended, but that's fine. Why not make church at four?

Raylyn 29:25
They do have some churches at four. Oh, my God. Are you serious? They have some churches on Saturday nights. If you want to go, I believe Catholic and Saturday night. Yeah, I'm telling you.

Scott Benner 29:34
What is that in place of AA, you think, like, why would anybody go to church on Saturday night? I

Raylyn 29:38
don't know, but the world is your oyster if you want to explore. Scott, all right, well,

Scott Benner 29:41
I don't, but I appreciate, but I do think there's a ton of intelligence and value and compassion, and just sometimes you just have to just do that. Just give yourself some grace. Give it to somebody else, you know. Like, yeah, I think it just means just calm down and leave everybody alone for five seconds. Because this is. Hard, okay, amen, amen.

Raylyn 30:01
And I think just knowing that, even for other people, like, if I see someone walking around, like, of course, now I notice, like, if I see a kiddo with a Dexcom on or a pump, and just, I don't know, there's kind of like, for me, at least a silent acknowledgement of that person walking by, you know,

Scott Benner 30:18
yeah, we should get a Jeep wave for diabetes, going, ooh, like,

Raylyn 30:22
instead of the rubber duckies on people's dashboards,

Scott Benner 30:25
what could we do people's dashboards? I don't know about this. I have a friend

Raylyn 30:29
who owns a jeep. Apparently, it's this thing you're supposed to take a ducky, leave a ducky. I don't know. Oh,

Scott Benner 30:33
oh, I thought that was for swingers. What am I thinking of?

Raylyn 30:37
Maybe I'm wrong. I think that's the upside down pineapple.

Scott Benner 30:41
Oh, look at, look at how quickly you knew that. Raylan, interesting. I know, yeah, I'm a wealth of information. Well, or, you know, whatever Raelyn says, the community. One of the upsides of this disease has been the community. I meet people with type one. Almost everywhere I go, they always where were they always were there. Wait, were they always there? You said, oh, sorry, probably. But I also feel like, are you looking wrote this? What dork wrote? Are you looking at this list? Or

Raylyn 31:10
am I just thinking, I'm looking at the list? Just in case I got too nervous, yes, What a dork. I'm like, Am

Scott Benner 31:16
I doing such a great job of dragging this story out over that I'm getting it out of her in order, she's got to be reading this. I also feel like being a bit drawn together. I know it sounds kind of kooky. I've had two separate instances in the past year where I've been at the pool and there's another kiddo. One was eight, other was four, wearing a Dexcom and Omnipod. Okay, yeah. So do you find any online community, or do you are you having a lot of luck finding people in real life. I feel like

Raylyn 31:42
more in the wild, like it was really interesting. So as soon as my daughter was diagnosed, our next visit at the pediatrician, one of the nurses passed me a note from one of the other pas her daughter had actually just been diagnosed in two months prior, so she wanted me to have her phone number just in case. And then someone I went to high school with found me and and now, like, yeah, we'll be at like, the pool, which I don't live. I live in a decent sized city, and, yeah, literally, there's another kid there, maybe like 12 people in the pool. And I look and there's another kiddo walking into the pool with an Omnipod on, yeah, like the same age, and we were at the pool later in the summer, like a different pool, and I see an eight year old, you know, will be climbing at the rock climbing thing. And I see another kiddo, like, even at my daughter's preschool, you know, I had another mom come up to me because she saw my daughter's pod, and her six year old has type one, so I just notice it. And I think it's been cool to see people. It kind of helps, you know, because sometimes you can feel with any sort of, like chronic illness, pretty isolated, you know, just seeing people, yeah, it feels

Scott Benner 32:55
better to just have some sameness, like, just to look up and see yourself somewhere, right,

Raylyn 33:00
yeah. And I think too, to just know that like you're not you're not alone, like it can feel like it, like the online thing is great, but seeing people in everyday life, you know, like I had one of my other kiddos was recently diagnosed on the autism spectrum, and, like, ADHD and some other issues. And it's the funny part about it. Is my first question was, like, where's the community? Because, like, I feel like, with diabetes, like I know, to go to the Juicebox Podcast, like I know to look for people, like, there's visible things that I can see, to have some sort of like, let's sit down and have coffee and let's talk about how things are going. And, you know, other things that you're dealing with, like, it's not, I think the visibility is probably not great for the person who has type one, and I want to be sensitive to that, but I think there's a lot of community in it. That's really a nice thing. You know, yeah,

Scott Benner 33:53
you do live in a concentrated I know where you live. I'm not telling people, but yeah, you do live in a concentrated area. Yeah, yeah, because I did a little like Gazin does while you were talking just now. And yeah, you live in a place that has about as many people as live in the county that I live in, but, but my county may, but my county is 6463 square miles larger than yours, okay? And it's pretty busy here. So, yeah, yeah, that's, it's, it's something. Because I almost joked with you, like, Oh, I know you think you live somewhere big, but you don't. But, you know, yeah, we

Raylyn 34:31
have more than two wagons, yeah,

Scott Benner 34:32
with those big wheels, right? They get pulled with mules and stuff like that. You get around right now, I hear, right?

Raylyn 34:39
We've got, we've got the latest ones. They're thinking about doing something a little different, but yeah, you can sometimes take the cover off. Sometimes you can leave it

Scott Benner 34:47
on convertible. Yeah, yeah. I hope I haven't told this recently, but I was helping a person who's more newly diagnosed, and they were starting to like. Reach out and start telling people, like, you know what I mean? And then they suddenly found a person who's like, oh, that just happened to my son. And then they started chatting. And inside of the chat, like the person said, Oh, you got to check out the podcast. And the first person goes, Oh, actually, I know Scott. Like, isn't that crazy? That is wild. Yeah, yeah. Like a person I know whose kid is diagnosed out of nowhere, starts talking to a person in their life. We do not live anywhere near each other, and that person goes, oh, you know, definitely check out this Juicebox Podcast thing. That kind of stuff is, I don't know like I think that shows your point of that, even though you don't see people all the time with it, it's obviously more prevalent than you think it might be. Right? You know, you never know where you might find your your connections, right, right? That's awesome. You're doing pretty well. Well, do you want to go to the next one? Do you want to? Do you want

Raylyn 35:50
to read one? No, you. I'm just here to chat, so I feel like such a dork for sending this email. Now, though, What a dork. It's not.

Scott Benner 35:57
I'm still scrolling. I don't think it's going to stop. Yeah, like, it just goes on and on and on. I'm just kidding. No, I appreciate this. Like, listen, if that's how your brain works, then it's awesome, you know? Like, yeah, I don't know if you asked me to prep for one of these guys. As a matter of fact, I had to recently. I'm giving four talks on the like, me and about 100 listeners are going on a cruise together this summer. Yes, yes. And I'm giving four separate like, like talks, and the person, you know, it's coordinating the cruise, like I'm, and this is weird to feel like this, but like, I'm kind of the talent. Do you know what I mean? And so, like, I'm, yeah, I'm, I'm Sonny and Cher, someone else is booking the stage.

Raylyn 36:35
Oh, are you wearing the outfit too? Are you gonna dress like Sonny and Cher, hers or his? Which one were you? I don't know, you've got four talks. There's the opportunity is endless. I

Scott Benner 36:44
can go rhinestones at some point. That would be awesome. So, like, you know, the person says, Well, you know, we need topics for these four things. And in my mind, I'm like, Yeah, well, like, we'll talk about that, and, you know, and living with it, and people ask questions, and we'll go back and forth. She goes, I think it's going to want to be a little more, I don't know specific, like they might want to know what the talks about. And I was like, okay, so I sat down and I listen, you guys listen to the podcast. If you just blurted out five, like, random words. I think I could string them together and talk about them for like, 15 minutes, right? And I know how I feel about most things, diabetes and stuff I don't like, I don't have technical expertise on, I would open up to the group and we could have a chat. Like, I don't think I'd have any trouble having that conversation. But when you said to me, what are we going to speak about? I was like, I don't know. Like, I really like, I paused for days after I was asked for that information. And as crazy as it sounds like, I had to take old content of the podcast and look at it and say, like, Well, I think this would be valuable for people here. And like, you know, like, we should talk about this, but that should get coupled with this. I couldn't just like, what you did. I find like, that's awesome, like you just sat down and wrote your thoughts out. I If I sat down and said, I want to talk about diabetes, I would write. I want to talk about diabetes, then I would stop writing.

Raylyn 38:09
Well, can I ask you a question, please? Okay, so, but you wrote a book, right? So how did, how did that process work for you? I'm just curious. I guarantee

Scott Benner 38:19
you not the way other people write books, really. So you sit down and just like, let it flow. Yeah, wow. So here's what happened. I wrote a sidebar in a diabetes book for a person that I knew back then. I don't know them anymore, sadly, okay, and they asked me to write 1000 words on, I forget what it was on advocating for yourself at school, maybe, okay, and so I did. I wrote, you know, basically, I wrote an essay, I sent it to their publisher, which is what I was asked to do, and I never thought about it again. I know that that sounds strange, but like, I just, I never thought about again. So she asked me to do a thing. I did it for. That was the end of it, right? And like, six months later, I get an email back from this publisher, and they're like, how do you want to be attributed in the book? And I was like, I don't care. I literally responded back, because it doesn't matter to me, just put my name like, you don't want to put your blog there or anything. I'm like, I don't care. Like, I just didn't like, I really didn't care. So I think that got the person on the phone and was like, listen, we're not just gonna write this out and write Scott underneath of it. Then I was like, Okay, so tell me how you want this trip. Then I realized, Oh, my God, I was being difficult, and I wasn't. I was trying to be easy. I was trying to like, it doesn't matter to me. So we start talking, and she says to me, yours, I don't want to say what she said. Anyway, she really liked what I wrote. Okay, okay. And asked me if I would ever consider writing a book about diabetes. Wow. And I said, No, I wouldn't do that. And she said, why? And I said, No, it changes too often, and I'm still learning about it. Like, it feels weird to put something down as like a reference and then like, have it like. Like, two years later, like, not be accurate anymore, or, like, even if, like, what would happen if two years later, I woke up and I was like, Oh, I said it like this, but that's not the right way to say it. I should have said it this way. So I said, No, thank you. But being a go getter, which I think I might be, maybe, yeah, it's possible. And I said, I said, but I could write a book about being a stay at home dad. And she goes, Yeah, give me an outline. And I was like, okay, and it was a Friday. It was a Friday. And she said, Send me an outline on Monday. So I sat down in I don't want to lie, five minutes, and and wrote out what I thought would be chapter titles, like topics, uh huh, and I hammered them out real quickly. Looked at them. I was like, Yeah, that's right. And never looked at them again. I sat on them till Monday because I didn't want to just email them to her. 10 minutes after she asked me for them, because I thought that would look poorly, thought out, I sent them to her. She got back to me and she said, Okay. She goes, give me we're gonna need, I forget what she said, 60,000 70,000 words. You have to have this many of to us by this date. The book has to be completed by six months later, we'll give you $5,000 to write the manuscript. Nice. And I was like, okay,

Raylyn 41:20
sold.

Scott Benner 41:21
So I got off the phone with her. I was standing down the hall from where I'm at now on the phone with her. I paused from doing the laundry to talk to her on the phone, and then I called my wife, standing in the same exact spot, and I said, I just got a book deal. She goes, I'm never gonna forget this conversation. She goes, Can you write a book? And I said, and this is a quote, I don't know.

Raylyn 41:52
We're about to find out. We'll find out.

Scott Benner 41:54
I said, they're gonna give me $5,000 to write it. And she was like, What if you can't write it? And I said, we'll give him the $5,000 back. I love it, yeah. And she was like, what? I'm like, well, they'll give us a check. We'll deposit an account and leave it there, and if I fail miserably, I'll send them a check for $5,000 along with a note that says, whoops, I'm sorry that didn't work out, did it? That's awesome, I think in the current parlance, with dochi, it would be Oopsie. I made a whoopsie. And so I was like, so my wife, who's not wired like that, was like, you can't just say you're going to do something if you don't know how you're going to do it. And I was like, how am I going to figure out if I can do it if I don't try? And why the hell would I try unless somebody was giving me $5,000 let's get into it now. Meanwhile, $5,000 over six months, I've done better, like going up the street and, like, making fries for somebody,

Raylyn 42:50
right? But it sounds so attractive, but it's a thing

Scott Benner 42:53
that sounds, see, you're not wrong. Like, yeah, I'm published. Some people eat that with a spoon. Yeah, yeah. I don't think much of it, but like, like, the people, sometimes you tell people, like, oh, like, Oh, you didn't self publish a book. No, no. Like, a publisher paid me to write, oh, right, published off when asked for this, yeah. Like, what I did was I sat down, like it was a writing assignment every day, and I read the sentence that I wrote for the chapter title, and then I just free associated with it, so you kind of organized your thoughts a little bit. I mean, it took five minutes. So I don't know if we organized they were there.

Raylyn 43:28
I mean, this email took five minutes too, yeah.

Scott Benner 43:31
And then I hammered it all out. Yeah. At the very end, here's the thing that you don't tell people, okay, not really a reader. So I didn't know what people wanted in a book, or even how a book was supposed to be, so the book probably reads more like a like a bunch of blog posts put together, like, I don't even know, to be perfectly honest, I don't, I don't read people's blogs either. So So anyway, so I finished the I finished the whole thing, and I'm ready to hand it in. And I call them on the day it's due. And I said, Can I hold it for one more day? And she says, why? Like, and she started panicking, like, figuring, I was like, you know, like, not anywhere near done. I said, Well, it's done. I was like, but I want to read it out loud to myself. And she goes, Why?

Raylyn 44:19
She's like, we pay people to do that for you. Yeah.

Scott Benner 44:21
And I said, I want to hear what people are going to hear when they read it. Yeah? And she goes, take a whole week. And I was like, Oh, wow, thanks. I did not need a whole week. I got up the next morning, got the kids off to school, I sat at my desk, and I read it out loud, yeah. And as I was reading it, I thought, Oh, I don't like the way that sounds. And then I would make changes. And she was nice, yeah, she was nice to give me a week, because I did make a number of changes. I think I sent her off, like 75,000 words, nice. And the nicest thing I can say about good editing is that she sent me back 10,000 fewer words. And when I read it, for the life of me. I could not figure out what she took out of it. Yeah, it's really cool, actually. Yeah, then they published it and but they don't tell you about being a published author is that, if you're not famous, no one actually helps you sell the book, right, right, right. So I did my best to get on. I got on some television shows. I got on I did a lot of print stuff. I did an NPR interview once, which is cool, like, I drove into Philly and did an NPR interview in a radio station. It was really neat, yeah, stuff like that, like, three or four days into it, into the like, you know, the media stuff. The publisher called me back, and she goes, you're doing great in these interviews. And I was like, thank you. I said, I don't, I don't feel like I'm doing well. She goes, authors. She's like, writers can't talk usually, right? So she's like, so this is awesome. Like, you're doing great. Could you do me one favor? And I was like, Sure. She goes, Stop telling people you don't read. And I laughed. And I was like, you don't think that's going over. Well. She goes, I do not want to read a book from a person who doesn't read books. I was like, All right, I'll stop saying that. So I stopped saying that, and that was it, like, that's how I wrote a book. Like, I I'm glad I did it. It's at this point. Was like, Jesus, yeah. Like, 13 years ago I did that, right? Yeah, but I would never do it again.

Raylyn 46:18
I don't know. Never, say never. This is a much

Scott Benner 46:21
more

Raylyn 46:23
effective medium. Yeah, it really

Scott Benner 46:26
is. So, yeah, I could have wrote a book about diabetes, and guess what? It wouldn't have been nearly as good as, think, like a pancreas or pumping insulin or something like that, who are written by people who have a mind for, you know, writing, rewriting, researching, you know, like, that kind of, like, I just don't have a head for that. Like, this is what I think you have to mine out of it. What is valuable for you? Yeah, that's all,

Raylyn 46:50
I guess. What's cool about the podcast is, like, you find yourself picking up, like, little things here and there. So you may not be ready to, like, sit down and, like, fully. I mean, there's times when you come to it and you're ready to digest a lot of information, but for me, there's just times where I just kind of have it in the background and like, I'll pick up something, you know, yeah, and I feel like that's just little bites are good. So I

Scott Benner 47:12
interviewed a 24 year old girl yesterday who was maybe the most mature, thoughtful person I'd ever met in my life. And I've, I've interviewed a dozen people like that, you know, or more, where you just sit down and for their age, you just think, like, how did they gather up all of this perspective and thoughtfulness, you know? So quickly, she told me that she started listening to the podcast, and it made her angry that it was about pumping, and she was that she was MDI, right? And she said that one day, actually, she was from she wasn't from America, so I was gonna say she was walking around Walmart, but it wasn't Walmart. She said a store like Walmart. And then she said the name of the store, I don't know, and she said she was listening in the background, just listening to the podcast. And it suddenly just hit her that she could apply what I was saying to MDI, yeah, she said, out of nowhere, it just like, after listening for a while, and it mostly making her mad, right? Not enjoying it, but still listening. And I thought, like, Wow, that's crazy. Like, I got we, like, not weepy, like, you know what I mean, right? Yeah, not like, snow flaky, but I

Raylyn 48:20
was okay. It's okay if you cried, it's okay. It's okay to cry. So Raelynn,

Scott Benner 48:23
if you listen to the podcast, what you've learned is, is that I think when one tear comes out of my eye, I've welled up, but I've now been told by my daughter and by my wife that that's crying. And then I tried to go to a professional I went to Erica one time, and I pled my case, and she goes, Scott, that's crying. And I was like, I was like, I feel like I just get welled up. But she's like, Yeah, that's crying. And I'm like, I don't like the way you're putting it, by the way, I'll cry. I was having a difficult conversation with Arden two weeks ago, and in the middle of it, I was like, oh, hell. And I started to cry. I don't mind crying. I don't know if you've ever seen life as a house, it's not a very good movie, but it's about cancer. I the lights came up, and my wife's like, are you all right?

Raylyn 49:09
Oh God, my shirt not sound uplifting. My shirt

Scott Benner 49:13
was wet. I was like, everything's fine.

Raylyn 49:17
It's all fine, yeah,

Scott Benner 49:19
but, but, um, I so I don't mind crying. I just have a I don't know what to call it. I have a stance on crying, and I don't think like me, welling up is crying. Nevertheless, she tells me that she's walking around the store. She has this revelation, and now she's doing wonderfully. And what you don't know that you'll hear in that episode is that her father died at 50, probably complications from his type one, oh, wow. And that his father had type one and just somehow lived to 96 Oh, wow. And so, like, not really taking care of things, like the way you think of it now, but it just whatever worked out for him right then his son sees, oh, my dad doesn't really put a ton into this. And look at how old. He is, but then, boom, he's gone at 50. And now this girl, or is a couple years into her diabetes, and which path is she gonna take? Is she gonna take the like, I'll roll the dice and see what happens, and maybe I'll live the 96 or maybe I'll die when I'm 50, but I don't know how to help myself. And then this sounds grandiose, and I don't mean for it too. But then, like, she finds my podcast, yeah, and then fights against it, and then gives in and is now doing awesome. Did me deciding to make a podcast 11 years ago, five years before this 24 year old girl even had type one diabetes? Like, did I save her with that, right? You know what I mean? Like, could we all be doing something like that that might be valuable in the world? That just the thought that maybe she'll be better off because of something I thought to do made me well up,

Raylyn 50:52
right? I think it should. Because, like, I don't know. I kind of try to go about my life like, not consciously, but I do think, like, all of that stuff that's connected. Like, you can either look at the connections and just say that's completely random and like, disregard it, or you can, like, kind of lean into that and really think about, yeah, and just like, be comforted by it, by be like, uplifted by it. Or even just it kind of makes the things that you're dealing with in the day to day business of your life, and the decisions you're making, like, you know, you don't know who you talk to, how that's going to impact them, or a decision you make to start a podcast, like, I feel like it all is connected, and it's all being laid out in the groundwork, and I don't know that that gives me Hope. How

Scott Benner 51:40
insane is it that a person with absolutely no religious Holdings is probably living a life much more religious than most people

Raylyn 51:48
you know, you and I could talk for hours over coffee about that.

Scott Benner 51:52
I mean, listen, I've said it on here 1000 times like you give me 50 grand and tell me, Scott, you got to bet it one side of the other, there's an answer. We're gonna give it to you. God, no, God, I go, No, God, okay. I'm like, I'm like, That's my bet right now. I've also said if I should drop dead right now and my eyes open back up, and St Peter is standing there holding a book, and there's some gates behind him, I'm gonna start apologizing in circles. Yeah, I'm gonna be like, Listen, I don't know how you expected me to buy into this. Like, here's all the reasons why I couldn't.

Raylyn 52:22
He's gonna be But Scott, I whispered the idea of a podcast in your head. Oh,

Scott Benner 52:26
don't worry, I'm gonna do one's life. He's gonna go, dude, you've told the story on the podcast of the guy I

Raylyn 52:35
dropped I dropped you nuggets everywhere. Scott, you're

Scott Benner 52:39
using those stories like, like, I love the one about like, you know, I know the internet is so full now you can't see any of it, but back when it first started, there were a couple of things that were so awesome. One of them is a local news reporter squashing grapes with her feet at like, some fair, and it's on a raised platform, and it's a race to see who can get more juice out of the grapes. Like the person who, like, does it at the fair, or her, and she's just going back and forth. You know, she's a regular lady. Looks like she pushed a couple of kids out. Maybe it hasn't gone to Pilates in a while, but she's not, you know what I mean, like, and she's in there, like, with her, she's pumping her feet, squishing the grapes, and then she thinks she's funny, and she speeds up, hits the side of the bucket, slips, falls four feet to the ground, and makes a noise that I will never forget.

Raylyn 53:32
Can you link to that video in the show notes? Can you do that? Because I know, like I want to see it now. Okay,

Scott Benner 53:36
I'll figure out what it's called, for sure, and tell people, please do the noise. She goes, she goes, Oh, it's awesome. I feel bad for it, and if she ever hears us, I'm sorry, but your pain made me and millions of people laugh. So the internet, that's one of the things from the internet. Like, I'll never forget. I'll never forget that. I'll never forget if you live in Philadelphia, we had this wide receiver who dropped a lot of balls. There's a fire in Philly. Someone throws their kid out of a window. This dude, this fcking badass motherfucker, catches this kid, saves his life. The news asks him about it, and he says, I caught that baby, not like, what's his name? And he calls out the wide receiver, oh my gosh. Oh my gosh. Internet is awesome, is what I'm saying. Ah, people, if you don't love Philadelphia, after watching that guy do that, you're out of your mind. He saved a baby, and in his moment of glory, he decided to on a wide receiver drop some footballs. It's awesome. There's this great CNN interview of a guy whose house is about to be swept away by a flood, and he is standing at his property. He is just bereft, like it's happening right his house, it is gonna float away, and he is standing there and in the lower corner of this. Screen is a map of the area, and the map includes a line that shows you the flood plain, where they tell you not to build your house, and his house is on the wrong side of the line, and he had just gotten done talking about like, I built this house, and I'm like, did you not look at this map first? That reminds me of that story, of like, you know, I sent you a boat, I sent you a helicopter. I sent you like, it always makes me think about that. And I tell that damn story. Like, I tell the like, I know that story. I know the like, you know, a guy's down in a hole and he's struggling, and his friend comes by and says, Hey, what are you doing down that hole? And he says, I'm stuck down here, and I can't get out. And the friend jumps in the hole with him, and the guy goes, What are you doing, man? Like, now we're both stuck down here, and the guy that jumped in says, no, no, I've been down here before. I know the way out. Like, like, I love that stuff. Yeah, I still don't think there's a

Raylyn 55:51
guy I know. Time will tell man, time will tell I

Scott Benner 55:54
know, and I promise all of you who believe I will be the biggest hypocrite in that moment, I will just, I will start telling these stories about how I helped people and that it was hard for me to know, and I please. I need another chance. Don't you worry, I'll backpedal like a crazy person.

Raylyn 56:10
I think there might be a lot of backpedaling.

Scott Benner 56:14
Listen, at least I'm not purporting to be something I'm not right, right? I see a lot of people talking about religion online, and they don't say very godly things to each other. So right, right. Yeah, that's all. What else we got here on your list? But out took a weird turn. What was that? Because you asked me about the book.

Raylyn 56:29
I Yeah, we went down that rabbit hole for some reason, which I believe a rabbit hole is at the end of the email as well.

Scott Benner 56:35
So we're getting to it also. Let me tell you people something. At this point, 5 million people have started, or at least registered a podcast. Fewer than 80,000 of those 5 million podcasts do enough downloads to sell an ad. Okay? 86% of them still make what you would consider like, you know, money that you could probably collect on the street corner selling pencils, like, beforehand, like the ones that are actually able to be, I don't like the word monetize, but monetize because of the amount of people listen to it, are like 14% of, like, 80,000 Okay, I am one of those people, and I will tell you, it's because someone can ask me about the process of Writing a book, and 15 minutes later you're still entertained, and so you're welcome. I don't know where I got this from, but I want to remind my dead father that he said one day someone would slap me for my smart mouth, but you were wrong about that for sure. Anyway. Can you imagine if I was 10 and my dad's like, one day someone's gonna smack you across that smart mouth. And I was like, well, first of all, you've already done it a number of times, and you already beat him to it hasn't slowed anything down. But what if I was able to turn to Him, pull out a crystal ball and go, no, actually, I'll make a living with this smart mouth, like, look at this and help people at the same time. How crazy is that? You think that would have killed him right there?

Raylyn 57:58
I don't think it would have killed him. I think he might have smacked you again, because that's how that relationship works, right?

Scott Benner 58:07
The amount of times I was like, What am I going to say here? Do I pre Nah, I'll go for it. And, like, found myself dodging hands. I was like, Oh, why don't I do this? My mom later would be like, Why did you do that? And I'd say, Well, he was wrong. You're

Raylyn 58:26
like, I made it I made it out. And

Scott Benner 58:27
now that I'm an adult, there's nothing better than being told you're wrong by a 10 year old, that's for sure. I

Raylyn 58:32
know See, see it from the other side now too. You're like,

Scott Benner 58:35
Oh, I just thought I don't hit anybody when, when they're put out. I'm wrong. Amen, I stand there and I go, Oh God, I'm wrong. Yeah, right. Not only that, but this dipshit over here, they can't even, like, feed themselves, like, was able to figure it out,

Raylyn 58:49
right? Life is wild and humbling, isn't it? Do

Scott Benner 58:53
you like, how I told you before we started? Like, if you don't curse, I probably won't, but yet, you haven't cursed, and I've cursed. No,

Raylyn 58:58
I'm so proud of myself, because, yeah, I

Scott Benner 59:02
know where you're from. I know you want to curse with me, but you're just not. No,

Raylyn 59:05
I was, I didn't know who was going to come out today. Was it going to be like, funny? Raylan, anxious. Raylan, we be Raylan, like, curse like a sailor. Ray Lynn, so I'm just kind of along for the ride too. So you're

Scott Benner 59:15
doing awesome. Thanks. Advocating in healthcare settings. We've had an experience. Your daughter had her tonsils removed, we specifically asked to have it done at the hospital in case she needed glucose or fluids or whatever. We were put on the exact same floor of the hospital where she was diagnosed. Tell me more about the story. Yeah,

Raylyn 59:32
so this was pretty wild, so me thinking I was super prepared, and I knew it was going to happen, right? So we're, like, a year into having type one, she needs her tonsils out. I'm like, Can we do it in the hospital so that she can be monitored? Because I know she's at that point, she was my second kiddo to have the surgery. So I was like, I know she's not going to want to eat. I know it's going to be difficult, and I would rather be at a hospital immediately after surgery to make sure we're cool before I go home and have to figure this out. And it. Was like, night and day, because when she was diagnosed, you know, we had the diabetes educator come in. We had multiple people coming in and showing us how to use insulin. And overall, had, like, a really good hospital experience of them educating us, which I know is not the norm. They even had, like, this is the children's floor, like they had this playroom with all these toys and all these things going on. And so I come in a year later expecting to walk in with a pump and a CGM, and have to advocate a little bit, but also kind of expected, like, a base level of understanding. And there was, like none. It was like, felt like a completely different hospital. They still took good care of us and like, they let us have the CGM, they let me do everything with the pump. But the whole thing I said from the get go, was like, I'm really worried in case she goes low or Yeah, and like, she's not going to be ingesting anything. So that was the whole reason we were at the hospital. And I was very vocal about it, and then one night, she went low. And I have no idea why she went low. I don't know if, like, I dosed her wrong. I think it might have been because I probably still had her on automated mode, and I was kind of scared of manual at that point. With an Omnipod, she's like, going low. I buzzed the nurse. I'm like, Hey, I'm trying to give her, like, everything. I have ice cream, I have juice. Like, I'm trying to get her to eat anything because she's starting to trend low. I'm like, I gonna need some help. And she's like, okay, and she just kind of walks off, and I'm expecting her to, like, come back, like, we have the IV hooked up with fluids, you know, and hook in whatever she needs to and then she's, like, in the 40s, and like, Buzz. I'm like, You need to get, like, what's going on? Oh, you know. And they were just so, like, non understanding of the urgency. And I think looking back, there are things I could have done on my own. Like, my brain was so fixated on, I'm here, we have an IV. Like, this is the path to take. Like, I could have put a little something in her mouth, you know, and just handled it myself. But it was just interesting in the span of a year, the experience of, like, they didn't really even know what type one was, or how it worked, or the urgency of a blood sugar is 40. Like, in my mind, you should be like, running out there and calling someone and coming back in with

Scott Benner 1:02:18
a bag, you know. So first of all, was she okay? Like, can you look back? Yeah, she was

Raylyn 1:02:22
okay. I don't remember, slowly enough that by the time they finally did come in with something, it was okay. Or I don't remember if I finally got her to eat something. I don't remember that part of it, but I do remember sitting there and just, I mean, anytime there's like, a severe low blood sugar, like, in my mind, there are certain times where you know it's coming back up. And there's some times where you're kind of in a it's coming up slower than you'd like it. And so I kind of always Mentally take stock of, like, where's my glucagon at, you know, so that if I have to run, I know. So I actually, like, you know, had it in a hand and was ready. But

Scott Benner 1:02:53
what shocked you more? Did you feel like they didn't understand, or did you feel like they understood? But you were shocked by the kind of slowness of the response, like, looking back on it now, like, what was the part that got to you?

Raylyn 1:03:05
Yeah, I the lack of understanding. Because I think, you know, like, you have expectations that you don't realize you have. And I had an expectation, since we had been diagnosed at that hospital and stayed there for like three days, and they basically knew everything and helped. Yeah, yeah. I had an understanding, at least, like, a base knowledge, of, like, this is a low blood sugar and this is, like, an emergency situation if she can't eat, right? You know,

Scott Benner 1:03:30
it's been going over enough on the podcast, like, and we've had doctors on to talk about it and everything. And I don't know how to put it exactly, like, right? Somewhere between, they don't have a lot of experience with it, yeah? They also have a lot of type twos like that they see. So, like, you know, a low blood sugar with a type two who's not on insulin, like, probably doesn't make the same like, bells go off in people's heads, right? And then from there, they're so accustomed, like, you know, you don't want people in hospitals freaking out, right? Yeah? Like, a great nurse wouldn't be somebody who's like, Oh, my God, you were shot,

Raylyn 1:04:05
right? Which is why I'm not a nurse. I would be that person, yeah, I

Scott Benner 1:04:07
want someone working the steps, you know what I mean, like, right? And at the same time, what we wouldn't see, and I definitely wouldn't see it if I was in your situation, is that if your kid has a seizure, they'll do something about like, they always are thinking about it that way, like, well, like, we'll probably stop it. If we don't stop it, then we'll do this to stop it. I think they're just running through a checklist, right? They don't live with it mostly. So, like, you don't understand where all the fear is. And they're not accustomed, I'll tell you what else too, like to be a little, like, spicy here. They're not accustomed to you understanding what's happening, right? So you don't have opinions, right? If you were in there for a broken leg and your fever started going up, and you said, hey, my temperatures going up, they might know that it's like, you know, sepsis coming on, right? But you don't, they just go on. We'll get you some Tylenol. That'll be okay. And then you don't, you don't have opinions after that. So there. Also not accustomed to people having opinions. It's, it's a very complicated relationship, you know, when you're in a hospital, but the truth, in the end, the truth is, and I hate saying this, because I know it feels unfair. If you're going into a situation a doctor's office, in an emergent care in an emergency room in a hospital, you really do need to be an advocate for yourself, and that does mean paying attention far and wider than you expect, right? You have to be in charge, speaking up, staying, you know, on them like, you know, I've told people this story before, but, but my mom gets a cancer diagnosis, and the first doctor that sees her, she's older and she's got a big tumor, and he doesn't want to kill her, like, during surgery, so he just says, like, you know, we'll just manage, we basically, like, we'll manage her out. You know what? I mean, like, we'll make sure she doesn't feel any pain. She'll be out here in a couple of months. Blah, blah, blah. I mean, we were, you know, it's bigger, it feels bigger picture, but it's the same, it's the same conversation, right? I was standing outside, like staring, and my wife's like, what's wrong? And I was like, my mom's gonna die, and I think there's something I can do about it, and I don't know what to do, right? And I just stood there and just racked my brain. Like I was like, I don't know if, like, her things really operable or not. Like, maybe she is just gonna die two months from now. Like, maybe there's nothing that can be done about that. But I had this feeling in the back of my head, there was something about the way the doctor spoke to me that it wasn't as much about my mom, it was more about him. Yeah, and then I learned through a friend that the hospital the doctor works at scores his outcomes, and he needs his outcome, so if my mom dies during surgery, it hurts him, but if she just dies, it's okay. He doesn't touch it. And so I'm standing there, standing there in my backyard, staring, and it just occurs to me that my neighbor's kid became a doctor, and so I once helped him set up a television, and I texted him, and I was like, Hey, this is what's going on with my mom. And he said, Oh, I went to medical school with a girl who became an oncologist. And not just an oncologist, but like a, like a female reproductive oncologist. There's a name for it. It's alluding me at the moment, he goes, I'll text her. So he texted her and said, Hey, my neighbor's mom has this going on. And she said, I can get him her in to see my guy, like the guy she works for. That guy was just old enough and just cocky enough that he looked at my mom and said, Hey, you're gonna die in two months, but I can try to cut this out, and it might buy you more time. And then my mom lived, you know, a significant amount of time longer. Now I look back on that time that she lived, and the truth is, I'd have to start a new podcast and talk about it for 10 years to figure out if the year and a half for two years that she got was worth it, right, versus what she had to put into it, right? I wish she was here so I could ask her, right? But, but my point is, is that none of this happens without having the courage to, like, push back against somebody who I saw as being in a, you know, in a in a role of, like, I don't know, like a doctor. Like, how am I going to push back guys like an oncologist, he's got, he's a surgeon. He must know more than me, right? But I heard something in his voice, and I was like, I think this isn't really what he's telling me. Then I didn't have the nerve to do that. Then I had to go find people to help, and I didn't know who to ask, right? Like, my pathway to my mom's surgery is ridiculous. Yeah, you know, my neighbor's kid became a bone doctor. What is that

Raylyn 1:08:41
called? I can't think right now, bone Doctor sounds really good. Callie

Scott Benner 1:08:45
Torres on Grey's Anatomy is this, and for those of you listening and then, and he happens to have gone through med school with a girl who happens to be working for a guy who, like, you know what I mean, like and but I pushed and pushed and pushed, because that feeling inside of me of like, there's something we should be doing, and everything around me is telling me, No, shut up. But that can't be right. And I think you should apply that to your

Raylyn 1:09:12
diabetes. Yeah. I think it's important to listen to that feeling, yeah, no, for sure, like in all areas of life, but yeah,

Scott Benner 1:09:19
oh yeah. I mean, listen, we're talking about it like this, because it's a diabetes podcast, but you and I could get together and make a podcast about general health or about your kids education, or about getting a pothole filled in your town, or anything else. And the advice is the same, my mom's story about the cancer, it applies to all that stuff, right? You know, anyway, right? That's wild. I think your list is done. No, oh my gosh. What a list. What a list you did. Well, well, thank you. I was like, Yeah, today too. I just want to point that out, in case anybody else say it like, you know how my kid won't tell me I'm doing a good job. Like, this is, this is up to me. Like, I have to leave my own reviews for the. Podcast within the podcast.

Raylyn 1:10:00
Do you need to hear this? Scott, you did awesome today. Oh, raylin,

Scott Benner 1:10:04
you didn't have to say that.

Raylyn 1:10:09
Lovely. Thank you. You're like, you didn't have to. I'm blushing.

Scott Benner 1:10:14
Stop it. I'm getting warm.

Raylyn 1:10:17
Don't well up. Don't well up.

Scott Benner 1:10:19
Listen, I not for nothing, but for those of you listening again, this is a pretty popular podcast. A lot of people listen to it, I somehow weaved in so many different ideas that usually piss people off. But here you are at the end. You're not even mad at me. Even those of you who enjoy God are like, No, I like the guy. It's okay. That's my gift, right there.

Raylyn 1:10:39
That that's your gift, that's what you've been given. My wife used

Scott Benner 1:10:43
to say you could tell somebody their dog's dead and that you did it, and they'd thank you when it was over. Yeah. I was like, thank you. This was such a compliment. You're like, I think that's a compliment, and I'm gonna take it and run with it. I take it as a grand compliment. I think you should again, my favorite reviews are the ones who hate me. But listen to the podcast. There's

Raylyn 1:11:04
something. There something for everyone. Makes me so happy. I giggle

Scott Benner 1:11:07
inside. Although those of you who are hate listening, you make me the happiest, like I swear to I take so much like giggly joy inside thinking of a person who wakes up every day and goes, this guy's such an idiot, I gotta listen and see all the things you say and wrong. Like, I love that you don't know that every time you push play. I sell

Raylyn 1:11:29
that. But you just, you just told them, Don't let the secret out. It

Scott Benner 1:11:33
doesn't matter. It won't stop them. Okay? Yeah, they can't help it. It's awesome, by the way, you have a mental illness. You should speak to a therapist if you found me in my personal life and asked me what I do for a living, I would tell you, I have found a way to help people by doing something I like and I make a living at it. And in my wildest dreams, I never thought I would put those three things together and that any of you could do that you would be thrilled. I am truly, truly lucky. Like, like, sincerely, right, right, yeah, but if you just take away the help people part and the enjoy it part, and focus on the part where it pays bills for a second, it's hilarious that I pay my bills off of somebody who hates my literally doesn't like me at all, hates me, thinks the things I'm saying are ridiculous, that those people pushing play on their player pays my electric bill. It's insanely funny. I'm tickled by it in a way that is hard to put into words. Like, imagine, imagine, you know which one of your neighbors hates you, right? Raelynn, just think for a second. Oh, please. They all love me. Okay, well, the one that is joking, that person is sending you $20 a month. Isn't that great? That

Raylyn 1:12:48
would be amazing

Scott Benner 1:12:52
you're, by the way, I made up the $20 thing. I don't know how. I honestly don't know what I make per capita. I

Raylyn 1:12:58
don't know, but I'm waiting for my check now, and I'm gonna start being a lot meaner to people if it pays. Yeah, no

Scott Benner 1:13:02
kidding. Also, I'm not being mean. I'm just being myself. I actually think I'm pretty nice, but I'm from the northeast, so a lot of people probably don't see it that way, but I'm just saying I'm from a group of people who do you want to find the thing? Hold on a second. So wait. So first of all, I'm gonna get you the name of the grape smashing. Please do Rob, right now is like stop recording, you idiot. I have to edit this. Sorry, Rob. No, no, that's your so first of all, if you go to YouTube and type the word grape Okay, grape stomping lady falls comes up first, which gives me a ton, a ton of good feelings about the world. Okay, right? Grape stomping. Lady falls. Grape lady falls, original. Grape lady falls, 20 million views, 6 million views. I'm gonna go with grape lady falls, 17 years ago, 20 million views. Okay. Now hold on, okay. Can you hear this? These

Speaker 1 1:13:59
are filled with chambers. Yeah, I can hear it. And the winner this Saturday,

Scott Benner 1:14:05
none of this is important. She's telling her about the grapes. There's grapes in a bucket. All right. Now they're stepping in. Here comes the race. Ready? All

Speaker 1 1:14:13
right, ready? Give us a 32nd time. Here we go. So what's the deal here? There's a contest to stump. And how are you measuring who does the best dumping and whoever stomps the most juice wins an overnight stay. But it's not the only thing you can do. The measuring cups are down below, right? Measuring cups are down below, all right? And if you if you win, you have to say a shout to Ilan. And what else do you have going on here? Well, great. Something is what you're saying. You can come and spend the day listening to live music, eating international foods, having wine tours and taste okay?

Scott Benner 1:14:42
She's explaining the giveaway, right? And and she's about to, like, speed up to try to win

Speaker 1 1:14:49
tasting, vineyard tours, seminars, arts and crafts. It's a lot of fun a whole day, stop. Oh.

Speaker 2 1:15:07
Oh no,

Raylyn 1:15:14
oh no. Oh dear

Scott Benner 1:15:17
lady come back to the studio and the two empty heads in the studio. Oh, no. Oh, dear. I hope she's okay. She's not okay. She was begging pain to stop. Oh, she hits the earth. She goes, Oh, stop, stop. God. Anyway, I find that hilarious. Oh, gosh, that. And then hold on, one second fire, let's see. How do we do this? Philadelphia? Man, catches. Kid, eagles. Player, let's see if that gets us to it. There's no way that does. Oh, yeah, here it is. Philly fire. Witness, goes viral for shading. Eagles. Player, Nelson Aguilar, it's awesome.

Raylyn 1:15:58
Shade people will do over football. Okay, that point,

Speaker 3 1:16:01
that's when I started hearing the fire trucks coming down the street, things like in the far off distance or whatever, like that. Smoke started getting worse. Then I seen a guy hanging out the window, you know, screaming that his kids was in there and things like that. So I ran to the back door see if it was open. And it was. I ran upstairs, and then I was breathing with smoke. I ran back downstairs. By that time, the ladder truck was pulling up, and ironically, being my, one of my ex, my old co workers, took the ladder off, the off the truck, raised it up and assisting people down. My man just start throwing babies out the window. We was catching them, unlike Aguilar and his mishaps. I like to put that out there, unlike

Scott Benner 1:16:38
Aguilar, oh my gosh, oh my gosh. The best thing anyway, move to Philadelphia, and he's like, we're catching a man is throwing babies out of this building, and we're catching them. Pause, unlike Aguilar, the middle of the night, there's fire trucks everywhere. These people have been catching babies thrown out on Windows. And he's like, let me just point out, I really think the Eagles need a better receiver, the football, the football. Oh, it's awesome. Anyway, sorry, Rob, put all that together. Make it, make it so people can hear it. And Rob, if, if nobody can hear it, tell me, can we steal the audio from the internet and put it on so people can hear it better? Is that legal? I don't know. You guys can look it up. Don't be so lazy. Anything you want to say that you haven't said that we should finish on. No

Raylyn 1:17:25
man, I think, I think I'm good, awesome. Hold on. Thank you for having me on. Are you kidding me? You're delightful. I hear that a lot. Do you REALLY No, I

Scott Benner 1:17:35
don't know you do if you don't do people like you sometimes, yeah, I don't care if people like me, yeah, I know, right. I care that's a problem. Do you really? Yeah, okay, the burden. Okay, hold on a second.

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Scott Benner 0:00
Hello friends and welcome back to another episode of The Juicebox Podcast.

Jody 0:15
I'm Jody. I am 41 years old. I live in the Minneapolis area, and I was diagnosed with type one in 2018

Scott Benner 0:26
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Jody 1:48
I'm Jody. I am 41 years old. I live in the Minneapolis area, and I was diagnosed with type one in 2018

Scott Benner 1:58
Alright, Jody, we're going to start very strong for me here today, because in the preamble before you were being recorded, when I tell people, like, what they can say, you know, like, you know, don't say people's names unless you're really comfortable with it. You know, try not to give away your geography. I randomly picked Minnesota.

Jody 2:13
I know I was wondering if you just knew I was there. And then before I was recording this morning, I was like, Oh, I wonder if he's gonna know I'm from Minnesota, or everybody will be able to tell from my voice. I don't know if I have a strong accent.

Scott Benner 2:26
Well, apparently my internal monolog knows already, which I don't have an internal monolog my brain knows because I Minnesota is not my go to state for, no offense to Minnesota, it's not my go to state for anything, right? Your football team wears purple. It's cold. There's a lot to go against you. You know,

Jody 2:41
they never win any sports championships or anything. Yeah, no, no,

Scott Benner 2:45
right? I mean, weren't the North Stars good 25 years ago for five seconds?

Jody 2:49
Yeah? Yep. We all love them. Then they leave. Then, yeah. And you know what? The Lakers left too. We used to have the Lakers and yeah, now we're the Timberwolves.

Scott Benner 2:57
Well, if it was like 70 degrees warmer there in the winter people might stay,

Jody 3:01
Yeah, seriously, it gets pretty brutal for a while. No

Scott Benner 3:05
kidding. Are you from there? Like, born and bred? Yep. I

Jody 3:08
grew up in, like, rural Minnesota, about 50 minutes from where I am now, but I escaped there Twin City

Scott Benner 3:15
area. Did you tell me you were 41 did I hear that? Yep, okay, just turned 41 Oh, happy birthday. Thank you, yeah. How old were you when you were diagnosed? So

Jody 3:25
I was diagnosed a week before my birthday, and that was two days, 2018 so you're good at math. Am

Scott Benner 3:33
I seven years ago? Yeah, okay, seven years ago. So that would have made you Oh, geez, 34

Jody 3:40
Yeah, that sounds right, because my son, I have a son, he's almost 10, and he was pretty young when I got diagnosed, three, four, somewhere around there, okay,

Scott Benner 3:48
and the big part of your story, do you feel like happens before your diagnosis?

Jody 3:53
Yeah, a lot of it and it the diagnosis made things pretty complicated. Okay, so

Scott Benner 4:00
tell people what you were struggling with prior to that and when that started, and how long it had been going on.

Jody 4:07
So when I was about 17 or 18 years old, I went on this diet that, you know, my mom won't listen to this because she doesn't know anything about technology, but she told me that when her friends were in high school, they did this apple diet, where they would eat normal and they'd eat an apple for lunch. And so one of my friends and I, we decided to try it just for, you know, kicks. And so nothing really came of that, until I saw myself in pictures from prom, and I noticed that I lost weight, and I liked how it looked. So from there, I started restricting my intake, and I got to a pretty low weight. It didn't take very long, though, until that turned into binging and purging. That was pretty quick.

Scott Benner 4:51
Give me an idea of your like, I'm looking at a photo of you. Are you five? Four ish, oh no, I'm about five eight yo. You're. Tall. Where was your weight in high school? I probably, I

Jody 5:03
know on my, you know, actually, I didn't really weigh myself in high school unless I went to the doctor. We always had a scale at my my parents house, and I know I stepped on it, but I have no idea what my weight was, whereas now I could tell you what my weight was to the 10th, you know, on any given day. So it

Scott Benner 5:20
was just visual for you, like you guys did the apple thing, and then you see a photo, and you say, Oh, I'm it's weird for people to think that you didn't have a lot of photos of yourself when you were younger. But I

Jody 5:29
know, yeah, but, but I do know on my when I turned 18, my driver's license said 135 oh, okay, so I kind of have an idea.

Scott Benner 5:38
And in five eight, that's, I mean, pretty normal, I think so, yeah,

Jody 5:42
I was in sports, so I had a lot of muscle, and I, you know, yeah,

Scott Benner 5:46
so, so in your mind, looking back like you, you didn't have fat to lose in high school.

Jody 5:51
No, no, I say, All right, I had a good I had a good booty, but that's about it, congratulations.

Scott Benner 5:56
Okay, so all this happens. You see the photo, you like it you start, you're restricting your food. How long do you think? Is it months or years, like the binging and the purging to start? So

Jody 6:08
I know that that summer I started restricting to about, you know, 700 calories a day, and then I went to college did this is also when a lot of my alcohol abuse came into play. When I was in my small town. I didn't notice it much, because everyone did it there. We went to bonfires and we partied in fields, and, you know, the cops would come and we'd run and hide in fields, and it was just normal there, yeah, and when I went to college, then it really started more towards Thursday, Friday, Saturday, so it still felt kind of normal. I was blacking out things like that, and the alcohol led me to, you know, I was starving, so I'd come home with my friends at whatever time in the morning, and we'd eat, and I would feel really guilty about that. So I didn't gain weight from that, because then I wouldn't eat till dinner the next day. And then it was over Christmas break, and that I remember the exact time I was standing in my kitchen at my parents house. Nobody was home except my older sister and I, and she caught me. Well, not caught me. She didn't look it that way. I felt caught eating cheddar and sour cream ruffles, and so then I went downstairs, I purged. I drove to go pick up my little sister from dance, and I remember just thinking, that's the solution. Oh, wow,

Scott Benner 7:26
so is the chain of events that you're eating the chips and you don't want to be because you're a person who's restricting their calories so much. Yep, someone sees you doing it, and then that lights up the part of you that you felt guilt like about getting caught, right? And so you would not have purged had somebody not seen you. Do you think that's right?

Jody 7:46
I think that's right. I really don't think I would have okay. Is that a thing

Scott Benner 7:50
you had ever thought of before? Or was it an in the moment, like, I'll just go throw this up. It

Jody 7:54
was really in the moment. Because, you know, I didn't know of eating disorders in high school. I grew up in a small town, nobody, you know, I didn't really know anything about it, so it was all self LED. And the ironic thing is, my sister is only a year older than me. We're best friends. She would never judge me. Yeah,

Scott Benner 8:12
you know, I understand like she didn't actually put that on you. It's the feeling you got just because another person saw you. Yep, wow. Okay, so then, as you're driving to pick up your other sister, it occurs to you I could eat as much as I want and just get rid of it.

Jody 8:27
Yep, oh gosh. How old are you there? I am still 18, because I was on I was at home from my first college winter break. Okay,

Scott Benner 8:36
if you could take a pause for that for a second, can you talk a little more about the drinking culture, yeah, is it everywhere? So,

Jody 8:43
you know, the weird thing is, is, when I went to college, I realized my friends didn't drink a lot like that. And I went to school in Wisconsin, which is a huge drinking state, but I went in La Crosse, which is really close to Minnesota. And, you know, I just realized, like a lot of my friends, they were in extracurriculars, they were in all these clubs where I was in sports. And the ironic thing is, the athletic people were kind of the popular people, but we partied all weekend. You know, people, it was so normal to just get in the car and drive home, because you're in a small town, that's what you did. And all the parents knew about it. You know, it was just kind of hush hush our one time we got busted during volleyball season, and all our coach said was, don't do it. I don't want to hear about it.

Scott Benner 9:29
Yeah? So drinking and driving, absolutely okay, yep, getting obliterated, passing out, all good, as long as you can knock the ball back over the net when we're playing next time. Yeah. I

Jody 9:40
mean, there was a lot of DUIs. I actually had two, and that's what kind of led me to realize this is a problem. My first one, I was coming home from college to go to treatment for my eating disorder, and I, you know, I drank a bunch of vodka on the way home, and I got pulled over, actually, in my hometown, and I blew the preliminary breathalyzer. Was point two, five. Gosh, wow. So, yeah, I did deal with a lot of that. And then Jody, stop

Scott Benner 10:04
for a second. Give me a picture. Here, you have a fifth of vodka in your hand and you're driving home. I cannot

Jody 10:10
remember. I believe, yes, it was in my car, and I don't know if I transferred it to, you know, maybe another container,

Scott Benner 10:17
perhaps, but, yeah, but this seemed I understand. You're a young person driving to go to an eating disorder clinic, which is probably, I'm assuming, incredibly stressful and, you know, but do you remember what you were trying to do with the drinking like, Were you trying to get rid of a feeling go away in your head? Like, yeah,

Jody 10:36
I recognize now that it was the, you know, I had a lot of anxiety that still then, especially in a rural town, it wasn't talked about depression, wasn't talked about anxiety, wasn't talked about trauma, wasn't talked about and I think now looking back, it was the only way I could turn off the physical and mental feelings of anxiety and Depression, right? What kind of trauma? You know, I was in treatment for my eating disorder many times, and I didn't know what was wrong. I was like nothing happened to me. But now, since I've been doing, you know, trauma work and seeing a therapist weekly, it was, you've heard of it, attachment wounds, where I have no memories of my mom. I don't know where she was, there was no connection, and there was a lot of shame at my house. And my grandpa was my best friend, and I was only in third grade when he passed. But I think that was the trigger. And, you know, he was my person, so I really think that was the trigger, and then feeling like I never had a mom.

Scott Benner 11:39
Your mom worked a lot or no,

Jody 11:42
no. See, the odd thing is, she was a stay at home mom.

Scott Benner 11:44
So was she detached, like emotionally, from you or I think so

Jody 11:49
it pretty sure I was not planned, because she got pregnant when my sister was six months, seven months old, yeah, and so I don't think I was planned. It really changed her life. She talked to my older sister about how she was just trapped in the house, couldn't do anything, she had no friends, and I think I was the problem where I really wasn't the problem. I understand she had her own issues, but I think I was the problem so I got a lot taken out on me. Do you think

Scott Benner 12:14
she was angry at you, or do you think she was just like she separated herself emotionally?

Jody 12:19
I think she was angry. I think she was mad that I kind of changed the trajectory of her life.

Scott Benner 12:24
And I know people this has happened to I'm sorry, yeah, yeah, yeah. Oh, wow. Okay, so you, for whatever reason, you feel like you were an anxious person, very

Jody 12:34
Yeah, and a lot of feelings. And you know, my son's the same way, and now we talk about it, and I tell him it's okay. And when he's having big feelings, I sit by him and just let him feel him, and then we talk about him and how, you know, I really admire him because he feels a lot and talks to me about it, and I couldn't do that when I was younger.

Scott Benner 12:53
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Jody 15:33
Okay, so now I'm able to see that is because it's still active. I'm in a lot of therapy. I'm making strides, but I think the restricting makes me feel, let's see, probably safer. You know, it doesn't make you safer, but I feel safer. I don't have to feel feelings. I can focus on that, because I know when I eat a little bit more than I want, I just almost panic, and there's a lot of shame, and I don't know what to do, and my head starts spinning. The binging, I think, silences everything, like, just makes me numb. And then the purging, I think, releases all these feelings, like, it just gets them all

Scott Benner 16:11
out. Okay, wow. How long did it take you to figure that out?

Jody 16:15
You know, I had therapists over the years, and now I really have, like, my dream team. They're solid, and I trust them all. And I think really, it started during COVID Because I was furloughed. I took a furlough because I actually made more money. I was in child care at the time, and I started doing more therapy just over zoom. And I think that's when it really I started putting it together

Scott Benner 16:35
five years ago, maybe, yeah, okay. And so prior to that, you were, you lived like this for 20 years. Maybe? Yeah, I was just

Jody 16:43
like, I don't know what's wrong with me. What do I do? This is just a control thing. I need to just figure this out. Oh,

Scott Benner 16:48
you just thought you had to figure out how to stop yourself from doing it. Yeah, I see the process, the binging and the purging that process. Do you think it did it give you, like, something to do, like a hot like, I don't want to call it a hobby, but like the enemy, did it give you a focus? Give you a focus? Like another thing you don't need to distract yourself? Yeah, I noticed

Jody 17:06
I'm a very busy person. I have trouble sitting still. That was how my mom was. I still go home, and I feel very anxious around her. She's always kind of hovering. And when we were younger, you know, we'd go to volleyball practice for five hours in the summer before the season started, and we'd get home and my mom would be like, Why are you guys sitting on the couch? I'll give you something to do. So I'm pretty busy. And I realized when all my things are done and I have nothing to do, I don't know how to just be. I don't know how to sit and watch a show. I don't know how to do a puzzle. I don't know, you know how to just be at my house, yeah? And so I think, and that's, you know, I think that's what it was

Scott Benner 17:47
talking to me more. She was always hovering. What does that mean? Yeah,

Jody 17:51
it was so our couch, our back was to the kitchen, and she was always in the kitchen doing stuff. Who knows what she was doing. But it just always felt like she was there and watching and shaming us. And you know, if there was something sticky on the cupboard, she wouldn't wipe it up, or say, Hey, can someone come wipe this up? Who was ever in the kitchen? She would be like, well, the kitchen is sticky, and nobody ever cleans up after themselves, and they just expect me to. And, you know, so it's always just, that's how she communicated.

Scott Benner 18:18
Okay, I've had those thoughts. I just want to say, Yeah,

Jody 18:22
I know same. And you have to take a deep breath and try not to say him, my son is a disaster.

Scott Benner 18:29
How many kids do you have? Just one? Just one. Okay. Are you married? Not married? No,

Jody 18:34
I'm single. His dad and I actually split up when I when he was about three months old, and that was for the better. We co parent much better. We were together for four years, and we weren't happy. So I actually didn't find out I was pregnant till 21 weeks, but I took pregnancy tests and I was on birth control, so that's really strange. You

Scott Benner 18:56
were over five months pregnant when you found out you were pregnant, yeah, and

Jody 19:00
you know, I was sick at the time with my eating disorder, and so that, you know, that was shock. But when they said, you're about 21 weeks, I knew exactly the date in August when we made him and it was, you know, so it was like I knew, or no, it was July. I knew exactly when it happened. That's how infrequent we are. Intimate. I see

Scott Benner 19:22
okay, yep, lots of fun, yep. What does being in the middle of an active eating disorder due to a pregnancy

Jody 19:29
I was actually I had been in treatment, and I was discharged, and my team, they really acted quick, and they put me inpatient because I was still active in my eating disorder, not as bad, but still struggling. And I was put in patient. They let me discharge and see how I did, and I did not do well. So then the last two months of my pregnancy, I think I yeah, probably two months I was inpatient and then residential, just to keep me safe, because I didn't have much time to plan and wrap my head around this.

Scott Benner 19:59
Yes, oh no, obviously. But I'm saying like, for nutrition and for the baby and for you, like, how do you manage that? It was

Jody 20:06
tough. Inpatient definitely helped. I went on vacation when I was pregnant, and I remember tracking and eating 1200 calories a day, and I really thought that these people were trying to make me fat, like they would add supplements like ensure plus and things like that, because I didn't have diabetes at the time. And I was just like, I really thought this was wrong. And I was trying to convince them how this was wrong. And

Scott Benner 20:27
so how 1200 calories while you were pregnant was way too much, yeah,

Jody 20:31
like I thought, or I thought it was enough, I was like, that's enough. So when I went into treatment and I was eating, you know, like 3000 or so, I was like, This is wrong. I don't know why you're making me eat this much. And I was trying to convince them why it's too much. And I actually much, and I actually was like, I'm gaining too much weight. And they they're like, Well, you're in the last two months of your pregnancy. You're supposed to be and I was like, No, that's not right. I'm not it's too much.

Scott Benner 20:53
The baby came out. Okay. Things were the way you expected. Yep. He

Jody 20:58
was born four days before his due date a lanky little guy. His dad's six five, so he was really long, but he was 615 six pounds, 15 ounces. So yeah, okay, he was a skinny little thing, but he punched

Scott Benner 21:10
up pretty quick. And then how do you feel about yourself after, like, in your postpartum? Like, did it really hit you hard? I guess is my question. I tried

Jody 21:18
really hard. I did work really hard at it, and I did relapse. Though,

Scott Benner 21:22
how long did you make it going like, Oh, I'll keep eating like this. I'll take care of this slowly. I'll stay healthy. Like, how long did that last before you were back to the

Jody 21:30
cycle? Probably, probably a month only. Okay,

Scott Benner 21:35
what was it like that month? What's the voice in your head telling you during that month that

Jody 21:39
he is absolutely worth it? I have to eat, to breastfeed, I have to drink a lot of water to breastfeed. I want a good relationship. I want him to have a different mom than I had. And so I did try really hard. It just, it just didn't stick. I wasn't working on the trauma yet. So it was now that I've started working on the trauma, I'm making strides. I always thought like a different setting would help, a different situation would help, planning out my meals would help, keeping busy would work. But really, now I realize you work on the trauma and then those things come,

Scott Benner 22:10
yeah, it's a symptom of a different problem, right? Exactly,

Jody 22:14
and I'm, I'm glad you know that, because a lot of people don't understand that well.

Scott Benner 22:18
I mean, it makes sense, yeah. I mean, I don't know this is very simple, right? Like, if your roof is leaking, you can't just keep mopping the floor and think this is going to take care of it, right? Yeah? So, yes, I don't know that just seems simple to me. Yep. I think because it's unseen by some or misunderstood by others, like who don't have problems that they grew up with, or don't see the ones that they had, you know, or whatever, were people who were just very happy to say, like, no. Like, this is how it's supposed to be. Yeah,

Jody 22:47
you know, one other thing I didn't mention is the message I got when I was a child and a teenager at home was, you don't matter. Shut your emotions off and get out of the way. And so, I think my eating disorder, it shrunk me. It made me feel small. It made me feel like it was better to be small and shrink. And who you know,

Scott Benner 23:09
yeah, so How old are you? Or what year is it when you're like, 15, for example,

Jody 23:14
let's see, it would have been, Oh, God. Why can't I do this? What is 15/9? Ninth grade. What year were you born? 84 so ninth grade I was, it was 1999 Wow.

Scott Benner 23:25
See, I'm so old Jody. I just want to say that when I've now had an opportunity to live through a decade, another decade, another decade. And it's interesting to hear people say, because I used to say, like, when I grew up, this is how it was, right? Yep. And I was born in the early 70s. I, you know, I was brought up through the early 70s, the early 80s. If you would have told me that my opinion didn't matter, I would say, No, that is 100% right. Nobody was looking to talk to me, yeah. But I don't think it has as much to do with the time as I felt like it did then, because that's me saying, like, Oh, this is my world. This is what the world's like, but it's the world I grew up in, right? There were people who talked to their kids in the 70s, Oh yeah, absolutely. I mean, and in the 80s, and in the 90s and etc. And like, I was thinking to say, Oh, sure, back then, but then I realized you're not my age. Your back then is not the same as my back then, but it doesn't that's not really what we should be talking about. Like, you know, listen, I we don't like lay stuff on our kids all the time, but they have a reasonable understanding of how I grew up.

Jody 24:34
And my cousin so my mom's sister, she's sort of like my pseudo mom. For me, I connect with her really well. And, you know, her daughter and her they have such a great relationship. And it's, you know, I compare them, and I'm like, I wonder what happened? Because my mom was super close with her mom. Who knows, I doubt they talked about things like that, but I, a lot of my friends had such close relationships with their parents.

Scott Benner 24:55
What was the financial situation of the people you grew up around? Middle class? Okay? Or, like, upper middle class, not broke, not struggling, not two jobs, like that stuff,

Jody 25:05
no, like, my best friend lived across the street. She had a pool, yeah, yeah. I never had to worry about sports or needing money for something, or club sports, having money for that, or travel for sports. You know, we never had

Scott Benner 25:18
to worry about it. Do you think your mom was happy in her marriage. No, you

Jody 25:22
know, I never really saw them be intimate in the sense of like hugging or embracing each other or kissing or holding hands. So no.

Scott Benner 25:30
So maybe she was sad and alone, and yeah, and

Jody 25:33
they're still together. My dad's sort of her caretaker, and, you know, make sure she's happy. And my dad was really involved. He coached our sports. He played catch with us outside, you know. So he was really involved.

Scott Benner 25:43
Did you notice their relationship change when he got older? I guess what I'm asking is, like when his testosterone went down, did he get nicer?

Jody 25:51
No, he's always very kind, and my brothers just like him. He Oh, your

Scott Benner 25:55
dad's the kind one, yep. Do you think their distance was your mom's doing? Yes, yes, absolutely. Oh, I see, okay. Oh, I'm sorry, the whole thing. Aren't people interesting?

Jody 26:07
Yes, oh my gosh, yeah, they are very interesting. I mean, I

Scott Benner 26:11
don't know if it's a big secret to me, the whole podcast is about that. Like, I just think everything that you expect out of your life is not nearly what you usually get. No, not at all. It's so bizarre to think that, like, a kind guy would get stuck with a cold girl, or right, or vice versa. But the truth is is, like, I don't think it works the other way. Like, I know people who are like, in their head, like, I think of myself as, like, artsy in my head, I'm not actually outwardly artistic. I can't right. Like, you know what I mean, like, paint or draw or anything like that. But I have kind of, like, an artist mind. And I know other people that are like that, and my wife is definitely not. I look at those other people, and I think if I married that girl, we'd be destitute, like, we'd be in a hole somewhere going like, I wonder, I wonder if we can crawl out today and eat a worm, right? We'd have nothing going on, we wouldn't have, like, we wouldn't have anything together, and there's no balance. I'm very happy to tell you, though, like my wife and I balance each other out in a really, like, lovely way. But there are always things that just don't, I mean, just sometimes they're little things, but it's just she's not wired like that, or I'm not wired like that,

Jody 27:18
right? Yeah, yeah. And you just have to accept that, you know, right?

Scott Benner 27:21
If it's touch and kindness and like, that's hard. Oh yeah, yeah. Oh, so your dad put his energy, that he might have given some to your mom, he think he put it into you guys, yeah,

Jody 27:33
and he, you know, he worked eight to five, he owned a business, and he'd be home at five, and we'd be at home, and he was more active in the community, very active in the community, actually. You know, any boards that there are clubs or, yeah, he was doing that. So he had a lot more extracurriculars on my mom, but when he was home, he was attentive to us.

Scott Benner 27:53
Yeah, hey, did I hear you say have a brother? Yeah, I

Jody 27:56
have an older sister who's like, my best friend, and then I have a younger sister and a younger brother. Does

Scott Benner 28:03
your brother have this? Like, I'm trying to decide if this is a mom and daughter thing, like, Does your brother have these feelings about his life growing up? Or no,

Jody 28:11
I don't know. You know he's kind of, he seems to have a better relationship. And I think there's six years between my sister and I, and then nine years between him and I, and I think they were the babies, and my older sister and my mom have a good relationship, too. I think I was just the scapegoat,

Scott Benner 28:28
and also, like so your mom's got that new energy for your sister, yeah, and then somebody took the piss out of her by the time your brother got there, and she probably couldn't fight back nearly the way she used to, right? And

Jody 28:39
after she had my little sister, she you know, that's when she could have went back to work, because I was six and in school, but then she had my younger sister and younger brother, but then when they were in school, she went to work, and she loved her job, is just at a grocery store, and she loves talking. And she's like, oh my. Everybody loves her because she's really outgoing and she's funny, and she loves chatting with people,

Scott Benner 28:59
yeah? And you're like, that's not the lady I got. Yeah? So she she loved, I think

Jody 29:04
she liked life more than when she was working. She loved going to work.

Scott Benner 29:07
Yeah, did your other sisters get that, mom? Or are you really the only one? I

Jody 29:11
think I got the brunt of it. I know my older sister, she feels like she didn't get what she needed, but I don't think it was to the severity I got it.

Scott Benner 29:23
I don't think any of us get what we need. Actually, like, Oh, I know. I don't think it's anybody's fault. Like, I'm not going to tell you there aren't parents out there that are, like, terrible, like, there are. But you know, above that line of, you know, where people are, like, selling their kids, you know, like, like, above that line where people are getting up every day, taking care of people, going to work, making money, bringing home food, like I don't think anybody is like willfully saying to themselves, Hey, today I'm going to just disregard my children. I think people are trying their hardest in their situation, generally speaking, yeah,

Jody 29:55
and as long, you know, I yell at my son and then I regret it, you know, but I talk. To him, and I say, you know, that was mommy. I should have calmed down. It's okay. It wasn't your fault. I have problems too. Sometimes, you know, Martin

Scott Benner 30:07
told me the other day. She's like, you have plenty of problems. I was like, I know what my problems are. Thank you. I you know, see, you raise your voice, you act crazy, like it's tough, but you got to go back later and say, Hey, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that, you know, I apologize, and I will definitely try harder not to do that next time. Yep, yeah, it's it's just important. Do you think your son feels like his feelings are wanting to be heard by you?

Jody 30:31
Oh, yeah, and he is hurt. I smother him. We snuggle and we're really connected, like on the weekends, we, since I'm a single mom, we have sleepovers, so on Friday and Saturday, we read together in bed, and then I sleep in his bed or and he loves it. He says it's the best part of his night and best part of his day or week. So we're really connected. Awesome.

Scott Benner 30:51
I can't wait for 20 years from now for him to tell somebody on a podcast that you didn't give him what he needed. Mom smothered me exactly. Well, see, you know, it's funny, because I do think that happens. Oh yeah. I think you either get that, like I didn't get or, you know what, they did too much of and you're like, Oh, my God, I

Jody 31:07
know. I know we do our best, right? Exactly. It's hard.

Scott Benner 31:11
Listen, there's a lot of therapists in the world. They need jobs, so we got to keep having kids so those people can work. I have therapy today, actually. Do you really? Yep. Is there a feeling you get when it's over? Is it a lightness? Yeah,

Jody 31:24
and like, a lot of times I don't want to go, and I know that. I think that every week, and I'm gonna go, and then I feel so much better. I actually go to a treatment center. They have all levels of care. I do, and I've been through all their levels, but I go to outpatient and they actually have specialized in diabetes too. Okay, so I see a diabetic educator there every other week, and I do therapy there every week, and it's they're connected. I mean, I have no problem. I said, I live in the Twin Cities, they are connected with the International Diabetes Center. And so, yeah, so they have really great treatment for that. Too, awesome. And that is where I learned what type one diabetes can do with insulin, I

Scott Benner 32:04
bet so. Tell me about first. Is there any other autoimmune in your family besides type one with you?

Jody 32:11
Well, one my mom got diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis, but not until she she ignored it for a long time, but probably when she was about 55 so you know, her joints, you could tell something was wrong. And she started having trouble opening things and limping. And you know, so that is the only other thing that I know of. Your

Scott Benner 32:31
mom didn't have a thyroid problem. No.

Jody 32:32
I mean, well maybe, I bet she's hyper metabolic, because she is tiny and skinny and she can eat as much as she wants, and she does not gain and out. I

Scott Benner 32:43
guess that's not a thing they used to test for, like, right now, right? Stuff, like, when she was younger, like that, right? Brother, other sisters, nobody's got anything going on, nothing. Okay, so how do you figure out you have type one?

Jody 32:56
Okay, before we do that, I have to tell you something so ironic. So, oh, go ahead. I didn't know you're producing. Go ahead, that's fine. No, you're gonna love this. Probably 10 years ago, nine or 10 years ago, I read your book, seriously, yeah, and I did not have type one. I read your book. And then before I was diagnosed with type one, I was on Instagram, just scrolling, and I came across junipers mom. I think it's what is her, I can't think of her Instagram handle, but she was on one of your earliest podcasts. I remember the name, yeah, yeah. Wait, Juniper was diagnosed, I think when she was two, so similar to Arden. And I followed her. She mentioned you, and I listened to her podcast with you, and then I started listening to the podcast.

Scott Benner 33:37
Oh, awesome. But before you had diabetes, yeah? Wait. All right, let's go slower. I wrote a book about being a stay at home dad, I think in like 2013

Jody 33:47
and I probably read it in 2016

Scott Benner 33:50
How did you find a three year old book that was probably out of

Jody 33:53
print? A guy that I was dating just had it at his house. Why the hell did he have it? I have no idea. Well, the world's so weird. Oh, and I just picked it

Scott Benner 34:02
up and read it. Listen, I'm sorry for chastising you about the production of the podcast today, because you're doing a great job. It's a crazy story. So you're dating a guy. Was he a stay at home? Dad,

Jody 34:11
Oh God no. He didn't want kids. He didn't have kids. Nope, so I don't know

Scott Benner 34:16
why he had that. What? No. So a man who did not have children, who didn't want children. Had a book about being a stay at home dad in his house,

Jody 34:23
and it had laundry on the front, right? You were like, covered in laundry. Actually, there's a

Scott Benner 34:27
poster of it right here in front of me. Yep, yeah. It's not me. People wonder, but it's not me holding the laundry, right? You saw that book and he said, I didn't read it, or it's whatever, like, what I loved it, whatever he said. And you're like, I'm gonna read the book. Yeah, I just picked

Jody 34:41
it up and read it. So I, like, it because I like reading, and maybe I didn't have a book. Or, you know, who knows? All right,

Scott Benner 34:46
here's the part. Is this, this is the question I don't want to ask, but did you like

Jody 34:50
it? I did. I remember liking it, and then I didn't know it was you. No, of course, yeah, like, or when I found the podcast, I didn't know it was you, and then it was, I must have heard you talk about. On

Scott Benner 35:00
the podcast that must have freaked you out. I know I

Jody 35:03
was like, What the hell is going on? It was, you know, it was meant to be, I guess. Well,

Scott Benner 35:06
so years later, you're listening to the podcast, you're like, and I say something about that book, and you're like, I read that stupid book.

Jody 35:11
Yes, oh my, and I didn't have type one. Who knows? Also, it's interesting

Scott Benner 35:15
that books, I find it to be very interesting, because people who read it who don't have diabetes in their life. If you later ask them about the diabetes portion of it, they don't really recall it as much. They go, Oh, at the end of the book, his daughter gets diabetes, yep, I don't remember, right? But if you talk to people who have type one and they read it, they think it's a book about diabetes,

Jody 35:34
yeah, really interesting. They're like, Where the hell is it? Yeah,

Scott Benner 35:37
no. I'm like, Oh, it's a book about being a stay at home dad. And at the end, there's a little bit about type one. And they go, No, that's not how I remember. It so interesting. Okay, so that's crazy. I am definitely going to tell my family about this later and watch them Look at me, oh, like you're lying. They're just like, yeah, here's a story about that podcast again. Yeah. Anyway, I think that's awesome. So you, oh my god, so you fried my mind. So let's just go back to the other question, like, how did you figure out you had type one?

Jody 36:07
So I went to just my PCP, and it must have been, it was time for, you know, just my yearly physical, everything. So she drew all my labs. And I was pretty low weight at the time, and, you know, I had an eating disorder, and my a 1c came back. So this was thank God for this woman. My a 1c came back at 7.1 and, you know, they were like, Oh, God, that's weird. Just come back in a week and we'll check it again. And it was 7.9 so they sent me to Endo, and they're like, gosh, you have type two. And you know, my endo was like, I do not think you have type two, but it could just be presenting weird because you're anemic and red blood cell, I have no idea. And so I came back maybe a couple days later, and did the glucose drink, the fasting glucose drink, yeah, and all I, you know, you can't eat or anything, so I had water with me and just black coffee, and my best friend, I texted her, and she had a friend with type one, and I was like, God, I feel so sick from drinking that. But I think, or from I feel so sick right now, it's because I had black coffee with nothing else. And she was like, hmm, I don't know if that's it. And she didn't say anything. And then I met her later for coffee. And it was a Friday, and at about 458 on a Friday, I missed a phone call from Endo. And he is wonderful. He left a message, and he said, You know, I really hate to tell you the your test shows that you have type one. You know, I'm going on vacation for a week. So I'm sorry I can't. And so he hooked me up with everything to

Scott Benner 37:43
talk to, all right? He didn't tell you, wait seven days and we'll get back to this.

Jody 37:47
No, with, I can't remember if I saw an endo or diabetic educator, like I think I, I don't know. Maybe I saw somebody else, you know, instead of him. I can't remember exactly. Wow. And so I left there on only one unit of Lantis. Okay,

Scott Benner 38:03
and what about the shock of just having type one?

Jody 38:07
My got my sister, who I says, my best friend. I just called her balling. And she's like, Jodi, you are in the car. Pull over and she talks. She always talks me off the ledge. She's amazing. So yeah. And then I contacted my doctor, and she's like, oh boy, this you have an eating disorder, and now you have type one. And because of being like I said in the treatment center, I knew you could restrict insulin. Oh, okay,

Scott Benner 38:28
oh yeah, lose weight. You'd seen other people probably do it, because

Jody 38:34
this center, you know, specialized in diabetes. There was a diabetic trap. There

Scott Benner 38:38
was there a part of you it was like, let's go. I got a new way to do this. Or no, no,

Jody 38:43
i Oh, my God. I was so upset. It was awful. Where are you in

Scott Benner 38:49
the process of I don't I never know how to talk about this. Like you're trying to, I don't know what you're trying to do when you have an eating disorder, you're trying to make it go away. You're trying to stay on top of it, like, what's the wording you use for like, your goals?

Jody 39:05
Every day I'm like, I want to do well. Today I'm working on healing, and I do a lot of self talk now, like working with my trauma therapist, it really helps me to, for an example, eat breakfast and kind of panic and not know what to do and want to eat more and then purge and all that. But instead, now I'm talking to myself, and I'm saying, you know, in my head, Jody, it makes sense that this is scary for you. It makes sense that this is really hard. You're not used to doing this, and you got messages that it wasn't okay to treat yourself well, and so, yeah, like, right now, I guess I think of it as for, like, a forward trajectory. I just want to keep improving day by day, and showing up and being honest with my treatment team, following their recommendations. Last time I was inpatient, I did tell my outpatient doctor with the therapist. I don't want you guys to be scared of me anymore, because I think a lot of times. They were scared that if they pushed me too hard, I'd run away. You know, I did kind of a harm reduction approach for a while, and I said, I don't want that anymore. I know I can recover. I don't want the harm reduction approach. I want you to push me and I want to follow your recommendations. Okay,

Scott Benner 40:15
so you're just trying to have positive forward momentum. Yep. That's your goal every day. Yep. Okay, gosh, so when that's your goal, and now you have this new traumatic thing happened to you getting this type one, and you're suddenly have the realization of, like, Oh, I've seen people manipulate their weight with insulin, yeah? Like, that's a lot of new stressors all at one time. Do you backslide from there?

Jody 40:44
So I did. The diabetic cares for a while, and then I was in denial. So I, you know, I didn't have type one. So I told myself I didn't have it. You know, after doing that for about a year, I, you know, the three month a, 1c, check, it was kind of creeping up, and then at one point it was 14.9 and so then I did get into treatment. That's when I really started working. I there was a new diabetic educator that started at the treatment center I was at, and I started working with her, and it's been amazing. And like I said, I see her every other week. And you know, at first we did like the harm reduction approach, and now we don't do that. We do, you know, this is what you got to do. The biggest part, I have learned so much for the podcast. I could be a diabetic educator. Okay, you've taught me so much. And you know, I've listened to everything, like the Pro Tip series, all the stories, everything. So, you know people, they teach a lot, too, just listening to guests on your podcast. So during the day, or when I'm eating, you know, and working hard at doing my best eating, my management's amazing, you know, it's if I go up to 180 I'm pissed. I'm like, What the hell did I do wrong? How did that happen? Where it gets into trouble is, if I'm struggling and say, like, Whatever, I'm gonna eat this. I don't want to treat for it. But the biggest part where that doesn't happen very often, the biggest part is, if I binge and purge, it skyrockets and then it stays high for a while. So what my her name's Gina. She's amazing. I'm gonna I won't give her last name, but her name's Gina, my diabetic educator or diabetic nurse. I'm on Omnipod. So on my custom foods on Omnipod, I have a custom food that's just called the dark place, and I hit it and it gives me a Bolus. And that's our goal right now. You just have to do that. I know you wanna not give any insulin if you're gonna binge and purge, but you have to do that. And so that's what I do.

Scott Benner 42:38
You have to manage the idea that, like, I'm eating and I know I need insulin, but I'm sitting here being honest with myself, and I'm pretty sure I'm going to eat too much and then throw up. Yeah, and it's

Jody 42:50
hard, because each time I go to do it, I'm like, I don't want this insulin. I do this to lose weight. I don't want to give insulin and, like, process the carbs. But one thing that helps me is knowing Okay. Before I got type one and these symptoms were there, my pancreas was doing this job. So it's no different than that.

Scott Benner 43:07
How torturous is all of this? A lot of brain

Jody 43:11
space. It feels like it consumes a lot, and it's hard, because I love seeing my graph a straight line. I love it. And at the same time, then I I worry, because I'm like, you know, there's a lot of pride, and I'm so proud of myself. And then it's scary too, because I'm like, Oh God, I could be losing weight by not doing this. When I see the highs from like, binging and purging, I feel so guilty, and I, you know, not, that anybody shaming me gets more guilt. Of like, I know how to do this. I don't want these high numbers. I want to be healthy. I want to live a long life. When I go into, like, the two hundreds, if I've been to emerge, that's good. It used to be, like, 600 so I'm bringing it down. And I do feel a lot of pride about that. I'm like, okay, it didn't get awful high. Like, still high, but it didn't get awful. And then when I do that, it usually comes back into range. So it might be like 200 for a while, but it comes down and I'm like, That's so much better than, you know, binging and purging at six o'clock at night and it not coming down till three in the morning. Yeah,

Scott Benner 44:12
talk about a little more. What did you call it? It sounds like there's a way to to be attacking this that's just about minimizing damage to you. And there's a way to be attacking this that's focused on moving forward. Like, what did you say? What was the phrase

Jody 44:29
forward trajectory? Sort of, maybe, no, something. Harm Reduction. Harm

Scott Benner 44:33
reduction. So is that a form of treatment that some people take like, is that the therapist saying, Look, I don't think we're ever getting you out of this, but let's try to reduce the harm you do to yourself.

Jody 44:42
Yeah, pretty much. And it was like, you know, harm reduction right now, maybe in the future, you'll be ready. And I guess what that did work with me. But also that didn't come till I found, like, the perfect treatment team for me. I really didn't think I could ever get better, whereas now I'm like, No, I can do this. I can manage my diabetes maze. Mean, I can eat, I can be healthy, I can stop purging. And it's, I know, I firmly believe that I'm getting there with the trauma work I'm doing and being completely honest. I used to, you know, tell one person on my team this amount, one person on my team this amount, but omit certain information, whereas now I'm just honest across the board. And I have a team that's, you know, they're just really proactive. They had a care conference the other day, not as like a threat, which it used to feel like, but as a like, are we all on the same page? Or we're helping her the best we can. Let's get her on board with these. So, yeah, it was give a unit when you binge and purge, whereas now it's like, Nope, we have to keep the numbers down. And that's what I want.

Scott Benner 45:39
Excellent. Can I ask, Do you have any other topics that you work with, with a therapist or a psychiatrist or anything like that? That's a side of this, or is this your thing? Well,

Jody 45:49
I guess, like, you know how we said, like, this is kind of a symptom. The problem, I guess, what I work with psychiatrist is with is, you know, anxiety and depression. But actually, just after Christmas, I was in treatment in the fall, and I stayed longer than usual, because I, you know, I want this foot, and it has helped. There has been forward momentum now, consistently. When I came to I work as a special education para with autistic kids, and I love them. They're amazing. It's hard work, but I love them. When I came back to work after winter break, my schedule changed, and instead of being with the little girl that I was with all day, I was just with her from 10 o'clock on, and I was bouncing around in the morning, and I realized how much that affected me, emotionally and mentally and just stress wise, I was convinced I was dying. I was having heart palpitations, I, you know, all these things. And I actually went to the ER, thinking I was, I was trying to convince my treatment team for a month, I'm dying. This is not okay. You're missing something, and they're like, No, everything's looking okay. And it was panic attacks. So I work with a psychiatrist on that, and I think, since it was validated, this is panic attacks. You are having a hard time. It's like, I instantly Calm down, and I do a lot of deep breathing during the week now. But yeah, so that's kind of what I work with the psychiatrist on. Is just that intense anxiety. And then my trauma therapist actually is a Neurofeedback therapist. Do you know what neurofeedback is? No, it's like biofeedback. So it's, I get all these sensors on my head, and she retrains my brain. I do not know how it works. It is like, I have no idea. She's watching all my brain waves, like the high beta, the low beta, and she's trying to increase this one and decrease this one. And it's wild, but it helps. And I could not tell you how it works at all.

Scott Benner 47:41
Does she ever bring up medication to help with that process? Yeah,

Jody 47:45
I am on medication. And she kind of asks how my psychiatry appointments go. She asks how you know my past week went, and she confers with my therapist every once in a while, and it's all kind of collaborative. And you know when I say, Okay, here's an example how wild this is. So you get these electrodes on and you watch a show, okay, are these sensors? It's not electrodes, sensors, and you watch the show, and she's training your brain, and what you want to happen is you want the screen to be full and you want to be able to see the whole screen. When she's working hard to train your brain, the screen gets smaller and you can't see as much. So your brain is trying to figure out how to see the whole thing. And she said last week that I had a lot of like, high beta, which is the rumination and the stress. And she's like, what happened? I'm like, I have no idea. And then as I was driving home, I realized in the show a song came on. It reminded me of my ex, but then also, there was a DUI crash where somebody was killed. I realized, like, those DUIs I had because of it, the man, his girlfriend left him, and so, like, I had an ex that left me because I had an eating disorder. And so it brought up a lot of that from him. I

Scott Benner 48:55
see do those moments like backsliding with the eating disorder, or

Jody 48:59
no, no, no, it's, it's usually like I realize it, and also neurofeedback, it has opened my brain, like I can think, and it just feels like I have brain space and I'm able to work with my eating disorder symptoms, more like talk myself out of them, realize, oh, this is why I want to do this right now. I don't need to do that right now, I can do something different, so I have more space to process through them. Tell

Scott Benner 49:25
me how the podcast helped you with all this. Like, I mean, like, around insulin, not I mean, if it helped you in other ways, that's great. But like, I'm asking around insulin,

Jody 49:35
so like, the Pro Tip series, I you know, the funny thing is, is, like, I know more because of the podcast than diabetes. Who have had it since they were young. I have learned I love oatmeal like I love it, and I have learned how to keep a straight line when I eat oatmeal cool. I have learned the crush and catch is that

Scott Benner 49:56
it? What I call that crush it and catch it. Yep, I've

Jody 49:59
learned how to do that. But I have learned that for me, when I'm low, half a glucose tablet works. That's all I need. Just little stuff. Yeah, yep, just a little bump. I have learned what is it expect? What you know is gonna happen. Is gonna happen. I

Scott Benner 50:12
love it when people try to mimic back to me this stupid things I've said. I realized the first time I said it, I thought there's gotta be a better way to have said that, but it was kind of too late by then, yeah, learn to expect what you know is going to happen, something like that. Expect, expect that what you know is going to happen is going to happen. Yep, that's what I said. Yeah. I definitely could have said that better just other

Jody 50:34
things, like listening to all the Omnipod episodes. Yeah, you know when I panic that I'm gonna go low, really watching the little like, not staring at my Dexcom, but watching the little dots and see, does it look like it's coming up? Does it look like it's going to keep going down and just like waiting with it, not reacting and treating it and then going high?

Scott Benner 50:54
Can I share with you that I had an experience? This is a long time ago, many, many years ago, but a person who does really terrific work for people with eating disorders said to me that, you know, I have to be careful because, you know, talking to people about how to manage their diabetes like this, like, you're going to cause eating disorders, you're going to like, you're going to like, make people with eating disorders hear that and feel worse and everything. And I don't know, it just I didn't see their perspective at that. I mean, I didn't not understand what they were the bigger picture, what they were trying to say. But I was like, I don't think that sharing with the world how to Pre Bolus for your dinner, right? Should be seen as a thing we don't say out loud, in case someone with an eating disorder hears it and interacts with it poorly. But like, you didn't have any of those problems when you heard all that information. No,

Jody 51:41
I consider why? Why am I having a reaction to this? And that helps also, I really tried, like, the Keto stuff for a while, and I realized that really was not good for my eating disorder. And I know a lot of people do it, and they love it, and I really think that's great for them. I had to unfollow a lot of those people, or just, you know, like, hide them in the podcast group, or if I was following some on Instagram, I had to unfollow them. So

Scott Benner 52:07
is it what they're saying or what they're doing, like, what caused you, like, a weird feeling?

Jody 52:12
I think it's because I'm trying to have a healthy relationship with food. And, like I said, I love oatmeal. I want to be able to eat oatmeal and not feel guilty, or like I'm

Scott Benner 52:22
that simple, like, piece of, yeah, being made to feel ashamed for something because you think you shouldn't be doing it. I

Jody 52:28
have a trip planned this summer, and there's a really great, popular pie shop, or, and then there's, like, a really popular donut shop. Like, I want to be able to get those and not say no, or make keto donuts. Or, you know, I'd like

Scott Benner 52:41
to try a bite of the donut, yes. And without it, like, cascading into like, Oh, you shouldn't have done that. You're doing it wrong. We have a way of doing it. Like, oh, so it's not, it's not so much a person who eats keto or very low carb or something like that. It's just the rules they follow that they're happy with. They don't intersect well with you, right?

Jody 52:59
Yeah. Like, and I already, I'm already I'm already planning it. I'm gonna bring some hard boiled eggs. Eat the donut.

Scott Benner 53:04
It'd be good. Tell people what you're using the egg for. Yep, I got it.

Jody 53:08
Like, I have to have some protein with this donut, or it's not gonna be good, you know?

Scott Benner 53:12
Well, you should put the egg in the hole of the donut. And that will freak people out pretty well,

Jody 53:16
get one of those bacon donuts. Oh, my God, egg in the hole. I don't

Scott Benner 53:20
think I could eat that a donut with bacon. I don't think I've had a donut in a while. Well, I've had one in the last few months.

Jody 53:27
Yeah, I, I don't either I don't have them, really, I have to admit,

Scott Benner 53:31
I ate it. And then I thought, I wish I wouldn't be that, like, there's just like, not wish I just like, there's, I didn't get anything out of it. I was

Jody 53:38
like, Oh, well, sometimes, even if I wasn't diabetic, I feel like I can feel like sugar coursing through my veins. Yeah.

Scott Benner 53:43
I mean, sometimes you look a little jolt isn't bad. I mean, I don't drink coffee even, like, I don't even know what a jolt feels like, so But seriously, like, after, like, losing weight over the last couple of years for me and for, you know, being on a GLP medication. And obviously, if it's obvious, if people are listening, then it's obvious to them. But I don't get the same rush from food. Like, yeah, and so it, and it doesn't, like, taste as exciting as you remember it, like, that kind of stuff, yep.

Jody 54:13
And that's kind of what I'm going for. Like, just like normal, like, not looking forward to eating all day because I'm not letting myself eat. Then, you know, I kind of just want a normal relationship. I actually, you released a pod, an episode this week, or maybe it was last week, and you were like, I just want to go get some shrimp and F and I was like, I have to go get some shrimp. Now, the way

Scott Benner 54:33
you just said it like a normal relationship with food. Like, oddly enough, I think that's what a GLP gave me. Because, yeah, I had, like, after the first bite of the donut, I was like, Oh, that was good. And the second bite, I was like, This is good. And then the third one, I was like, why am I still doing this? Yeah, I got the thing already. Do you know what I mean? Like, like, I got like, Oh, that's sweet. And it had a little crunchy on it. And I was like, that's awesome. I should have thrown the other half of it away, because I'm restricting my. Food, but because I've gotten that experience now, like the rest of it's just, you finishing the donut, if that makes sense,

Jody 55:05
Yep, yeah, right. You're just doing that because it's there, yeah, oh, yeah, exactly. Like,

Scott Benner 55:09
I'm not hungry anymore. The judge is gone. Like, like, yeah, it's now. I'm just like, Yeah,

Jody 55:17
well, and they say people had food noise, like, I don't want food. Noise, that's what I'm working towards, too. So it's sort of like, you know, you have that you have food noise, well, yeah, just with the eating disorder. Like, I'm thinking about food all the time, you know. And, yeah, I kind of want what people say they get with the GLP is just not as much food noise, you know.

Scott Benner 55:32
Listen, let's be clear before I say this out loud. Not a doctor barely went to school. But like, it did make me wonder, like, I wonder if you like micro dose that, like if you could get a little of that without the suppression of your hunger. And I also don't know if that's a thing that would be bad for a person who has an eating disorder. You know what? My treatment

Jody 55:52
team is really open to a lot. And you know, if I mentioned it, they'd be honest with me, and if they thought it was a good thing, they'd talk like Gina would talk to my endo and they, you know, talk about it. They're great. Gina actually mentioned that because I have big fears of going low dosing for binging, like, because I'm gonna purge and get rid of it. I have so many big fears of emotional she actually has started talking to me about maybe a Fraser for that, because then it goes in quick and leaves quick having

Scott Benner 56:22
some of that on hand. Now here's the question, Would having that on hand because it would help you manage your eating disorder better with your insulin? Would it be a great thing, because, oh, I can manage it. Or do you think it would turn into a thing where you're like, well, I could binge and purge more now, because I have the No,

Jody 56:39
I think it would help me manage it. And, you know, then feeling pre like, feeling good about a lower agency,

Scott Benner 56:46
yeah, yeah. I mean, listen, that's a great idea. Then get it on hand.

Jody 56:51
Yeah, I do have a lot of fears. Like, if I keep doing this, I'm not going to live very long. Like, I want to get this so, yeah, it would just help with the like, okay, so I think it'd be tough at first, and then it would become second nature. And hopefully I'm not using symptoms like that very long, but hopefully I would just do it, and then, you know, just become second nature. Okay, if I'm new symptoms, I have to do this, right?

Scott Benner 57:12
Can you tell people why you just said I might not live like tell people how an eating disorder impacts the length of your life. You know, I don't necessarily

Jody 57:19
think the restricting is it has never got me into trouble, like it's dropped my weight, things like that. I've been like, Dizzy here or there, but it's the binging and purging. I mean, you know, at my worst, I was doing it like five times a day, and it's not that bad anymore, but putting that stress on your heart for 20 years, and now with diabetes, and you know, not only the stress on the heart, but now I'm at risk of, you know, heart attack, and, you know, heart disease, and so it's just I can't keep doing this and expect that nothing's going to happen to me, right?

Scott Benner 57:51
It also can, am I making this up? It can also affect, like, the enamel on your teeth, or your esophagus, your throat, like those sorts of things too, right? Your stomach and

Jody 57:59
the, like, my teeth, knock on wood, are okay, right now. I have no idea how, but they are. So yeah, but yeah, it can affect

Scott Benner 58:07
all that. Yeah, in the middle of this story, Jodi, I think you're owed and are happy to take a little bit of luck wherever you can get it. So right, yeah, yes, that's awesome. You talked a little bit about, like, a like, forward thinking doctors. I know this is, like, still in the study stages, and I don't think it's a place. It's not a thing you can just go do yet. But has anybody brought up like Ibogaine to help with your trauma? Because, no, I don't even know what that is. So listen, I'm not the right person to ask about this, oddly enough, so I just wanted to know if somebody but I think that people are using Ibogaine, which, like a neurobiologic, like, you know, I think it's mushrooms,

Jody 58:42
like, honestly, oh no, I, I'm so open to that.

Scott Benner 58:45
Yeah, and they're dosing it, like, in very controlled the stories you're hearing, like, they're not like, everywhere, but I'm, I'm hearing them in a number of different places, right? That people with significant trauma go in, they get, sometimes, one treatment, and they somehow it releases their trauma? Yeah,

Jody 59:02
I'm really open to, like, micro dosing and things like that, and my team has mentioned it. I don't know if I'm right or not, but is it not covered by insurance right now? Oh, I don't know. The last

Scott Benner 59:10
time I heard it like John Hopkins was doing something, a study with it, and I think they're mostly doing it with veterans, like people who have, like, war trauma, yeah, but like, some of the stories I've heard, probably four or five stories from different people, you know, like my husband had clear trauma from, you know, from the war, and he did this, and he just came back a different person.

Jody 59:33
And, yeah, I'm definitely open to, like, any supplemental, alternative therapies, if

Scott Benner 59:39
you're reasonably certain that the eating disorder comes from the trauma, and then to go back to like an hour ago, it feels to me like some days you have two mops in your hand and one up your and some days you only have one mop, right? But the roof is leaking and you're always mopping to some level or

Jody 59:58
another scram. Balloon and frantically trying to put out fires. Yeah, and

Scott Benner 1:00:02
I'm wondering, like, could we crawl up on the roof and stop the roof from leaking, and what would that then do? Like, would you still have an eating disorder? Like, if you're if you could snap your fingers and your trauma, like, and all the impacts from it just disappeared. Like, would the eating disorder disappear with it? Or would you just be a person with an eating disorder and no trauma, no.

Jody 1:00:22
I think if I heal my trauma, I my eating will be, like, I will be a healthy eater. And, yeah, yeah,

Scott Benner 1:00:29
it has to be administered very specifically, and there has to be another medication there in case there's a cardiac event. If there's a cardiac event, like, you can clear it, like, in two seconds with the stuff. But if you don't have the right thing, you don't know which. Don't know what you're looking for anyway, this is not a thing. You shouldn't just be going out to the corner, finding a kid and being like, Hey, I think I'm gonna get rid of my trauma with mushrooms. And apparently it's another, like, situation where it's a very, very low dose. Yeah, there's part of me that's heard enough stories that thinks that if I stay alive long enough, I'm gonna hear more stories where there are clinics where people go and do this, and it's really valuable, right? That's my thought. But I mean, I don't I could be 100% wrong. I also would have told you six months ago that vertex was doing good with putting beta cells in a pouch and implanting it in people, except yesterday, they announced they're not doing that anymore. So I

Jody 1:01:18
know I just saw that on the group, yeah. So,

Scott Benner 1:01:21
I mean, studies like, don't always flourish, and there can be people who do well and people who don't do well. And I do think, in the end, like, if you're gonna see something be widely accepted, it's going to have to widely work, like, nobody's gonna put Ibogaine treatments out into the world if it's helping one in 10 people. But if it's helping more than that, you know, then maybe, yeah, I don't know. Like, it just it's so heartbreaking to listen to you or anybody that talks. I mean, not just you and me or anybody, like, we all have stuff in our life that if you could make it go away, there's just no doubt moving forward would be better and easier. Yeah, you know Exactly.

Jody 1:01:59
Yep, I know. And that's why I'm just glad, like, there's so much more talk around mental health and acceptance towards it.

Scott Benner 1:02:06
I mean, it's, yeah, an obvious thing to talk about. I'll tell you the one thing, this is not the right podcast for it. But you don't have to make a podcast for long to hear that. A lot of people are drinking too much. Oh, yeah. And just that, it's so part of the culture, you know that nobody even notices it, like the I mean, at some point it sounds like you were 17 and blacking out three days in a row. Yeah, yep. I mean, and your parents probably thought everything was good.

Jody 1:02:32
Oh yeah, well, yeah, we'd stumble home. They kind of just swept it under the rug. Yeah,

Scott Benner 1:02:37
it's crazy. Like, to me, it's crazy, but what I'm saying is, I don't think it's crazy to a lot of people,

Jody 1:02:43
you know what? Speaking of drinking quick, I had somebody come out and fix my water heater, and he was a diabetic, and he had on the tea slim, and he's just like, Oh, God, you have Omnipod. You gotta get rid of that. It's so heavy and, you know, it's just, you really got to get rid of that thing. And it was so funny, because he sat there and, man, to me, for seriously, an hour about diabetes, and because I listen to podcast, I didn't say much, but I was like, Yep, I you know. I'm thinking, I know all this. You don't have to whatever. And then I'm thinking, you're wrong. He's like, you know, the T slim, it really, it's really great. It'll keep you in the two hundreds, you know? And I was like, Oh, wow, thanks for telling me. Yeah.

Scott Benner 1:03:17
Well, here's a couple things. The T slim could definitely keep your blood sugar lower than the two hundreds. I know isn't that interesting that, moreover, listen, if he felt like he knew something that could help, like, it's nice that he wants to tell people I understand. Like, if it didn't stop, it gets annoying at some point. But what I hear in that story is that imagine what his life used to be like if a poorly set up insulin pump, keeping his blood sugar in the two hundreds, feels like a major success to him,

Jody 1:03:45
I know. And right now he said that he just talks to a doctor on Zoom every two months or so. And from what I recall, it wasn't an endo. He was managing it through somebody else who was like, sounded like a health influencer or something. And I was like, anything, but you're paying

Scott Benner 1:04:03
for a 220 blood sugar average. Great. Yeah, there's a free podcast over here. Now, does it feel weird? Did you say to him you should try a podcast, or did you just keep it to yourself? No,

Jody 1:04:15
I just kind of said a few things like, Oh, well, I found, you know, this works for me, and I have a pretty busy lifestyle, and so right now I'm going to try the Omnipod, and I'm getting a lot of adhesive issues, and I've tried everything, and I am open to switching to the Moby, or my team is thinking about the eyelet. So just if I keep having the adhesive issues, because I have, like, scars all over my stomach and legs,

Scott Benner 1:04:38
yeah, people who have a reaction to the medical adhesive. It's, it's just another level of sad on top of this thing. I know, yeah, it's, it's tough, but I get what you're saying, like you're involved in a conversation you don't really want to be involved in. You just want your water heater to work, and it's sort of like

Jody 1:04:53
politics, sure. I mean, you're gonna go back and forth and nobody's gonna, like, change each other's mind. Yeah.

Scott Benner 1:04:59
Yeah. Right. Like, that wouldn't have been the time to dig in and try to say, like, Oh no, have you thought of this perspective, right? Yep, not exactly the moment. No. Jody, I really appreciate you doing this. This was awesome. Thank you. You're very open and thoughtful about sharing your story, and I really appreciate it.

Jody 1:05:16
Well, thank you. It's so easy to talk to you. This morning, I was showering and thinking of you. And I was like, it's like, talking to a celebrity.

Scott Benner 1:05:22
Seriously, that's ridiculous, but thank you. It's very nice, yeah, and it's so easy, I would like to say I would. I don't want you people thinking of me when you're in the shower, please. I know that's why I added that. Or do. It doesn't matter to me. I guess it doesn't I don't like, just honestly, like, I'll end with like, we haven't cursed yet, so I don't want to curse and, like, because Rob, by now, is like, editing, and he's like, he's not going to curse. And then I almost did at the very end, but like, it really screws with my head to think that that whole story about the book, like, I wrote a book about something that I didn't see as being about diabetes at all, to be perfectly honest with you, yeah, it somehow ends up with somebody who's not even the target audience for it in any way, shape or form, you intersect with it crazily, read it, and then years later, are listening to a podcast. And, like, I think that's the guy that wrote that book that I found in that guy's apartment one time, like that, right? That stuff is all like crazy. Like, every day it's all connected somehow. I mean, I don't know about all that, but, like, it's nuts, I'll tell you that much. Yeah, you know, like, I just went online to give you an example. Let me see if I can find a reasonable example right now. But at this point, the private Facebook group is doing something like 100 new people a day. It's wild, but you can see where people say, there's intake forms like, How'd you hear about this? I heard about it from a type one parent. I heard about it from Facebook. My grandson has type one. I'm trying to learn more. I heard it from another parent. It's a listing on a podcast. Like, like, I heard from my doctor, my general pre like, these are things that people say every day when they're coming in there. It's crazy. Like, I looked the other day and I was like, number one in like, three countries. I didn't know were countries. I mean, I tell everybody about it, yeah, well, I appreciate that very much. Like, it's just my point wasn't that the podcast is popular. My point is, like, the way information moves around is actually, like, it makes me hopeful and like, I like, maybe we can get to the guy with the water heater. Yeah. You know what I'm saying, exactly, yeah. Like, because it found you in such a sideways way. Like, it would be very cool if it could find more people and just help like, if it helps people, that's really all I want. Yeah, you know what I mean? Like, I'm looking right now, because I'm looking and the Facebook filter, which I have no control over, caught a bunch of posts. And I think it thinks that, anyway, there's six posts here I have to approve. One is about adhesive allergies. One is about what somebody uses to help with that. One is about like a little girl who is having trouble with their CGM. One is somebody saying, I had a rough day. You know, sharing their graph wants to talk about it for this, you know, talking about diabetes being hard for them. Like, here's somebody just has a bleeder on a g6 and they're not sure what to do about it. Like, like, you know, me, like that. There's a place these questions can be, like, asked, and so quickly people will give you a reasonable answer. It's awesome.

Jody 1:08:18
Well, even, like, the CGM, so, I mean, I know diabetes. Who else you know? They see a bleeder, and they're like, I have to take it off, right?

Scott Benner 1:08:28
And it might not be right. Like, so somebody might come to you and say, Hey, listen, that might work. Like, chill for five seconds and see

Jody 1:08:35
yeah right, yep, check it, like, with a finger stick and see if it's accurate. Yeah, yeah.

Scott Benner 1:08:40
Yeah, it's just so much good stuff, like I am so happy that the people find it and that they're finding value in it, and hearing your story just makes me thrilled that it was helpful to you. So thank you very Thank you. I really appreciate it. Hold on one second.

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