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#540 Diabetes Variables: Stress

Diabetes Variables: Stress

Scott and Jenny Smith, CDE share insights on type 1 diabetes care

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Scott Benner 0:00
Hello friends, and welcome to Episode 540 of the Juicebox Podcast.

Jenny's here today to do another diabetes variable with me. And today's topic is stress. While you're listening today, please remember that nothing you hear on the Juicebox Podcast should be considered advice, medical or otherwise, please always consult a physician before making any changes to your health care plan for becoming bold with insulin, know this as well. Jenny does this for a living. If you want to check her out. Go to integrated diabetes comm you can hire her. Hey guys, please don't forget to go to T one d exchange.org. forward slash juice box and fill out the survey you'll be helping people with type one diabetes and supporting the show. If you do that, it really does just take a few minutes. It's HIPAA compliant. Absolutely anonymous, you do need to be a US resident who has type one, or is the caregiver of someone with type one. But otherwise, if you haven't done it already, please go fill out the survey just takes a few moments.

This episode of The Juicebox Podcast is sponsored by the Contour Next One blood glucose meter. Head over to Contour Next one.com Ford slash juicebox. To find out more links to Contour Next One comm forward slash juicebox as well as all the sponsors are right there in the show notes of your podcast player. We're at Juicebox podcast.com. When you support the sponsors, you're supporting the show, so allow me to thank you right now if you've used any of those links, or if you're considering using any of them. Alright, let's get to Jenni. How does stress impact blood sugar's?

Jennifer Smith, CDE 2:12
Do you want to talk or should I?

Scott Benner 2:14
Well, I mean, it seems it seems obvious, but it's not because I've spoken to people who get stressed out and their blood sugar's go down. So I'm wondering what you've seen from people on both sides of this.

Jennifer Smith, CDE 2:30
I've seen more people who have an impact of stress with a rise in blood sugar or an increase in their insulin need. It isn't to say though, and a good friend of mine, her level of stress, just like her level of like adrenaline rush causes her to need less insulin. Okay, like race morning, she is cutting her insulin down while the rest of us are like rage bolusing

Unknown Speaker 3:02
blood sugar.

Jennifer Smith, CDE 3:03
She's like, what do you guys all doing? Like you're sitting at like 82 like going down? down this high. Right? But yeah, I mean stress the same thing. For the most part stress will cause a rise in blood sugar relative to that like mental strain. It's kind of putting I mean, and then you have to determine the type of stress right? Is it a mental stress? Is it something that you're really working through? Is it a lengthy stress like several days worth of something happening? I mean, one stress I can say personally really increased my insulin needs was when my dad passed away, okay. I mean that week with going to family helping my mom out with a week and a funeral and everything in the process. I was using like a 75% temporary increase in my basil. Okay,

Scott Benner 4:00
well, it was a lot I'm looking here and long term stress can increase depression caused headaches heartburn, insomnia, weakened your immune system. Make your breathing rapid puts you at a risk for a heart attack. It can bring up your blood sugar, your blood pressure, pounding heart fertility problems, stomach aches, low sex drive, erectile dysfunction, miss your periods, tense muscles and high blood sugar. Yes. So when you're under stress, it is not healthy for you know, that's obvious, but it actually can impact your blood sugar. And I don't know if people would consider that or not.

Jennifer Smith, CDE 4:37
Yeah, and you know, in terms of that effect, you also then have to look at the length of time that the stress is going to happen for and if it's already impacted these other health pieces. If you've ever been under significant like work related stress in the past year, then you may have caused injury really too many other pieces. Have your body which until they get healed is likely causing inflammation and inflammation in and of itself also increases blood sugar increases your insulin D input increases resistance to insulin. So stress is bad.

Scott Benner 5:18
And well, I guess what I'm thinking is, like we talked in other variable episodes about, like, you know, I said, My daughter gets into the shower and her blood sugar goes down where a lot of people, you know, would say that might be heat, I kind of think that she's relaxing. Sometimes I think of it that way, like, and can you just chill out? And is that possible in our society, the way the way our days are set up, right? Like this is way more about, you know, your general health than it is about maybe blood sugar health, like sure. stressful moments can make your blood sugar rise, you should be aware of that. I've seen notes from people who have car accidents fender benders, right? And boom, you know, their blood sugar goes up, you think, well, that might be adrenaline, but then it stays like that for hours and hours. And if that's

Jennifer Smith, CDE 6:03
more that fight or flight, that's, that's

Scott Benner 6:05
okay. But yeah, I mean, I realized that this is somebody telling you be generally healthier, and you'll be generally healthier, which is obvious. But it's, um, stress can cause your liver to release extra sugar into your bloodstream, which over time puts you at risk for type two by diabetes. This is telling me here, meaning that if you're a long term stress, you're hurting yourself long term. Right? Wow. So is I have to say I use a breathing app on my phone. It's really helpful. I mean, just got one on my watch. Yeah, yeah, a couple times a day, it, it pings me, and I spend 60 or 90 seconds doing some sort of in and out breathing. It's kind of nice. I mean, I'm sure it would be better if I moved to Wyoming and lived on a hill and a cabin, I'm sure I'd be less stressed. Although I gotta be honest with you. I'd the entire time I'd be like a bear is about to kill me. I'd be incredibly stressed out by that. But you have to find a way to overall lower your stress. But in the moment, so in the moment when it happens. Do we Bolus weren't

Jennifer Smith, CDE 7:13
in the moment for stress is kind of like the adrenaline Bolus consideration, right? Do I Bolus for the stress in terms of like the car accident example. And my blood sugar's now shooting through the moon, you could Bolus at least minor amount. Because obviously, the incident as well as the skyrocketing blood sugar is not going to create anything that's more even flow. It's just gonna keep increasing your anxiety.

Scott Benner 7:45
Let me ask you a question. A personal question before we wrap this one up?

Jennifer Smith, CDE 7:49
Yeah. Do you?

Scott Benner 7:51
Are you so in tuned with yourself? That you always know because it's unfair, like you're here, like this front facing image of you is Jenny, who knows about diabetes, but you're a person to like I actually want to do and I want to interview completely about burnout just one day, like, like, away from all this, like the baby stuff. And but if you're stressed out, if your kids are struggling with something, and your husband's being a jerk, and somebody else is doing a thing, like Do you notice that? And how quickly Are you able to say to yourself, my life is more stressful right? Now I need more basil? Like does that in a real world situation? Does it work?

Jennifer Smith, CDE 8:34
in a real world situation, if you have enough awareness of everything that's happening, it can work to use a temporary increase to basil. I mean, many people I know who are using a pump, you know of whatever kind of pump you're using, have either a basil profile that may be termed stress, or they have a temporary basil kind of setting that's specific to stress increased need. I've got an override that's already programmed for stress. Thankfully, I don't use it very often right now. It has happened. I mean, in terms of like life, things happen, you know, somebody might need some additional help in the family. And beyond that you don't have time to take off of work. So now you're juggling and juggling and sleep, you might get three hours a night instead of your eight hours a night and that can definitely increase you know, but personally, yes, I've, I feel like at this point, I know myself well enough to be able to say my kids spilled the milk all over the table. That's not going to cause my blood sugar to go to 250 I'm just gonna tell him to get a cloth and clean it.

Scott Benner 9:49
I asked because I've become much more in tune with the idea that people have anxiety since I've been doing the podcast because I am a person I get up in the morning. You know what I'm thinking about nothing. I go do the thing I'm supposed to do, I do it as well as I can, if it works out great. If it doesn't, whatever, you know, and I move on, right? But I see my wife get out of bed. And she, you can like, look her in the face. And she's going through a checklist already. She knows what's happening today. And if what's happening today is something she feels like she can't keep up with. It stresses her out. And I've just talked to too many people at this point, who live in that reality. And I just wonder. I mean, it's, it's too simplifying to say to them lower your stress, because they're like, yeah, da, thanks. I can't, you know, so. I don't know. Just

Jennifer Smith, CDE 10:41
I know myself, you know, in terms of like, as you asked me, personally, I know myself enough to also say that I'm kind of like your wife in terms of like the morning time. I'm German. I'm a little bit like, like strategy, figure it out, apply it kind of you know, so in the morning, especially on the weekdays, I know my checklist of things, I have to do this, I've got this many people to talk to, I've got to attack emails, I've got a project, I've got a podcast with you. I've got, I've got this checklist of things. And I keep moving through it through the course of the day. But a stress to me, that would increase like my need for insulin overall would be something major happened to like a family member, and it's blowing all those things on my checklist, like they're now off the list. And like this is an immediate and I'm like, okay, must assess and redo and plan differently. And I

Scott Benner 11:43
only worry about my kids and my wife like that. I don't worry about anybody else. Like when I get in bed at night, I can see Kelly going through that like wind down thing she does. Like I feel terrible. Because all I'm really concerned about what is like are the blankets where I wanted to be and do I have my pillow flip the right way and is my phone on its charger. And once it is on like goodbye. And then I'm just asleep. where she's, you know, trying to decompress and trying not to think about tomorrow. And I feel terrible for anyone who's caught in that because it really is, it really seems like a place he can't get out of

Jennifer Smith, CDE 12:20
you. In terms of like overall stress that's I use that that breathing app like you talked about, I use that because especially in the evening time I really tried to stay away from like, technology itself, right within about 30 minutes of actually like getting in bed and trying to like fall asleep. Because that I found is a big impact for me. I have like one of those mindful adult coloring books.

Unknown Speaker 12:50
adult coloring book, it's just kids,

Scott Benner 12:56
let me clarify for Jenny. They're there. Because my wife actually has these two. They're very intricate, pretty pictures, not naked people having sex. I got your

Jennifer Smith, CDE 13:05
intricate pretty flowers and deer and fish. And yes, there was funny to watch you catch yourself. Anyway, but things like that to kind of do that decompress. And while my brain has an idea of what's coming in the next day, I'm really not too like focused on it until the next day, because I've found that I don't sleep.

Scott Benner 13:27
Here's an interesting question. And I will let this go after that. But say I'm pre diabetic, right? I'm like, type two diabetes is coming for me. And I'm also an incredibly anxious, stressful person. Is there a world where and I'm not pushing medication. But if a doctor prescribed like, like an SSRI or something like that, to take care of the anxiety that as the anxiety went away, and the stress went away, the blood sugar impact would go away as well, to some degree, I mean, could you get some win out of that?

Jennifer Smith, CDE 13:58
You could get some win out of that. I mean, we always try to encourage people in terms of like lifestyle change to actually make a lifestyle change rather than a medication addition. But yes, in all, whatever type of stress reduction you put into play, could have enough impact that that person on the path that they're on whatever stress management strategy they're putting into place could make them turn the road down the path that's going to prevent that now they're going to have to continue whether it's now I start taking a mile walk every morning, because it decompresses me, I think through what's coming for the day, and I'm ready, maybe they choose to start eating broccoli now rather than a handful of potato chips at lunchtime. So there might be other little things that they could do along the way that impact the stress that's on their body helps them to feel better or decreases the chance of type two or any other health condition itself, which in and of itself is a decrease for anxiety as well. Right? If you know you're doing something good to prevent something,

Scott Benner 15:05
even if it bolsters you, I have to say it would be criminal Not to mention in a even in a short conversation about stress, that activity, you know, of any kind is, is really good for your mental health, it just really is. So, okay, well, thank you very much. Friends, if you're enjoying the variable series, I'm going to list all of the available variable episodes in just a moment. But first, I need to tell you actually, I want to tell you about the Contour Next One, blood glucose meter, you know, bare bones, simple cell, it's really, really accurate. And that's incredibly important, especially in a world where sometimes we just get the meter that someone gives us, you can actually make a choice, you can choose an accurate, reliable meter. And the Contour Next One, in my opinion is exactly that. Not only is it easy to carry, easy to read, easy to see at night, but it has Second Chance test strips. So you can go in for some blood, get some but not enough and head back for the rest without impacting the accuracy. We're ruining the test trip. I don't know what else you want in a blood glucose meter. I mean, if you want it to be Bluetooth enabled so that you can launch an app on your phone and see your records. It does that. And it works fine if you don't want to use the app. So there's a lot of flexibility in there for you lets you choose. I mean, really, it's just a great meter. So why don't you check it out, it's super simple to look into Contour Next one.com, forward slash juicebox. He may be eligible for a free meter, there's a test trip savings program that you might find eligibility in. And it's possible that all of this could cost you less in cash than you're paying right now for your current meter through your insurance, I think I'm not sure. But it could work out that way. And if not let your insurance pay for Contour Next one.com forward slash juicebox. If you have to have a blood glucose meter, you might as well get a good one.

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#539 Diagnosed in Iran

Shaya is the mother of a young child living with type 1 diabetes.

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Scott Benner 0:00
Hello friends, welcome to Episode 539 of the Juicebox Podcast.

On today's show, we're going to be speaking with Chaya. She is the mother of a child with Type One Diabetes. Who was diagnosed while they were on a family trip to Iran. It's a really interesting story that I think you're going to enjoy. Please remember while you're listening that nothing you hear on the Juicebox Podcast should be considered advice, medical or otherwise. Please always consult a physician before making any changes to your health care plan, or becoming bold with insulin. Have you been looking for a place to talk about diabetes online? Look no farther than the Juicebox Podcast private Facebook page. The page now boasts over 14,000 members 10,000 plus active every day, conversations about all kinds of topics, you're bound to find the one that you're looking for. And if you don't, it's cool. Just start your own conversation. There are plenty of people there just like you. We're excited to chat and see if they can help. It's called Juicebox Podcast type one diabetes, it's on Facebook. It's completely free and private. Check it out.

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Shaya 2:31
So my name is Shaya. And my son His name is Suren. He was diagnosed last November, November 2019. And he is five turning six in April. Almost six.

Scott Benner 2:45
How do I pronounce his name? Sudan. Saran? Yeah. All right. I want to make sure I get it right. Alright, shy? Okay. So oldest child only child.

Shaya 2:58
And I have another daughter. She is turning three in March. Okay.

Scott Benner 3:03
So your your first? How about? How about type one diabetes or other endocrine autoimmune issues and your family? Are there any?

Shaya 3:13
Nothing? No. None. He was the first ever and shock was big because we even haven't heard about it at all before.

Scott Benner 3:23
Okay, where do you live right now?

Shaya 3:26
So I live in Canada in Vancouver. But when he was diagnosed, we used to live in Edmonton in Edmonton. So last year, yeah, Albert.

Scott Benner 3:36
Alright, so Canada, gender diagnose, what was the diagnosis? Like how did it arrive?

Shaya 3:44
Yes. Um, so last year, it was in November of last year, not 2019. We had my cousin's wedding in Iran. And we booked the trip a few months before and we wanted to go to the wedding. So what happened? When we were planning the trip, we decided to stay two extra days in Frankfurt, Germany on our way, because that's where my husband grew up. And he always wanted to go back and check the ad where he grew up, right. So we booked this trip. And then about a month before the trip Saran got very sick like sick as he has ever been before after has this rash, fever, a strep throat. He was on antibiotics and everything. And that's when he started. Like being super thirsty, peeing a lot and drinking all the time. And at first we thought about it was the fever and he's thirsty. So he drinks and then he wants to pee, of course. And he got better, but it continued and then the thing was, it was on and off. So he would be peeing a lot one day and one day he was as normal, so we didn't think any of it like anything about it at first. And then I did at Google it like, a week before we went to Iran. And it came like it went to a page that was explaining type one diabetes. I was like, Well, of course, it's not this. So Never mind. And then I went out. And so it just continued to kept getting worse. He was like, his behavior was like, awful. He came back from daycare every day in such a bad mood, he would cry, and like he would scream at her. So he wasn't himself, I thought. And I just thought, well, it's something in daycare, something's happening at the daycare. And he was like, yeah, we're going to Iran, we'll figure it out after so then the day we were going like in the airplane, just imagine we are in the, in an in a flight for 11 hours, the flight to Frankfurt was 11 hours. And he was going to the bathroom every 10 minutes. And I'm like, kid, stop drinking, just don't drink so much water and he was crying, I'm thirsty is good. We were water. And it was like, I don't want to give you more was to stop drinking. It was crazy. It's like taking a kid to the bathroom in in airplanes, hardware itself. Just take him 10 every 10 minutes,

Scott Benner 6:27
six times an hour for 11 hours.

Shaya 6:33
So maybe it was sleep. And then he slept for a few hours in between that was good. And then he woke up crying, and I'm thirsty. I need to go and all that. But anyway, so we got to find four. And he's he was so bad. Like he was crying all the luggage was the worst trip of our life that two days in Frankfurt. And then I started like, I called my aunt there. And my aunt is a doctor in Iran. And she was like, maybe she just us just anxious because of the trees. It can be anxiety causing it. Of course, it can be type one diabetes, but like it can also be anxiety. So don't worry about it. Come here, we'll figure it out. And then I was like, okay, so it might be type one. And then we started worrying. And then we were really worried. So googling and we saw that oh my god, he can go to decay. And we are in Frankfort. We have no access to anything, don't know what to do. And it just like it was bad. So then next day, we went to Iran. And he like the wedding was two days after that. So the night the day before the wedding. He got tested, and his blood sugar was 290. I think it wasn't that high. And he's a one to one. It was 9.8. Wow.

Scott Benner 7:51
So to go back to the beginning, he gets sick. Did they ever diagnose the illness? Or did they just give him an antibiotic all the way back at the beginning.

Shaya 8:01
They didn't diagnose it, but based on his symptoms, I thought it was a scarlet fever. It was very similar, like his tongue and rash and everything. But when I mentioned it to the doctor, he just said, Well, maybe we can never be sure if it's a scarlet fever. But well, he has a structured so they get on to I say,

Scott Benner 8:22
Okay, so the diabetes symptoms and the at least the strep throat that you know about pretty much start hand in hand. Yes, yeah. Okay. And even though you saw the information about type one early on, that probably just seemed ridiculous. Yeah, yeah. Right. Like it can't be this. When you are in Frankfort, and you're now looking again, and you're pretty sure this is diabetes. Do you remember looking the first time in that moment? Do you think oh, I looked at this last month?

Shaya 8:53
Yeah, I was like, I was sure this is gnarly. Like, how can you be? And like, I don't know anybody. And then I kept saying it can be genetic. And I'm like, we don't have anybody in our families. Like I kept asking my husband, are you shorting more do you have anyway? I was like, No, well, you

Scott Benner 9:12
know, you do that thing. We're in the middle of helping my son figure something out. And you know, when you first see a symptom, you go to the most odd, you know, doctors do it as well. What's the most obvious cause of this meaning? What do we see most frequently in most people? And then as you start as you start whittling away the possibilities, and it gets less and less likely that you have this thing, it actually is getting more and more likely that you have it because you've said okay, well it's not this it's not this, it's not this and as you as you eliminate things, you get closer to the answer. But in your brain, you hear like, you know, 1% of the population has this or 10% of the population has this or you know, it's very uncommon less than 200,000 people a year get it you think well it can't be me, but it's got to be somebody ratio.

Shaya 9:58
Yeah. Like about I don't know, a year before this diagnosis, I read an article, another article, something lady wrote in Facebook. And she explained all her daughter's symptoms, and she was like, we didn't know that we should be worried like these ones. She was paying a lot. She was like her. He were she was acting odd and all that. And she was just like, warning other parents to watch out for these symptoms. And then it ended up being type one diabetes. And I was like, Yeah, okay, so it can't happen. And I didn't even remember that. I did not remember it. And when, like, after my son's diagnosis, and after we came back to Canada, it was I was searching in space with type one diabetes, and I saw in like, a post, and I read it. I read this last year, and I didn't even remember. Here it is. Right. So

Scott Benner 10:57
how long ago? is it now? 2019? Yeah, November 2019. Okay, so your, your year and three months ish? Like right around there? Yeah. How are things going?

Shaya 11:10
I'm not bad. I would say it's, we're trying to, like, tighten up the range for him. But I had breakfasts are hard. And the school is really hard, because they have very strict rules at the school. And he's in a provincial plan here. It's called NFS. So they under this provincial plan, we sit with the nurse and set out the plan. And we don't have many choices in the in like, there are some choices for the parent, like, do you want to give five grams of carbs here, or 10 grams. But most of the places not like many choices. So then these plans that are then the nurse goes to the school and teach the EAS that are present in the school to follow that plan. And they are not allowed to do anything outside of that plan. I said, So yes, they're very strict. And then I can I can really play with things. So one, like we try to have him eat the same breakfast every morning, give him the same amount of insulin. But then one day, he goes up to 300. And it stays up there. The next day he dropped flow. I'm like, he was the exact same thing. I don't know what to do.

Scott Benner 12:29
Is he? How's he getting his insulin through a pump? Or through injections? Yeah, he has Omnipod. He is a pump? And do you see maybe differences on different days of the infusion, like the first day maybe works differently than the second day, then the third day, etc.

Shaya 12:45
I shouldn't start dragging. And we just got the pump in November. Okay. So it's been only like two months. But I should have had a good idea. I should track that.

Scott Benner 12:54
It's an interesting, it's interesting to look at also different sites. So different places on the body may affect absorption. And when that happens, then you may need you know, more basil on your leg than you do on your belly, for example, that that kind of an idea or maybe, you know, at the very end of the infusion or the very beginning of it, it might not work as well as it does in the, you know, many hours in between. There's stuff like that he's using the CGM. Yes. Which one with Dexcom Okay, and so that's interesting. His he's eating the same exact thing every day are other meals more difficult than

Shaya 13:34
So, our dinners are. So we eat heavy dinners. It's just our family time. So I cook the main meal for dinner is usually high protein, high fat probably. So he does go high, right, like on two hours after eating dinner. So eat at 730 ish, and then he's his stocks go up at 930. And I notice I just can't exactly predict how much insulin he needs. So I give him like I have an alarm set to give him some insulin at 930 every night. I do it but I am scared to give him too much because I don't want to wake him up and then some nights it's just not enough. So I will be correcting like to 1230 constantly given another half you need another half.

Scott Benner 14:27
Yeah, you you have definitely fallen into the trap of I don't want to do too much so I do too little and then I stay awake until my eyes fall out of my

Shaya 14:39
ears. Not every night. Some nights I'm great. They're like perfect. We just go with a steady till the morning. But I like I give one unit and I'm like great or like attract the food. Like for example. I know. It's someone he needs three units at 930. So I give him three units and it's perfect. But it doesn't always work. we'd all like the same food and I haven't tracked all the food, the ads all. Are your are your meals culturally, like different than an average Canadian meal? or? Yeah,

Scott Benner 15:12
they are. Yeah, so I don't think I've had anyone on to talk about it yet. I should be, because I've had enough conversations privately. But I know that a lot of Indian families struggle with the the meals that they kind of traditionally use. And I was wondering if you were in a similar situation, but

Shaya 15:30
yeah, they probably are very similar to Indian foods or foods. Okay.

Scott Benner 15:35
Yeah, I know, the, there's usually a lot of rice, right? for you. Yeah. And then that becomes interesting. And like you said, then there's the high protein the high cut? Well, at least you know, about the protein and the fat rise that comes a couple of hours later. Did you learn that from the podcast? Yes, yeah. Cool. Well, that's good. I'm excited about that. Have you considered things like, there's ways to manipulate insulin. So if you, if you know, for certain you're gonna see that rise 930, every night, it happens, you could use a heavier basil rate starting at like 830, that maybe runs for an hour and a half or two hours to try to stay ahead of the rise and keep it from happening, you could try and extended Bolus from the meal, where you might take the amount of insulin that you're using for the meal, and then go look at all those corrections usually make, figure out what the least of those corrections usually is. And then you say something like, you know, we're going to, I don't know, I'm just using, like pretend numbers. But let's say it's four units for the meal, and you're correcting with a unit and a half. So maybe you say, we'll push the button here, we'll Pre-Bolus four units, and then we'll tell it to put in two for like, maybe like 70% now, and the last 30%, you can have a drag out over an hour and a half. And you could almost kind of create that wall with that extended part of the Bolus. But you a lot of people make the mistake of trying to. So stopping a late rise with an extended Bolus and extending a Bolus for pizza can be different. Because Yeah, because sometimes people use pizza as an example, because it goes in it doesn't necessarily hit you very hard right away, but then it ramps up and gets you later. So you need less upfront. More in the backend, where with this, you need what you need up front Plus, you need more on the back end as well. So there are a little ways that maybe you'd have to be seeing it every day for certain to do something like that.

Shaya 17:39
Yeah, I have to try those. I tried. Extended Bolus for a little bit. I just didn't like it. It was like I couldn't figure out how much exactly to add. It just was frustrating for me. So I started doing this other one to track each food and see how much corrections I gave for each one. And then but I'm still scared. So like, for example, I know. We eat rice almost every night. So rice with stew. So I say okay, so he had this much meat. And I know that that amount of meat and rice and stew probably needs 1.5 units at 930. But I'm scared to give it because he's sitting at like 80 and he's asleep. And I'm like okay, so he's 80 and I want to give him like 1.5 units. So I'm scared to do is I only do half and then I end up doing another to another one. In the next few hours. Yeah.

Scott Benner 18:45
What about what's his basil rate an hour at that time a night?

Shaya 18:49
It's zero point. 15

Scott Benner 18:52
Oh, it's how much is he weighs he little

Shaya 18:55
he raised about us not to like Oh, he's actually always a bit like and one second. Let me see. I have his way. I wasn't sure

Scott Benner 19:13
if you were looking for his weight or trying to find a way to call him chubby without sounding like you were calling him but I wasn't sure what. I wasn't certain what you were trying to do just so she tried to be polite or she looking for a number you know, what does he weigh?

Shaya 19:27
he's not he's not chubby? Well, he's like borderline I would say based on based on internet instead you're you're you're a little bit like close to being overweight or something but I don't think so. He doesn't look shabby at all. Yeah, so I found his weight he was 23 kilograms. I have to convert that pounds.

Scott Benner 19:49
I can do that too. One second. 5050 pounds. Okay. So now everybody's basil. doesn't follow any strict rules right like, point 154 50 pounds seems low to me.

Shaya 20:10
Duck these doctors said that too. He said maybe he is still like honeymooning. That's why it's slow.

Scott Benner 20:16
Okay. All right. So then that was my next question like is are you possibly getting help from the pancreas once in a while? Or not so so can I ask him? What's his Awan say? It was the last was 6.5 6.5 does? Does he have a lot of lows? Like under 70? No, no. So it does sound like then you're probably getting some help somewhere because I would just like if you made me just guess without you know ever seeing anything? I'd guess that is basil is closer to I mean, at least point three five somewhere up to point five. Oh, right. So that was my other thought is that can you get some of that insulin that you know you're going to need for that 930 rise in a basil rate like instead of the basil being point one five, you know, maybe eight 839 3010 o'clock and that hour and a half? They're like what if you made it more like I don't know, like point four an hour or something like that and then got that insulin You know, you're going to need but you still we're spreading it out a little bit so that if you decide you don't need it, you can just like stop the Temp Basal rate, and then you haven't injected a whole bunch and then you don't need it. Right. Does that make sense? Yeah. Oh, God. Yeah, I think you're just looking for ways to manipulate the insulin to do what you want it to do and be where you need it to be. Yeah. Do you have trouble with other foods like when you like if you go like, do something that's out of the ordinary and food do you do better with a Bolus ng g vo hypo pen has no visible needle, and it's the first premixed auto injector of glucagon for very low blood sugar and adults and kids with diabetes ages two and above. Not only is chivo hypo pen simple to administer, but it's simple to learn more about. All you have to do is go to G evoke glucagon.com forward slash juicebox g vo shouldn't be used in patients with insulin, Noma or pheochromocytoma. Visit g Vogue glucagon.com slash risk. Couple things don't forget the T one D exchange T one d exchange.org forward slash juicebox.

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Shaya 23:51
So what I do is when when there's something new and I haven't tracked or no idea about it, I do exact exact math. And I put it in and so like I do I do exact math, but I do like put it in I do a little bit more insulin. And then I just watched him. And most of the times it's actually good. Yeah. And sometimes like if I see just going a little bit downward, I just do a Temp Basal minus i know 60 or 100 or something and it's just go Okay, gotcha.

Scott Benner 24:29
Yeah, that sounds like the way I think about it. So, I mean, what I can tell you is that over time, you get better at it in that you've had more experiences with certain meals and it just eventually you'll just, you'll just do it you'll put in the insulin and then you'll like it's been two hours later. I know it needs more and you're just going to do it even though the number makes you feel like they don't you realize you're just Pre-Bolus thing. In that second go round. You're really just Pre-Bolus seeing a rise that you that you know is going to Come but isn't showing on any of your data yet. So yeah, exactly, except for the data of historic knowledge from happening over and over and over again.

Shaya 25:09
So I know what happens every night. Like it's just it's not I haven't had a night doesn't happen.

Scott Benner 25:16
So why are you scared to do something?

Shaya 25:18
I don't know. Honestly, like, I hate that. When I have to give him juice when he is sleep. He turns like he gets so like, he jumps out and usually, like, hit my hand. And then the juice drinks all over it crazy when I want to give him to say, Hey, dude,

Scott Benner 25:40
did you ever you ever put the juice the boy, I'm sure this has happened, everybody, but you put the straw in and it creates some sort of a suction and the juices starts running out of the straw and you can't stop it. Have you ever had that? And it's, it's dark, and it's hitting you in the feet. You're like, You gotta be kidding me. And then you know, like, you get it cleaned up as much as you can. And then I'll like read, I'll say like Arduino you have to have a little juice. And I'll reach over. And if a drop of it should touch her anywhere. She's like, oh, you're spilling it. I'm not spilling it. Gravity is spilling out, leave me alone. But no. So I understand your desire not to give him juice. And I don't want you to either. But what I'm saying is, if it's proved it out this many times. You're just you're just ignoring reality. If you're doing that, like you're literally letting your fear stop you from stopping something you know is going to happen in favor of something that might happen, but that you don't think will happen. And that was not English. But you know what I mean? So go for it one night. It's Friday night tonight. Try it. Just go for it. I mean, what's the worst thing he drinks a little juice and you don't do as much the next time?

Shaya 26:49
Yeah, that's true. And I tell myself every night like last night when it was one of those night, I'm like, I'm giving him half a new unit. I know he needs more. And it's going to cause me so much though. I was up to two last night. I was like, Just give me one minute. We are done with it. But I have to I have this. Are you self

Scott Benner 27:13
flagellating? You're torturing yourself on purpose? Or will you? Listen, if it makes you feel better? You're at a place that I think everyone finds themselves at at some point. And now you just have to make the the more conscious decision to just do it. And so you can see what'll happen if you do it that way. Instead of being afraid you just got to put the fear away a little bit.

Shaya 27:39
Yeah. And I just listened to that Podcast, where you talk about that. And I think that was last week. I listened to it. Like, yeah, I can do it. I am in the process.

Scott Benner 27:52
Yeah, good for you. No, I have to tell you, to me, it sounds like you're doing extraordinarily well. And you're just you know, you're coming up on the speed bumps and climbing over some of them faster than others. That's all. Do you feel like you're doing well?

Shaya 28:07
Well, I think so. I do great with pizza. He loves pizza. And we do have pizza night once a week. And I am great at it. No. Oh, I get like I I'm proud of myself for those small moments of victory. You got a lot of compliments from his doctor on on our last visit was like, You are one of the few patients I have doing this good. You're like 80% in range and like he was happy.

Scott Benner 28:41
I'm glad that it really does sound to me like you're doing well. So I would be thrilled. Are you kidding me? Every time I get something, right? I just like take a half a second in my head to be like, Yeah, I got that. But then once it starts showing it to me over and over again, then you got to just trust that it's gonna happen, I guess. But you'll get that. So I guess I want to I know we're jumping around. But I'd like to know what happened. So was he diagnosed in Iran?

Shaya 29:09
Yes. So that's it. That is his story for itself, like, so yeah, we were in Iran. And so he he's legit. So my aunt is a doctor, I said and my my husband has a lab in Iran. He's also a doctor and he has a lab. So he went to his lab and they gave us the result right away. And my aunt was like, I don't know any endo like trician and endo here in Iran in like our city. So let me call her up and she couldn't find anybody. And she just went online, googled it and found a doctor. And she booked an appointment for us right away. So we went to her office and she was like, rude and she Usually like, you know, like you just got diagnosed, nobody knows anything around you. Like my aunt didn't know mine. She's a gynecologist. And she got in there, and she's like, your son is short. And he's two teen. What's happening to him? He didn't she didn't even look at the results. And I'm like, Can you look at the results, like test results? And she's like, Oh, my God, your son has type one diabetes and like, yes, no, I think so. And she's like, so what do you want from me? Like, I don't know, like, tell us what to do.

Scott Benner 30:38
might be the one to answer that question. Not me. I i right now, I'm working on the word of a gynecologist. So I'm in trouble.

Shaya 30:49
So don't tell me what to do. I have no idea. And I'm not home. And I don't know. So she was like, yeah, you have to, we usually just admit to the hospital for 10 days. And I'm like, we are only in Iran for 10 days. Like, I don't want to spend my 10 days in hospital can do you have any other options? And she's like, No, you have to be admitted. I said, Okay, I want to go back to Canada. How can I go back? And she said, Well, I can give you some insulin, you give it to him two times a day, one unit, just like that. And we'd like breakfast, lunch, and dinner, and go back. So I came home, crying. And like we were crying. My husband and I we just were taking turns, one of us would play with Sudan and the other one cry and the mystery. So we got home to my aunt's house, and my uncle was home, who has the lab. And he was like, Don't even think about going back to Canada, it's a 24 hours trip. You don't know how he will react to the incident, he might be very sensitive to it. So you don't want to risk that just don't even think about it. So I really like it was just, and my grandparents were crying. And everybody was crying in the room. And it was the wedding night, right. So everyone should be happy. And it's amazing. And then we are all crying. And so my aunt called here, her best friend and her best friend is a head of pediatrician Hospital in Iran. So she called her she was like, Okay, what do we do, and she said, Don't bring him here, because we don't have endos full time at the hospital just take him to a general hospital. So in Iran, the hospitals are like general public, for people who can't afford to go to private hospitals. So the the Children's Hospital that we first wanted to go to is a private hospital, which is like really good. It's like the hospitals here. And then the public ones are just like, only people who can afford to go to private, they'll go there and it's not like very good. But you didn't have any choices really. And they said it's just the best option for you because they have full time and those so we got the the admins knows right away and because my aunt call and everything, so it was good. We got we got admitted. But they said we don't have any beds. So we had to stay in the ER for two days. And then they kept saying we can't give him insulin here. He has to be like admitted to the room to give him insulin. I was like the doctor said you would give him he was asleep at like 300 and it was a no we can do it here. He has to be admitted to the room. Then they will start. They gave him one. I have one like one IV at the beginning. But that was it. Yeah. So we were like mad and they were fighting with them. It was just bad. I'm you know, like, you're not home. I didn't even know that he was hungry. You know how they are hungry at the beginning after diagnosis. He was constantly hungry. And he kept saying I want the specific food. He wanted a chicken kebab. And it's 1am and whether you get chicken and have a red one, yeah. So because my mother in law, and we were like, just find the like, Is there a restaurant open? You can buy chicken come up, and then once they started making him she can get

Scott Benner 34:26
somebody to make informed consent. It's lovely that that you got somebody to make it for him. Oh, yeah. I have a question though. Um, so you're in. You're living in Canada, but I'm assuming you at some point lived in Iran. Yeah, about 15 years ago, I was gonna say how long ago was it? So do you feel like when you're there, do you feel like a foreigner at this point?

Shaya 34:53
I feel like a framer, I but I still feel like I have a different Culture, my culture right now it's more can you and anyone, but I still live there for 20 years of my life. Okay,

Scott Benner 35:07
so you're not a complete fish out of water while you're there, you just have a different perspective. Okay, so I was just trying to figure out if you didn't like if you had never known or how to like traverse the system there, or if it will just the system itself doesn't lend itself well to this problem. I actually looked before you came on. And I went all the way back to as far as I can go. And some of my my data like back to 2017. I looked for collectively, and the podcast is way more popular. It lives in Saudi Arabia, Egypt. And in that part of the world, like those are the most popular places. It's downloaded in Iran. It's downloaded in Iraq. It's downloaded in Afghanistan in Pakistan. It's pretty it's really popular in India. moreso than Saudi, but I just I didn't know if it was just like not, is it culturally not common for people to look for help like that? Or is there not even a pathway for them to look is English?

Shaya 36:12
Yeah, English. I was going to say currently, India, they are good with English they I live in in the in India, actually, for three years. I did my bachelor's degree there. Okay. So their English is really good. They are good. But in Iran, most people don't understand. I even introduced your podcast to a few people. And instead, if the English is good, like one of them her daughter is 13, I think and I said is How is her English? and her mom said, yeah, it's really good. She's going to classes and everything. I said, Yeah. Have her listen to this podcast. So I'm introduced to some people, but usually no, yeah,

Scott Benner 36:51
yeah. It's interesting, because the show is also fairly popular in Japan. But I think that's mostly ex Pats. I think that's mostly, you know, transplanted Americans living there. So it's just it's, it's interesting to, to see where it, it just makes so much sense that it's basically around where English is easily understood. But I'm glad I found you and that it helped them. And then it's maybe helping, but I think that that's just sounds extra frightening, because because you really did get I mean, even once you got to the endocrinologist there, they here take some insulin jump back on the plane, I count as bad advice. I Yeah, I agree with the advice. You got to not do that. But I wonder what would have happened if you put him in the hospital for 10? Well, what did you end up doing? Did you I mean, you're in the hospital. Now. How long? Was he there?

Shaya 37:46
Yeah, we were there for like five days. So I kept pushing. I was like, I know, like, I've learned everything, just let us go. And they were like, there was this one doctor, he was actually a resident. And he was, he hated me from the beginning. Like, he would be like, do these classes for us, and I will type whatever he was saying in my phone. And like, you know, like in Iran, they don't do that. They have paper and pen, everybody. But I don't I have my phone and I typed everything in there. And it was like, are you listening to what I'm saying? Do you even care? And you're on the on your phone all the time. Like, I'm just typing what you're saying in my phone. He was pushing back on, like, please release us. Like, I know, I really I've learned kept counting. I learned everything. And just let us go. I was like, No, I still have to quiz you on a few things. And he would ask me questions like, what happens if like he goes low? And I don't know what happened. And then the main doctor, the endo main. And though he was really nice, and then yeah, you're ready to go. So we said like four or five days that then Okay,

Scott Benner 38:59
well, you got up there a little Did you miss the wedding?

Shaya 39:03
So he was the night, the second night at the hospital. So I begged my son I was like, I came all this way to go my cut to get my cousin's wedding. Can I go? Oh, and by the way, so the hospital it's a woman only woman and children. So my husband couldn't go up to a room at all during those five days. And I was like, I'm just going out of my mind. I've been up 24 seven with him for the past few days. And so I asked them if they can temporarily allow my husband to come home and they said no. So my sister in law who was also supposed to go to the wedding, but Well, she was further as she came there and my son like she he didn't even know her like, she has her arms but they never met before like other than that trip, right? So she was like, No, I don't want to stay with her and then she brought her a gift a game and they started playing And then I was like, can I go? And then he said, Okay, go. So I resigned from the hospital to the wedding, I got there late. And then I, my mom had my dress with her and my daughter was there with my mom. And I just put on my dress, like, I didn't even do makeup or my hair or anything. And then in the dressing room of the salon, our family, they just like so many of them came in together, and they just had heard about strength. And then everybody just burst out crying. And then I'm like, I want understanding the laughing like stop crying. It's a wedding. Just leave it just let's think about it tomorrow. Don't

Scott Benner 40:46
well, everyone's already so emotional, probably from the wedding. And then you get this news. And just it's easy to start crying. I I have to ask you men aren't allowed in the hospital. Was that specific to that hospital?

Shaya 40:59
I think it's the only children's hospital or something. They only allow children and women like the moms can go with the children. It was a children's hospital. And the moms can go with the children because then the moms because you know it's a Muslim country, and the moms need to have her job. So for the moms to be comfortable and not needing to wear hijab on men. They I think that's why they put that rule. But it's awful. It's just like off like, how do you expect the mom to be up? We take it 24 seven. Like some of those kids, they were like crying all day all night. And the moms were all like you could just see we're all exhausted. Yeah, just I know that that's coming for a second.

Scott Benner 41:44
It's probably a rule that men jumped up to get some time off when their kids are sick, don't you think? Yeah. Well, we'll say the women have to go in the hospital. That way I could sit at home. Or they're male doctors.

Shaya 41:58
Yeah. But they only come in at certain time. So you know, when they are coming in a shot. They're like doctors are coming in. Everybody knows that men are coming in. Gotcha. And then

Scott Benner 42:09
and then everybody puts a job on.

Shaya 42:12
Yeah. Oh, they don't remove them. Nobody removes. I didn't wear my heels. Java. Nobody cared really. But the people who care they don't remove them. It's just that they are more comfortable. I think I see.

Scott Benner 42:24
Okay, now I just I want to cruise over without getting an explanation because I didn't understand completely.

Shaya 42:30
It's just a totally different culture like, like even when I went to pay for the hospital, the cashier the he was like, it's so the currency there is really high. So it's like it's 3 million. riyals you have to pay. I'm like yeah, I know. Like, do you want to go your call your husband? I'm like, No, just take it from my car is like, does he need to sign like, No, just thinking? Oh, my God, I can pay.

Scott Benner 43:00
Back in Canada. I buy bagels all by myself. Just so that's Yes, sir. Oh, wow. I don't need your husband to sign. Oh, it sounds like 1950s. America, except still worse than that. Yeah. Oh, we won't talk to her. Well, we'll wait till the decision maker shows up.

Shaya 43:21
Exactly. And it's not like that everywhere. But after a while they thought, as I said, it's just a public hospital. And usually people who go there are like that, like they are in poor families who only the husband is the breadwinner, and not even like good money. And it's like that, usually. And so it's the culture of the hospital, I would say not Iran. It's not like that.

Scott Benner 43:49
I see.

Shaya 43:50
That's why I was shocked to because I was like, even in Iran. I didn't expect that. I'm like, why do you want my husband like what's going to have so many women working and I'm so when you when pay for everything? It's not like that.

Scott Benner 44:04
Those people would be amazed that they were in this house because I don't get to decide anything. So they'd be thrown? Hey, how many is 3 million? How does it convert to American money? What did you pay for? I think it came to a $1,000 for five days. That's very reasonable.

Shaya 44:21
Yeah, five days, we didn't have any insurance, nothing. So everything together came to 1000 with the labs and everything because we came back and we claimed it here.

Scott Benner 44:33
Wow. Well, even that's lucky that it worked out that way. And it wasn't some massive amount of money that you couldn't come up with, you know, that would have been even crazier. I don't even know what they would do then.

Shaya 44:45
For sure. That was another reason like I was worried about Germany. I was like, if something happens here, I don't even know like where do we get the money? It's probably so much but in Iran. It's not It's not that

Scott Benner 44:58
neither of yours your euro Canadian said. Right. We are all kidnapped. Yeah. So it's not like it's not like even somebody. Oh, wow. Well, that's terrible. I'm sorry. How was that? How was the trip home? Did you have enough understanding that the plane ride home was reasonable?

Shaya 45:16
Yes, the plane home was reasonable. It was just I saw on our way to here and I lost my phone in Frankfurt Airport. And when I called them, and they said, Okay, come grab it. It's at whatever station. And when I went there, my daughter was sleeping on my husband's shoulders. So I said, Okay, so you sit here with her, and I take student with me to go grab my phone. Now, I didn't know that we have to exit the transit area to do that. And I grabbed through him without anything. So we didn't have Dexcom, of course. So I didn't take his matter, like blood glucose monitor. I didn't take any snags for her. I didn't take my credit card I took took nothing with me just my phone. And that's it. I think the like, in I wasn't experienced enough. So you know, like, you're diagnosed like 10 days ago. And I wasn't experienced enough in the situation to grab that bag or something for him to like, have everything in it. And then we had to work for three hours with, like Sudan and I, we just couldn't find my husband. When we got my phone. We couldn't find him. And we went to so many different places, we could not find him. And then he started crying, saying I'm hungry. So I'm like, okay, his blood sugar is probably no, I can't even test it. And I have been walking for three hours. And then I don't even have my credit card to buy him anything. I went to this the food shop to me, and the guy that was from Iran. And he said, I was like, Okay, so my son is very hungry. And I need to buy him something. And I will try to pay by my phone. Because I have like my credit card on my Apple iPhone. So I'm like, I can pay what with this and it wasn't working. So the guy was really nice. He said, don't worry about it. Just take it out. Let him have he have it. And so like you're lucky Yeah, but it was awful. And then finally, we found each other after three hours of working. But otherwise Other than that, the fact that as I said, like, I feel like I wasn't experienced enough to say whatever wherever you want to go, even if it's five minutes, just grab that bag bag with you to have it's nice to have the matter to have. What do you mean? Yeah, it

Scott Benner 47:44
becomes so second nature. Eventually. I just this morning, I was up here getting ready to talk to you. And Arden came in. She's like, hey, my Dexcom needs to be replaced. And she's like, would you give me a hand with it? And I was like, Yeah, sure. So I get up to walk downstairs. And my phone's just sitting on the desk. And even though now I realized her, her Dexcom is not working at the moment, right? It needs to be replaced. I still felt uncomfortable walking away from my phone as I walked away from I looked back at it and I thought I don't need that. She's not wearing a CGM at the moment. I don't need my phone. But as I walked away from it, it felt very, very unnatural to leave it behind. And yeah, but in the beginning, you're right in the beginning, you have to physically remind yourself, take these things with me when I leave, like like, because it's just not, you know, it feels like you're tied down. But that feeling goes away. But in the beginning, you're like, Oh, I have to have this stuff with us. And it feels like a burden. But it just becomes very natural. And you don't think anything of it. But that makes that makes sense. Why did it take so long to find it just because you didn't know the the area?

Shaya 48:50
No, because they sat where we came out of the plane right when we came out and they said you're not allowed to go back there. So the doors were one away out from there. And I couldn't go back in and he couldn't come out because he had three hand like hand luggage is and then it was sleeping baby

Scott Benner 49:12
with him. So you had to like literally find a way back to where he was.

Shaya 49:16
Exactly. And they said like the doors are one way. And then anywhere I went like they have like mostly it's a very big airport. So I went to a gate to go back in and they would say oh, this gate wouldn't end up where you want to go. And then I kept tracking with Find My iPhone. I keep tracking my husband's location and try to walk toward that that but then at one point I had to turn and then it started getting further away. It was crazy. And then I find this guy and like, just helped me please help me find my husband and then he's like, Okay, and then he walked with me for store and he was like I think I do have to go from this gate. And then I got into that gate and they were like, No, you can go from I'm here because your ticket says gate a and this is gate B. I'm like, but my husband is at the end of me. And they're like, No, you can go, oh my gosh, Hey, you

Scott Benner 50:09
know what all that that that experience? Obviously, you didn't know enough about diabetes to be very worried about it. But if right now you got separated from all of suresnes gear for three hours, would you be panicking? Like now that you understand the diabetes better? Do you think you would have had a different like, reaction? I would be panicking more than whether it was then I would think so. I, you know, I'm thinking about just now, Ardennes changed. I was like, Alright, so we tested, did the CGM change gave her some insulin for the number we had. And I was like in an hour test again, because I want to make sure we're still going in the right direction here and not getting too low or too high. And yeah, I just wonder, I guess you just have to do what you did, though, go off for your feeling, you know, kind of treat hunger maybe as lower blood sugar because it's, you're completely blind. Right? So you have to make some decision, I think you did a really good job with it. Honestly,

Shaya 51:07
I just had no idea. You know, like, at the beginning, they just tell you test every two hours and give this amount of insulin with food and Okay, I'm doing that. So and I didn't expect to be walking for three hours. I didn't even take insulin with me. Right. So I'm like, okay, just like, I guess he's okay. And then his doctor in Iran told me there was this once I was like, do I need to stay awake with him all night to make sure he doesn't drop low? And then she said, No, don't worry about it. He if he drops low at night, he will be so uncomfortable and tossing and turning and crying and stuff that you will know. But I don't trust that like, No, I know. I shouldn't trust that.

Scott Benner 51:51
That's not a very technical answer. Exactly. Exactly. You're coming shy? Don't worry. Great. Thanks. Oh, yeah.

Shaya 52:02
So back then I wasn't worried. I was like, Yeah, he drops? No, I would probably know. Right. So the doctor said so. Right. So I wasn't worried. But now I can't even imagine being three hours without his

Scott Benner 52:14
Yeah, bag. That's interesting. But I mean, it's somewhere in there. There is also a lesson that he was okay. So you don't I mean, like there's a middle ground, you have to find between vigilance, worry, and common sense. But you need time with diabetes to figure out the common sense part of it. Yeah. So it's interesting,

Shaya 52:34
and probably when, like they are older, would be easier for them to know their body and all that you probably know that, like, a younger kid, compared to an older kid would be easier to manage, you could at

Scott Benner 52:49
least ask them more pointed questions, he would think and try to come to a better answer. So is there anything that I haven't brought up that you meant to talk about? I want to I don't want to miss anything?

Shaya 53:01
Oh, um, no, it's just so one thing that I don't know if like, I wanted to, I was thinking I was still thinking about this to bring this up or not. But I know like, so many people in us struggle with paying for insulin. And that's, that's big. But again, Canada, it's very, a lot cheaper with the provincial health plans. But then in Iran, it's crazy. Like I haven't, I met a lot of people in the hospital. When I was there, there was, I think, five more kids, same ages to learn, just got diagnosed, we were like going to classes together and everything. And we had we made a group chat, and I've been in contact with them. And I think probably many countries go through this. But insulin just is so expensive there for them. And then the government announced a few months ago that they they want to stop importing insulin, and they just make insulin inside Iran. But it's the very old insulin called regular I think, what's the call I'm sorry?

Scott Benner 54:26
Regular. Oh, they're gonna take you back to regular and mph.

Shaya 54:30
Yeah, yeah. So in Iran, so they are making that so and they are forcing people to just use that instead of No, we're happy lentils and everything. So it was big. I just got a lot of media attention and people I don't know what happened with small quiet now. But I think it's because of the how much it costs. It's expensive. And they just decided let's do like created inside there on the butt. They only have access to the technology to create that. Okay.

Scott Benner 55:05
Trying to read online looks like it looks like in October, it says us sanctions cause acute insulin shortage in Iran. Millions of Iranians at risk for us sanction. Oh, I see there's no insulin out. Okay. This is a, this is a trade problem. And the way that the country is trying to cover it is by making older insulin probably because it's easier to produce, I would think, yeah. And you don't need Yeah, I would guess that's the idea. I'd have to

Shaya 55:34
and they won't be any access to pens. So they will have to inject with needles and like these kids, it's just, they have no access to palm. So Dexcom, nothing. Dexcom is not even available. Like it's, they can bring some some people can buy them by Dexcom from Turkey or other countries. But it's super expensive. It's like one, one Dexcom costs one month salary for them. And the likes I know someone she said, I'm selling my house, put the money in bank and with the monthly interest I can pay for my son's Dexcom. Wow, that's incredible. So they are struggling today. It's no pomp like I have one person who was able to finally find pomp for her daughter, but then with the sanctions and everything, they stopped having it. So they went back to injections.

Scott Benner 56:35
I wonder if the new administration in America is going to impact this at all? I wonder if it'll change because of that or not? I'm not certain. I mean, I don't know. I can't learn enough just looking at it right now to find out. But that's terrible. She sold her home.

Shaya 56:51
Yeah, yeah. So we were lucky. I feel really lucky and thankful to have access to all the technology and everything. And it's different. It's

Scott Benner 57:05
hugely different life. Yeah. I mean, they're, they're, they're genuinely talking about going back and using insulin that probably hasn't been regularly used in America for I mean, 30 years, maybe even know a long time ago. And and you can't count carbs with that, that now you're just giving yourself those like, inject some in the morning and jack some in the evening, you know, that kind of a plan, which is not much of a plan, especially a given that the that the the meal choices are going to be pretty, you know, hard on the insulin tool, I would think. Yeah. I'm glad you brought it up. I'll see what I can learn about it before I put this up. And I'll put links up with it if I can find something that makes sense. So how did you find the podcast? I like your podcasts in general. Yeah. Not podcasts in general. But mine specifically?

Shaya 58:03
Yeah. Well, I don't listen to any other podcast. I did anyone.

Scott Benner 58:08
Would you say this is the only podcast you listened to? Yeah, perfect. That's what I want to hear.

Shaya 58:16
So I love it. You you. I think you hear this probably so much. I love you. I love your podcasts. I love what you do, I hope. And I hope all the best for you for doing this. And, you know, I don't know, like, you probably don't want to have this on the podcast. But I was listening to one of your episodes. And you were saying like it was at the beginning. You were saying I don't want to run any advertisements or anything because I just love to do this. And I'm like, Why? I love what you do. You should run advertisement.

Scott Benner 58:51
Oh, was it a recent one where I was like, I'm just putting this episode up? I'm not putting any ads on it. That kind of thing. Yeah, yeah. Sometimes, sometimes I just have so much content, I want to get it out. And I you know, I've satisfied the advertisers for the week. And I just was like, well, I just I still want to put this episode up. So I'll just put it out without ads on it. And then yeah, it's just But listen, I appreciate that. I really do. I don't have any trouble. Leave it in the episode. I am. I want to. I mean, I want to put out a good podcast and it takes a lot of time and a lot of effort. And because of that, you know, I did start out not taking ads. I wrote a blog for a very long time where I turned ads down constantly. But this is a this is a podcasting is a time suck that is different than just writing online once in a while. And if I didn't I literally if I didn't take advertisers on the podcast, the podcast wouldn't exist. Because my wife because my wife would be like go get a job. So very quickly, she'd be like, you wouldn't just sitting around making a pie Cast? I don't think so buddy, get moving. But I love that it helps. But where did how did you find it? I mean, if you don't listen to podcasts, how do you find a podcast?

Shaya 1:00:09
So what I like when I was still in Iran, I posted about the Sudan diagnosis and my baby mama, mommy group or like, Facebook group, I don't know what it's called. But then it was a Facebook group for April 2015 babies basically. And I posted about they had gnosis and I was like, I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm just so scared. I don't know what's happening. And someone introduced me to someone else whose kid was diagnosed like a few years ago, and then that someone else introduced me to a Canadian group of parents of type one diabetes. And that's where I found about Juicebox. Podcast,

Scott Benner 1:00:54
marketing scam. I could not plan on purpose. That's for sure. So you're so you're in a Facebook group just for kids born in your like, day, month and year? Yes. Then you meet a person in there who moves you on to another place. And that's where you Wow, that is a that is not a straight line to finding something that's for sure.

Shaya 1:01:14
Yeah, so I found like, the lady was really nice. Like, a few years ago, my daughter was diagnosed, but she was I thinking us maybe. And she said, there is a group for Canadian parents. So just join that would be really helpful. So I joined that. And then I was asking so many questions are like, how do I control this and that, and then someone wrote a column saying, Yeah, just like, join, like, Listen to the sports podcast. It's amazing. And that's how it's, we'll see.

Scott Benner 1:01:41
I'll tell you what, you somebody suggested the podcast to you. It sounds like to me, because you were asking pointed, probably thoughtful questions. And they were like, you know, if you're looking, if you're trying to look that deeply into this, this is probably the place for you to be asking those questions. Yeah, that's Yeah, that's excellent. I'm so happy. I don't know who did that. But that's really lovely.

Shaya 1:02:02
There's a lot of funds in our Canadian group that isn't. So just like, I've seen so many comments like that. It's just goes down. Like everybody says, I've done it to so many people just go listen to podcasts.

Scott Benner 1:02:15
Thank you. I very, I very much appreciate that you can that the show's pretty huge in Canada. I mean, it's obviously, it's obviously the biggest in America. But after that Canada, Australia and the United Kingdom are sort of the next larger download places.

Shaya 1:02:31
You would expect that with the English language new and

Scott Benner 1:02:35
so maybe I have to stop worrying about how to get the podcast to be bigger and just teach people to speak English. That might be the quicker

Shaya 1:02:42
I was going to I was going to suggest the other I was going to say maybe you have to translate or, like have some translate, I don't know, I have

Scott Benner 1:02:50
to tell you, I have thought that through six different ways. And it just never works. Because if I don't know the the language that we're translating it into, then I can't kind of quality check the translation. And then I'm stuck. And I would never want somebody to say something that ended up not being correct. And so that's where I sort of get stuck on that, because I've definitely thought about that for especially Spanish speaking people. I mean, that seems like a big population that's underserved. And I have talked about Listen, the truth is if if, if an advertiser, you know, I'm not even saying one of them that I have now, but if there's an advertiser that would be willing to foot the bill for it, what I've learned is, it's just very expensive, because you have to hire professionals to basically listen to episodes and then translate them out. And it's not cheap. So it's not something I can afford for certain.

Shaya 1:03:44
And you have you have great voice. So I don't know how you find someone to have great voice command.

Scott Benner 1:03:51
I appreciate that. I am I you know, it's funny when I talk privately to people, and they're like, you know, how do I make a podcast? I'm like, Well, the first thing to know is that most podcasts fail. So you know, you can definitely try it. I said, but there are some intangibles that you just can't, you can't manufacture. And I do say sometimes, like I have a nice deep voice. And that's how, you know it's helpful to listen to. I find it my own life when I start talking. People just sort of like get mesmerized a little bit. I just think it's I don't think it's what I'm saying. I just think my voice is deeper. So yeah, a little little heads up there for me a little little extra boost. But I really appreciate you coming on and telling me that whole story. It's fascinating, and I appreciate it again, people won't know this. But you let me move your time at the last minute. I was having trouble. Yes. No, you were very kind. So thank you.

Shaya 1:04:46
No, no draw and I was happy and thank you for having me and talking to me. I'm great points and suggestions. You might help him to manage that nighttime riser. So I'll try those. When you send me a note. Let

Scott Benner 1:04:58
me know Yeah. Oh, for sure. Excellent. I would love to know how it goes. And I'll actually if you if you get back to me the next couple of months, I will put a little addendum on the back of this and let people know what you said. Okay, thank you so much. Have a great weekend. Thank you. Yep, you too. Thanks. Take care. Bye. A huge thank you to one of today's sponsors. Je Vogue glucagon. Find out more about chivo Kibo pen at G Vogue glucagon.com forward slash juice box, you spell that GVOKEGL you see ag o n.com. forward slash juicebox. I also want to thank my guest today. And thank you for listening, supporting the show, sharing it with others and all the other great things that you do. I'll be back soon with another episode of the Juicebox Podcast. Thank you so much for listening.

#538 Hypo O' No

Kelsey experienced a bad low that she had trouble forgetting.

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Scott Benner 0:00
Hello friends, and welcome to Episode 538 of the Juicebox Podcast.

Kelsey is here everybody. Kelsey has had Type One Diabetes for quite some time, almost two decades. When this was recorded, she was 28 years old. And she came in to talk about the last three years of her life where she's been significantly impacted by a traumatically low blood sugar event. While you're listening, please remember that nothing you hear on the Juicebox Podcast should be considered advice, medical or otherwise. Please always consult a physician before making any changes to your healthcare plan or becoming bold with insulin. I want to thank everyone who has supported the show through buy me a coffee.com forward slash Juicebox Podcast. Some new members include Susan, someone who calls themselves someone Yoli, Alexis, Kristin, Jeanette, Sarah, Amy, Steven, and Dell. I'd like to thank them all of you and all the other supporters of the Juicebox Podcast. This show is sponsored today by the glucagon that my daughter carries g vo hypo Penn. Find out more at G Vogue glucagon.com forward slash Juicebox. Podcast is also sponsored by touched by type one, learn more about them on their Facebook page on Instagram, or touched by type one.org.

Kelsey 1:55
My name is Kelsey, I'm a type one diabetic. 28 years old, I was diagnosed when I was 10 years old. So I've had diabetes for a little over 18 years now. through that experience, I actually had a pretty bad event in my mid 20s, where I almost died from a significant load that I could not get back up. And that has caused me to have like very severe anxiety about going low, which of course in turn has made my blood sugar's high. And so I was able to seek out counseling and discover the reason of why my anxiety had become increasingly bad and how I was able to get my bloods back under control.

Scott Benner 2:41
Gotcha. Hey, are you fidgeting?

Unknown Speaker 2:45
Yeah, okay. Yeah,

Scott Benner 2:46
sorry. I was just posing. No. Oh, is that that's fine. Well, we're always okay. My buttons are very loud. That's okay. No, but sometimes people get nervous. And they, they tap their fingers in between words. They don't realize it or anything. But that's just different. So you were literally telling us about your life with diabetes while giving yourself insulin. That's excellent. Are you is your blood sugar higher than you want to be right now? Or are you? Did you just eat? Yeah,

Kelsey 3:08
yeah, it is higher than I want it to be right now. I did a Pre-Bolus. And it didn't do what I wanted it to do. So I just took another little Bolus to see if I can get my numbers to go back down because I'm an arrow up right now to 10.

Scott Benner 3:22
Gotcha. All right. So let's figure this out. First of all, just background, how long have you been listening to the podcast?

Kelsey 3:29
So I've been listening to podcast. And really, actually, since I started going to therapy for it, it was one of my counselors advices to try and reach out to the diabetic community, because I was feeling very alone in my problems that I was having. And so I found your podcast, and it has just helped me so much just to be able to hear other people's stories and the issues that they had. It gave me so much more confidence going forward, like okay, yeah, I can I can handle this.

Scott Benner 4:01
It's excellent. Okay, good. I just wanted a little context for if you have been listening for a while or anything like that. So I guess I want to start with when you were diagnosed, how old were you again? I was 1010 1018 years ago. 2003 ish. about right. It's just right. That's fine. And so technology existed. Was it something that your parents said, Hey, well, you have diabetes now Good luck with that, or were they real involved? What was that diner? My

Kelsey 4:29
parents were amazing. They were incredibly involved. My dad is a firefighter. He's retired now but so he already had a pretty good grasp on what type one diabetes was. And they were so in tune with me. I remember my mom not leaving my my bedside. Like I feel like if you can go home now she's like, Nope, I am going to be here. I'm going to watch what you do. Like I need to know everything. And and so growing up, they were coming Constantly, you know, I've heard you talk about art and having check her blood the middle of the night. parents did that for me. And then I was able to get a pump. And from there, my parents wanted me to learn how to be more independent and not have to rely on them so much.

Scott Benner 5:19
That's kind of a classic story for that time period. really like the idea of like, Oh, you have a pump now. Now you do it. And the idea of just like, but you didn't have a glucose monitor like I continuous glucose monitor.

Unknown Speaker 5:30
No, no. Do you now?

Kelsey 5:33
Yes, I do. I have the Dexcom. And I also have the CGM that matches with my insulin pump.

Scott Benner 5:40
Gotcha. Okay, so it's just that it's interesting that the rest of it gets, I guess, the curtain pulled back on it. As the CGM comes like, I can see how the conversation prior to CGM would be alright, now you know, you know how to use the insulin, you know how to count your carbs, you know, when to put in your in that, go ahead and go do it for yourself? And then what did you do? You waited a few hours and test it again, we're not even.

Kelsey 6:06
Yeah, no. So that was my, my go to test before, I don't know, sometimes tests an hour. And then like another hour, I was my endo told me that I was testing more frequently than most people would. Because I wanted to be in such control at that time, even when I was 13, and 14.

Scott Benner 6:28
So you would, so I used to do this as well. So I would test Arden before a meal. And then I like to know, like 45 minutes in where she was like an hour and a half ago, I had these times where I wanted to know what her blood sugar was. And I would always look before the glucose monitors I always thought of it is I knew something was going on behind the scenes that I just like, I knew there was a lot more information than was available to me. And I was trying to figure it out. But the truth is to try to grab it. Like one snapshot at a time without any real perspective. Like I didn't know how to use insulin back then or anything like that. It was just, it was maddening. I'd be like, oh, now it's high. Now it's low now, you know, like it just right. Yeah. And it was always just wait till she felt low and then do something about it afterwards. That's a young, a young age for you to be doing that at for certain. But you were okay with that. Is that right?

Kelsey 7:18
Yeah, I was okay with it. I just I had accepted it. And like I said, My parents were amazing. And they're like, yep, it's just, it's what you have to do going forward. And so that's what I did. I was very active playing sports. You know, I remember having little glucose tab baby socks pinned to the inside of my soccer shorts in case I went low when I was running on the field. And that's just how it was. I just learned to to take care of myself and not have to rely on my parents so much since I was such an active kid.

Scott Benner 7:50
This is normally not something I would stop the conversation for. But I heard what you said. I wonder if everybody else heard it. You had babies socks? Safety pinned inside of your shorts and inside of the baby socks. Bear with us, Alex.

Kelsey 8:02
Yeah, that's what my endo suggested. Because I would go low constantly during my soccer matches, and I have to run off the field, go grab some juice run back on it was kind of a hassle. And so when my end does was like, well, this is what other people have done you safety pin a little baby sock on the inside your shorts and filled up with glucose tablets and just pop them as you go. Here.

Scott Benner 8:22
We're here the Major League Baseball player, Sam fold on here. And he said that if you see me in the outfield, and I'm chewing gum, I felt low. Oh, no, I haven't heard that. I thought that was I was really interesting to me when he said that. He says like, if you see me chewing gum, I'm below. And if I have seeds in my mouth, I'm probably not. I was like, Oh, wow. But yeah, lots of little tricks around that. So you feel low, you'd reach into your baby sock and grab a thing and keep playing. Yep, exactly. Excellent. And of course, baby socks strong contender for the name of your episode. So, but were early on, things could change. Kelsey, they really could. Now, how many years? Do you go on like this before you have what you described in your email to me as a trauma? Yeah. How long? Was that? Okay, was everything okay?

Kelsey 9:10
Everything was good. Honestly, probably. I think I experienced that trauma when I was 24. So it went on for what? 12 years and 1213 years being totally fine. Um, and then yeah, and then I had that trauma. And that kind of flipped everything around for me.

Scott Benner 9:29
Gotcha. So that's only about six years ago. You're with me, you're out of college at that point, or just,

Kelsey 9:36
I'm still in college. I'm actually still in college. Right now. I'm getting my master's for counseling. Sorry.

Scott Benner 9:42
I was like you should take more than one class this semester. No, no, I understand. So you're taking longer you're taking a longer course. So you were still in college when this happened? Were you at college when this occurred?

Kelsey 9:53
No, I was actually at work when this occurred and and then it led throughout The night and into the next morning.

Scott Benner 10:02
Can you tell me? Does it bother you to talk about? Can you tell me about it?

Kelsey 10:06
Oh, yeah, no, I'm fine. Talking about it now. Okay. But basically what had happened was at that time, I was actually on shots. And so what essentially my endo thought had happened was I was exercising a lot. And then I took a larger dose of the overnight insulin. And so the next day, my blood, I could not get it to stay up for the life of me. And I think I had over 500 carbs by like, noon. And I just could not get it to stick up. And then by the time I went to bed, I had, I couldn't sleep and I had a very bad low or I thought, like, Oh my gosh, that I'm not going to be able to even dial 911 right now. Um, and I was living alone at the time. So that was scary for me as well. But luckily, I forgot I had a juice box in my side drawer that I was able to break open and feed myself before I had passed out. And so after that, point, it the low, still continued, I was able to kind of regain, I don't wanna say regain consciousness, but get a good grasp again, and continue to feed myself until I was normal The next day, and the lamp has had officially worn off. But what had happened, really where my brain went at that point was I had I was like, Oh, my gosh, you know, I'm living alone. Nobody, nobody knew I was having the slow, what would have happened to me, if I passed out, I, that would have been it. And so it led me into that, that anxiety kind of started to develop, every time I would start to go low, I would start to feel that most PTSD in a way, as my counselor described, it was a very, very small amount of PTSD. And I just freaked out and I wanted my bloods to be high, because that was like, my safety zone.

Scott Benner 12:15
Right? So just so I can try to pick it apart a little bit to understand, do you think that you mistakenly gave yourself much more lantis than you meant to?

Kelsey 12:24
You know, what, honestly, they still don't know. I gave myself my normal dosage. And I did my normal things that day. And that's why I was so scared going forward, because I was like, this was my normal routine. You know, of course, diabetes never is the same, right? And so I told my No, she's like, honestly, sometimes, you know, you could have eaten something two days before, or you could have exercised really, really hard two days before, and it's still with you, and you don't realize it. And so, not really having a direct answer, like, Oh, yeah, I, you know, it took 15 or 25. And was part of that anxiety because I had done everything normal.

Scott Benner 13:06
No, it seems like if you can't, if you can't narrow down what happened and feels like it was random, then it could feel like it could be random and ever again, just anytime, you could pop up again, that had this ever happened prior or since

Kelsey 13:20
now, hasn't happened prior since I got back on the pump. And so that has significantly helped me. Because it's just, you know, the continuous background in Flint. I'm not taking one single large dose at night, right? So that's helped a lot. But since then, No, I haven't had any event like that.

Scott Benner 13:39
So after this half, not after this happens after you give yourself that insulin and that it's you spend the day, just constantly low and you can't feed the insulin enough to get to get up over a certain number. Where was where was your blood sugar sitting?

Kelsey 13:54
I probably remained I fluctuated between 70 and 50. I would say, I would you know, go down to 50 each, and then it would bump, you know, start to go back up to like 7075. And I was like, Okay, I'm coming up. And then I'll check again, not even 30 minutes later and back down to 60.

Scott Benner 14:16
Yeah. Wow, that's crazy. So you just how you see Did you have the feeling while you were doing it? Like this will be the time where it'll go up and stay up? Like did How long did you play that game? Like Yeah, like, it feels like a horror movie to me. Where, where you feel like you're trapped in a room that like just get this puzzle, right? We won't cut your head off and you can leave and get the puzzle, right? And then there's another door and you're like, wait a minute.

Kelsey 14:39
That's exactly it's like you know, Okay, I get it this time. I have this hope. And then each time it was like, that's why I feel like it was just so defeating like, Oh my gosh, what can I do? Like, just that loss of? Yeah, defeated,

Scott Benner 14:55
right? Yeah, just the idea of like, I got it. No, I don't I got it. No, I got an answer. I would imagine I'm imagining after hours turn into a half a day turns into a full day and then you've got to go to bed. You're probably just like, oh my god, like, this isn't gonna stop Did it ever? Were you ever in a position where you had the ability to contact the person to like, come sit with you, but you thought no, it'll be all right. Or did you not live in that situation?

Kelsey 15:21
Um, so being 20 what I how 23 at that time and being moved out, I didn't want to worry my parents that I was having this problem. Yeah. So I didn't contact them. And looking back I absolutely should have but I didn't want to worry them. Think like, Oh my gosh, she she can't live on her own like it was happening.

Scott Benner 15:42
It feels like it would have bigger ramifications. If you if you if you said and I'm not judging you. I'm just interested in the thought process that goes through the whole day.

Kelsey 15:50
Yeah, so that was it. It was just I don't want to worry my parents, I want to prove to them that I can live by myself with Type One Diabetes and not have any real consequences.

Scott Benner 16:01
But there was no way to know that after this experience you were going to suffer. But like the PTSD of the situation that it was going to come like you just thought you were getting through a moment it sucked. And it would be over eventually. And even though the physical part was over, you got visited by a different aspect of it that obviously you didn't expect. Yeah, exactly. Hey, Kelsey, that sucks. really sucks. And so how long do you I'm assuming then you start leaving your blood sugar's higher than you'd like. And let's give that a little bit of context prior to the event. Let's call it The Happening prior to the happening. Where was your agency? And then where did you let it rise to to feel comfortable?

Kelsey 16:46
So my agency was what last time I checked, actually just checked the name for coming on. It was at 6.5. Okay. And then after this event happened, it went up to 10.

Scott Benner 16:58
Wow, that's a significant impact on you. Oh, no kidding. Yeah. How long? Did you live like that? before? You thought I have to address this like, Well, let me ask you first, did you just imagine that the anxiety would dissipate at some point, it just never did?

Kelsey 17:12
Yeah, that's exactly what I thought, you know, once again, thinking, Oh, I can handle this. I got this. And I gave it about a year. And at some point, I just kind of gave up on myself, honestly. And I was like, You know what, it just I'm tired. I'm burnt out on this. I don't, I don't want to deal with this anymore. And so not that played into it as well. Yeah. Um, and it wasn't really actually until I got together with my now fiance, who's a paramedic, and he was like, What are you doing? I treat, you know, 10 diabetics a day. Like, if you pass out, I'm just gonna give you some glucagon. Like, you'll be good. And so it was once I started being with him that I was like, holy crap, you're right. Like I, I need to, I need to get this under control to live a long and healthy life. And that's when I started really seeking out that counseling. And I had that desire finally, to want to get myself better.

Scott Benner 18:08
It's just really telling how impactful anxiety can be on on the on the people who are afflicted by it. Because you know, what's up? I mean, you've lived day after day after day after that, you haven't gotten low again, like that. So you, you know if common sense, was the only thing you need in this situation, you'd be like, well, it was a one off thing. It doesn't look like it's gonna happen again. And I'll be fine. But that anxiety just stops you in your tracks. It's fascinating monster really, really is crippling for the people that have decides to attack. Wow, 10s a one sees Yeah, this guy likes you. He's not looking for you to have a 10 a one. See? That's for sure. Okay, so. So you recognize? How do you recognize the steps to take next, like, how do you decide where to begin trying to break free of this.

Kelsey 18:57
So the first thing I did actually sought out counseling on my own. And I just found a local psychiatrist who specialized and anxiety. And so I started seeing him and he did is called CBT cognitive behavioral therapy. And that is to try and essentially get you to readjust your brain is the best way I could say it. I'm trying to like do almost exposure therapy where you're like, Okay, I'm going to get down to 200. I'm going to let it sit there. And I'm just going to it's going to scare me, because that's not it's outside of my comfort zone. And finally, after about I would say three months of seeing him, I just, I was like, Okay, this is not working. And just his method wasn't working for me. So I actually reached out to my endocrinologist and was like, Look, this is what's going on. This is where I'm I want to get better. I'm really determined right now. What do I need to do and so she set me up with it. a psychologist who worked for my doctors and knew about diabetes. And she was the one who actually got me on Prozac. And when she got me on Prozac, I'm like, I'm not sad. I'm not depressed, like, I'm just scared. And she goes, Yes, I know. But here's the problem is that your anxiety is starting to cripple you to the point where you're willing to have these significant possible, you know, lose a foot in the future, just to stay safe in the moment, and we can't have that. And so I started taking that, and that significantly helped me and it helps ease your anxiety, which I had no idea that that does. Prozac was meant for anxiety as well, because it works with your brain chemicals to go Okay, like, yeah, you're panicking right now. But look, this is going to help to relax you. So when I had started having, you know, the triple arrows down, I wasn't going into like this automatic panic mode of Oh, my gosh, I need to stop this blood. I'm dropping what's going to happen? I was just like, Okay, well let it ride and see where it goes. Right. So that's been the pattern I've been doing. And it's, it's just has made such a huge difference. That's

Scott Benner 21:16
excellent. Wasn't whatever helps is the right answer. And I wonder, too, so which is the second doctor says you should reach out and find like, some people who have diabetes to find a community?

Kelsey 21:30
Yeah, she was one because I told her I was like, Look, I, you know, I don't I personally know any other type one diabetics, I feel very kind of alone in this. And that's obviously not helping my fears, because I don't have anybody who I can talk to who can truly relate to what it's like to go low, other than a diabetic. And so she was like, hear, reach out on Instagram, listen to podcasts, here's books. And so I started doing all those things, and joining the diabetic communities through Instagram. And that's actually how I found you your podcast. And I was like, Oh my gosh, like, being able to listen to other people see, they're physically see their graphs on their CGM of them going down to 40 with two arrows down, made me go Oh, my gosh, like, it's not just me, like, these people are scared of that, too. Yeah. And having that kind of outreach really, really has helped.

Scott Benner 22:22
Right? Well, that's my finding is that the feeling of community, I've seen it pay people back over and over and over again. You know, I don't need to study on it to tell me how great it works. So that part is absolutely fantastic. The it's great even that the Prozac work, I looked it up while you're talking and says Prozac, people using Prozac can see improvement in symptoms of anxiety, one or two weeks could usually take between four to six to feel full benefits. That's, that's just that's magical, you know, because it wasn't going to let go of you. I don't think how long have you had a glucose monitor a continuous glucose monitor?

Kelsey 23:03
Let's see, since I got my pump, I have the Medtronic 670 G. So I've had that for about three years now. Maybe a little over three? And how

Scott Benner 23:14
long has it been since you met that this second doctor that you talked about? Just two years years? So one year with a continuous glucose monitor didn't make a dent in this Can I guess? Did it almost make it worse?

Kelsey 23:26
Oh my gosh, I was gonna exactly say that. That's what she said. She's like, because you're able to see your numbers doing the scary, scary drop. It makes it worse for you versus kind of being able to go an hour without knowing Yeah. And I actually she said, I actually developed a little bit of OCD with it too, because I was continuously like, every five or 10 minutes, like okay, Where's it at? Now? Where is it at now. And that's as soon as it updates is five or 10 minutes. And so she was like you have this very interesting dynamic because a when you go low, you feel it. But also when your anxiety kicks in, it almost feels the same as going low. So you kind of are having this crazy double whammy of mentally feeling it and physically having to feel it where most people who have anxiety don't really experience that. I have

Scott Benner 24:17
to tell you that when continuous glucose monitors became popular, like when they they were available in the world and people started using them. There was so much talk from people who had lived with type one for a while prior to continuous glucose monitors, saying how much continuous glucose monitors made them feel anxious. But you don't hear those conversations nearly as much if at all, from people who are born in the moment of continuous glucose monitors who excuse me diagnosed in the moment of them. People who have them from from go. Don't have that like that same. That same impact. Doesn't seem to occur. As for me, this is anecdotally me looking at people, obviously. But I think there's something about like, people who are diagnosed now or have continuous glucose monitors might not recognize the people that lives with diabetes prior to that, like they were, they're alive and doing the way they're doing. But they didn't really know why. They just, they're following the rules, right? Like, do this, count that shoot this, eat that. And you wake up every day? And you go, huh, well, that must work. Because here I am standing here. And then all of a sudden, that glucose monitor comes up and you look and you go, wow, there's a lot of things I could be doing differently here. That's how it hits some people. Some people are then given a picture to what's going on inside of their bodies. And they're like, Well, wait, that's been happening the whole time. Like, that's scary. Yeah. Yeah, no kidding that trend. So can you tell? So I guess I want to ask a question before I asked this one. You've been listening to podcast for a little bit now. Does your blood sugar still fall drastically like that?

Kelsey 26:02
It does. But I don't get us freaked out. I don't suspend my insulin, I don't try to correct it right away. I just let it be and let it ride. And just like from listening to the podcast, it's like, oh, yeah, you know, people you trend down for and downtrend down, and then boom, you level out. And so I now have been doing that and trying to wait for the arrows to stop trending and start leveling. Okay.

Scott Benner 26:31
So can I talk to you like about just like insulin for a minute? So I can, I want to orientate around some context here. So would you say that your basil rates are really good? Or do they need work?

Kelsey 26:42
I would say that my basil rates are very good. And I still have some anxiety issues. So when I see that there sounds silly to say, but when they are, where my levels are, where they need to be, I'm 100, straight line, it still triggers some anxiety, because I'm like, Oh, my gosh, at any second, you know, I could I could start to go down because I have three units on board. And so it's a little more complicated for me to still be able to see, like, I know, my Basal rates are where they're at, because I am where I'm at where I need to be. But yet, in that back of your mind, that anxiety is like, Oh my gosh, but what if but what if? Yeah, and so it's kind of a still kind of a funky battle?

Scott Benner 27:32
What about overnight? Where do you sit? stable overnight

Kelsey 27:34
at? Yep, overnight, my line is perfectly straight.

Scott Benner 27:38
What number is still around that? 100?

Kelsey 27:41
No, I overnight, I'm still reading around 150 to 170? Because that's still kind of my safety net? Sure has, yeah, with that, just with the anxiety of it being asleep, and not being able to see exactly what is happening all the time like I can when I'm awake, right? And it's still a jump I need to overcome.

Scott Benner 28:01
Yeah, and please keep in mind, I'm not trying to talk you out anything I'm trying to figure out. Structurally, why are you Why is your blood sugar falling during the day, so so so, you know, the way I think of it is, if you're higher overnight, like that, then when you come into the day, and you hit that, you know, feet on the floor, like life anxiety thing, and your blood sugar wants to start going up. Now you're going to be bolusing more aggressively at numbers and leaving the the meal insulin or the corrected insulin, whichever it is you're doing or maybe both at a position where at some point, it's going to become counterbalanced or out of balance with the number than or the carbs or the need. So you start at a higher number. It makes you Bolus more food, eventually, the food leaves your system, the insulin remains behind, and then you come crashing down. And as I realized that this is a specific scenario, we're talking about anxiety, so but if you came, if you and I were having this conversation, and it was just about management, and there was no anxiety in it, what I would say is that if you can keep your blood sugar stable and lower overnight, and even a little lower during the day, then you wouldn't be making up for your basil deficit with Bolus insulin. And the likelihood of having a low after a meal would be significantly less because you'd be using far less meal and so on. Does that make sense?

Kelsey 29:32
No, that's what makes that's a really good point. And I actually honestly haven't thought about it like that. Because I'm so used to, you know, for the past three years, just when I get high, just continuously taking little micro doses. Yep.

Scott Benner 29:47
So you end up stacking insulin up because of that, which is weird because I don't usually say stacking because what I'll tell you is, if your settings are right, and you need insulin, like I say if it's it's not stacking if you need it, but You can't, you can't stack to make up for a basil deficit. So one of the most interesting things that happens, Kelsey when I'm talking to people, and they're just like, look at my graph, I don't know what to do. I have this peak here, and this peak here. And the peaks are always, you know, after meals, and then I get really low and the really lows always like two and a half, three hours after meals. And you know, and when I'm, you know, when I look when they're away from food completely, their blood sugars are super stable around 140 or 150. And then I'll look at that. And I'll say, well, your basil, I think your basil needs to be higher. Because first of all, when you're super stable away from food, or, or Bolus insulin, you know, if your basil was where it needed to be perfectly, your blood sugar would be super stable, but it would be super stable at 85, not at 150. So there's what 65 points higher, that you can eat out of your blood sugar with basil insulin, and that ends up being a lot of insulin. And so now you're counting carbs later, you know, your blood sugars are stable at 150. you're counting carbs later. And you're like, well, this is 30 carbs, that's three units, or whatever your ratio is, and you put it in, but you're, you have a deficit of basil every hour, it could be half a unit depends on your size, right? It could be any amount, but whatever amount it is, that you've been missing all night long and all day long. like think about it, if it was in there, it would be in there but it's not. So you're just sort of bolusing but your Bolus is just going towards the basil instead of going towards the carbs. Right and then you keep you keep you keep both now your Bolus thing the number, the number, the number, the number and then eventually the food digests out of your system stops impacting your blood sugar and then straight down.

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Right? Have I described your life?

Kelsey 33:25
Yeah, pretty. Yeah, that's exactly what I've been doing off to try to try increasing my Basal rate that

Scott Benner 33:34
that makes a big you increase your basil and get yourself where you're super stable. And I'm saying whatever number you're comfortable with, obviously. But the lower you go with that comfortable number, the less insulin you're going to need at meals and the less insulin, you're going to need for corrections. And then you can start, you can start setting your alarms on your on your CGM to actually help you so like, you know, you set it at 130 as you drift above 130. And I say this a lot, but the amount of insulin it would take you to bring a 130 diagonal up back to 90 is a pretty small amount of insulin. But the amount of insulin that would take you to bring a 250 back down is a lot and again, it's going to get out of balance with the with the insulin need at some point. And then you've find the low so it seems counter intuitive. But those people who show me the peak and then the low and then the peak and the low they're like oh it peaks up after I eat then it gets low and then I eat something that jumps back up again this keeps happening. And then you say to them well I think if you turn up your basil this might not happen here are the reasons why a lot of people here but no, I get low a lot more insolence not the not the answer. And what I'm saying is it may actually end up being less insulin. You're just shifting where it is and the job it's doing.

Kelsey 34:52
Yeah, and that which totally makes sense because I know that with one of the things with the anxiety is that having A large amount of insulin on board because you know, when you have that large amount that you're more likely to go low. Yeah. So that absolutely makes sense to raise your basil to only have to do those little micro boluses to get you to where you need to be.

Scott Benner 35:14
Yeah, definitely helpful. Can I? I'm sorry, I know you didn't think this was gonna happen. But what are your What are your Basal rates at? Hold on, let me pull up here. And then get ready for the part where I ask you how much you weigh. Sorry about that. So

do you have like one singular rate? Or do you have a bunch of different rates? I have a bunch of I was gonna guess that? Yep. Yeah, a

Kelsey 35:42
bunch of different rates. Okay, so let's see here. Okay, so from midnight to 330, my if that 1.1 3:30am to 8am, point eight to five 8am to 12 1.2 12 to 3.953 to 7pm, point 375. And then seven to midnight, one unit?

Scott Benner 36:17
Well, so you're basically you've set up a bunch of different basil programs trying to outsmart problems that you have. Is that about, right? Yeah, that's pretty good, right? Especially with the weird hours I work. I work 5am to 5pm. And so I set that because I know in the morning time, I'm not going to be eating for three hours. So I know that my bloods naturally going to drop during that time. Do you work in a hospital? No, I actually actually work in a jail. Oh, that's more fun. That's a much it's a much more different answer than I expected. So I'm not saying that there aren't times a day when your basil needs need to change drastically when you're in your pot when you're on a pump. Arden uses frequently less insulin overnight for basil then during the day, but it's not that significant. So like 12 to 3.95 going into three to 7.375. That to me sounds like you're like incredibly active at work and not eating at a certain time. Is that about my guess? Right?

Kelsey 37:21
Yeah, that's right. So during that time frame, I've noticed that as when my bloods will just crash, because it's after eating, and I'm not going to eat again until seven. Right? And yeah, running around at work. It just drops during that time period. Yeah. Okay.

Scott Benner 37:37
So I'll bleep this out if you want me to, but how much do you weigh? So right now? Yeah, bleep it out. I'm at one, now, okay. All right. So I would say if your blood sugar's are consistently overnight, in the 150 range, and consistently during the day at the 100 range, when you're not, when you're not using insulin at the moment, and there's no active food or insulin in you, then I think there's a lot of space in your basil. Like it really is. So and I'll bleep this out, too. And I'm sorry for the people listening. I'll give you some generic answer later, but we're talking to calcium protecting the parts of our life she wants to keep to herself. I would say that I frequently, when I start guessing about people's Basal rates, I usually guess point one per 10 pounds. Now, that's it, that there's nothing mathematical about that. And there's nothing there's nothing medical about that. It's just something I've noticed, and some people don't fall into it all. But like a kid that weighs like 35 pounds, sometimes they're like point two 5.3 in that space, you know, somebody 100 pounds around a unit, like that kind of thing. Like Don't get me wrong, 100 pound person might only need point eight, they might need 1.2. They also there and there's always outliers, who, you know, you see people's graphs, they're absolutely amazing. And their Basal is like half unit an hour, and they weigh 120 pounds. And I'm just like, that falls outside of my thing. But what I'm saying is, if you just tried to bring everything up a little bit, I wonder what would happen and I would start on a day when you're not at work. Like a day off from work, and just I don't know, like 10% of the time, just move it up and see what happens. Now I'm going to do that. Yeah, because if you could create because I'm listening to what you're saying about the anxiety, right? You're you're afraid of falling quickly, and that fear is precipitated by having a lot of insulin on board. Because insulin on board feels like falling. I'm going to tell you that. If you're there's a wolf in your house. I'm going to tell you that if your basil is rock solid You do a good job of counting your carbs. And your ratio is pretty close. Right? And I'd say you need to understand the difference between carbon packs, meaning that, you know, white rice or big potato is going to impact differently than maybe, you know, I don't know, watermelon, or grapes or something like that. If you can keep that stuff straight in your head, I've, I don't want to, I definitely don't want to flip you out. But my daughter's eating Chinese food right now. Her insulin on board is like 18 units or something like that, oh, my goodness, that would freak me out. But her blood sugar is also not going to get high. And it isn't going to get low later. Because these 18 units are active, while the food is also trying to impact her. And so that becomes the last bit of it is that you have to understand where the insulin, you have to you have to understand how to get the insulin working while the carbs are working. So if you've never heard the Pre-Bolus there's a defining diabetes, no way. I don't know my own podcast, diabetes pro tip Pre-Bolus. That episode talks about how to line up the insulin, the you know, the impact of the carbs with the action of the insulin and keep them sort of working at the same time so that they're working against each other. And then as the food digests, the insulin wears off, and then there's no high or low afterwards. It's not that it's Listen, it isn't like, don't get me wrong, like you're not gonna, like get off the thing and be like, Oh, I got it. But it's, but that's to me the information that gets you to a place where you won't see a bunch of falling. And you won't have to be putting in a bunch of extra insulin all the time. And then hopefully, one day you can roll out for a pizza and not feel weird about it.

Kelsey 41:52
Yeah, that's I'll definitely have to listen to that episode. And try again, if we're going to try that going forward. because like you said, eating how Arden's eating Chinese food right now i i am very limited in my diet, because I don't want to eat higher carb things, because I know that that's gonna mean I have to take more.

Scott Benner 42:10
Yeah. Yeah, listen, for most for people who have not had the problem you've had, you know, the the trauma that you've had. It's still a and for me as well, like, it's still a great leap to get over. You know, like, I'll never forget when Arden was growing, and the first time you're just like, you know, I mean, you just got to remember like, I remember setting basil rates like point two, five an hour. And when I got to a unit, I was like, Oh, my God felt insane, you know, but now now there are times around her period where I'm like jacking her basil up to like three units an hour.

Kelsey 42:42
Oh, yeah. The hormones behind it. Oh, my goodness. Yeah. Yeah. It's a lot to try and remember and taken,

Scott Benner 42:50
it certainly is. I mean, listen, there's there's just no doubt, but I also hear in your voice, that you're, you're really do want to find the other side of this. It sounds like to me. Oh, yeah, absolutely. Yeah. That it just it didn't seem like I'm scared. And I'm okay. Staying here. Like, it seems to me like you're like, Okay, that's enough of this. I gotta, I gotta move forward. Plus, I take advantage of this time you're dating this paramedic. So right.

Kelsey 43:18
Exactly. Yeah. And so yeah, especially with, you know, weddings coming up. And we want to have kids like, my numbers have to be prime. So I'm not so scared anymore. As much as determined. I'm trying to be with it.

Scott Benner 43:34
Good for you. Yeah. No, I mean, can you imagine if trying to have a baby? And having this is still like, afflicting you, you know, like the I can't do what I can't bring? I can't give myself more because there are parts of pregnancy. I've had a number of pregnant women on the show, there are parts of pregnancy where your your insulin needs just skyrocket?

Kelsey 43:55
Oh, yeah. I've listened to those episodes. And I'm like, Oh, my God, you have to literally double your insulin. So knowing that going forward, I I know this is something that I really need to conquer and get a lot more control of.

Scott Benner 44:10
It's really admirable that what you're doing, I know, it's probably to you feels like you're lost in this like slog trying to figure this whole thing out. But you I mean, I hope you know how many people are listening who are in the exact same situation you're in and have not found a way to even try to address it. It's very common, what you're talking about.

Kelsey 44:33
Yeah, and that's part of the reason why I reached out to you because I'm listening through your stuff. I noticed that there wasn't too too many expressions of people who have anxiety and have had to get counseling and like me have had to get on Prozac or whatever you need to do. Because there's some shame behind it. Like when I first started I was I was a little bit shameful myself because I knew I wasn't doing good and it's kind of getting over that. That hurdle. And being like, you know what I write, I'm not alone. And I want to be able to make myself better so I can make my life better for everyone else who's in it

Scott Benner 45:11
is overcoming that shame. Like one of the first steps,

Kelsey 45:15
I would say, so, for me, originally, when I was having this problem, and people asked me how my diabetes was going, I would sometimes I would just break down, it'd be like, as soon as I started talking about my diabetes, I would just start crying because I was like, Oh my gosh, like, I don't have anybody else to share this with like, this is, you know, it's so scary. I know, I'm doing bad. And so I think once you kind of start, for me, it was admitting step a was admitting like, yeah, I have a problem. And then seeking the help to try and fix that problem helps you to overcome that shame, or at least it did for me to help overcome it by just simply admitting it and having people be like, okay, you know, like, we're not mad at you. We're not like, oh, how dare you have high numbers of everybody has been so helpful. And, you know, open arms about like, yeah, let let me know what you need. Yeah. And I think that was a really big, important step.

Scott Benner 46:18
Does this shame feel like something you end up putting on yourself? Like, you think it's going to come from disapproval, but it's the fear of disapproval? I don't know. Like, do you understand the mechanism of that?

Kelsey 46:29
Yeah. So for for me personally, um, my shame was within myself, because I knew how good I had been doing previously Of course, and then now to go to my endo and However, she literally the first time I went in, she gasped, she goes, Oh my gosh, what happened? And I know that a lot of people have that fear of going into your endo because it's like, oh my gosh, this is it like you're on trial to see how good or bad you're doing. And so a lot of it was put on me. And because I wanted people to be proud of me and my numbers, because again, in my very small town I live and I'm like one the only diabetic so when people ask me how you're doing I'm like I'm great. And not be like oh gosh, it's so bad.

Scott Benner 47:21
As the person who's standing up for all of us at this longitude and latitude let me just say I'm doing terrific because I'm you felt like you were the correspondent for diabetes for your for your songs. I mean, the whole thing is because I I'm trying to imagine you have this episode The you know this terrible low and this traumatic thing and you go back to your doctor next time you're a one sees hire like what if she would have just said or he would have just said hey, well this is really out of character instead this in her head You know, this is really our character Something must be up let me find out what's going on let you tell the story of the the load day and the impact it's had on you and help you out of it and then you don't get stuck for the last six years in this you know, it maybe or maybe not maybe maybe your brains wired in a way where like any trauma would have would have been something that stuck with it. I don't know like do you think if you ever had a car accident you'd be afraid to drive or I guess there's no way Oh right. No,

Kelsey 48:18
I mean, I guess there's no way to really truly know that if you haven't been in a car accident and I think that I you know I've been in a fender bender right I was basically a little cautious after that but now I'm like okay, you know you're back to I continue my life yeah, I'm back to normal and so I think that if people if my endo maybe had not reacted so strongly it wouldn't have instantly put that that oh my gosh, okay, I need to not tell her anything Yeah. How it's really been

Scott Benner 48:52
you do live in a small town I just heard the steam engine go by it's probably gonna pick up at the bank and then take cattle into Kansas right? Yeah, forget that. Seriously, it felt like it was in a Western for a second. I was like I can't help the train No, no, no, I it's been one of my favorite things has happened so far today. Don't worry about it. I was like this is great. I'm waiting for for guys with masks to to ride out of the dust now would they be wearing masks because of COVID? Or because they were going to rob the train? I have no way to know probably. Yeah, could it be I don't you keep I hate to be the one to say this out loud. But don't you keep waiting for there to be a ton of bank robberies because we're all wearing like, Am I the only one who's been like sitting around going we're all the bank robber. He's gonna have oh my gosh, yes. Especially when someone walks in with sunglasses. I just I just keep thinking like some industrious robbers gonna be like, Huh, you know, but I guess not. I guess there's more to robbing a bank than wearing a mask. I don't know. I've never I've never looked into it. But anyway, I just I there's an 11 year old inside of me that just keeps waiting for there to be 9 million bank Rob. That's the silliest thing. I've ever thought as an adult, but it really does happen. When's it gonna happen? Well, so listen, I think it's interesting because I never know, like, so you're listening to the show more for community, not as much from management. So I'm gonna say this to you. If I'm you, I go to Episode 210. It's called diabetes pro tip newly diagnosed are starting over. And it's the beginning of the diabetes pro tip episodes. And they're very management. Rich, and not, they're not boring. I don't think it's me and my friend, Jenny Smith, who's a CD, she's had diabetes for, like 32 years now. And she she was really nice enough, this is going back a couple years. Now, I said to Jenny, I have these tenants like, I realize I'm saying the same things over and over again, the podcast, I'd like to drill down deeper on specific ones that I think lead to stable management, right. And so she was nice enough to come on and have these conversations with me. And I'll tell you, that the feedback I get about them is stunning to me. Like, I can't believe that people find them as helpful as they do. I meant for them to be helpful. I thought they were, but I can't believe the feedback. So if you have, you know, 20 hours to listen through a handful of episodes, I would think that the things we kind of chatted about today loosely would come into focus for you. And I would love to see you not be I would love to see everyone not feel that anxiety. Because, I mean, again, being the parent of someone with diabetes, it does give you this the this passionate feeling where like, you're like, well, if I make someone low, it's not making me low. And I'll still be here to fix it if it happens. You know what I mean? So like, there's

Kelsey 51:44
no, I 1,000% Get it? Because that's, that's how my fiance is, you know, he's like, as soon as I got the Dexcom He's like, share that with me. Yeah, I you know, cuz he knew I, you know, I have this fear. He's like, I, if he works nights, or whatever, that actually really helps when I got it, because I was like, Okay, I'm sharing this with somebody else. So if I go low, it's not going to be just me home alone, I'm going to be able to alert somebody that like, hey, something's going on

Scott Benner 52:11
this. You know, I've never done this before. And as I'm saying it, I don't know why I've never done it before. But would you be willing, while we're talking right now, would you take a screen grab of your 24 hour Dexcom graph and texted me real quick? Yeah, grab my phone. I'm gonna tell you it's not pretty. But no, no, it doesn't matter. It just needs to be what it is. I can see it. You know how to turn it sideways and choose 24 hours? Yeah. There we go. And I'll definitely remember to bleep out your weight now because I'm not the Bleep out my cell phone number. is important. Keep my weight and I know you said, I stick with what you said. Don't worry. All right. Okay, go ahead with your numbers. I should bleep out the bleeps with curses. But I really

Okay, there we go. I got it. All right. Yeah. You don't have enough basil.

Unknown Speaker 53:17
Okay.

Scott Benner 53:20
Most days like this.

Kelsey 53:22
Okay, yeah, it's that that roller coaster of high then like, as you can see super high overnight because again, with that anxiety of not being able to sleep, it's something I really need to like,

Scott Benner 53:38
don't you don't apologize. This is very, very fixable. Call me with the low line of setup, though. Where's the low alarm at a low alarms at 7070? Where's the high one at one at 180? Is that right? 170? Yeah. All right. Yeah, you could easily or you could easily be doing 1.3 units an hour for basil. You think that's where I'd start. And as crazy as it sounds, I'd write down all your settings. Right? So you have them. And I would just go to what 24 hour Basal rate? That's how I would start. So I would I start, I'd start. How would I start? What's your overnight 1.1 overnight and 3/8 is point nine five. Okay, so we got to enlist the boyfriend. We got to do we got to do it on a Friday night. Right? And you just 6pm on a Friday night that you're not working? You go to listen, let's try we'll try 1.3 right. And if it's 1.2 it's 1.2 if it's 1.4 is 1.4 whatever. And you just you want to get down low and stable like meaning get to wherever level is for that Basal rate. Get this table, and then just let it roll for a while and see what happens. So let's say it gets you to 110. And you're, you know, it's six o'clock, because he changed it at 6pm, it's not really gonna start taking effect till 7pm, maybe by nine or so you'll see about what what's up right now at 1011. If you start drifting lower, fair enough, right, like if you if you get lower than you mean to then take a little bit of the Basal away, make it you know, 1.2 instead, until you come stay stable where you want to be. But just keep in mind, you are going to go stable somewhere and at 1.3. At from what I'm seeing from this, I'm guessing you'll be stable around 100, maybe. And then if you don't have any active insulin in you overnight, okay, so you don't make a big Bolus at nine o'clock or 10 o'clock or 11 o'clock, something like that. I'm not a doctor, and you certainly shouldn't listen to me because my wife says I'm an idiot, okay. But you're not going to have a drop. If your Basal rate is where it belongs overnight, you shouldn't see a significant drop. And if you do like it one o'clock, you start drifting down, and you get to, you know, 90, and you're not comfortable with that, well, then maybe, maybe from 6pm till midnight, then it's 1.3. And at midnight, it's 1.1. Like, I don't know, but well, definitely, that's something we're gonna do that and I'm pleased so that, you know, he'll say I'm making up numbers right now. You have to you have to figure the numbers out for yourself. But this, this graph can handle a lot more basil throughout the day. And when it and when you have it, because I see your I see your meals, like you're shooting up immediately. And staying up after a meal, which is an indication that you're not using enough insulin for the meal and your basil is, is low to me. And I'm getting that from the angle of the pitch that your blood sugar goes up at after you eat. So and I can even see here, you make corrections that are pretty aggressive. And it takes some a couple of hours just to get back to 200. And then it just bounces again. So yeah, so it's you. So in order, get your basil, right, figure out your Pre-Bolus time, what's a fair amount of Pre-Bolus time for you learn the glycemic load and glycemic index of foods meaning that 10 carbs of potato might need, like say you were 10 units, let's say you were one unit per 10 carbs, right. And so if you were one year for 10 carbs and 10 carbs of potatoes might need a unit and a half were 10 carbs of you know, strawberries might just use the unit. So So meaning you're gonna have to learn that there are some foods that punch above their weight, they need more insulin than your ratio indicates, just as there are some foods that need less insulin than your your ratio would indicate. So then you got your Basal, right, you understand Pre-Bolus Singh, meaning you want to get the timing of the insulin, you know, lined up with the impact of the food. And then you know, have a reasonable understanding of what foods need what kind of like strength. And from there, the rest of stay flexible, which might in possible might be the hardest part for you in the beginning. And meaning that you know, you know, if you if it tries to get higher, you might have to correct it. If it tries to get lower, you might have to bump it back. And I swear and try those protip episodes. If you're not living a different life in a month, I'd be surprised.

All right, I'll definitely do that. I'm excited. I'm excited to do that going forward, actually. Cool. Kelsey, I'm telling you now Now you've interested me now I want to stay involved if you want me to. I want to hear how things are going after you try this. Now. There's no pressure whenever you do it, do it. But I would. I would love to know your graph looks a lot like a newly diagnosed kids graph. Yeah, it's a hot mess. Listen, it all right. You know what? Why am I disagreeing with you? You're an adult. It's a beautiful. It's a bit of a mess. But at the same time, but at the same time, the fix isn't difficult. It's just it's basil than Pre-Bolus than understanding foods. And if you do those three things, listen, you're back to your six, five. I mean, you do those things, you're back to your six five pretty quickly. But that's not the important part. The numbers aren't what we're talking about. What's important for you is is cut being comfortable.

Kelsey 59:40
Exactly. Yeah. Being being able to be at 90 continuously and not being like oh my gosh, I'm 20 points away from being at 70

Unknown Speaker 59:47
Oh my goodness.

Scott Benner 59:48
I don't know if this makes you feel any better. This will just be worse. But the way it makes me comfortable to think about it as this is that I don't have type one diabetes and For most of the day, my blood sugar's 85. That there's a large group of people who don't have type one who they throw in glucose monitors on, who will experience blood sugars of 64, sometimes hours at a time during the day. And really, yeah, and that you're not going I know this is like, I don't usually say this out loud. But your blood sugar's got to be pretty low for you to have an actual seizure. And if you're going to be with your man and trying this thing, you know, I don't you know, it's going to be different for you in the beginning, because your I think your body is going to be accustomed to higher blood sugar's so you might have to do this in segments, because you might get the 150 or 140 stable and feel low for a while. I don't My gosh,

Kelsey 1:00:46
yeah, that's so funny. You say that. That's exactly what my, my endo, in my, in my psychiatrist said, She's like, you will feel low, because you're so used to running so high.

Scott Benner 1:00:57
Yeah. And that's your body actually trying to you ever, ever hear somebody talk about the idea of like, your body is trying its hardest not to die. So when you start doing something that's killing it, like having blood sugar's high like this, it tries to adapt to it, it tries to live with that longer. And so there's something about the way your blood vessels are blocked, I don't know, again, not a doctor, something about how your blood vessels are helping you to not feel high blood sugars, will then it'll feel it'll feel normal blusher normal blood sugars as lower blood sugars for a little while I've seen I've seen people get through it in a couple of days, I've seen people take a week or so. But you know, I would, I would definitely expect that to happen. But you're gonna have to prepare yourself mentally, like I'm not actually low, I just, this is a feeling I'm having because of this. So maybe you're gonna want to, maybe you're gonna want to titrate this, maybe you're gonna want to start on a Friday and go, you know, just start with a one unit across the board for 24 hours, and live like that for a couple of days. And then push it up a little up a little up a little and just keep bringing it down slowly. I mean, maybe that really is the best idea for you. Again, I'm not a doctor. Just

Kelsey 1:02:09
know. Yeah, that's, that's essentially what they want me to do is they call it exposure therapy is to see that, again, retrain your brain and to be like, okay, Matt 110. And eventually your brain will learn like, okay, like, you're you're not dying. You can be here and you can be fine,

Scott Benner 1:02:30
right? No, I mean, and so I think and if that's what you're going to try, like forget everything else I said, if you want, that's fine. But if that's what you're going to try, I still think a stable basil rate across 24 hours to start with, is a great way to start. Because if you try to start, if you try to start adjusting off of 123456 different basil rates, the variability, they're so great, you're never gonna figure it out. I'd rather see you set it at one, and then come back and say, You know what? One is keeping me super stable at 140. This is terrific. But while I'm at work from three to seven, turns out I needed to be more like point five now or something like that. Like, like, it's so much easier to figure those things out when you're starting from one basil pro one Basal, right? I think

Kelsey 1:03:20
Yeah, no, that totally makes sense. That way, you can see exactly where you look fluctuate and from what time to what time.

Scott Benner 1:03:26
Yep. And when you make that adjustment, just remember that. Just like just like your Bolus insulin doesn't go in and begin to start working immediately. Your basil doesn't either. So if you are consistently getting higher at 3pm, or consistently getting lower at 3pm, you need to change your basil more like at 2pm. So that it has time to either ramp up the stock to high or to start titrating down to get in the way of allow. I'm telling you, I think you might really love the pro tip episodes. Yeah, I'm definitely gonna listen to that. Like, as soon as we're done here. But you already then apologize to the paramedic for me. Is he an EMT, or a paramedic? I forget. He's a paramedic. I apologize to him. Because the very likely days from now you're going to be like, you know, Scott says, and he's gonna be like, please stop doing that. Yeah, yeah. Trust me, I get a lot of notes from people are like my husband's tired of hearing your name. I I'm sorry. I know, I, there's part of me that wanted you just to explain your whole thing and go on. And then like, halfway through, I was like, I wonder if I couldn't help her. get through this. So I shifted my gears a little bit. Is there anything that we didn't talk about that you wanted to?

Kelsey 1:04:40
Um, no, I think we basically hit all the points that that I wanted to talk about.

Scott Benner 1:04:44
Cool. That's amazing. How do you feel after like making like some sort of a, even though it's just a kind of a subconscious decision, like I'm going to I'll try that. Does it make you nervous? Or how do you how do you feel about it? Um,

Kelsey 1:04:57
I feel good. I want to say I feel I guess the best word would be empowered going forward? Because I'm like, Okay, you know what, I have a plan. I'm a planning kind of person. So having some kind of timeframe and a plan of what I'm going to do, what I can do, really actually helps me quite a bit.

Scott Benner 1:05:18
That's excellent. Can I ask you? It's a little off topic, but not really. Are you an anxious person? Aside from the diabetes?

Kelsey 1:05:26
Um, yeah, I would say I'm a little bit more type A, I definitely like to have, you know, a plan and then 15 steps if that plan doesn't work out.

Scott Benner 1:05:41
You got lists of things around the house? Yeah. Yeah, pretty much. Yeah. My wife hands me lists a lot. And I'm like, What do you need for me on this? And what I've learned over years, is she just needs to see me crossing things off the list.

Unknown Speaker 1:05:56
So I'm telling you, that's the key. Yeah.

Scott Benner 1:05:58
Please, if she ever hears this, there are times where I can't get this something off the list. So I'll start a second list of things I need to remember to do and put my line through on her list so she can feel better about it. Turns out it doesn't matter. By the way, if you do the stuff on the list or not. Yeah, yeah. It's meaningless. Different different. Write something on a list. Never get to it. Find the list a year later and go, Oh, I never did that. Oh, yeah. And then realize you're still alive and nothing has changed. Yeah, exactly. Like, oh, I guess it was fine that I didn't do this. Yeah. It once you get mellow in that space, now you're living in my head, where I'm just, I just keep I do actually keep a list of things I need to do. But I keep it very flexible. And something that's at the top of my list today could easily end up at number 10. And something at 10 could add up at one I just stay. I try to stay flexible with what what the needs are around things. And I think of diabetes the same way as a matter of fact. Yeah. I'm super, like, hopeful for you and really interested, I am really serious. Would you keep me in the loop on this? Like you don't have to report in but if this works for you, or doesn't, would you let me know because this episode won't go up for a number of months. And I'd love to be able to put like a, like a follow up email at the back of this and let people know how it went for you. Oh, yeah, absolutely. I'd love to do that. Thank you very much. I really do appreciate that. So as we say, goodbye. What kind of dog Did I make you take out of the room? It sounds like it

Kelsey 1:07:16
sounds like dogs actually. So one is a basset hound, and one is a German Shepherd.

Scott Benner 1:07:22
I thought was the was the shepherd the one that barked. Yep, dammit. I thought that sounds like a German Shepherd. I should have settled I would have seemed like a genius. Now it just feels like I'm making it up afterwards. Damn it. Damn Damn. Well for anybody else who thought it was a German Shepherd. I was with you. Beautiful dogs.

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