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#778 Robyn has Rheumatoid Arthritis

Robyn has Rheumatoid arthritis and a child with type 1.

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Scott Benner 0:00
Hello friends, and welcome to episode 778 of the Juicebox Podcast.

On today's show, I'll be speaking with Robin, she's the mother of two children, one of them has type one diabetes, but much of our conversation is going to follow the story of Robins. Rheumatoid arthritis. While you're listening, please remember that nothing you hear you. I'm sick by the way, sorry. You hear my voice just as crazy. While you're listening, please remember that nothing you hear on the Juicebox Podcast should be considered advice, medical or otherwise, always consult a physician before making any changes to your healthcare plan. Or becoming bold with insulin, we'll have to see if my voice makes it through these ads. Before I record the ads, let me remind you that if you're a US citizen who has type one diabetes, or is the caregiver of someone with type one, you can make a big difference by going to T one D exchange.org. Forward slash juicebox. Joining the registry and filling out the survey completely until the end the survey you got to complete the survey. That's all I gotta do. It's pretty easy. It takes fewer than 10 minutes completely HIPAA compliant, it's anonymous, you'd be helping yourself, other people with type one diabetes, and you'd be helping the podcast. As a matter of fact, there'll be a special episode coming up very soon, I'll be speaking with Dave, who has type one diabetes and runs the T one D exchange. And he's going to go over why it's so important to join the registry and take the survey. This episode of The Juicebox Podcast is brought to you by in pen from Medtronic diabetes, please go to in pen today.com to learn more and get started today. The Juicebox Podcast is also sponsored today. By where's my voice? I think I got this RSV that's going around. You know what I mean? Turtle. This episode of The Juicebox Podcast is also sponsored today by us med us med is where Arden gets her Dexcom and Omnipod supplies, and you could get your diabetes supplies from there to go to us med.com forward slash juice box or call 888-721-1514 I just cut out a huge coughing fit. So there's no way I make it through the ads in the middle of the show.

Robyn 2:20
My name is Robin. I am the mother of two girls Imogen is seven and Aly is four and she's my type one.

Scott Benner 2:31
Sorry, Robin. So your voice broke while you're telling me

Robyn 2:33
I know I cracked and then I had to cough Wait, let me get a sip of tea.

Scott Benner 2:37
And I'll try Thank you sympathy. We're gonna keep going though we're not stopping. I'm just saying that. This happened during you telling me that your two children have two names. I've only heard four times in the whole world.

Robyn 2:47
So I know. I told you they're identifiable. That's fine. I

Scott Benner 2:51
just didn't think we would, we would need to go over it one more time if we want people to know what one kid is named.

Robyn 2:58
So my oldest is Imogen, and we call her me.

Scott Benner 3:02
And how old is she? She's seven. Okay. And second oldest,

Robyn 3:07
my youngest is Aly. And she's four.

Scott Benner 3:12
Okay, seven and four. Does one of them have type one? The four year old does four year old as Ellie does a poor image. And that's the last time she gets talked about.

Robyn 3:23
She has nothing going on in her life or kid.

Scott Benner 3:27
Poor boring kid named image, right? Where do you get the name from?

Robyn 3:32
So my background is Scottish and Irish. And my husband is Scottish and Japanese. So both of the kids have like a Scottish Irish Gaelic first name and a Japanese middle name.

Scott Benner 3:43
Cool. That's lovely. All right. So let's talk about you for a second. Do you have do you have type one diabetes?

Robyn 3:51
I do not have type one diabetes. Okay.

Scott Benner 3:53
Do you have any other autoimmune issues?

Robyn 3:56
I do have other autoimmune issues. I have. I know. I'm going to spoil it.

Scott Benner 4:02
I want to talk about it immediately. Yes.

Robyn 4:05
Sure. Okay, so I have rheumatoid arthritis. Okay.

Scott Benner 4:08
Now, here are my basic questions that I believe are everyone's basic questions. Sure. Why do we all mispronounced that word?

Robyn 4:16
Because it's got so many weird letters in there. Okay. So it's not that I should talk so Aly Aly spelled E I L I D H show I so I shouldn't be able to say rheumatoid rheumatoid arthritis. And that that is a tongue twister.

Scott Benner 4:30
That is the correct pronunciation right. Rheumatoid? Yes. Right. So room like room. toyed like Altoid. Yep. And what most people say rheumatory.

Robyn 4:43
I just stumble over it. Yeah.

Scott Benner 4:46
I always say it incorrectly. Anytime. How do you say it? I think I say rheumatory. I think I think I grew up around people who were adults who did not care if the words they were saying were particularly correct. And they would just stick with them. Oh, So I, for instance, the entire time I was being brought up in the world, I thought the woman on TV who talked to people in the after names name was Oprah. Because that's my mom said it. And this one's not as much fun as it used to be. But Bill Cosby lot of stuff like that where I will. Yeah, so I think people just like or here's what's the other one. Alzheimer's. I know people who call it old timers, and they're not kidding.

Robyn 5:35
Really? Yeah. Oh. All right.

Scott Benner 5:40
High School first kids. Alright. Alright, so when were you diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis.

Robyn 5:50
So I started getting symptoms in June of 2020. Funding and the pandemic and kind of went back and forth with my doctor for a while and then I saw rheumatologist in September of 2020, and was officially diagnosed November of 2020. So like a year and a half, not that long.

Scott Benner 6:09
Okay. How old are you when you first noticed that?

Robyn 6:13
Oh, there t 3939. Okay, and you're about 40. I was big math 40 Minus one.

Scott Benner 6:22
Trust me. I had no idea. Of course, I didn't know when you were born. So I was at a disadvantage, but okay, so around 39 years old. At that point, do you turn to everyone in your extended family and go, Hey, is this happening to anybody else?

Robyn 6:37
I did, and we kind of have that look out when Haley was diagnosed. Did anyone have autoimmune anything that way? I wonder now if my mom didn't She definitely had something going on. But was never diagnosed. My brother has something I assume it's autoimmune, but he doesn't have a diagnosis yet. Okay, so, but no other ra but as soon as I had symptoms, my immediate thought was autoimmune just because of Aly, and then type one.

Scott Benner 7:04
So just very quickly, your mom had things going on, like what kinds of things?

Robyn 7:09
Um, she was really sore? A lot. Her ankles would always be aching. She isn't like going to doctors. She was a nurse, so she didn't ever like going to see the doctor. She was very stubborn. So I wonder if that joint issue non joint pain she constantly had could have been something autoimmune.

Scott Benner 7:29
And your brother.

Robyn 7:31
My brother has stomach issues. He he gets clots

Scott Benner 7:38
a lot. Blood clots. Yep. Okay,

Robyn 7:41
so he's had he's been hospitalized quite a few times for that. And just some of his symptoms are similar to mine.

Scott Benner 7:49
That's scary. Well, yeah, no, it's

Robyn 7:51
crazy. Yeah. Do you have kids? Yeah. He has two kids yet.

Scott Benner 7:55
Wow. Okay, well, that was depressing. I don't know. Yeah, sorry. No, no, no, it's so good. I actually, I thought, what do you do that for Scott. We're about to have an upbeat conversation about rheumatoid arthritis. And now you're like, now everyone's thinking about, you know, Robbins brothers walking around constantly saying goodbye to everybody. You know, like, he must

Robyn 8:16
be. I don't like I'm so thankful I have a diagnosis, because I can't imagine those like few months, between June and whatever. November was so crazy, right? And you just wonder, like, what could it be? Could it be this, I thought maybe it's celiac, maybe it's this, maybe it's that maybe right? You go through the whole litany. Right? And he's had this for years, and no answer. And if you don't have an answer, how do you treat

Scott Benner 8:41
it? He's never gotten like a full blood workup or anything like that. He

Robyn 8:45
has had every test known to man. Now the interesting thing about Ra is my bloodwork is clean. My bloodwork does not show any antibodies for RA. And about 30% of people that are diagnosed with RA were called seronegative. So it doesn't show up in our blood at all.

Scott Benner 9:03
Okay, 30%. Great. Alright. So prior to you having enough of a problem, back in 2020, we're used like were you said, I said, were used like, where you were thinking, Oh, my God, I brushed over and now I can't speak where you thought I'm going to a doctor prior to that, looking back. Anything happening? Or did it just come on like a light switch?

Robyn 9:30
There was probably stuff going on. I've always had stomach issues. And it's not directly linked to ra, but I wonder if there's a link there somewhere. I used to be a competitive gymnast like way, way back in the day. So I just always assumed all my aches and pains were just because I beat my body up for so long. But it was really in June. It started with my legs and I was like Oh, I'm not walking around as much we're in isolation here. Everything shut down. I must not be moving. My legs are getting stiff. So I tried going for a couple of walks and, and doing everything that way and it just wouldn't shake, couldn't get rid of it.

Scott Benner 10:08
So talk about that first stiffness, pain, soreness.

Robyn 10:14
Yeah, pain, but like this weird, achy sensation that I've never really been able to put into words, and it's mostly in my knees and then it went to my ankles. But I remember my doctor recommended I take a leave. And that would, it took the pain away, but not that weird sensation. Okay, what's like, I was always aware of my legs.

Scott Benner 10:41
You and I don't know each other. If I said to you, my bones hurt. Is that an accurate depiction? Or? No?

Robyn 10:48
That's accurate. Now? I don't think at the beginning because I wasn't even sure if it was my joints. Okay, so now I'm confident it's my joints. Somebody definitely ache more

Scott Benner 11:03
stomach pain you said to?

Robyn 11:05
Um, yeah, just kind of stomach issues, bloating and all that. General stuff. Flu and most people have now yeah.

Scott Benner 11:13
All right. So that's stuff going on for years prior? Or?

Robyn 11:17
Yeah, yeah, I was diagnosed, I had a parasite, like 10 years ago. And I got that taken care of, and the antibiotics I was on for that, like, killed my gut completely. And then I had a lot of food sensitivity issues and stuff. So I've worked through that.

Scott Benner 11:34
How do you work through that?

Robyn 11:37
Um, it did like an elimination diet, which was awful. Lost a lot of weight. Super tiny for my wedding. That was cool. couldn't eat any any food at my wedding, but that's okay. And then I was just suddenly kind of able to introduce foods back in and got back to a better place where I wasn't running to the bathroom. All the time?

Scott Benner 11:59
No, you didn't use any kind of supplements or stuff like that to help you rebalance your stomach?

Robyn 12:06
No, just probiotics.

Scott Benner 12:08
Probiotics. Okay, we'll call them supplements. Like, like over the counter or like a handful of like, like, military grade ones the doctor pointed you to

Robyn 12:20
no over the counter because the doctor pointed me to nothing. Gotcha.

Scott Benner 12:23
Big help us doctors. All right. So now we've got stomach issues. sore legs. Anything else? Wrists her neck always stiff?

Robyn 12:37
Yeah, I've had issues on my back for years lower back.

Scott Benner 12:42
Worse around your period? Not necessarily.

Robyn 12:47
I'm not necessarily with my back. I get it in like my lower hips. They get worse. When I'm on my period. For sure. When I'm that kind of started after Imogen was born. What helps pressure? Anything? Yes, sitting standing is awful.

Scott Benner 13:05
What about people like, give her lay on the floor and have people push on you or stand on yours or anything weird like that? That's that?

Robyn 13:14
Yes. Huge. I've that's what I found like, especially with my legs at the beginning, when I'd sit on the couch and my legs up, because when they're down, they really hurt. So I put them up high and then my kids would jump on them. And if the pressure felt really good, so I got them to sit on my legs.

Scott Benner 13:31
Do you like rubbing or squeezing or pressure? That would be fun, wholly unnatural to other people? Yes. And it feels good. For sure.

Robyn 13:40
Sometimes it's sometimes it's terrible. And sometimes it's really good. And then since my legs, it's gone into my elbows and my wrists and my fingers as well.

Scott Benner 13:50
How do you alleviate the pain in your wrists?

Robyn 13:55
I have compression gloves that I wear which are mostly for my fingers. But I finally help my wrist as well. Or I rest I find it's weird to Okay, so some joints crave heat. So my knees love heat. I have a heated blanket heating pad with me all the time. And some joints crave ice. So my wrists sometimes like heat sometimes like ice, knees heat ankles ice.

Scott Benner 14:22
Do you have any heat or cold sensitivities overall in your body? Are you always hot always cold?

Robyn 14:27
Yes, usually cold and my fingers now. Like if I'm outside in the snow like they get really like painful cold if they're under cold water tap my finger like it hurts. The cold water. I did have when I was little oh my gosh, I forgot what it's called rain rain nerds. I think where your digits go like white you lose circulation and toes or fingers. You had that had that in my toes and I haven't had it since I was a kid.

Scott Benner 14:57
Toes ever go tingling, numb Nope, no fingers. No like, okay, no. Toes ever change color like super red? No, no. All right. Hold on a second. You haven't found yet. Tons. So how do you get a diagnosis if your bloodwork comes back clean?

Robyn 15:25
So first appointment I had with a rheumatologist was supposed to be in person, but we did a tele appointment because he was homesick. And he went through this like massive list of questions, but one of them was auto immune to the family. So I think that tripped it in his head that it could be autoimmune. So he sent me for bloodwork. And he sent me for an ultrasound. So I had an ultrasound done on my ankles, my knees, my elbows, my wrists and my fingers. And based on those results, and he did an examination and my joints are so swollen that he can feel the inflammation in them. And then my synovial fluid, which is the fluid around your joints is inflamed in all of those joints that they ultrasound. So that's where my diagnosis

Scott Benner 16:10
came from, from an ultrasound of your joints. Yeah,

Robyn 16:14
sometimes they'll do a CT or an MRI. But I guess the ultrasound was enough in my case

Scott Benner 16:18
to look for the swelling and the inflammation. Okay. Once that happens, yeah. Did they medicate you with anything?

Robyn 16:28
Huh? Yeah. So much medication. Yep. So I am on immunosuppressant medication now, because my immune system is definitely out of whack. Unfortunately, I haven't found a drug combination that works yet to reduce the inflammation and take away the pain. But let me see I wrote them all down for 12345. I'm on my sixth medication now. So they, each one takes about four months to work. So you start this process, you start a new drug, you go through the drug company and your insurance to get it covered or not covered. And you get set up and then you start it and then you're in this waiting period to see if it's going to work. And then four months later, you're like, Okay, it's not working and you try something else.

Scott Benner 17:16
Well, so what was the first one

Robyn 17:19
sulfasalazine didn't work. Didn't work? No. any impact at all. Um, so before I was diagnosed, because also with the pain is you get like brain fog, awful, awful brain fog, and just pure exhaustion. I'd be in a like a virtual meeting at work. And it's like, my power button got turned off. And my colleagues could see it before I felt it. And they're like, No, you're done. And I would just like literally power down. And I couldn't I needed to rest. I needed to just recharge my batteries for a bit. So I think the sulfasalazine helped with that a little bit. I was able to I guess not stay awake. I wasn't falling asleep, but my energy level was up, but not enough to stay on it.

Scott Benner 18:05
Do you have a thyroid thing?

Robyn 18:07
So I've wondered about that. My level, what's my level? I think it's two. So

Scott Benner 18:13
you're good. Okay, I'm good. All right. Okay, next drug?

Robyn 18:19
hydroxy, Clora hydroxychloroquine.

Scott Benner 18:20
That didn't help. Nope. Didn't it cure river blindness. It couldn't help you.

Robyn 18:26
It wasn't going to cure COVID. At some point, too.

Scott Benner 18:28
It does everything. So right now, actually, it's an incredibly well used drug across the Yes, yeah.

Robyn 18:37
Oh, for sure. For sure. And a lot of people get a lot of good success with that one. And with methotrexate, which was I think I was on them together for a while. Those are the two like best drugs for RA. They didn't work. methotrexate, actually, you know what I like? methotrexate was definitely working. But it was an injection, which was fine. But it made me really sick. So I'd inject Friday night, Saturday and Sunday. Were like the worst hangover you've ever had. Monday, I'd be in the bathroom all day. And then Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, I was kind of okay. And then it was shot day again Friday.

Scott Benner 19:14
Yeah, it doesn't seem. No, no,

Robyn 19:17
no, no. So I'm like, are those three days worth it to be like? No, because I couldn't I couldn't feed the kids. I couldn't play with them. I couldn't do it couldn't work. Like those days were so terrible. I was just trying not to throw up the whole time.

Scott Benner 19:30
Right? Wow. But the three days not that you would just do it anyway. But the three days were like normal or just better.

Robyn 19:38
Better for sure. Okay, I didn't stay on it long enough. Because kind of built they all build up in your system. And I don't think I ever got to a point where it could have taken my pain away completely, but I didn't let it get to that point.

Scott Benner 19:51
Did the doctor indicate that the illness part of it would end at some point or No?

Robyn 19:55
No. Okay, no. So some people are okay. Some people get better with it, but But usually if you're if you don't react well to it, you're going to continue and I was like scouring the internet. Dr. Google was my friend. I'm in a bunch of support groups too. And people were saying, Okay, try and grab all. There's like a cough medicine that you can take that counteracts something in the methotrexate that makes you feel terrible. So I was taking that take folic acid with it. Like I'm trying to do everything I could to, to counter the terrible feelings, but I couldn't. I couldn't get it to work.

Scott Benner 20:28
What was the next drug? You tried? Lucena? mide anything? No, no. How about after that? Xeljanz Oh, I know that one. That's not I was hopeful for Xeljanz I wasn't when I was on previous to what I'm on now. And I was hopeful for a while but no. Objection. Right. That one. That one was pelts pills. Okay. Yeah, I'm hopeful. What, what what made you hopeful about it? And then why did the hope go away?

Robyn 20:58
Um, I just kind of comes in waves, the pain and exhaustion so you'll and definitely tied to my period too. So you'd have days where like, Oh, I'm feeling a little bit better. Like this is it? It's working? Oh, my gosh. And then you have a week where it's like, terrible. You feel awful. Your pain is there. You're in a fog. You're like, okay, no, cool, not working. And then I I don't even say anything. When I go into the doctor's office. He literally just feels my joints. And he's like, no inflammation still there. We're moving on.

Scott Benner 21:28
And then the last drug was the is the one you're on now.

Robyn 21:31
Yeah, so it's called brens. us it's the biosimilar to Enbrel which is a biologic.

Scott Benner 21:39
Everything's better. No, sorry.

Robyn 21:44
I'm in that like a waiting period right now. I think I just took my ninth injection. So I'm nine weeks into it. I did I was I was like, Okay, I went for a period. I didn't use my heat blanket. I hadn't put my compression gloves on. I even said out loud. Oh my gosh, it might be working. I'm feeling better. And then I had the worst week since I've been diagnosed, so but there's so many factors that come into it as well. My daughter doesn't have a nurse at school, so I have to go do her insulin. Normally my phenomenal father in law does it everyday for me, but they're on vacation. So last week, I was in the school twice a day every day. And I think just being on my feet for that amount of time was enough to flare my symptoms up.

Scott Benner 22:31
Well. Let's talk about your period for a minute.

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Do you get what you would call a normal period? Or is it abnormal?

Robyn 26:50
I call it abnormal. Ever since my kids were born, it's really heavy.

Scott Benner 26:57
Okay, does it lag abnormally long? Or does the length about what you would expect?

Robyn 27:02
No length is about what I expect. But it comes on so heavy and so strong.

Scott Benner 27:09
Okay, do you ever get like is your iron ore ferritin level dropping because of

Robyn 27:14
that? I don't think so. I'm trying to think of like when? I don't know, to be honest. I would want I'm not sure if they even tests that.

Scott Benner 27:25
Yeah, I would want you to check when you're doing your bloodwork next time.

Robyn 27:29
Yeah, I should look and see if that's one of the things I every 10 weeks, I get my bloodwork done, and they do a whole whack load of stuff. But I've never looked to see if that's there. Yeah, just made me think you that happened with Arden.

Scott Benner 27:39
Right? Yeah. Do the iron. Trust me, by the way, as I'm talking to you. All of my questions are coming from what I know because of Arden. So if it wasn't for Arden, this conversation would be you talking a lot and telling me things and me going oh my god. Wow. That's crazy. It's so but none of this seems crazy to me. So sad. Yeah. And Arden has been through all of those. The blood work and everything and no, it's not alright, blah, blah, blah. But everything you've described, down to the brain fog and the exhaustion, and the cold sensitivity and everything else this is this is how hard it is.

Robyn 28:16
Like, yeah, it makes me wonder too if because, right, they all come together and then cluster if there's ra but maybe there's something else too.

Scott Benner 28:24
Yeah. And you can't figure it out. It's hard to pick them apart to see because Arden Arden has literally had every blood test known demand from like different, like from a rheumatology standpoint. And from an endocrine standpoint, everyone has taken Arden's blood. And I mean the last time we did it for rheumatology, which wasn't too long ago. The phlebotomist Yep, couldn't carry all the tubes in one tray. Oh my gosh, that she needed to take out of Arden. And the blood work came back and the doctor is like everything looks good.

Robyn 28:58
That's so frustrating. It is like, because I check it online. I get it done. And my results are usually online like hours later. And I always look and I'm like, How

Scott Benner 29:06
is there nothing. You want something to be wrong?

Robyn 29:09
You do because you want an answer. You have an answer. You can get a plan and you can move forward. Like when I found when I got diagnosed, I went into the rheumatologist office and I My biggest fear that he would say, I don't know what it is. Yeah. And then my second biggest fear was that it was going to be Ra. Yeah, no, I know. I think actually, I was I was afraid it was going to be like fibromyalgia only because there's a lack of understanding of fibromyalgia everywhere. And I didn't want to always be explaining myself as to what it was and what it meant. Now I'm doing that with RA anyway. But that's my one frustration like the two autoimmune diseases we have. Because people hear arthritis and they think oh, no, I know arthritis. I've got it in my knee or I've got this or my aunt had it. And it's so similar to when people hear diabetes and they know type two diabetes. So I'm like no, like It's not that it's all like it's systemic. My heart's involved, right, I have a higher risk of cancer. There's so many other things involved in it. It's not just a pain in a joint, it's everywhere. And then I find I'm doing the same thing with type one diabetes to like, Guys, come on. Can I have like a clear, easy autoimmune that people just know, when they hear it?

Scott Benner 30:18
Right? Can I get a good one like diabetes, please? Well, that's yeah, that really is part of the conversation here is that you don't, there are other autoimmune issues that are just far more devastating than type one, which is kind of crazy to say, but but can really be true. Okay, let me focus myself for a second. Okay, okay. Have you ever had a day that turns into three days turns into a week where you're like, I'm okay. And then suddenly, it's back again? Or is it always a constant, at least den of pain? And then it gets worse and worse?

Robyn 31:00
It's always a constant and, okay.

Scott Benner 31:04
How do you maintain any kind of lifestyle while that's happening?

Robyn 31:09
It's really, really tough. And that's where I'm struggling right now. So I'm very thankful that I can work from home right now. Because that has given me my life back when I was diagnosed, I was half in in the office and half at home. And just going in walking on floors, like Office floors, or the floors on a mall, like they're really hard. I guess it's concrete. Right? Makes sense. But the floors in my house don't seem to be there seems to be more padding in it. So just walking around in a building flares me up huge. So if I go into the lab, and I'm working, I come home and it takes me like a week to recover. I'm just so exhausted. And so whatever. Same thing, if I'm going hiking, or if I go to the mall, or do whatever, like I only have so much energy, and I have to decide where I'm going to spend it. So it's it's tough. I'm in the zone right now, where, right now my priority is, my kids, they're young, I need to take care of them. So working from home gives me the ability to still be productive and, and good at my job. But also, I can make dinner for them. I can make sure I'm aware to catch alarms for Aly. I can play with them, I can still be a mom, maybe not to the same extent I do a lot of games where I'm sitting down with my feet up, they like to play salon a lot, which is the greatest thing ever because they give me massages. But it's it's been a huge, huge adjustment, and I'm trying to learn how to set boundaries and know when I can and can't do something. But it's tough. I was an athlete.

Scott Benner 32:54
And then yeah, and now I how Gaelic is your background, by the way.

Robyn 33:00
Not very know. Okay, no, I want to know where I live. I don't even know where I live.

Scott Benner 33:06
I don't know where you live.

Robyn 33:07
I live in Canada. Very Gaelic. No, I'm just kidding. So I yeah, my, like my, I don't even know where it came from. It's pretty far back. To go back to Scotland and Ireland. Okay. All right. My mom was born in Canada.

Scott Benner 33:24
Gotcha. But but her lineage comes from that way. Yep. Okay. Yeah.

Robyn 33:30
My dad is is British. He grew up in England.

Scott Benner 33:32
I'm telling you Irish English, autoimmune. hotbed.

Robyn 33:37
Right. I know. Yeah. I felt the one of the hardest things when I was diagnosed, because there had been no other autoimmune syndromes in the family when he was diagnosed, and then when I got diagnosed, I had that initial grieving session of like, it's my side of the family. I not that I did this, but it's my bloodline. Yeah. Which is stupid and illogical. But I had the feelings.

Scott Benner 34:01
No, my wife feels that way too. So she's me. Okay, so how does this impact your relationship with your husband?

Robyn 34:15
Um, negatively affects it, but also positively affects it, if that makes sense. He obviously has to do more. He's a great, great husband, great father to begin with. But there's things I just can't do. So he's learned he can read my face. He reads me. He knows me better than I know myself. So he can step in when I really need it. But I'm terrible at asking for help. So I won't, I'll push myself because I feel like I should still be able to help cook and clean and do all those things. So I know what's more on him, which is hard and he's got a stressful career as well. So that is tough. But we're connected more like he, we, we have great conversations about our fears, and what does the future hold, and we don't know what this looks like, and he's so supportive, and so amazing. And he'll just see that I'm hurting and rub my feet or rub my legs and we have a connection that way, which is stronger. So yeah, but I mean, I don't I don't know what my future holds, right? Like, I don't know, am I going to go into remission and be okay, or am I going to continue to get worse? Am I gonna not be able to walk up the stairs in my house? Am I gonna have to go on disability? Is he going to have to care for me? More? And that's a terrifying thought.

Scott Benner 35:45
What's the the prevailing? I guess, thought around that when you pick around online and watch what happens to some people go into remission? Does it just disappear? Is it Yeah, yeah.

Robyn 35:58
doesn't disappear, but they go remission is the goal. You find the right drug combination. It can work for years where you kind of get your life back. And then sometimes the drug will stop working and then you find another drug. And a lot of people have success that way. My rheumatologist actually has ra himself. And he's had phenomenal success with methotrexate. So we were kind of commiserating in our last appointment, because it's getting depressing. Like, this is a lot of drugs that haven't worked. And there's only so many drugs I can try. So I was so he was kind of being sympathetic, and like, how did you go through this to like, whatever. And he's like, yeah, no second drug worked for me. Like he is son of a. Okay, I'm happy for him. But at the same time, I wish that had been me. So definitely, there are people that do well, and then there's another set of people that don't respond well to drugs. And I don't know if you like, the first thing that came to my head and rheumatoid arthritis is the deformed hands that people can get. So that's a fear,

Scott Benner 37:01
like lumps and bumps that joint

Robyn 37:02
Yeah, and the fingers kind of go out. Sideways, they shift.

Scott Benner 37:08
Just does the weed help Robin?

Robyn 37:11
Um, I haven't gotten there yet.

Scott Benner 37:14
It seems obvious to me, Robin. And I've never listened. I've said it before. I'll say it again. I've never even tried it. And if I'm you, I'd be growing in my backyard. So

Robyn 37:26
I know. I've tried cream CBD oils and stuff. I didn't get like, the, it wasn't like, Oh, this is amazing. I need to do this forever. But I do know a ton of people get success for it. My concern is that Haley's so young still. And if she goes low in the night, and I'm so dreamy and sleepy and relaxed, that I'm not hearing her alarms. That's a concern. I hear so that's holding me back right now.

Scott Benner 37:58
May I say? I wouldn't let that hold me back. If I was you. I would just do it during the day I would try because can you imagine if you're doing all this stuff, but that one thing because CBD May I don't know anything about anything. So I don't want anybody getting mad at me. But CBD creams and oils and CBD and your drinks that all just seems like marketing to me. Like I just feel like I just feel like the weed industry about three years ago paid a bunch of influencers to say that CBD cream made their hands feel nice. I honestly feel like that's what happened. Because you don't hear about it anymore. It was like there was this I do I

Robyn 38:33
have I have some friends that use it for similar things. And they were

Scott Benner 38:37
hippies, Robin. No, no, actually like science people. If it works, it works. That's amazing. But I'm talking about like, really getting that THC in there and letting it do its thing. Like even if it just made you like less aware of a pain. Wouldn't that be better? I mean, not like, I don't want you like Tommy Chang, but that was an old reference. I didn't even go to Snoop Dogg. I skipped I skipped I skipped right over to where like when they made the movies they didn't even like retake the scene if they spoke so I'm not talking about like gone and staring I'm just talking about like a low level of pleasantness like right the steward Hi, like that kind of ever see? Or when you know she's high and she's being interviewed. You're like that lady's a little stone.

Robyn 39:29
I I really should.

Scott Benner 39:33
You really should. I mean, I don't I've never in my life said to somebody like you know what you should do? You should definitely use drugs, but you definitely should. Right?

Robyn 39:41
I've always been like that I'm not rule follower person, right? Like i i Yeah.

Scott Benner 39:48
What if the rule was that this is what people in your situation did?

Robyn 39:51
Right? It's legal up here like there's no issues so I really need to there's like seven weed shops in my town

Scott Benner 39:59
of All the things candidate got right. And all the things kind of got wrong. It's astonishing that they got weed right and have gotten so many other things and right. Am I wrong? I'm not wrong. No, no. Okay. I pay attention. I know what's going on in the world a little bit. Alright, so, so let's leave that there. But let's just say, I mean, it seems obvious. Because what if it brought you some sort of like, like, pleasure or happiness? Or, you know, what have you? I mean, what if you woke up tomorrow and you're like, Oh, my God, I'm taking seven drugs. And you mean, like, you know, strawberry dream is what I should have been smoking and it all would have been okay. Like, you don't? I mean,

Robyn 40:42
why do you feel like relaxes me so much? And then I can't do my job. And then I'm like, This is so great. I can't go back to not doing it.

Scott Benner 40:49
So can we talk for a second? Like, for real? Like, we're friends? Yeah. Yeah. I think that's better than what you have now. Like, if you had to retire, don't you think if you said to your husband, look, I know this is crazy, but I gotta become a, I gotta be a weed smoker. And if I do, I won't be in pain anymore. But I'm going to need you to work a little more, because I can't work anymore. The job I have now. You don't think he'd be like, that's fine.

Robyn 41:14
He would he would do anything. Yeah. To support me whatever it needed to be. I know. But then I feel like I don't know. I don't like putting things on to people. And then I feel like I'm not. Now stop

Scott Benner 41:23
it. Robbing this guy. Put No, I got issues. Yeah, I mean, this. Are you Catholic? No, no, you don't even have that pressure. Okay. And you still feel this way? Yeah. All right. No, no, Robin, listen, I think that anything you could do to make this go, this is a big thing. This isn't like, this isn't like you twisted your ankle and you're a pain to people for 10 days. No, you know what I mean? This is a big deal. You should cut yourself a break. Why You Should Why are you trying to be so tough at this? Seriously? I don't know. I don't know why. But what do you what's going on? Like, you feel like if you give up it's going to like spiral.

Robyn 42:05
Maybe like i i I like being there to support my family. I've always been able to stand on my own feet. And I've achieved a lot of good things in my life. And I'm proud of them. And the thought of not doing them anymore and not being there anymore is I don't know it's scary.

Scott Benner 42:24
So I'm going to now do something which is incredibly odd, because I have no context for this personally, right. But I'm going to make the weed argument for you. Seth Rogen seems pretty successful. Right. And he's Canadian. Isn't he Canadian? Pretty sure. All right. Okay. I saw your talk was just at the Super Bowl. I saw Snoop Dogg singing at the Super Bowl. He looked okay. Joe Rogan has the biggest podcast in the world. He's high half the time. I think you could do it. You know what I mean? Like I don't even I don't even see why it would impact your your career, to be perfectly honest with you. Like, I think you have this, like vision in your head of like you in a room with a lava lamp and a beanbag chair. You can't stand up. Is that what you're thinking right now? No. Fabulous. I mean, just for a couple. But I just think you'd like how does the we'll be doing? That was Whoopi Goldberg for people who don't know my my shorthand. I think she's a pen smoker. Right? She walks around with a weed pen.

Robyn 43:34
Yes, yeah. I don't even know anything. I

Scott Benner 43:37
don't either. I'm just going by what I figured out so far. leading the blind. I know. We're the worst. This is this is the worst Cheech and Chong movie ever.

Robyn 43:45
There are so many people laughing at us right now.

Scott Benner 43:47
Well, that's because they're high.

Robyn 43:51
Maybe we're highly entertaining.

Scott Benner 43:53
I know I am. I get a review about it recently. So I'm now googling Whoopi Goldberg weed pen. Yeah. Whoopi Goldberg touts vape pen in her column about marijuana. How Whoopi Goldberg fell in love with her vape pen.

Robyn 44:12
All right, I promise that I will definitely look into it. Yeah, maybe I'll actually go and talk to someone at one of these stores.

Scott Benner 44:18
Well listen, the guy you're gonna talk to is not going to fill your full confidence but just remember this he knows a lot about or she when you get there, right? Yeah, I don't you're like I just think that if I was in your situation, I don't see the end of what I would try. Like I know I wouldn't want to be chaotic and not be able to like function like that. Wouldn't have you tried narcotics for this? No, no. Yeah, that seems like a bridge too far for me that way. Are you all right? It does anything. Anything like hippie help, like certain drink or food are avoiding a certain food? Is there anything in there that's valuable?

Robyn 45:03
I haven't found anything. There's some people in the community that swear by certain diets that will help them. I've tried to kind of like cut back on sugar, some sugar is never good for you. There's some like anti inflammatory foods that I'm trying to introduce more into my diet like avocados and whatnot, but I haven't gone full fledged into, into that

Scott Benner 45:30
wouldn't be something methotrexate didn't work. But avocados were the

Robyn 45:34
avocado. I know. Right? Like, it's kind of I can see it definitely helping. It can help the symptoms, right, but it's not going to help the overall damage that's happening to my body. So I still need the drugs, whatever helps my symptoms, the drugs are still going to have to be a part of my life. And I'm really hopeful that I can find one that works.

Scott Benner 45:52
Do computer screens give you headaches?

Robyn 45:56
I'm not really. Okay. No,

Scott Benner 45:59
no, I'm just saying things that happened to Arden to see if there's any.

Robyn 46:02
Any other correlation there. Yeah,

Scott Benner 46:03
you're I have trouble sleeping.

Robyn 46:07
I have trouble falling asleep right now because I hurt.

Scott Benner 46:10
But once you're sleeping, you can stay asleep forever.

Robyn 46:14
I could. Well, I have little kids, so I feel like I could sleep forever.

Scott Benner 46:22
So aren't I

Robyn 46:23
yeah, I don't have trouble. No, I don't wake up and like, Yeah, can't get back to sleep.

Scott Benner 46:27
Here's Arden's thing. If she needs to be somewhere, she'll set an alarm and she'll get out. But if she doesn't need to be somewhere, she could sleep the entire day away.

Robyn 46:37
Could you do that? I would like to try that.

Scott Benner 46:41
Okay, but she doesn't wake up feeling any better than when she went to sleep?

Robyn 46:44
No, like sleep is not restorative. Right. Like I wake up and I'm like, I could go back to sleep right now or have a nap or do whatever. I never feel rested.

Scott Benner 46:56
Here's a scary question. Have you ever thought that you might get type one diabetes one day? Yeah. 100% I would too. If I was you. I would just be like, every day I woke up and I'd be like, This gotta be the day something's gonna happen.

Robyn 47:07
Well, I wonder sometimes, right? And I'm like, Oh, what do I feel like this? Because like, maybe my sugar is high or something's off that way. Or whatever. I did do trial net. I don't have any of the markers. Oh, that's

Scott Benner 47:18
good news.

Robyn 47:19
Neither none of us do. Oh, this was before. I was already diagnosed. I

Scott Benner 47:23
was gonna say Robin in fairness. You don't have the markers for our AI Josh, why would you say? Because it seems obvious. We've been talking for 45 minutes. Your life this show? This is definitely good.

Robyn 47:38
But I feel like at least, at least with type one. Now this sounds terrible. Because I don't feel it for my daughter, but at least with a type one. I know what to do. Yeah. Right. Like I know the insulin is gonna work. It may take me a while to find the right insulin for me. But I know that there's a process. I like process. I'm a scientist. I like flow like that. So I think what's really bothering me with the RA is I can't find triggers. I can't find what makes me feel good. What makes me feel bad. There's no predictability to it. One day I wake up, and I'm like yesterday, I'm like, I'm going to organize my drawers. Oh, cool. Where the hell did I get that energy from? And then today I wake up and it's like, I feel like sludge.

Scott Benner 48:23
So it's hard for you to talk to me today even

Robyn 48:26
know I'm okay talking to you. But my knees are really sore right now. So I'll probably spend an afternoon working from my couch.

Scott Benner 48:33
Do you find yourself rubbing them when? Even almost unknowingly sometimes? Absolutely. Do you ever sit four inches away from an electric space heater?

Robyn 48:43
I don't have an electric space heater.

Scott Benner 48:46
Well, let's get on Amazon and get you one of those two. But I use like I said with my heating pad like get weighted blankets. These things help.

Robyn 48:53
Yeah, we did like it. I don't like even sometimes like our regular blanket. feels heavy on me. And it hurts. So I don't like that. I felt like weird things. Compression gloves. I really like for my fingers. My hands but I stopped wearing tights. Now girls always wear tights. I found that compression on my legs too much. You didn't like that. So now I'm wearing looser. tracky pants kind of very stylish.

Scott Benner 49:19
Let me just say as a straight man. When you girls all move to tights, is like the best thing that ever happened. I don't know. Like I know it's wrong to say 2022 and everything but really it's wonderful. Like it used to be girls used to wear like when I was growing up like boxy straight leg blue jeans and like it was yeah, like this was a great thing. I'm

Robyn 49:41
tights were phenomenal. I love tights, and they're so comfortable. And you can wear them with anything like, I think a benefit for us to

Scott Benner 49:49
know I was gonna say there seems to be a ton of great reasons for you to do it. But I'm just saying. I'm just I'm a big fan. That's all Thank you.

Robyn 49:56
I know I can't do it now.

Scott Benner 49:58
Well last Jesus right I

Robyn 50:01
know I need to find a solution there just so I can get back on my tight

Scott Benner 50:05
sides because such a lifestyle and fashionable and you don't I mean

Robyn 50:10
you can dress it up you can dress it down when you can throw them under a skirt and look super cute. Yep.

Scott Benner 50:16
I've been reading about medical marijuana and rheumatoid arthritis while you've been talking. The cannabinoid compounds THC and CBD found in marijuana have proven medical properties among these are pain relief. certain strains of marijuana can target pain and bring much for you. This is actually on a page about Ra. Multiple cannabis, cannabinoids, cannabinoids, Jesus can't just say weed, weed. No because it's not it's different. Well, what the hell's a cannabinoid? Alright, hold on a second Robin. Any group is closely related compounds which include cannabinol, and the active constituents of cannabis. That's unnecessary work to reduce inflammation. So CBD n th, C, as well as CBC CB, d A, CB, G, CB, n, n th ca, chronic pain, see, because a lot of your fatigue can come from the pain too, right? It just drains you. Yeah, you get that kind of like, like malaise and

Robyn 51:23
like when you have the flu, and you don't want to go to the coach. Like yeah, it's really hard to just get up and you ache.

Scott Benner 51:29
Do you have any anxiety or depression around the RA?

Robyn 51:36
Not really, like I have feelings that. Like I don't know how it's gonna go. But I don't it doesn't debilitate me at all. Okay.

Scott Benner 51:47
All right. A little bit more on this than we move on. Okay. So there appears to be appears to be again, you're right. People are laughing at us. But there are there appears to be different ways to take the weed. So yeah, well, the will be the weed. I don't really, I don't know. This is just how it appears to make topicals I think we're not we don't want that. vaporizing. I don't I I'm sure if it's like pure. It's probably okay. Again, I don't know anything about anything. I am thinking back to that one. Time where that the vape pens got the vitamin E in it or something like that. And then cause that like vaping lung for people? Oh, yeah. Right. We don't want that. edibles apparently, are a bit of a inexact science from what I've heard. But this here says that if you ingest an edible, the effects that you feel tend to last longer. Oh, there's also they says like drops are kind of tinge tinctures. Right, that you can put onto your tongue as a way to ingest it. So if you don't want to smoke, but I don't know, like I envisioned a time where those girls are rubbing your legs and pack in your bank for you. And Mommy's feeling good. And then we we get up and we do some stuff. You know what I mean? Like, because if, if it really does, you were talking earlier about the concern about you know, do malformations in your body from this like, if, if, if you can get ahead of stuff like that. I mean, I would hate to see at some point your life your fingers are moving in the wrong directions and you go like, should have tried smoking weed. Yeah, like because it's such a giveaway. Like if it doesn't work. True, then who cares? Right? You can do anything, you know. That's true. All right. That's a good did you think you were coming on my type one diabetes podcast today to be talking to smoking weed? No. And here we are.

Robyn 53:45
Here we are. Wow.

Scott Benner 53:48
So there's some like really scary stuff about ra Hmm. A bone and cartilage around the joints ligaments, tendons, eyes, blood vessels, lungs, hearts, kidneys, digestive tract, nervous system, it impacts all of that or can

Robyn 54:00
freezing. Yeah, and that's the only thing to smoking is have asthma already. And then I'd be concerned about lungs because it lungs are impacted with

Scott Benner 54:11
we're gonna need gummies that or something like that. Oh, see, there you go. Finally, something fun. Took 51 minutes for us to say something fun. Do you think people are listening right now? And they're just like thinking thank God I don't have this or do you think they're finding it? I think it's enlightening personally, but I hope

Robyn 54:29
it's enlightening. I hope if someone's out there and struggling with similar kinds of symptoms and not getting an answer or getting shot down by their doctor because their blood works fine that they can take something increment. Try to push a bit harder do more research and I don't know I feel very lucky that I got my diagnosis as fast as I did with fine bloodwork.

Scott Benner 54:48
I agree. So I keep wondering about for you if the parasite when you got the parasite and they hit you so hard with the drugs if Yeah, maybe that didn't not help you so much.

Robyn 55:00
Oh, I wonder if everything kind of started there. But then I obviously had like when my toes were going white when I was a kid, like there's obviously some autoimmune stuff going on in me already, but that could have been the trigger. I had a lot of stress leading up to this diagnosis that I wonder too, if that kind of impacted it.

Scott Benner 55:18
The Weed would help with that. What kind of life stress?

Robyn 55:24
Um, yeah, my mom got sick. She passed away.

Scott Benner 55:28
How old was your mom when she passed? Seven, D. Four. Did you ever talk to her about the joint pain? Or Would she not talk about it?

Robyn 55:38
Um, I always tried to get her to go to a doctor because I always had sports injuries. As a kid. I tried to get her to ice. She hated ice. But she was she was she was so stubborn. So I think she did talk to her doctor and stuff about it, but we never talked about it this way. And then she got cancer and passed away. So that was stressful. And I got pregnant and lost a baby. And that was stressful. I'm sorry. On Christmas.

Scott Benner 56:05
So what you got? You lost the baby on Christmas.

Robyn 56:08
Yeah, I started spotting on Christmas for the first the first Christmas after my mom had passed. I was early. I was eight weeks. Yeah, enough for it to be and then I had elite. So huge highlight. And then she was diagnosed when she was eight months old. So I never got down to like that baby phase with her. So I didn't sleep.

Scott Benner 56:32
Oh, yeah. You went right. from baby to baby diabetes? Yeah. Oh, she was eight months when she was diagnosed? Yeah. Was her diagnosis before or after your RA diagnosis?

Robyn 56:43
before? Before? Because she's coming in the summer. She'll be four years.

Scott Benner 56:48
I say diagnosed? Yeah. Okay, so she had type one for a couple of years before this happened to you?

Robyn 56:54
Yep. Wow. So I think all that rain all that world together not sleeping, we know how terrible not sleeping is. And then the pandemic hit. So then you had all the stress of trying to figure that out and and working from home and working from the office and my kids are at home? And how do we do this? And my husband is trying to figure out how to teach kindergarten from home. So there's stress everywhere. And then I think I I started almost sleeping better. With Aly. Like we got to a better point with the type one. And then my body's like, oh, you can handle more now. So fam.

Scott Benner 57:31
She looks like she's got some free time. We should give her 100% Just how it

Robyn 57:36
feels? Yeah. Because you know something's tripped it right. So I wonder if it was the stress?

Scott Benner 57:42
Did it definitely could be. I mean, not that I

Robyn 57:45
need a reason. But it almost feels good to be like, Oh,

Scott Benner 57:49
well, I'm not wrong to say would be nice. If you could point to something about something right? It would be relieving to be able to say anything with any certainty while you're while you're involved in something that you can't find any certainty in. For sure. Yeah. For sure. How far are you into this last medication? This most recent.

Robyn 58:08
I've taken nine nine weeks in so I should be at the point now where it's starting to work. So I'm still hopeful. haven't given up on it. I just got word that my insurance company's gonna cover it, which is exciting. Well, so expensive.

Scott Benner 58:22
If it works, you just take it forever. As take it forever. Yeah. Shot a week.

Robyn 58:27
Shot a week. Yeah. And I, my body doesn't like it either. I get like a site reaction to it. I get it like a almost like a really big hive. Okay? Do it because my, my immune system is not happy. But I'm okay with that. I'll take it, it's not hurting me. So, I will fully take this for the rest of my life means I'm going to be immunocompromised the rest of my life, which in the middle of, you know, pandemic is not awesome. Super

Scott Benner 58:54
exciting. Yeah. Um, so this stuff is, is quelling your immune system to stop it from creating, hopefully to stop it from creating this inflammation.

Robyn 59:05
Yeah, because right now my immune system is attacking my joints. Still,

Scott Benner 59:09
all of those drugs were meant to do that, or some of them don't work that way.

Robyn 59:14
They all work that way. Just in different. They have different methods and ways to get there.

Scott Benner 59:19
Okay. Oh, boy. Sorry. I actually know my next question. And part of me was like, just stop the recording. Oh, I'm sorry. I am really, genuinely thankful that you came on to talk about this series.

Robyn 59:39
Oh, good. I'm glad. And I'm like, I mean, I talk about the sad things that have happened but like, I'm okay. Like, it's part of what goes on. Everyone has stressed and stuff in their life, right. So I don't at all feel bad about talking about it or bringing it up.

Scott Benner 59:56
Let's talk about that for another minute though. Because if you're in

Robyn 1:00:00
Well, now I care. I'm just gonna

Scott Benner 1:00:03
be amazing. If this was the moment you just went too far, 180 degrees, and you were like, That's it. I'm not gonna have a good attitude about this. Anyway, this guy talked me into it, like, I just ruined your life, you know? But how do you do that? How do you maintain a good attitude and a forward motion when this is happening constantly? What else am I going to do? Well, some people would lay over and die.

Robyn 1:00:30
Fair, okay. Um, I don't know why we've gone through hard things in our lives. My husband and I, nothing like super major. I guess all of this is major. And we keep finding a way and I remember when he was diagnosed, and we were in the hospital and hadn't slept. And I was so overwhelmed with everything. And he just looked at me and he's like, we'll find a way. And we'll, we'll get through this the same way. We've gotten through everything else. And he's right. We've gotten through everything so far. So what's to say we're not going to get through this may take a while. But there's hope. There's actually a lot of good things in my life. So

Scott Benner 1:01:21
I cling to those everything isn't this thing.

Robyn 1:01:24
Every you know, it's a it's a massive part of my life, for sure. And impacts me I think about it every day. But like, type one is a big part of everyone's life, and you think about it every day to varying degrees, right, but you can still do so much and like with Ailey, like we've been open to trying all different things, we're looping and all of this stuff so it's like let's try and see what we can do and make the best of what we have and it's a struggle home oh my gosh, a huge struggle and there's days where I don't do much of anything my house is a disaster. I'm trying to be okay with that kind of stuff and focus my energy on the good things I'm still working I'm still functioning I'm still talking with my friends and and you know, being with my husband and I have phenomenal family my dad is and his new wife are so supportive and my in laws live around the corner and they are the greatest in laws you could ever hope for. So there's there's a lot of hope.

Scott Benner 1:02:27
Your dad pimpin is he in his 70s bouncing around picking up ladies

Robyn 1:02:33
bouncing around. Not really just one. Yeah, I've known her my whole life. She's been involved in our family the whole time, which is

Scott Benner 1:02:41
just been waiting for too long.

Robyn 1:02:46
Yeah, she was she was actually my mom's close friend. So they kind of bonded over my mom. But it's like she's been a part of my family the whole time. So it was easy. still tricky. Still my dad getting remarried. Right. But yeah, it was an easy transition. Someone that I've loved my whole life and that has loved me and supports me and my family. So wonderful thing. pimpin

Scott Benner 1:03:11
just I just I have like a 78 year old guy in my head with a big purple hat and a feather and walking around like pointing that ladies and like making the gun signal and winking at them. Oh my gosh, we got her phenomenal. Not how we got her?

Robyn 1:03:25
Probably not no, no. Although, they just went to Antarctica. Really? Last month. Yeah, they went on a trip. I was gonna plan this next trip. Yeah, for him. Ya know, I'm really happy for him. Like, like, he was so dedicated and loving to my mom and took care of her through everything. And I'm so happy to see him smile, and he is loved. And someone's caring for him and looking after him. And, and he's living.

Scott Benner 1:03:55
Yeah, I think your story. And I'm not quite done with you yet. I know. We're up on an hour. But I think your story feels really good to me. There's actually an episode coming out this week where Erica and I, she's the family therapist that comes on sometimes as type one. We start off by talking about burnout. But then we just really talk more about resilience and and, you know, different ways that people sometimes are and aren't. And the way that you can't really figure out why one person has one reaction to something like this and another person or another. Yeah.

Robyn 1:04:33
I'm so so lucky that I have support, right. I have family support. I've got my kids that love me and my husband who is phenomenal. And I've got I found support in the community. Yeah, I found an RA community the same way I found a diabetes community and they are so supportive. I do a virtual like group sessions with them. And I'm having In a bad day, and I sit and talk, and I'm like, Oh, this and I've got to ask for a combination at work and what if they don't, you know, accepted and this and that, and maybe I'm not as sick as I think I am. And then there's always someone there to be like, Oh, you're like, what if it works out? So I'm, they're kind of giving me the positivity. So I think doing this by yourself, anyone going through something by yourself? We can't. We need people to be with us. And it's okay to ask for help and seek that help and seek that. That support.

Scott Benner 1:05:30
I, I just I feel I'm oddly proud of the podcast right now, while you're talking. I just seriously, I'm like I don't, I don't know where else you can talk about stuff like this. And, and let a lot of people hear it at the same time. It just it's so important to in my mind, it's so important to remember that you're not born on day one and promised 78 years get an amen. Not like your dad is. He's lucky. You know. And there are people who, who passed his children in his teens. And I just think of my own life, I think of a girl I knew that I went to high school who died in a motorcycle accident with her boyfriend when we were like 17. And people who I knew as children who were gone before our first reunion, which I didn't go to, but that's not the point. When I was in elementary school, this boy who I was not friends with, like Robin, you listen to the podcast, right? I do. I have no memory to speak up about some things, right? There's this boy, his name was Chuck's aciac There's no reason for me to remember that. I didn't hardly know him. And when we were in fifth grade, he passed out during recess. And before we got to high school, he was gone. Well, and I don't know why. Like, I don't remember anymore. Why? I just know that these like small experiences have just taught me that. We all pretend that this thing is supposed to be perfect, right? We're all supposed to come out be about six feet tall, super handsome, really big penis, right? Like bunch of money. We're supposed to bounce around with, you know, a model who also loves us and as a great mom in our Lamborghini, going from the winter house to the summer house skiing in between. And then we die very comfortably at 96 years old big penis still erect? Like that's right, right? Impressive. But everybody thinks life's gonna go great. And it's true. The truth is life's gonna go like life, which more often than not, is more like the conversations that we have here. Yep. You know, and I think there's something about expectation that yes, that creates the, the attitude that you have are the one that I expels, or the one that I think I've instilled in my daughter even which is, I mean, I don't like I don't want to oversimplify it. But I think there was a song of the 70s already, like no one ever promised you a rose garden. I think that's like a country song from the 70s. I don't really know. I remember it being on an eight track tape and my dad's car, which is a lot of words most people don't understand. But you get what you get. And then you make the best of it. Yeah. And the difference between you being a meth head right now and being the person who I'm talking to, I think is just that. Just your expectation and your perspective, and your desire not to give up and whatever else gets blended in with that. But do you have any feeling for why? Why you're like this? No, not at all right?

Robyn 1:08:54
No, I just I think the expectation thing is, is big. Right? Like, I don't not that I'm a pessimist, but I don't set crazy expectations. I never had the expectation that I would, you know, be healthy my whole life. And then when my mom got sick, there's a lot of death and stuff in our family before that. But it's like, Oh, snap, like, you better wake up and right. It's not a guarantee. Yeah. So appreciate what you have and find the joy that you have. And I think like, and that's where your podcast is huge. Because it's it's regular people talking so it makes it normal, right? You don't have people coming on here that are like, Oh, I'm so fabulous. That type one and my child's a onesie is five and this and that. And it's more of like this is how we got to where we are but you see the real life part of it. So then you have a better expectation as to how it's going to go. And I don't know, I think I did that with the diabetes too. I still have an expectation that I can get her agency and To the low fives. But

Scott Benner 1:10:03
no, but you can.

Robyn 1:10:04
Oh, I'm working on it. I'm working on we're getting we're getting there. Where is it now? Last one was 6.30. Very good. Congratulations. So thanks. I am. I'm happy with that. But I'm trying to just always striving, right, what can I do better, but being okay with where I am, right, like acknowledging that that is a great emergency for a four year old. And, and going with it. So I think that's kind of where I am in life. We appreciate what you have, and where you are. Still looking forward, though, right? Like, Okay, what's next? Where am I going to go? And what's going to happen and and then try to get through it. I could sit here and be completely devastated and be like, I'm going to be on on disability and not be able to work. But what if I'm not what if it goes? Well, what if I find a way to keep this? What if I find a job that I can continue? Right at my pace, right? Like,

Scott Benner 1:10:58
even if the end result is horrible? There's no reason not to enjoy the moments leading up to it?

Robyn 1:11:05
Absolutely. Why would I be so down now? Because that's a possibility. Because then I'm going to make it come true.

Scott Benner 1:11:11
Yeah, you can't worry. I know I've said it before. But worry is a waste of imagination. You can't. Because when you're worrying, in most scenarios, you're just making up things that may happen in your mind and then worrying about them.

Robyn 1:11:25
You're worrying about it. It hasn't happened yet. And may know I'm saying this, I'm terrible at it. Like I definitely still worry, right. But I keep trying to check myself and be like, well hasn't happened yet. So you know, appreciate where you are. Well, listen,

Scott Benner 1:11:38
Rob, but if everybody could make conscious decisions that then impacted them, subconsciously, and then everything was okay, then we wouldn't need the podcast, we would just need to see we just need a short cheat sheet of like you'd read like, oh, Pre-Bolus and then just never not do whatever. Again, you do it every day. And that would be fine. And, you know, you know, when your site's went bad, and you change them without looking at them for 12 hours. And that's not how it works. You need to constantly be reminded to true. Yeah, do what you need to.

Robyn 1:12:06
Can I tell you my my Pre-Bolus horror from this morning? Wasn't? So my kids are home from school today, because they've been a bit under the weather. So lazy kids. I know right there. I've locked them in the basement. It's amazing. So she started Oh, wait, hold on, Canadian here. So let me see. I've got my chart. So

Scott Benner 1:12:26
while you're looking for the chart, I didn't know you could dig a basement in Canada, isn't it just like permafrost or something like that?

Robyn 1:12:34
Honestly, I'm sure in some areas, but not here. So she was sitting at like 8590 going into breakfast. Perfect. So she wanted waffles. So I give her if I give her like a link of a sausage before she eats cereal or waffles and we curb that spike which has been really good. So she eats her sausage. And then she starts drifting down. I'm like, okay, whatever, she's gonna eat skinny. And then she sits there and eats like half of her waffle and kind of looks around and like dawdles and now we've got alarms going off and she got down to how far down did she go? 2.6. Let's like 45 I'm like, dude, eat your waffle. And then she's one waffle and looks at me and she's like, I'm full.

Scott Benner 1:13:19
Well, my knees hurt the waffle.

Robyn 1:13:23
I'm like, Oh my gosh, okay, so we spend and it was fine. She had a yogurt drink and some grapes. And she's at a great spot right now. But I was like, of course, like, of course today, when I'm recording that you're gonna, you're gonna do this to me.

Scott Benner 1:13:35
So I gotta tell you, what did she ever get high afterwards?

Robyn 1:13:38
Well, no,

Scott Benner 1:13:40
I think it's a great day. I think that's amazing. I think avoiding high blood sugars is the key to this whole thing. So she

Robyn 1:13:45
got to 150 and then dropped right? Right down. She might go low now, but she's okay. Okay. All right. Looks doing it saying it's all good.

Scott Benner 1:13:53
Cool. All right, Robert. I really appreciate you doing this. I want to tell you something before we go. Apparently in 1969, a country singer songwriter named Joe South wrote I never promised you a rose garden. It was covered by a couple of male artists but never made a big until 1971. When Lin Anderson recorded it. It was number three on the hot 100 and top the country charts for five weeks, like that. And that somehow sticks in my head. And I don't know why. Other than my parents did listen to country music when I was growing up. And they did have an eight track player in the house. And when it was installed in the car. It was like we were rich that we had a car with an eight track player in it. It was an amazing thing.

Robyn 1:14:42
It was amazing. I didn't know of the eight track players but we never I never had one

Scott Benner 1:14:46
that was typical of technology. It was amazing. My dad looked like your dad when he was asking about that lady. You know, he was like, Do you see what we have here? Do you see? Do you see how we've ascended

Robyn 1:15:00
Oh, amazing.

Scott Benner 1:15:01
Anything we didn't talk about that you want to?

Robyn 1:15:04
We didn't really talk about diabetes, but that's cool. That's

Scott Benner 1:15:08
really interesting thing. The kids, okay, my podcast is hugely successful and helpful in your life, something like that

Robyn 1:15:13
was really successful and helpful. Yep, struggles were just struggling up in Canada. We don't have a lot of nurses for schools. So that's been a big, she's four and she doesn't have any, for teachers and educators will watch her Dexcom. But that's it. They won't do insulin or anything. So that's been a huge struggle. They actually refused her entry to school at the beginning of the year for three weeks. Lovely. So that was fun. I put on my skating hat

Scott Benner 1:15:38
and got that worked out.

Robyn 1:15:41
She got into mentally, but yeah, it's been a struggle for sure. But she loves it. She's happy.

Scott Benner 1:15:48
I gotta tell you, Robin, just hearing this story. Hold on. This story about your RA and everything you're going through. I wouldn't with you. So just think, I think if you're still moving a little scary, you

Robyn 1:16:04
watch out. And I'm over six feet tall. And you're talking about these expectations. You're gonna be six feet tall. It's like that's me.

Scott Benner 1:16:11
I also did not want to be creepy, but you're a ginger and people really do. They're scared. Right? A little bit. Okay,

Robyn 1:16:17
super creepy. Internet. I am a ginger. And a Taurus. Super Watch out.

Scott Benner 1:16:25
You're an old from the 80s a Taurus?

Robyn 1:16:29
Yes. Okay. From the 80s and then go longer than that.

Scott Benner 1:16:33
When was the fourth? Alright, is this is the last stupid thing we're doing together. Number nine. Hold on a second. Ford.

Robyn 1:16:38
People have stopped listening.

Scott Benner 1:16:40
There's no way by the way.

Robyn 1:16:41
They're like, Oh, I'm that person. I listen right to the end. Why are you still listening? You need help. For me, you might say something entertaining.

Scott Benner 1:16:52
afford to owe 86 to 2019 introduced in 85. For the 86 model year, six generations were produced over 34 years, a brief hiatus was undertaken between 2006 and 2007. They've been making that car for that long. That's impressive. It's a little sad to remember these things from when I was younger. All right, Robin, thank you very much. No problem.

Well, I'm gonna thank Robin first for coming on and sharing her story. And I'd also like to thank Ian pen from Medtronic diabetes and remind you to go to in pen today.com To get started. Of course, we're also going to thank you us med us med.com forward slash juice box or call 888-721-1514 It's easier to talk in the deep voice than it is to speak normally for some reason. I don't I don't want to be sick anymore. I don't want to be sick anymore. Thank you so much for listening. I'll be back very soon with another episode of The Juicebox Podcast. I really do appreciate that you guys listen

#777 If I Could Take It I Would

Chelsea has type 1 diabetes, ADHD, Anxiety and depression.

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Scott Benner 0:00
Hello friends, and welcome to episode 777 of the Juicebox Podcast.

On this episode of The Juicebox Podcast I'm going to be speaking with Chelsea she has anxiety, ADHD, depression, and type one diabetes. She also has my heart as perhaps one of my most favorite episodes in recent history. While you're listening, please remember that nothing you hear on the Juicebox Podcast should be considered advice, medical or otherwise, always consult a physician before making any changes to your healthcare plan, or becoming bold with insulin. If you have type one diabetes, where are the caregiver of someone with type one diabetes, and you're a US resident, please go to T one D exchange.org. Forward slash juicebox. Join the registry. complete the survey. That's it. You've helped yourself. You've helped people with type one diabetes and you've supported the Juicebox Podcast just by doing that. Join the registry complete this survey takes you fewer than 10 minutes T one D exchange.org forward slash juicebox.

This show is sponsored today by the glucagon that my daughter carries G voc hypo Penn Find out more at G voc glucagon.com. Forward slash juicebox. I began taking ag one by athletic greens because I found myself needing some nutritional support a little insurance for a diet that might not be perfect. I tried a couple of other green drinks but they tasted terrible, but not ag one ag one goes down super smooth. Every morning. I take my water. I take my scoop of ag one, shake them up in a bottle. The bottle came with it by the way. And the next thing you know, it's right down. Easy peasy as they say athletic greens.com forward slash juice box go check it out. Okay, just because I want to make sure I'm recording your voice. Can you give me any four words randomly put together?

Chelsea 2:25
Any four words randomly put together? Perfect. Is that work?

Scott Benner 2:30
Absolutely. Excellent. We're recording now. So you're being recorded? Don't say something stupid? Because shoot. I'm gonna leave it in the oven.

Chelsea 2:42
It's gonna be the whole episode something stupid.

Scott Benner 2:45
You think so? Is this a concern of yours today, Chelsea?

Chelsea 2:51
I'm okay with however, it turns out.

Scott Benner 2:54
What are you using for a microphone? May I ask

Chelsea 2:56
a headset? Do you have a lot of wrestling?

Scott Benner 3:00
And you're just your breathing is being picked up? Do you have an ability to move the microphone a little bit or turn down?

Chelsea 3:05
Yeah. How's that? Is that better?

Scott Benner 3:06
I don't know. You haven't breathed heavy yet?

Chelsea 3:09
Maybe that's too heavy.

Scott Benner 3:11
That's better, actually.

Chelsea 3:12
How's that? Is that better? It's

Scott Benner 3:13
actually good when you laughed before it sounded like a windstorm instead of Oh, yeah, that's not good. Perfect, just like that. All right, I'm going to drink my tea Hola. And then I'm going to tell you that in a moment, unless you have any questions, you can introduce yourself any way you want to be known. Mostly what that means is you don't need to feel any pressure to use your last name. If people in your life come up, feel free to say my doctor, my boyfriend, my husband, my wife, like that kind of stuff. You don't have to say your mom's name. Things like that. If it gets geographical for reasons. I mean, I can't imagine why it would but then then again, you might say something that makes me think that you're from a certain part of the world. And then I might ask,

Chelsea 3:55
okay, I'm pretty. I'm a pretty open book. So

Scott Benner 3:59
I'm just saying it's unlike any, but more people are gonna hear this than you think. And like the whole world. It's gonna be a bit of a thing. Have you ever heard me talking about when cakepops showed up at my house? Yes, that's a weird, I don't want you to get cakepops that's what I'm saying. That delicious. Well, you know, if you got these specific cakepops it would be okay.

Chelsea 4:21
whoever that person is, please send me cakepops

Scott Benner 4:25
figure out who Chelsea isn't Senator cakepops? Well, I'll tell you what if cakepops show up at your house four months from now, please let me know. Because I'm going to assume the podcast is much more powerful than I think it is. Hannah.

Chelsea 4:38
Have you ever found the mysterious cake pop person spoke to

Scott Benner 4:41
her by message over Facebook? Okay, she was lovely. owns a company that makes cakepops felt very strongly that the podcast had helped her child wanted to do something nice. Oh, there you go. Yes. While I was talking to her, I said do you see how creepy This is? And she said well, now that you're pointing it out

Chelsea 5:01
just running a podcast like the weirdest thing. I feel like it breaks social norms in so many ways.

Scott Benner 5:08
Yes. So I would tell you that I mean, you don't start one thinking it's gonna get popular. You don't I mean, like you hope you don't plan for some of the oddest stuff that's ever happened to me is being recognized in an airport by my face across the airport being recognized on a, like a public transportation thing, by my by my voice. That is weird. That was, that was very strange. But mostly, it's just lovely. Like most people are really genuinely great. Even the kind of kooky ones are still lovely. They're just just a little kooky. That's all.

Chelsea 5:47
Everyone's a little kooky,

Scott Benner 5:48
right. And some people are just less careful about hiding it. I agree. Yeah. And other than that, it's i If it disappeared, I would miss it. Because I am, I am sure everyone feels this way. But I am a person who feels like I have things to say. And when I don't say them, I get kind of like inward, and then I think about them too much. And that doesn't. That doesn't help anybody but me. That's good for anybody. Do you know, since we're talking about this, Chelsea will start eventually about the diabetes. But let's just keep going for a second. This is now part of the podcast. I hope you understand. Oh, cool. Yeah. So I remembered this morning, I was thinking about freedom. This morning, as I was making this tea, so I could talk to you, as people do. And and I was thinking about how there are a lot of conversations in the world right now about you can't limit people's voice, even if you find what they're saying is tasteful, because eventually someone's going to limit your voice. It's a pretty basic idea about freedom, right? And I hear it being talked about now as if it's a new idea. And I think I thought this my whole life, like why? Why does it suddenly seem like this is a thing we just realized. And I recognize it's because of media, right? Because people need things to talk about on their stuff. And these things cycle over and over again, I wish people understood that these conversations we're having are like the same 50 conversations that people have been having, you know, for the stretch of time since language is invented, right? And I remembered, this is going back to your question, because Chelsea at this point, you're like, are you gonna make a point, but I will, I promise, I remembered that when I was about 18 years old. I wrote to my local newspaper about the idea of freedom. And I believe I said something to the effect of the minute you limit freedom, even a tiny bit, it stops being freedom. And talking more about the freedom of speech. I actually made that point I said, you can't stop someone, no matter how horrible you think they are from saying what they think because one day they may be in power. And they might stop you from saying what you think. And in that moment, I thought, Well, I've been a podcaster my whole life, the technology just didn't exist back then. I just like I've been trying to tell people what I think I wrote to a newspaper when I was 18. And I know you're 18 Yeah, I was thinking wow. Yeah, and I know Chelsea right now you're thinking like that kid was definitely not getting laid. And some thinking back you might be right. I'm not sure exactly the first time I did it, but it was around there somewhere. So anyway, how old are you? What's your name? Why are you here?

Chelsea 8:47
Oh, how old am I? I always forget. I'm 27

Scott Benner 8:52
I should have guessed I had you at 26. Man,

Chelsea 8:55
I keep thinking I'm still 26 and I have to remember I'm 20 Why am I here? I don't know to have a conversation. I've been type two diabetic since I was two or type one diabetic since I was two. And I guess why I'm first reached out to is because I listened to your episode meet Arden. And that was like the first time I realized like i She's like had diabetes, as long as I have and like her, like perception of it real attitude about it was like, completely different than how it was for me growing up. And that just like blew my mind. I was like, Well, what?

Scott Benner 9:37
Well, let's just be clear, because you your brain inverted numbers, you were getting ready to tell me you were two years old. And you said I have type two diabetes since and then you're like, dammit, I have type one diabetes. So you've had type one diabetes since you're two years old? Yes. Let's be clear about that. I just you know, and you're 27 now so you've had type one diabetes for a quarter of a century. 25 years. Uh huh. A silver anniversary of types. Is that right? Silver? You're like, I don't know.

Chelsea 10:06
I have no I don't know.

Scott Benner 10:08
This is like something old people now. Like, you know, like there's a paper anniversary and stuff like that. wedding anniversaries yet silver. Oh, wow. There we go. I was married 25 years last year I did not get my wife anything that I saw. Oh no, I think we gave each other cards. There's something.

Chelsea 10:27
My husband we're like terrible with anniversaries. It's like, hey, it's our anniversary. Oh, yeah. What do you want to do? Oh, no. Okay, that's

Scott Benner 10:36
how it's so chill. Yeah, that's how it's gonna go eventually. And then one day, you'll be like, you remember when we used to have sex on our anniversary? And you'll be like, I do remember. Oh, arias. Anyway. You're married? 27.

Chelsea 10:49
We've been married for six years.

Scott Benner 10:55
Wow, you got married young?

Chelsea 10:56
I did.

Scott Benner 10:59
My wife was when I tricked her into marrying me. How did that happen? Chelsea told me about.

Chelsea 11:04
So we met in high school. And we just got to know each other started dating and then went, just ended up getting married and having a couple of kids. And here we are with me. You have children? I do. I have two kids.

Scott Benner 11:21
Wow. Okay. How old are they? I'll tell you why I'm saying well, in a second.

Chelsea 11:26
My oldest is five. And my youngest turns four and just a couple days. So that's very

Scott Benner 11:33
cool. I said, Wow. Because you have a lightness in your voice that made me think you didn't have kids?

Chelsea 11:41
I get that a lot. I don't know if I should be concerned about that.

Scott Benner 11:45
Is it possible you're not paying any attention to those kids?

Chelsea 11:48
Like, am I not mature enough for my to be a mom?

Scott Benner 11:54
Your giggle is light hearted. Right? And do you know that about yourself? I do now. No. Okay. Yet, like when you giggle it's light hearted. It makes you sound long, young and even your voices young. You're not tired. Are you?

Chelsea 12:08
Oh, I'm tired. You're tired? I'm glad I don't sound tired.

Scott Benner 12:13
Are you on the smack or something? What's going on? Chelsea? How are you? So puts happen? And actually that would make be a downer, right? I know very little about drugs. I don't know anything about drugs. So I think I should have said are you on the cocaine? But I don't think you are.

Chelsea 12:27
I don't think I've ever heard anybody call it the smack is that.

Scott Benner 12:32
We just call it heroin. Now we're all just so evolved. Is that what we do? Have no idea. I used to watch television in the 70s. Chelsea, and it's smack okay.

Chelsea 12:43
Okay, I'm just I'm gonna go around saying that now and people are gonna be like, I believe my era are you from exactly.

Scott Benner 12:51
Yeah, I think monkey on your back would be the 80s may be

Chelsea 12:56
so long, though. It takes forever to say.

Scott Benner 13:00
Listen, I didn't make these things up. Chelsea. I'm just, I'm just repeating them 30 years after they were in style, okay. Anyway, I bet you later you'll think how in the hell did we talk about heroin in the first 10 minutes of my blog?

Chelsea 13:17
Immediately following talking about my kids, so like, that's like an interesting job. Oh, yeah,

Scott Benner 13:22
I tried. I did something the other day, I was doing some sort of I was doing one of the management episodes. And I somehow transitioned from Arden into people having sex somehow I might have been making an ad for Omnipod. Actually, now that I'm thinking about it. And I might have been saying like, like, you have to try to understand I've a very limited amount of time to say what I want to say, right? And I'm trying to make the point that you can wear an omni pod during all kinds of activities like showering or playing soccer, or you know, having like sex, and I'm just because I don't think it's something people think of, but they should right, Chelsea?

Chelsea 14:00
Yeah, I don't know. That's something I thought about when taking a pump. Exactly.

Scott Benner 14:05
So I just I go for truth in marketing. And I'm saying listen, at some point, you're gonna find yourself with your foot on the headboard and you're gonna hope you're gonna wish there's no tubing running from your hip to the to the I'm assuming you've probably got the pump on a pillow or something. I don't know how it works, because there's no place left to clip it when you're naked. Right?

Chelsea 14:24
No, and you definitely gotta like, unclip that thing

Scott Benner 14:27
correctly. And then I make this very wholesome. I say, and you don't want to be without your insulin. Because I believe that I think that if you have well timed, you know, if your settings are good, you want that basil running. So anyway, I realized in that conversation, I was talking about one of my daughter's activities, and I transitioned like seamlessly into talking about the idea that people listening might want to have sex without tubing. And I made me feel so strange when I said it, and I almost felt like I wanted to go backwards and apologize, but Anyway, Omnipod still seems happy, so we're good. And that's it. Okay, let's start learning from scratch. 25 years ago when you're diagnosed as a two year old, I'm going to assume a you don't have any memories of that.

Chelsea 15:14
My very first memory I can recall at all as a human being was sitting in a hospital with some guy giving me a shot in the arm.

Scott Benner 15:22
Really? No kidding.

Chelsea 15:26
That's literally all I remember is being a diabetic.

Scott Benner 15:29
Wow, I can't believe I have such a poor memory of my life. That that's fascinating to me. So you so it must have been a hell of a moment for you. If it's stuck to you like that. Probably traumatizing. You know, the first thing I can remember. Like really remember falling down the stairs. When I was like three years old. I have a memory of that. I remember being burned by a sparkler on my birthday cake in a McDonald's playroom and I was five. And I don't remember so much the burning I remember the disappointment on my dad's face when he told me Don't touch that. And then I immediately reached out and picked it up. But your thing's crazy. Are you really remember that? That's insane. Yeah. Well, do you have other gifts siblings at that time?

Chelsea 16:18
Um, yep. So I'm the youngest of five. We're all pretty close to my mom. Here. We'll have fun doing the math on this. My mom had five kids and four years. No, she did all her own weight. You birth all of them.

Scott Benner 16:33
I got it. Twins. Yes. To weigh two sets of twins. Are you the only non twin Are you?

Chelsea 16:40
The only and the only non twin?

Scott Benner 16:42
I feel exactly.

Chelsea 16:44
I felt really left out grown up. Seriously, I was like, once my twin coming along. My siblings are like when it's Chelsea gonna get her twin. One of my siblings thought like you grew up and you married your twin. And one of them was really concerned for me. Like who's Chelsea gonna marry?

Scott Benner 17:00
Oh, how did that one turn out? Are they creepy as an adult? No, no. That's good. Because that's a weird thought.

Chelsea 17:08
Yeah, yeah. Like as kids, if your whole world is like, everything comes in pairs, like my parents are in a pair and a parent. So it's boy girl twins. Okay, both of them. So just like assume that the world is full of boy girl twins. And that's how things work.

Scott Benner 17:22
At some point most every child tells you that they're going to buy a house across the street from you and live there. Because they have this like conscious thought of they start seeing people move out of other people's homes and they get like panic. They're not ready for the idea. So they're like, I can't actually leave here. Now if I said that the either of my kids they'd be like, Oh, no, no, no, we're getting the hell out of here as soon as we can. And we're not calling you. So. Thanks for everything. Okay. Wow, okay, so regular an MPH, right?

Chelsea 17:56
I believe so. Yeah, it was the cloudy stuff. Yeah, I remember at one point I was on like, pig insulin too.

Scott Benner 18:04
And that's interesting. You were back just far enough for animal insulin as well. Yeah. And, and then your mom managed most of it or your parents together? Did it? Definitely my mom.

Chelsea 18:15
I can't remember my dad being involved the whole lot except for when it came time to like lecturing

Scott Benner 18:27
him come over here and yell at Chelsea for not taking our insulin. Exactly. Like, like Leave It to Beaver. Which is not something you understand at all, either. Can you imagine that? They named the kid beaver.

Chelsea 18:41
Like serious unless they hated that kid.

Scott Benner 18:43
Well, Chelsea, was that another euphemism for vagina? Like in the 50s?

Chelsea 18:48
I have no idea.

Scott Benner 18:49
I know. You don't know. But I don't know either. We'll find out later together. We'll keep that for later. We'll look up when that you know goes for yeah popped into the, into the stratosphere. Because I mean, it was it was only there weren't that many TV shows. Right? You know, I'm saying Right. Right. So that's a weird idea to put the word vagina in one of the titles. What I'm getting that

Chelsea 19:11
back then when they depicted married couples having two different beds, so

Scott Benner 19:16
yeah, they probably did. Don't you think

Chelsea 19:20
it seems I mean, I don't know maybe it's sleep better that way.

Scott Benner 19:24
Kelly turned over there all about the sleep she punched me right in the face like when she's like she didn't do it on purpose but she like flipped over and I caught like a forearm across my head. I would have been okay with a double bed back then. Okay, so when do you start taking care of yourself?

Chelsea 19:45
Like actually taking care of myself or like taking it upon like taking upon the responsibility.

Scott Benner 19:51
Let me re ask my question. When did your parents get tired of taking care of your diabetes and decided they didn't care what happened to you but this was on you now?

Chelsea 19:58
I think I don't think never got tired of it. Um, like my mom was always really helpful. She tried to always like figure out the best thing for me and she was she was really great. And she she tried to encourage me to like, like take like do it for myself because you know, she valued that. I think she saw the value in that and so about how old do you think anything? I remember in elementary school, my older siblings would come in and give me shots for lunch. And that stopped about I think when I was in second third grade I was doing my own shots for like lunchtime and stuff. So

Scott Benner 20:47
they put your poor your your brothers and sisters in charge with your your insulin.

Chelsea 20:52
Yeah, cuz like there wasn't there wasn't like a school nurse or anything. I mean, I think there was one for like the entire district. So it's not like it was practical that like, I don't know, always have a nurse there for when Chelsea has to go to lunch. But so yeah, and my my siblings, like, they already been around it for so many years because I had it so long. Like they're, they're familiar with it.

Scott Benner 21:17
Well, it's a good idea actually. It's good. It's good division of power and resources. Honestly. Yeah, put them in charge of something.

Chelsea 21:24
I remember one time my brother was about to give him my shot.

Scott Benner 21:36
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thanks as always for listening to the ads and supporting the sponsors. Before we get back to Chelsea, I'd like to share something with you. The episodes are recorded six months in advance of you hearing them so this is going to go up on October 24 2022. And it was recorded like six months ago as I was doing the Edit which really just means me listening through for like pops and noises a crackles people you know breathing in real heavy and I take out those noises for you. I don't take out content almost ever actually. But anyways, they go through to do the edit. And then I prepare the show to accept the ads and the bumpers the front and the back. I normally don't remember them. I mean being honest there six months ago I listen. It's almost like I'm hearing them for the first time but this episode, every word Chelsea spoke. I knew the next word coming. Every word I spoke I knew what we were about to say. I was so so in tune with what was happening In that way, that I was worried that I'd put the episode up recently and forgotten, like, I just edited it maybe a week ago, and I was losing my mind. So I sent Chelsea a note and said, Hey, this is gonna sound crazy. But have I put your episode up already? She said, No, we went back and forth a little bit. And at the end of our, our back and forth, and I don't think she'd mind me sharing this with you. She said, I wanted to thank you for impacting my life, for the better. I am in a better place because of the podcast. Your advice, along with hearing the perspectives of other diabetics and parents of diabetics has been very eye opening and impactful to me. So thank you. So when you're listening now to the rest of Chelsea's story, just know, things have gotten better for her. And that is really cool. All right, now I'm gonna get you back. And we'll hear the rest of Chelsea story

Chelsea 25:48
was about to give him my shot. And he dropped the needle and it like, stabbed into his pants. But luckily, it didn't like break the skin. I'm assuming I have

Scott Benner 25:59
it, pulled it out and used it. Yep. Yeah.

Chelsea 26:03
Stick it right back. And we're supposed to go so

Scott Benner 26:06
well, how was all of this? Did it impact your relationship with your parents? Or how to growing up with type? Any, when you look back on growing up with type one, like, what's the overarching memory you have of it?

Chelsea 26:20
Um, struggle, I think I'm feeling like really alone with it. Like feeling like nobody really understands, like the psychological component of it. And I'm looking back, like with my personality, like, I'm uncomfortable when other people uncomfortable. And I kind of have this like, problem with feeling like a burden. So whatever I could do, to not feel like a burden to other people like I would, I would just kind of hold it in, I internalize things, I try to not let my struggles become other people's struggles. So like that caused a lot of issues for a long time for me with that,

Scott Benner 27:08
does that cause you to feel? So I guess what you're saying is that you kind of hide who you are, and what's happening to you so that other people aren't made to feel put off by or put out by it. And then that makes you resentful of them for not caring about how you feel?

Chelsea 27:27
Yeah, kinda resentful is the right word. And like, I'm kind of coming to a point in my life where I can look back at things and, and be like, Man, I was like, it wasn't anybody else's fault that they were doing fine. It was just me and my weird, you know, quirks with, like, how I saw things and how I handled things. And I mean, sure, nobody's perfect, but like, I just look back and I'm like, I did not handle things. Well. Yeah, it was a kid. I

Scott Benner 27:59
mean, I didn't. I didn't know any better. What would you? I mean, looking back now, isn't it? And by the way, I'm about to call you an adult. But unfairly, I found you on Facebook, and you look like you're 12 years old. So I'll say that to me. They say that to you? Because you look like you're 12 years old.

Chelsea 28:18
Is it the one of me in an igloo? I don't know if you can tell.

Scott Benner 28:22
I wasn't I didn't really pick through your Oh, yeah, that is. The kid you married looks five. What's going on? Your children are gonna look like they're like they're 10 for their whole life. Maybe?

Chelsea 28:34
Oh, no, we're making baby children. Baby Face children,

Scott Benner 28:38
wouldn't it? Wouldn't it be something if they look like all like old people when they were really young? And you'd be like, Well, that didn't work out. Seriously, you look like I'm being like, it looks like the king and the queen of the prom met each other and they're babysitting. Do people often think these aren't your kids?

Chelsea 28:58
No, I don't think I've ever had anybody say that. That never happens.

Scott Benner 29:00
Okay. All right. So here's my last question about you in your life with your children before I move on. Are you part of the tribe? Part of the tribe? Yeah, you live in a place where it makes me think maybe,

Chelsea 29:13
oh, I live in Utah. They call it your fan group out

Scott Benner 29:18
here. Yes. I have a large collection of Mormons who listen to the podcast. I have

Chelsea 29:22
I have no idea. I I mean, I'm part of like a Utah diabetes Facebook page. And I know they

Scott Benner 29:30
but you're not a Mormon. You're not You're not this. These first two kids aren't just like your starter kids and you're gonna have seven more or something like that. No, I

Chelsea 29:37
am. Mormon. I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. So I so yeah, like we're following the stereotype. Yeah, married young have kids early.

Scott Benner 29:48
Alright, I just want to make sure I know what I'm doing. And because I am, I don't have scratch marks on my desk like 1234 and then a line to it for five. But I realize now that if I would have known what I know now back then I would have done that I would have taken a little corner of my desk and I just would have written Mormon on it. And I would have made a little scratch mark every time. So

Chelsea 30:09
anybody that walks into your office would just be like, What the heck? I would think

Scott Benner 30:13
they would look at it and think you're not killing Mormons are you? Like, no, these are when they come on my podcast, red flag. You're right. You'd be go downstairs and be like, there's some disturbing stuff on Scott's desk. Okay, so Alright, now that I get, by the way, I mean, I think this goes without saying, I don't care. I just, yeah, I'm just keeping track for, you know, historical

Chelsea 30:36
purposes. For the record. I'm not sensitive about it. So I'm assuming

Scott Benner 30:40
you're not or you wouldn't be on the podcast. Right? Yeah. Because I mean, you heard me ask somebody about their magic underwear at some point, right?

Chelsea 30:47
I don't remember. But that's funny. Yeah.

Scott Benner 30:51
I assumed you wouldn't be here if you heard that. Alright, so you almost forgot where we work. Give me a second. All right. So there's like, because even in your note to me, like you talk about, like relationship issues between you and your parents, stemming around diabetes? So like, what are some of the big things that happened to you that made you say that,

Chelsea 31:14
um, I think just a lot of it was feeling like, the only kind of like, the only part of our like, relationship we had was mostly just like diabetes, like it didn't stem off from that very much, at least, at least with my mom, because it was all put on my mom to take care of it and understand, like, that's, that's a big job to undertake. You understand? Like, that's, that's a lot. Yeah, to have on your mind, like, all the time, like, they never, never stopped so. And I think just kind of felt like if we were interacting, it was mostly just about like, the diabetes. And like, it was never, like, I was never doing well with my diabetes, like, ever growing up. And so it's usually like this negative kind of interaction. So I think that definitely kind of like, caused some distance, like between me and my mom and, and I just on your part, but at the same time, I wanted to, like, I didn't want her to be struggling because I had diabetes. Like I felt I felt bad for her to like, you know,

Scott Benner 32:24
so if this like, let me think if your parents owned up, I don't know, a restaurant made burgers and fries, right? And they were basically working their 19 hours a day, because they couldn't afford to hire too many people and you work there, too. Then would you have the feeling that most of the time when my mom and I are talking, we're talking about burgers and french fries. And we're not talking about all the other things that I imagined parents talk about with their kids. And that to me feels like a loss. So instead of burgers and fries, it was diabetes?

Chelsea 32:54
Yeah. Yeah. And with a very, like, stressful kind of like, feeling around it.

Scott Benner 33:00
So it was on top of everything else. You you were under cooking the burgers and people were getting tricky Gnosis and stuff like that. So so you're not doing well. You're not doing things can get tricky Gnosis from I don't know who cares? Sure way tricky. Gnosis is pork, I think. Alright, hold on a second. Can I just make a list here real quick. Please do beaver. I'm just making notes vagina when trican Gnosis porque question mark, these are things we'll Google at the end. I've never done that before. But it feels like this is gonna happen a lot while we're talking. So

Chelsea 33:36
one if we like if we get off the conversation, and we don't look those things up, oh, like remember a day later and be like, Oh, she forgot to?

Scott Benner 33:43
Well, I'm recording twice today. So I have a little bit of manic energy going right now. Because I'm going to record with you basically do like a little bit of work in between and then jump right back on and talk to somebody else. So I'm making up for I'm paying the price for going away for a week. You know? Anyway, okay, so your mom is killing herself. It sounds like but you're not getting any of the positive results. You feel like she only talks to you about diabetes. And you know, she's killing herself and you feel bad about that. So you keep inside how you feel about type one. So in in reality, you guys are having a very kind of surface or almost fake relationship as you're growing up.

Chelsea 34:28
Yeah, that's kind of how it felt pretty. Yeah.

Scott Benner 34:32
Okay. I appreciate you sharing this because parents are gonna hear this. And this is something that I tried to sprinkle in. You know, but I say it more like, you know, I'll tell a story about seeing Arden come through the door and asking her what her blood sugar was before saying hello to her. And then I realized like, I can't like I'm treating them like she's diabetes. You know, even even a very simple thing. I texted her this morning. Arden's blood sugar shot up. And I sent her a text. And I and I, my, my first thought was like, I'm just texting, right? Like, it's an informal way of talking. And I wanted to say, What did you eat? And what I meant by that what I would have meant by that was, hey, you know what food is pushing your blood sugar up. Now, maybe you need help with this, that kind of thing. But I realized that saying, What did you eat? Sounds accusatory. Right, right. Right. It's not meant by that way by me, like, I wasn't like, you know, let me do I'd never acted in high school, Chelsea, but I wasn't saying like, what did you eat? I was just be like, You know what happened? So I stopped myself. I stopped myself. And I wrote, What did you have? Right? And then she told me, she said, This is funny. She was to hashbrowns. And then she said, I don't know what was in those mofos. And I said, drink some water, please. Then I said this, the school buy food. This is really processed off, there's probably not even any potatoes

Chelsea 36:03
in it. Who knows what it is? Yeah, man school food.

Scott Benner 36:07
Right, right. It's the stuff your parents are serving at this pretend restaurant I gave him probably. Exactly trying to maximize profits. That's all Chelsea. You know, capitalism is not all bad. But you know, sometimes people suffer, they don't get potatoes. They're hashbrowns. Anyway, so like that little idea of just not making it about the diabetes, like finding a way to ask the question without it seeming like I'm putting something on you or making a judgement. But the problem is, is that diabetes is so omnipresent. It's that you can't always stop and be that thoughtful about it, or you know, you get busy or you're tired. So you just say like, what do you eat? And then on the other end, is Chelsea going, it's not my fault. I'm trying like, you don't mean like that, that kind of thing, right? I'm so nervous having this conversation with you, Chelsea.

Chelsea 37:00
Really, you're nervous. I'm supposed to be the one that's nervous.

Scott Benner 37:04
Three days ago, I interviewed a lovely person. And in the middle of the interview, we would really dig in kind of into the psyche of how she grew up with type one. And I think we uncovered things that she maybe didn't realize about her life. And then like a day later, she sent me a lovely email and asked me not to let anybody hear the podcast. That was why I have no trouble with I deleted it immediately. But I realized when it was over, like, like, I, sometimes these conversations get into like therapy, and then

Chelsea 37:37
I've already had these conversations. So you're good.

Scott Benner 37:39
No, oh, good. Did you hash it out with your mom at some point? And I didn't say hash because of the hash browns, but maybe I did.

Chelsea 37:47
The fake hash browns. Yeah, we've talked about a lot of this. And we've, we've like, I've been trying to, like, kind of mend my association with like, like, how I feel about diabetes, and my mom and like, making that a positive thing. Like, I can go to my mom and talk about diabetes and stuff. And, and not and, and not feel like I'm having like going to have an anxiety attack or something new. So it's, it's been a few years to kind of overcome, like my past demons, you know, it

Scott Benner 38:29
was shocked to hear how you felt. It was

Chelsea 38:33
hard for her to hear. Yeah. If she's the kind of person that has a hard time dealing with guilt. She she feels guilty about things that she absolutely doesn't need to and she's an amazing person, but she has a hard time believing so so I think with her personality being that way and my personality being you know, just very concerned about how other people think I think that it just kind of caused a lot of our, our problems and this distance between us. So can I but

Scott Benner 39:05
good. Yeah, I'm sorry. I was gonna ask you. Do you think that you care about what other people think? Or do you think you're protecting yourself from feeling guilty?

Chelsea 39:13
protecting myself from feeling guilty?

Scott Benner 39:15
Yeah. Like if you'd never, if you never make anybody feel uncomfortable, then you won't have to feel bad about having done it.

Chelsea 39:22
No, I'm just that I don't, I don't feel guilty. I mean, like I have regret about you know, maybe I could have done better if I had this. I could have done better at that. But I just I really am the kind of person where if somebody else feels uncomfortable, I am extremely uncomfortable. So I don't know what that is. But

Scott Benner 39:45
when I said you have when you said you have regret. I was like maybe she'll tell a story about shooting an unarmed man in a convenience store just to feel what it was like to take a life but then you didn't go that direction. So it's fine.

Chelsea 39:56
That's good. Yeah. I mean, if if I did, I wouldn't tell you about it because I assume

Scott Benner 39:59
I really do assume that you wouldn't jump on a podcast about diabetes and admit to murdering somebody for no reason. But But it's interesting. So you felt like that your whole life protective of how other people feel? Yep, definitely. Do you think not that you could have possibly done anything different cuz you're a child? But do you look at that now and realize that if you would have just pushed this forward, 10 years ago, you would have saved 10 years?

Chelsea 40:26
Yeah, definitely. If just like, I've really come to understand and learn the value and being open and honest. Because when we are with each other, like, we realize, you know, everybody's struggling, we're all have our struggles, and nobody's perfect. And, you know, just, we can make each other stronger if we understand where each other's weaknesses are. So I really, I really believe in that kind of philosophy. You're exactly

Scott Benner 40:55
right, I think. Yeah. Well, I appreciate you coming to say that. That's really lovely. The nuts and bolts of it wasn't going well. A one sees we're aware.

Chelsea 41:09
Oh, I've, I've been up in the twelves a lot growing up. I've never been up above 12. But definitely, I think most most grown up especially after like, kind of it was more my responsibility to like kind of take, take care of it and make sure I was testing and getting shots for lunch and stuff. But I was probably always, nearly all the time, like above nine, nine to 12 Most of the time, probably Okay, so

Scott Benner 41:38
where are you pumping or shooting? Or what were you doing?

Chelsea 41:42
Shots? Definitely. i My parents had me checkout pumps at once. I like took me to this place where a bunch of adults are like trying to sell it to me. And I just like, I don't want to have anything with that. But they're like, they're like, try to sell it. Like, here's a pump, and you don't have to get shots anymore. It's like that's their main sell point. It's like, I don't mind needles. Listen, guys, I've been doing this since I was two. This is all I know, I've been conditioned to not be bothered by needles. Like, it's like they didn't. They didn't try to sell another other way. Like, hey, this is like you have to you don't have to think about it as much or like, you know, kind of,

Scott Benner 42:21
were you thinking about it?

Chelsea 42:23
Oh, yes, yes, I constantly. And it's like I struggled with anxiety and depression and looking back. Like I realized I was seriously struggling with it as a kid. And, and so my approach to diabetes for the longest time was like, this causes me so much anxiety that I would just avoid it. I couldn't think about it because it was too painful. Like emotionally. So I you know, and then my parents and doctors would be like, Why aren't you taking care of it? And they're like, and I just be like, I don't know, I just I forget, I just put it off as being like, forgetful. So like, No, I'm actually thinking about it like all the time.

Scott Benner 43:08
It's interesting, isn't it? It takes up more of your thoughts and your life to ignore it than it does to take care of it. Exactly. Yeah. So by the way, a lot of things work that way. Yeah, yeah.

Chelsea 43:24
Coming to understand that, yeah.

Scott Benner 43:26
Look at you. And you're still young. And you look like you're 12. So you've got a lot of time. Yeah. When did you? When did you turn a corner? Or have you not? Are you sitting here with a nine a one see right now and you just having a realization,

Chelsea 43:40
my last day when she was a 7.3. So working before that, I think it was like 11.4. So Wow. Yeah, yeah. So it kind of turned a corner when I got married. And my husband realized how dysfunctional I was. And he just like, he got me to open up and talk about it. I was like, if, like, I was the most closed book person you could ever imagine. It's like he would have these long conversations trying to like, understand why I was so troubled by whatever it was, and like, I couldn't even identify it. I'd like buried it so deep. It's like, I don't know what's troubling me, but I'm like, I'm shaking. I'm crying. And I can't even like make words come out of my mouth. I just like I'm seriously troubled by it. But that's just from like, bottling it up for my entire life, you know, up to that point, and not ever vocalizing out loud how I how I feel about it to somebody. And so he got, excuse me. So he got me to open up and talk about it. And I started kind of working through things and just saying things out loud kind of helped me helps you process things and move past them and so And then it's like once I kind of got past those, those past demons, what I call them like. And I yeah, just I really started to be able to think about it more upwind and not just push it out in my mind. So you end up

Scott Benner 45:23
so he kind of forced you to deal with what was happening instead of Yeah. And for clarity for people who don't know, and I only know because of the internet. He looks like an extra in like, The Suite Life of Zack and Cody, how did he know any of this? Like, seriously? Again? He looks like he's a maybes, 18. And where did he like? Did he grew up in a super healthy household? Or do you think he was like, Oh, I hitched my wagon to this girl, I better fix this.

Chelsea 45:48
Oh, I hope he doesn't think. No, like, our families are kind of funny. They're so different, like my family's more of, they're not so open with each other. But but my husband's families, they're very like bold, and like, just say what you're thinking and like, get it out there and deal with it like to do that. And like when I first came into this family, I'm like, I don't know how to handle this. This is so different. But it's it's it's been good. Because I've learned to be that way. And I've really come to appreciate being that way. And when people are that way with me, I'm like, Yeah, tell me what you're thinking. Because otherwise, you know, if I'm doing something wrong, tell me about it. So I can fix it. Or, you know, we can clear the air instead of just letting things fester under the surface.

Scott Benner 46:36
You know, I'd rather have hurt feelings than hidden feelings for sure. Yes, I've done. I've done both in my life and it's it's not productive to not say what you're thinking it's really harmful to you. Okay, wait, did you have babies with real elevated a onesies? No. How did you work that out.

Chelsea 46:58
So when. So like before I got before I got married, I tried really hard to get my blood sugar's in range. I think I got them down until like the sevens. And I didn't have a pump. I didn't have a CGM or anything. So I was just like, it was just the sheer will to not be an out of control diabetic going into this new relationship. Like I gotta be better, you know. And so then, we a year after we were married, I found out we were pregnant. And I was just like, Oh, crap, I don't remember what my agencies were at the time. I don't know how what they were at, but not not within recommendations for pregnancy. So I got into see diabetes educator, like, the first time I can remember seeing a diabetes educator in my life. I'm sure I saw one as a kid, but I don't remember it. And if I know if they were diabetes, Ed kids are super patronizing. And I don't like them. So this new diabetes educator name was Eileen blue, and she's just like, the most amazing person. And even before I met her, she, she gave me a phone call, just like a pre visit kind of get to know you. And she told me, like, she's like, in her 50s. And she has five kids, and they're all healthy. And she basically just like, has lived this, this life that I was worried I wouldn't be able to have some day. And like, I was just like, in tears on this, like simple phone call. Just like, oh my goodness, because I hadn't known any other diabetics, I didn't know anybody, you know, in their 50s of diabetes, I was convinced that like, I was probably going to die in my 40s. And like, that way don't mean so it didn't know if I was going to be able to have kids. And if I did, I could, like, be like, healthy and and so anyway, I got into see her. She helped me out so much like, emotionally and with my diabetes. And she got me to get a pump and a CGM. And that was that was the game changer. It's just like, having support, having better knowledge and having the tools to get my blood sugar's in range. And so

Scott Benner 49:19
because you were putting in all this, like mental effort already, you just weren't putting in the right direction.

Chelsea 49:24
Yeah, yeah. And, and I struggle with ADHD too. So that also, I mean, diabetes requires a lot of motivation, right. And ADHD is a disorder that causes a problem with being motivated. So it's really so many things. So many struggles that come with ADHD completely go against what you need to do for diabetes. So like they're really hard to have together and I didn't know as ADHD until I wasn't I I've noticed, I think, until this past year, so understanding that part of it too is really helped me out a lot. But

Scott Benner 50:06
how did you how did you get your diagnosis?

Chelsea 50:09
Yeah. So I, I kind of come to realize that I had ADHD. It's funny by like watching Tic TOCs. And of course algorithms, they know us so well, they start bringing up like ADHD videos. And I'm just like, huh, ADHD, it's not what I thought it was. And then it's like, oh, no, I relate to these way too much. And so I start, I start doing my own research online, of course, because I'm not just gonna go off of social media. Nobody should do that. By the way, do your own research,

Scott Benner 50:40
a podcast about diabetes, that it's probably okay. Right?

Chelsea 50:43
Unless, unless this is podcast, yeah. Okay. You're fine. So, and I'm like, Oh, my God, like, I really do, like, have these symptoms. Maybe I should look into that. And so I was seeing a therapist at the time. I mentioned it to her, we did the you know, the testing and stuff. And she's like, Yep, okay, you've got ADHD combined type, inattentive, and oh, geez, no, I don't remember the weight.

Scott Benner 51:08
She didn't know what kind of a therapist is treating him doesn't know you have.

Chelsea 51:13
Okay, honest. Okay, so I started seeing her during the pandemic. So it's all like on the phone. So that's part of it. She's not like seeing the Fidget and stuff like while we're talking

Scott Benner 51:23
are you doing that now? Still? Are you taking medication for it? How does it work?

Chelsea 51:27
Um, yes, I started taking some medication for it, but I'm not sure how much it really helps. Like, it's it's not a stimulant. They don't I don't think they ever like jumped to stimulants when they first started on ADHD meds, but I've only really noticed that it helps with my depression, and it helps me stay awake. So

Scott Benner 51:47
that's good. Hey, ADHD, by the way, is an inflammatory condition that is kind of linked to autoimmune.

Chelsea 51:53
isn't really Yeah, you should do a little bit make sense of all these autoimmune problem. What

Scott Benner 51:57
else? What? Oh, hold on a second. My throat? I'm dying. Hold on second, Chelsea. My tea got cold. That's not a euphemism. I do hope. What other autoimmune issues do you have?

Chelsea 52:10
So I have Hashimotos. And, let's see. So the type one diabetes. It's just there's a lot in my family to tell all of all of my siblings, and both of my parents have Hashimotos we all have it.

Scott Benner 52:28
Wow. Is there like a pile of Synthroid in the middle of the room like cocaine and a movie in the 70s?

Chelsea 52:34
Oh, geez, yeah. Yeah, seriously, if like one of us friends out, somebody else is like, oh, yeah, just take mine, like cut in half or whatever.

Scott Benner 52:45
I'm literally picturing. Have you ever seen Scarface? No, I have. I'm picturing a big mound of Synthroid in the middle of like the island in your kitchen and you guys just pick from it like candy in the morning or something like that. Alright, so hold on. So 12345 Kids, two parents, that seven people seven people all have Hashimotos

Chelsea 53:04
all Apache motors and we weren't. So most of us were diagnosed with like, just hypothyroidism at first and then kind of as more doctors come aware of Hashimotos we've kind of slowly one by one been diagnosed with Hashimotos like oh, you actually have lost your Moto so

Scott Benner 53:21
Wow. I'll have it that's insane. How about other autoimmune stuff? Has anybody heard about celiac? Somebody's gonna have celiac? No celiac? See fancy fancy? Okay, hold on. I don't know well, depression even I think of is inflammatory. I don't know. Like, I'm not a doctor. But how many people I have to talk to have autoimmune disease. This was talking about like being bipolar or depressed or something like that, before you start paying attention. Give it I mean,

Chelsea 53:51
it's like what do you do for that? You just like take a bunch of ibuprofen every day and you're good. I don't believe

Scott Benner 53:55
that you understand information correctly?

Chelsea 54:00
Probably not.

Scott Benner 54:00
Yeah, that's that's not that's like can you imagine? Imagine if ibuprofen was the the answer to all of our problems. We just hadn't figured it out yet.

Chelsea 54:09
Depression

Scott Benner 54:10
and all these problems. Make your type one go away. Take it. Yeah, by the way, we eventually only gets good for your something else. I mean, again, Chelsea, I barely got out of high school, so I'm not sure but alright, so you also experienced anemia.

Chelsea 54:33
Yep, anemia, which I still haven't figured out. I'm like, always anemic. But the doctors are like, just take some more iron. And I'm like, Is it normal? Like, Scott, is it normal to be taking iron every day of your life to not be anemic? So I mean, I know I'm a woman and I have a period and stuff and like, you know, is that a couple

Scott Benner 54:51
things? You're not taking it next to your thyroid medication, right? No, I

Chelsea 54:56
take it apart from each other.

Scott Benner 54:57
Did you like the thyroid series that I did?

Chelsea 55:00
Did I actually I really did. I tried to convince my family to listen to it. Listen, podcasters I'm still working on them while they're maybe being on a podcast, they'll start listening.

Scott Benner 55:09
Yeah, if they're listening right now, I did a wonderful little series about thyroid, just go listen to it. I mean, it would maybe take them two hours in total, right? There were like 20 minute episodes.

Chelsea 55:20
I share info with them from it and like, it's like really interesting. Learn some, learn some things. So

Scott Benner 55:25
here's what I'm gonna tell you. Are you just taking like an iron tablet from the grocery store? Yes. Okay. I want you to change to a different iron tablet or a different method. Okay, so you can either use something, I'm going to look it up for you. I think it's called vide Tron see. It is. It comes in a box. It's orange. It looks like the sun. So I'm just the way you say orange. La orange. And, and it says it's called vite. Tron see. So it's iron plus vitamin C, the Vitamin C helps your body absorb the iron. Right now.

Chelsea 56:07
That's how they just like put them together.

Scott Benner 56:09
It's magic. Chelsey, I'll tell you. Yeah, less steps, the better. That's how I That's how my son does it. Okay, my son who by the way has Hashimotos and is related to somebody who has type one diabetes. The way I do it? Is I use I'm a fan of, I'm gonna say the name of the vitamin company. I like out loud. And if you people cause me a problem, and I can't get my vitamins, I'm gonna be pissed. Okay. But I use a company called Thorn, t h o r ne. Okay, all right. I buy their iron. And then I buy they're almost like, hey, thorn, buy an ad. Don't, don't just take this for free. I take their iron. It's like called Iron bicycle is that eight? I don't know the words. You don't I mean, and then I pair it with their sorbic acid. So which is vitamin C. So when I take my iron, I take it with the vitamin C at the same time. Here's why I'm telling you this. Prior to doing it this way. I was getting iron infusions. I was literally going to an infusion center. It was it was me. And usually 20 People getting chemotherapy sitting in a room. And they were looking at me like, Get out of here. Your stupid iron. Yeah, like not even really sick, you know? And so I would I get this infusion in a couple of weeks, it would bring me back to life. And then slowly my body would use up the iron and I'd feel tired again and go back and get another infusion. And I just started thinking like, I can't do this forever. Like, like, what is my whole life? I'm gonna get iron infusions. And so I started messing with things and I got down to like, good like, not like, you know what they sell at the grocery store vitamins. Which

Chelsea 57:58
I think you wonder. Yeah, well,

Scott Benner 58:01
I more than wonder I don't think they're, they're great. But you know, so I got a great vitamin company and then I paired it iron with with the vitamin C. So the vitamin C's works well, and it's simple. It's one tablet, or you can get fancy and do what I'm doing. Fancy Yeah. Fancy buying two different things. This volume at the same time. Fancy. How did I say orange by the way?

Chelsea 58:26
Well, I would say Orange. Orange. Orange.

Scott Benner 58:30
You're like orange like an oar with a range at the end? Like a boat

Chelsea 58:34
or orange starts with an O you say orange? Well, I

Scott Benner 58:38
just eliminate the Oh like it starts with an A like orange orange in my mind. It starts with an our orange are like a pirate. Say it like a pirate. Are we do it again when I'm not talking? Orange no like, say like

Chelsea 58:54
me? Say like you that's how you're saying.

Scott Benner 58:56
That's what I'm saying? That's what it sounds like to me be more of a pirate this time.

Chelsea 59:01
They start with yarn. Or EJ Have you ever seen Oh, I've never seen a pirate

Scott Benner 59:09
Are you looking for Johnny Depp pretend to be a pirate be pretending to be Keith Richards and that movie? Do you know who Keith Richards is? No. Oh my goodness. Chelsea okay. You know Wait, do you know who Johnny Depp is? Yes, I know who Johnny Depp is? Because he because he was because they said he hid his wife for because you've seen in movies and because of the pirates movies? Yeah, okay, so then you just are it's our real deep like, I'll do it then you do it. Orange do it like that.

Chelsea 59:37
Orange you almost can't do it. I can't it's beyond me.

Scott Benner 59:43
That's because you can speak English I know I don't say

Chelsea 59:48
arm weird so sometimes I go to say arm and I say like arm and it comes out and every time I'm like what the heck was that?

Scott Benner 59:57
I couldn't think of how to spell when the other day Unlike when w it just left my head for a second I was like, oh, yeah, w h e n couldn't come up with it to save my life. Alright, so wait a minute, there was something you didn't say. There's something you said that I wanted to get more clarification about. Oh, sorry. Speaking of ADHD as I jump around this conversation

Chelsea 1:00:23
sure you don't have ADHD? Listen, if

Scott Benner 1:00:25
I do, it makes a lovely and entertaining podcast, so you should just live with

Chelsea 1:00:30
Yes, it does. I think it's anybody gonna be mad?

Scott Benner 1:00:34
No, I hope not. Oh, gosh, do you think people are mad at me?

Chelsea 1:00:39
I don't know. You reach a lot of people. Someone's bound to be mad at you.

Scott Benner 1:00:43
Yeah, you know, part of the way you you have to do this stuff is you have to realize that not everybody's gonna like you and it can't matter. Yeah. It's a big part of doing this. That's my approach to life. It's pretty healthy, actually. But I just wanted to hear like you had symptoms of ADHD that you didn't recognize right away. I want to know what the symptoms were.

Chelsea 1:01:04
Um, yeah, so like, it's like obvious things that I didn't really connect the dots until, like later, but like, I've always been fidgety. That's like, the stereotypical ADHD thing like in classes. I'm always like, bouncing my feet or tapping my fingers or something. But it's the my train of thought leaves

Scott Benner 1:01:30
while you're talking, I'm bouncing my leg. Do you think I'm in trouble?

Chelsea 1:01:33
Yes. It's, it's, it's like an like, with my diabetes. When I was really trying to manage it. I as I would be like, oh, I need to check my blood sugars. And then my brain does the silly thing where it's like, Oh, you thought about it. We can check it off the list. And like, like it's done, but I didn't actually do it. So like, that's like a serious problem. Having a CGM is like, crucial to me having a good day. Otherwise, my ADHD will not let me take care of myself how I need to so

Scott Benner 1:02:10
yeah, go wait. You just said something that made me think of something. What the hell did you say right before the CGM thing you said Oh, checking something off the list before it actually happened. That's a social media problem, too. So yes, scrolling and liking tricks your brain into believing you've completed a task.

Chelsea 1:02:28
Interesting. So you feel

Scott Benner 1:02:31
like you can you could sit on your sofa. Scroll, scroll, tap, tap, scroll, scroll, tap, tap your whole life. And at the end of a day where you've accomplished nothing, you'd feel like an accomplished person. That's dangerous, by the way

Chelsea 1:02:44
is dangerous. Yeah, we need a listening don't do that. We need

Scott Benner 1:02:48
people to invent things and come up with like, energy alternatives and a different ways of teaching children not feeling good about like, oh, yeah, I was able to double tap on my friends pictures today. By the way, why do you people not look at them? You just have them? I'm talking to kids now. You don't? I mean,

Chelsea 1:03:05
that's a good question. I don't know. Like, I'm getting beyond. I'm getting old enough. I look back at kids. And I'm like, I don't understand you. Little weird failing. And getting

Scott Benner 1:03:16
not too long ago. You were one of those annoying little people. I was oh, cheese. Whether your kids turned into that. I know. What do you think it'll be then? Like what all social media look like in 20 years?

Chelsea 1:03:29
Oh, I don't know. Is the world even gonna be here in 20 years? 100%.

Don't worry. So like the world's just you know, gone, gone to hell in a handbasket. So,

Scott Benner 1:03:40
you think it's worse right now than when, let's say? Let's think of something like egregious. Oh, when gang is con was marching across the world raping and pillaging. Do you think it's worse now?

Chelsea 1:03:51
No, right? I mean, I mean, nuclear weapons is scarier than you know. Whatever gang is con when you make it right. Bring around the mental instability of whatever he had going on and give him a bigger, give him more detrimental weapons. Give

Scott Benner 1:04:14
him a pew pew machine that he can shoot from a computer. Exactly. Alright, so you're making a valid point, I think. I think it'll be okay. Okay, yeah. That's what you're sharing. And I'm 50. So, I mean,

Chelsea 1:04:30
I gotta get you're gonna have to be here that much longer.

Scott Benner 1:04:32
I found out yesterday, I have to get knee surgery. No, have you been hearing me bitch about my knees for like the last six months? So I haven't paid attention. All right. Well, the doctor was like the doctors like, oh, it'd be quick. 15 minutes. Just fix it up real quick. And I was like, all right. It's like two days on crutches she'll be fine. And all I could think when he said that, like I should have heard like, oh, only two days on crutches. I thought, What am I going to do with those crutches when I'm done with them? They're gonna sit in the house and make a mess.

Chelsea 1:04:59
Right? So like you try to find somebody that already has crutches and then borrow them.

Scott Benner 1:05:04
What if I went out into the world, kick someone in the leg and then handed them the crutches and walked away? And I said, I'm recycling.

Chelsea 1:05:15
Or you be like my dad who had crutches from like, Who knows when for whatever reason holds on to them for years. And then when your daughter breaks her foot or whatever, like I did, gives you these old crutches.

Scott Benner 1:05:29
He was probably thrilled, right? He's like, finally holding on to these crutches is another form. Yeah, I don't

Chelsea 1:05:34
have to go out and buy crutches. I'm telling you right now. Foam is breaking and the thing rubber thing on the bottom

Scott Benner 1:05:41
of the foam, it's all crackly up under your armpits. You mean? Yeah.

Chelsea 1:05:45
Yeah, like Thai rags around it. So like, it doesn't rub your raw.

Scott Benner 1:05:49
I am either going to ask for a cane. Because that I figured I could use one day again, or where I'm gonna hop home, just lay in bed for two days and then get up because I really don't want to, like my biggest concern about knee surgery is what to do with the crutches when

Chelsea 1:06:07
you're on Oh, my God.

Scott Benner 1:06:09
I'm like, I don't want to waste them. Like you have no idea how wasteful that feels to me. Yeah, that's all right. But I'm on. All right. I have two more things to ask you about. Let's see, I'm looking at your note here. What do you mean, you were read diagnosed with type one diabetes at 10 years old?

Chelsea 1:06:28
Oh, did I put that in there? Oh, it's like one of my favorite stories. My favorite. My favorite doctor visits. I would say like we're in the office, and they do the labs and stuff, right? And then they leave and you're just sitting in the office. This doctor comes back. He wasn't even like my main doctor. I think he's like some guy in training or something. And he just he's just looks like he's just having the worst day. He he has my mom go out in the hallway with him. So now I'm just sitting in this room by myself. Like, oh my gosh, like I'm like, I'm getting diagnosed with something terminal.

Scott Benner 1:07:03
My head's gonna fall off finally.

Chelsea 1:07:06
Exactly. They come back in and my mom's just kind of smiling. And they're like, you have type one diabetes. And I'm like, Oh, thanks. How did you miss that on the chart?

Scott Benner 1:07:19
What happened? It made the doctor say that.

Chelsea 1:07:22
I have no idea. My theory is that he was just being hazed. And they're like, hey, this family can handle this little prank. So hey, let's tell this guy that they have to tell this kid

Scott Benner 1:07:32
one time in the pediatrician. One time in Arden's pediatricians office, she had to give urine for something. And we were sitting out in the hall waiting for I don't know, I think she's gonna get an injection of something later, like a vaccine or something. So we're kind of waiting. And the nurse opens the door to where like, the your analysis is we're done. And she is like, flopsweat in a panic wide eyed. And in a second, I figured out what happened. I put my hands up. Because she's looking around for a doctor, like furiously. I put my hands up and I was like, hey, and she looked at me, I went, we already know she has diabetes. And you should have seen the stress come out of her. But I think she thought she diagnosed the kid with type one.

Chelsea 1:08:16
Oh, yeah. Oh my god. Imagine what that would be like she was

Scott Benner 1:08:20
in a panic. It was really something else. So like, you could see like that her face relaxed. Her eyes stopped bugging out, her shoulders dropped down. And then she didn't know what to say. And I was like, It's okay. It's okay. Are you okay? She's like, Yeah, I'm like, I appreciate you caring so much. You know, and then she sort of went back into her room. Alright. So you asked a question in your little intake form. And you said, you said something that made me think that you have an opinion about diabetes coaching. And I wondered what it was because you weren't clear?

Chelsea 1:08:54
Oh, yeah. Like, um, like health coaching? Yeah, I think that when I sent that I was really interested in the idea. And, and I think there can be like, a lot of value to that, so long as it's not somebody that's just trying to, like, take advantage of diabetics, and like, just be like, oh, yeah, hey, you're doing good, keep going. Champ, you know, but, I mean, there's a place for that. Some people need that. And at the time, I was struggling with like, ADHD and having a hard time, like, following through on my own goals. And I was like, I need I need somebody to like report to that's not a doctor because I'm trying not to hate all doctors still. But

Scott Benner 1:09:40
does the podcast help you at all or no? Yeah,

Chelsea 1:09:43
yeah, it does. It's it's like the with the podcast, the information is great. And it's just I think even more valuable than that is just like the the attitude. It's like how to perceive diabetes is it doesn't have to be so Serious. Like, I feel like doctors are just so clinical so serious about it that you know, they put the fear in. Yeah. And then and then that's how you're supposed to feel about it, I'm afraid. Exactly. And that's how I was all growing up. Afraid. So, um,

Scott Benner 1:10:16
so I'll get back to the coaching thing in a second. But so when you heard art in talking, you did it make you like jealous or angry or hopeful?

Chelsea 1:10:29
None of the above, I think I was just like, like, awestruck, kinda like, I didn't think anybody diagnosed as, as young as I was. And as soon as she was, could could not have all the struggles, like I was having, like, mental struggles and, and, and stuff like that. And I was just like, she's, she's so like, casual about it. And, you know, it's just this just this thing, like, it's normal, you know. And for me, it was just, like, ruining my life. And, you know, I just hated it. And I wanted to avoid it. I didn't want to have it. You know, it just poured it, you know? And so it's just like, it's just so

Scott Benner 1:11:11
yeah, I don't want to be reductive and just say it's attitude. But, like, but I don't think that Arden's core experience with diabetes is different than yours. Like, she doesn't want to have it. She's not excited to Pre-Bolus like that kind of stuff. It is a burden, you know, etc, etc. I just think that it's, I don't know, I think it's how you now you're in a different situation, right? Because you have ADHD, and you had depression. Do you still have depression? Do you think?

Chelsea 1:11:40
So I'm taking medication for that. That helps. I mean, I mean, I still struggle with it. So right.

Scott Benner 1:11:48
So I'm saying so your situation was, is different, right? It's compounded. But still at the same time? If what I what I hope is that people don't think there's like some magic I answer that they don't.

Chelsea 1:12:02
It's personality, right? Yeah. Just just an upbeat

Scott Benner 1:12:04
like, no, that's not it. Exactly. It's, it's, it's the idea of like, to me, Chelsea. It's, I don't know, what's the difference between having a hard time and thinking pressure makes diamonds, and having a hard time having that same hard time and another person thinks this isn't fair. I'm getting screwed over. Yeah. So I think if you can come to grips with the idea that no one's getting out of this life unscathed. And that something's going to happen to everyone. And fair enough, you've got more things than maybe it's fair. Right? You know, you're still

Chelsea 1:12:42
think, like, some of the things is like, my mom's saying, like, if I could take this from you, I would, if I could have it instead of you, I would, and kind of painting it as a picture is like, this is something you don't want to have, because it's ruining your life. And like, I think it's all well intentioned, you know, that's really sweet. But don't tell your kid that. They're gonna be like, oh, man, this thing really does suck, and I can't get rid of it. And yeah, I gotta live with this. And you know, people apologizing, oh, I'm sorry, you have to deal with this your whole life. It's like, Stop. Don't apologize. Just, it's just the thing you have to deal with. You know, it's just everybody has a thing like this. You know, diabetes is one of my things. And people, you know,

Scott Benner 1:13:28
that's incredibly insightful, Chelsea, because I rub up against that statement very badly, too. So I understand. And I know, I'm gonna make some people mad here. But I understand the theory and the and the concept. I would I would take this from you if I could, like I really do. I think it's,

Chelsea 1:13:46
it's any, any good parent would feel that way.

Scott Benner 1:13:49
Lovely, loving statement. Yes. And I understand how its intended. But much like when I was talking about texting Arden earlier, the words and what they mean, don't always coincide with how they're heard.

Chelsea 1:14:04
Exactly. You know, which is such a weird thing. Right?

Scott Benner 1:14:07
So while you're saying I would do anything for you, I wish I hope you know that what Chelsea was hearing was, Wow, your life is terrible. Really, you have the worst life, so much so that my love for you, as a parent causes me to tell you that if I magically could, I would take this horror from you, and strap that burden to my back myself and carry it so that you wouldn't have to have the terrible life that you're having. And like, that's how it's hurt. Right? Exactly. Yeah. So don't do that.

Chelsea 1:14:42
Don't do that. How you how you perceive things and communicate that perception to your kids is how they will associate and perceive those same things. So language is powerful thing.

Scott Benner 1:14:55
And there's another way to say what you're thinking, right, which is you can just say You know, anything you need, you know, let me know. You could, you know, just be supportive generally in a way that's healthier

Chelsea 1:15:09
upon your back in a way, any way you can without saying, like, I wish I could take this from me, but like, you know, show that show it like, I want to help in any way I can.

Scott Benner 1:15:18
All right shall see now I'm gonna get in trouble with people because I'm going to I'm going to expand on your thought okay. Oh, no, don't martyr yourself to your children. Yes. That's really what we're talking. That's bad. Yeah. Oh, it's it's the it's the I would do it if I could. That feeling. It's first of all, you can't. So it's sort of an empty gesture. Right. Exactly. Yeah. Give me your cancer. Well, that doesn't work that way. So, I mean, yeah, I'm glad we're

Chelsea 1:15:46
all in it kind of makes you feel a little angry, to be honest. Why would you even say that? Possible. So

Scott Benner 1:15:53
everyone listening to Chelsea, she's young. She just went through this. She understands what we're talking about here. Like, seriously heed what she's saying here. Super important. We don't usually dig into this stuff this much. But but it's needed. It needs to be said. Empty gestures are not comforting that you know who they comfort. The person making the person saying, Yeah, I know. I would. I know. I like you know, when people talk about like, if I saw somebody being mugged, you know what I would do? I'm like, Yeah, I know what I would do. I would run away. I would say, Oh, wow, I thank God. I'm not being bugged. Let me, let me get out of here. I think that's what most people do. self preservation is pretty strong inside of people. But when we talk about and we philosophize about, I'm like, Well, what I would do is I jump in there hit him in the head, and I know you would just stop.

Chelsea 1:16:44
There's the ideal us and then like, the practical survival. So

Scott Benner 1:16:50
what do you do for a living? Are you like raising the kids? Or are you like, given a job or you don't?

Chelsea 1:16:55
Yeah, so we kind of, I was just a stay at home, mom. Oh, man, people are gonna be like, Oh, she said, just Yeah, I don't mean it that way. Right, say Calm down, people. I was a stay at home mom. My husband's going to go into school to get his degree. I've been staying home with the kids, I had to drop out of college for time to do that. So as he's finishing up his degree, his last year of his bachelor's, I went back to work. And I have like the most boring job and I process bills, utility bills. Bill comes up on the screen, I type it into our computer.

Scott Benner 1:17:35
Hey, is it paying your bills? Is it paying your bills?

Chelsea 1:17:38
It's thing Yeah,

Scott Benner 1:17:39
that's perfect. For the

Chelsea 1:17:40
most part, I mean, I'm, I'm on Medicaid and that so it helps pay some of the bills

Scott Benner 1:17:46
can always sell one of those kids. If you have two babies go for a premium. Don't tell anybody you have autoimmune disorder, or the price might go down a little bit. As you're handing him to him go, Hey, listen, this kid's almost assuredly gonna have Hashimotos just to get off.

Chelsea 1:18:04
It's like, oh, it's like that concept. When I'm filling out like my donor. Do you want to donate? You know, on your driver's license? You want to be a donor? I'm like, sure, but I don't know if you're gonna want any of

Scott Benner 1:18:14
my shirts pretty Boston.

Chelsea 1:18:17
I don't know what kind of damage has been done there. So you know, if someone needs like a skin transplant, you know, that's probably what you do look very young Chelsea. I mean, I was a lifeguard for seven years, so maybe they don't even want that.

Scott Benner 1:18:30
I don't believe there's water where you grew up, is there.

Chelsea 1:18:34
Actually, Utah has a lot of marshes are people swimming in them? Oh, no. They stink like heck. Yeah, I live close by the Great Salt Lake is where I grew up. And when the winds blow in just right. Oh, it stinks like heck.

Scott Benner 1:18:51
Awful. I really go back to your thing about coaching. Right? And we're gonna end on that it's gonna be a big beautiful finish. You're ready. Okay, I have I have a different perspective. Because of the Podcast, the podcast. It's interesting. I had a long conversation with somebody about this yesterday. So so so coaching is can be a derogatory term to some people. You know, some some people have like real degrees and they're like, I'm not a coach, just because I find my people on Instagram. You know what I mean? Like that kind of feeling. My feeling about it is this. If you're helping somebody I think that's wonderful. If you are taking a unfair amount of money from them to help them I have trouble with that. Now not enough trouble to like raise up an army and come get you. But But enough trouble that I was coming for Yeah, exactly. pitchforks and stuff like that. But enough trouble that I wouldn't let you on my podcast and tell people about your coaching business.

Chelsea 1:19:56
Yeah, yeah. And I think like that it's not fair. Are you regulated either like anybody can go out and be like, I'm a health coach, you know, and like, have no experience or any idea how to actually do that? Well, so right, you're like, gotta do your research and find somebody

Scott Benner 1:20:12
a little bit. It's might be a little high minded, but I found a way to get this information to people without taking money from them. And I still support myself.

Chelsea 1:20:24
Yeah, yeah. And I think that's, like, that's the way to do it. And, and I hired a health coach for a time and she was very nice, very helpful, and, and she charged a very fair price. And even at the end of like, this first three months, whatever thing I agreed to, she's like, you can just pay what you can from here on out, it's like, if you want to pay me $10 for a session, that's great. You know, I just she really wanted to help people and not and not you know, break the bank. You know, she doesn't want to bring people dry. Just yeah. So it's, you gotta find people like that, you know, people like you people that really want to help. And, and obviously, like, if, if you're putting all that time into it, you got to be compensated in some little way.

Scott Benner 1:21:12
Yeah, oh, I believe that, um, I gotta live 100%. Like, I, I, you think I feel bad about putting ads on this podcast, you're wrong. I've worked 67 hours on this podcast last week. So I have kids and children and I, they have to eat and stay warm, and all that stuff, too. Like, I'm okay with all that. I'm not, it makes me uncomfortable. To learn that someone took 1000s of dollars from somebody to basically tell them to Pre-Bolus their meals, you know, what he means? Like, I'll tell you to Pre-Bolus your meal for free. How's that sound?

Chelsea 1:21:44
And, and there was another person I did a consultation with,

Scott Benner 1:21:47
I don't want to, I don't want to say don't say anybody's name. But

Chelsea 1:21:51
just the amount of money she was asking was, was ridiculous. And, and I feel like if if you're a type one diabetic, you know, the costs of being a type one diabetic, and to ask that much money from somebody who's already mentioned, they're like, poor as heck. And it's just like, desperate for help, you know? And you're just like, okay, yeah, but this much money

Scott Benner 1:22:13
feels predatory. Right? It does. It does. It's

Chelsea 1:22:16
like, do you really get it? You know? And if you if Apparently not, yeah, I don't want to work with you. Well,

Scott Benner 1:22:21
where I ended up feeling badly, is that I'm certain there are people out there who fit the bill who do a nice job for people at a reasonable cost. And that would be something really valuable for people. I'm so inundated by those people. I don't have the time, or the I mean, there's no mechanism here. Like I'm the I'm the organization, you know what I mean? So I don't, I don't have the time to learn about everybody I get, I'm gonna tell you probably a dozen to 15 people a year who, like I wrote a book about diabetes, I want to come on your show, I don't have time to read all your books to make sure that that's something I want to share with people

Chelsea 1:22:56
that you want to promote, right? Yes, that's a big responsibility. Part

Scott Benner 1:22:59
it listen, if I'm telling five friends about it, whatever, if they don't like the damn book, it doesn't matter. When I say it on this podcast, the possibility that I'm swaying, untold numbers of people towards something that might not be valuable, I can't take that risk. And I don't have a mechanism in place to make sure. So when you come to me and say, I want to come on and talk about my coaching. It's just a no, you might be the best person in the world. I don't have time to find that out.

Chelsea 1:23:29
Exactly. So it's, and everybody's out. It seems like everybody's out to get something so

Scott Benner 1:23:35
well, the people who listen to the show, to me, are friends. And they're people that I feel a responsibility to, even though I don't know them. And to somebody coming in from the outside, they would see the show or even the Facebook group, which by the way, has like 22,000 people in it. Those are some people, bad actors, see you as a commodity, not as a person. And I'm the gatekeeper between those bad people in you. And it's you. Well, you're welcome. But it's not a job I really want. So the way I handled is I don't answer anybody's email. But somebody

Chelsea 1:24:12
says a lot about your character, you know, you're not just taking money to whoever, you know, offers it to you to take advantage of a bunch of, you know,

Scott Benner 1:24:20
I've turned, I've turned down some stuff, don't worry. And by the way, some of them don't even want like they're not like, oh, I want an ad. They're like you please just give me it's not even pleased. It's I want access to your audience. And I'm like, No, like that's not happening. So I just, I just got a I got a text from Arden that just popped up in front of me that made me laugh. A couple of months ago. She goes, she goes, I think my guidance counselor is pregnant. And I went, why don't you ask her and she was I don't want to say and I'm like Arden she's a super skinny lady like she's, if you think she's pregnant, she's you could just say hey, congratulations. She goes know what if she's not pregnant? I'm like, okay, so it just I won't say The woman's name obviously but I just got a text that says the person's last name and then it says is deaf prego? Anyway, like how she just Just out of nowhere, like we have not spoken today except by about diabetes like four hours ago and she's like, this person is deaf prego. Okay, ready? Before we go Chelsea? How did the word beaver come to be associated with vagina?

Chelsea 1:25:28
Oh, yes, I already forgot about that. Oh,

Scott Benner 1:25:30
not me. Hold on a second. You took a note so? Well, I'm afraid that it's you know, before I read this, I'm afraid this has something to do with hair. And I'm very worried about that as I look No, because really? Alright, so listen, think about have you ever seen a vagina like first person? Or have you only seen yours like through a mirror? Like from the top down?

Chelsea 1:25:54
I mean, there was this video we watched in health class. Okay, all right, baby being born.

Scott Benner 1:25:58
All right, there you go. So think about right before the baby came out and then think about like looking in the face of a beaver. Oh, no. Do you think that's where I'm so worried. entomology Online offers that beaver in the gynecological sense is a British slang dating from 1927 transferred from an earlier meeting earlier meaning a bearded man 1910 Or from the appearance of split beaver pelts. See, this was my problem is this is exactly what I thought this was. Yeah, I'm feeling bad about this. Now. Hold on you. You're like, Oh, why do you remember the video? Okay, so you got to imagine in 1910. Like, like electric razors didn't exist. Right? So this is probably a little more prevalent, but but to the original reason British

Chelsea 1:26:49
people are notoriously hairy. Right? Are they? That's what I've heard. I don't know. I have a British person listening to

Scott Benner 1:26:57
everyone over there in the UK and then surrounding areas. Chelsea and I do not represent each other's thoughts. Okay. I don't think you people are hairy. That's weird. Chelsea, get me in trouble. What are you doing? Okay, so now let me you know a lot of people listen to this in England, right?

Chelsea 1:27:14
Yes, like my love. I

Scott Benner 1:27:15
love you. It's like my third largest market. Like please be careful.

Chelsea 1:27:20
There. I wish I didn't live you know, I wish I lived somewhere than America. I don't like

Scott Benner 1:27:26
Chelsea we've gotten off the path here. But here's why. Do you remember why we were looking about this?

Chelsea 1:27:33
Leave it to Beaver right?

Scott Benner 1:27:34
Because why? So here's our answer. Is that as early as 1920 This was a euphemism for a vagina. So what I'm saying is this why in 1950 Would you use it in the title of a television show?

Chelsea 1:27:49
I don't know. That seems. Who was the weirdo that decided I

Scott Benner 1:27:53
don't think I don't think I am not right now. Googling Leave It to Beaver creator. Hold on a second. We're calling this guy out. Okay. Yeah. All right. Hold on a second here. We always wait dead. There's no Joe Connelly. Oh my God. Is he alive under this? This is from 2003. In 2003 There's an article here that says Joe Connolly 85 A creator Leave It to Beaver. So Joe, dirty man. I know you're long gone now. Unless he's lived in there's no way Joe's alive, though. Right? He was 85 and 2003. So 13 he that was 20 years ago. He'd be 104 right now. I'm right about that. Alright, let's assume Joe Congolese dead.

Chelsea 1:28:38
That's a fake. Alright, well, I

Scott Benner 1:28:39
hope I hope he's resting peacefully pervert. I mean, come on. You see what I'm saying? Right? All right. And oh, tricky. Gnosis sorry. Tricky Gnosis also known as a wow, I can't say that Trica Chino low or whatever chicken osis is a parasite disease caused by roundworms. During the initial infection invasion of the intestine can result in diarrhea abdominal pain and vomiting. Oh from undercooked meats, not specific not specifically pork. I was right.

Chelsea 1:29:13
So my fake family hamburger shop very well could have been giving people trichinosis they gave

Scott Benner 1:29:18
you a high one see? So maybe it's a no Oh, I'm sorry. I've one last question. How you see your agency jumps around a lot. Have you found stability that you've able been able to hold on to over time? Are you still working on that?

Chelsea 1:29:36
Yeah, so like since listening to the podcast and just kind of like implementing those little things and like this new attitude, like I can keep my blood sugar's like, really steady and I kind of realizing it. Part of it is like I had the skills. I just had other problems. I had anxiety, depression, ADHD, getting in the way of me doing really Well, my dad diabetes, I won't say diabetes is my biggest struggle. I'd say having diabetes with all of those things is, is not fair. But

Scott Benner 1:30:08
yeah, I think that's very insightful. And I'm glad that you found some. I found I'm glad you found it sounds like your husband really helped. Honestly. Yeah. He's the linchpin to this, right.

Chelsea 1:30:20
Yeah. You want to know his name? It's funny.

Scott Benner 1:30:22
I mean, sure, why not? Adam Lambert.

Chelsea 1:30:24
And he's, he's not the one you're thinking of.

Scott Benner 1:30:28
I know he's not that man is the lead singer for Queen xenon?

Chelsea 1:30:32
I don't know. And it was on a Mac. He was on American Idol.

Scott Benner 1:30:35
Chelsea, the amount of things you don't know are fascinating to me. isn't really. It's your age. That's all like you don't have like, depth of.

Chelsea 1:30:45
I'm not knowledgeable about a lot of things in the world around me. I do a lot of thinking about behavior and stuff.

Scott Benner 1:30:51
That's fine. Yeah. Adam Lambert was a contestant on American Idol. And he is now the frontman for Queen I believe and has been for quite some time. Why did you go? That's all good for him, right? Yes. I give a crap about that. Well, what are we going to call this episode?

Chelsea 1:31:12
Oh, I don't know. I was my episode.

Scott Benner 1:31:16
I would call it Chelsea is adorable. But I think that that people would find that to be reductive. So not.

Chelsea 1:31:21
Most people say Chelsea is a dork. So really?

Scott Benner 1:31:26
I'm looking at your picture. Chelsea, you're adorable. So it's your 12? I don't know. No, there's this? I don't know. Like, it's so interesting. Like, there's a smile on your face that would never tell me that all the things you just discussed with the exist in your life?

Chelsea 1:31:42
Yeah, yeah. I'm kind of surprised myself.

Scott Benner 1:31:46
Does your reality not match how you feel about yourself?

Chelsea 1:31:50
Um, I mean, there was a point where like, I would try to come off as a happy person. And then like, you know, go home at night and cry myself to sleep. But I think like really, though, like, that's my personality. I'm like, a happy go lucky kind of person and go with the flow. You know, don't don't get too serious about things. But then, like, that's my that's who I am. But then I also struggle with anxiety, depression. And like, it's kind of interesting that to know that I can separate those two. Yeah.

Scott Benner 1:32:22
And let's not forget, you don't want very desperately you don't want to make other people feel badly.

Chelsea 1:32:28
Yeah. Yeah. So that was definitely a part of it. All right. Yeah. I know, I worry less about that. So

Scott Benner 1:32:34
are you seeing a therapist, though?

Chelsea 1:32:36
Um, no, because I kind of stopped valuing my therapist, when I was talking about all these things like diabetes related that caused me, you know, causing me some serious sadness. And, and she's like, I'm talking about I don't know, if I'm gonna live past my 40s. And I can have all these problems, and I don't want to die and make my husband or whatever. And she, she, she says, like, could all of those things really happen? And, and then I have to confirm to her that, yeah, they could. Like, Oh, great.

Scott Benner 1:33:11
So you'd like to try to help? I, I'll tell you like, I have Erica, on who I like a lot, who's the therapist and has type one. And I just wish that the rules were different. So that, like people like her could help people over state lines.

Chelsea 1:33:26
Right? Yeah. And like, I don't blame her. I don't fault her because my therapist because like, people just don't understand type one diabetes, you know, yeah, doctors don't really understand it all that great either. So this therapist that works in a government funded therapy office, whatever counseling. You know, she helped me with other things, and I really appreciate her help.

Scott Benner 1:33:50
Well, I want to thank you very much for doing this and wish you a ton of luck. I would keep talking to you. But I now have 20 minutes to sit down and record this as a man. I just I there was part of me that was like, I'm gonna end this in an hour, so that I can give myself a break. But then I just thought this conversation is too good. I want to keep it going. So I appreciate it. No, I appreciate it. You You really came through today. And I thought you were very thoughtful on a number of points and that you gave people a perspective not too far removed from their young children that maybe they can see what happened to you and and learn something before it's too late for them.

Chelsea 1:34:29
Yeah, hope it helps some people so I really believe it. Well,

Scott Benner 1:34:32
thank you so much for doing this.

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